November 24th, 2023


It was a day filled with pride.
I'm in Chicago, I'm in Lake Michigan
I'm part of the Midwest without a doubt
Houston not part of the midwest

Click here to help me write
Your American regionalisms bear
the full weight of ancestral tubers
Let me think about my choices

I'll be a dry ice cube
Buy me a horse, these horses
have a limited lifespan
on the squad

Trumpet build goes crazy this week
until it doesn't, sexiest man alive
Secondarily, thank you for the
magazine subscription (sarcasm)

What do you think about an eel, 
is an eel an idiom? 
"How is an eel like an idiom?" 
How doth the little idiom crow

at half-three in the morning
How hoarse its thrice-dreamed ice-cream caw
doth echo till day's dawning
I don't really think I follow

Give me a mantis
with sawmill saws for arms
anyway long story short
they gave me an eel instead

Lately I've been drinking coffee
He's right about the hot jigae
They serve it too hot
You're gone, you go here, you take this

How hot the bubbly soup is served
My-assachusetts, did anyone ever do that bit?
Cocknecticutt, how's that strike you
Uh, how doth the little squillet squeal

In San Francisco drilling? 
How eateth Judith London Broil
If nothing's millet milling?
Major city minor city it doesn't matter

What about Miami what about St. Pete
Hey my St. Pete friend I miss you
I had such a crush on you etc
Crushing on you running on the seawall

You have local American regional pride
Pride in your surroundings
That strikes me as a fun phrase, that phrase I just said
And it seems like fun to run long distances

on top of a seawall around the St. Pete harbor
with your fun cute body in 1998
I miss you, and I miss 1998 sometimes
hey not always

I mean pedestrians got ran over in 1998 in crosswalks all the time
Scams and ponzi/pyramid schemes ran rampant
Headlines and political operators behind them misled a credulous public
Chemicals leached from toys from the coin machine bubbles

Let's debug 1998 for a little while before we lionize it okay
Zoom, they used to say then
Anyway I'm investing heavily in mantids
This is what's good for me

I've got a space behind my mantis where an animal fainted
Then I'm running an eel with a strawberry on it
Behind that is... I don't remember, rewind it
Oh right, then monkey then spinosaurus

Congratulations to you, reading this, for figuring out
which video I'm watching on Youtube while typing this
Maybe we're not going to Washington but
we're definitely not going to Ohio

I'm saying let's all not try to kill each other. 
Feed my mantis some melon armor
Put a banana on a blobfish and prepare for the best
People are generally speaking insane, it's a skill issue

I'm saying on average people are mentally ill 
I understand that mental illness is a cultural construct
You need to internalize that cultural constructs are as real as anything else
And furthermore that there's a skill difference 

underlying the averaging out of society to baseline kookoo
Honk honk honk!!!!
Here comes a car flying up your ass
Here's a camaro driven by a moron

hand-delivering you a prostate infection
Here comes another car like this is some kind of Ren & Stimpy cartoon
Here comes yet another car, this one's got polka dots
You might think the cars are at an end but guess what

here's two more cars, one's a Toyota Corolla
can I get a spellcheck on that model name
because it's making me think of the word corollary which
they couldn't have been doing on purpose

anyway the second one's a Jeep Liberty going 90 miles an hour
the wrong way through your digestive tract
Ha, whoops, guess that's the country we made though
These are the choices we made

You can open your mouth to protest but
all that's going to come out is a partially digested Jeep Liberty
a purple one
going a little shy of 90 MPH

at just shy of 9 MPG
tire tracks all up your esophagus
Time to get one of those severe tire damage spike strips
installed in a ring around your colon somewhere

Look, I don't make the rules! This shit is straight up Thomas Jefferson
This is James Madison's handwriting on this
I'm talking about George Babbykissing Washington hisself
"Ask not what your country can do for you, 

ask what your country can do for cars, broadly speaking,
and by extension, the automotive and fossile fuel industries" --Ted Theodore Roosevelt
"Congress shall make no law abridging any behavior of cars whatsoever
and you can quote me on that" --Abraham Lincoln's tombstone

Look, I know I'm correct
I understand how correct I am
Let me convey to you an idea
about my correctness: it's for real

We must have been born in different eras: 
you in your dumb one, 
me in one of correctness
You in an era where you're trying to 

take pictures of marching bands but you keep messing it up.
Me applying punctuation sparingly, and with precision; 
you comma-splicing your way through gradschool, oblivious
to the moans and eyerolls of your predecessors, 

themselves also born into incorrect eras, like
the 60s, or the 80s, these are examples
but I could keep going. The seaweed era, 
the sawdust era. Is all of this 

starting to ring a bell for you, 
chump? Talking shit in my poem I'm Muhammad Ali
Sweet sorrow's such Parton like my name was Dolly
Okay, ha, whoops, cringe, maybe the era of my nascence

isn't so correct after all. You ever think about
how many ice cream sandwiches you've eaten in your life
over how many ice cream sandwiches you've yet to eat
and whether that ratio exceeds or fails to exceed

the integer 1? 
I never think about stuff like that but on a day like today
perhaps I should. My throat hurts, just being honest, 
and my back hurts, and my lower back, 

and my butt hurts due to the traffic congestion inside it
If you look at my butt on Google Maps there's a red line inside it
There's a helicopter circling my butt with a shouty pilot inside
giving disappointing updates on the traffice situation inside my butt every ten minutes

Because of all the cars there, Jesus Christ try to keep up
I could use your input. 
Can you tell me ten things 
that are transparent 

that you shouldn't tie knots with?
I don't need to read
the terms of service to know
if I'm allowed to copy/paste

text that I myself wrote 
to try to prompt some sort
of response from a computer
program programmed to give me

responses to the kinds of prompts
I tend to write, a program also 
written by me, and now I'm wondering
why I started wondering about

the legal aspects of this 
in the first place and made
a conundrum of them, but
the legalities might have been 

for me a first assessment of
the moral dimensions, a sort of 
framework for making manageable
what otherwise feels like walking

through invisible spiderweb
after invisible spiderweb
in terms of nuance, and unpleasantness. 
I think the emotional subtext

might be of even greater importance; 
like why care if there's ethics afoot
if you're not emotionally moved
to so care? Bad way to phrase

all that but get where I'm
driving, what I'm driving at
in my 2002 Dodge Challenger
is the yawning entrance of the

Thermometer Tunnel and it's rush hour
in there. Dude what is this bit? 
Why is this making me laugh 
I could be taking a leak instead

You say
there's tubers
infesting commerce
but eventually

a new
challenger arises
and updates
the terms

of service
to reflect 
a growing
understanding of

business ethics
throughout time
and beyond 
the outer

rings of
Saturn for 
the sake 
of defeating

a powerful
intergalactic foe
and saving 
the future

of humanity
once again.
You say
at the

same time
as me
the name
of a

calcaneus mineral
in three
two one
CALCIUM dude

that's a 
metal not
a mineral
not that

I actually
understand the
dividing line
between the

two categories.
You say
you know
what the

hottest thing
is for 
me, the 
most arousing

category of
occurrences is,
and I'm 
like have

we met? 
Let's just
agree that
it involves

human sexuality
and leave 
it at
or near

an approximate
location designated
(admittedly somewhat
ambiguously) "that." 

You say
they took
your purple
orange car

in violation
of state
statutes stipulating
the non-abridgement

of any
car behaviors
at the 
state level

leaving you
in a 
position to 
fight the

system, to
fight for 
the righteousness 
of your

very correctness. 
It's like
if Apollo
(the Greek

God of
correctness) got
his car 
taken away

because he 
rammed it
up the 
sun's ass

(and at 
this moment
I'm going
to ask

you to 
envision half
(the back
half) of 

a bright
yellow Nissan
Rogue hanging
precariously out

between the 
sun's two 
brightly lit
butt cheeks

while the 
sun sort
of looks
over its 

shoulder with
an expression 
bespeaking pain, 
suffering, confusion).

You can't
take damn 
Apollo's car
away, bro!

This is
America! You 
don't need 
to get 

all Childish
Gambino even
to understand
what I'm 

talking about
here but
it probably 
wouldn't hurt

either. You
say the 
zoo told 
you they 

were closed
a half
hour after
they opened

and hustled
you outside
and over 
your shoulder

as the
gates closed
behind you
you could

see penguins
processing, partridges
partying, pillbugs
prancing, ponies

pondering, and
other frankly
inexplicable pairings
of animal

with behavior
so you 
asked the 
zookeeper who

was channeling 
their inner
bouncer "hey
what gives?"

You say
that a 
number isn't
true, that 

two oranges
isn't the 
same kind
of consideration

as two
sunshines, that
two thoughts
simultaneously is

actually one
thought which
is actually 
zero thoughts

because numbers
never come
true in 
the end, 

not one 
end and 
not zero
ends, zero

being also 
a number. 
You say
that frankly

statutum tempus
costs you
more in
mental tax

than most 
other Latin, 
and as
you begin

to list
examples I
wonder if
you've given 

consideration to
your own 
ability, your
birthright I 

daresay, to 
sidestep this
whole issue
by going 

feral, by
eschewing language
and polite 
society, but

then I
remember oh
right, no
fudgesicles that

way lie, 
no ICE 
CREAM SANDWICHES
over there,

statutum tempus
it is
from here 
on out.

You say
you invented
a new 
take on

the old
ball clack
desk toy,
the one 

that demonstrates 
Newtonian something
or other, 
conservation of,

what, momentum?
or is 
it conservation
of tempo?

That doesn't
make sense, 
you might
be dreaming, 

turn around
and see 
if you 
can see

suddenly your
favorite author
naked piloting
a space

shuttle to 
Waldenbooks, that
might indicate
if you're 

awake. I'm doing 
this as fast
as I can 
because I have

other and frankly
better things to
write today, such
as a letter

to one Ante
Meridian, and an
email to one
Jefferson Narship, 

that latter one's
made up, we've 
all gone on 
average mentally off, 

we all hold
our nipples closed
while the planets 
scrape off the

tops of our 
heads, wheeling in 
their orbits, dumping
ideas in as 

they pass. Saturn
goes "hey think
about the future," 
Neptune's like "there's

never a bad 
time to be
nice to others," 
Jupiter whispers "over

and above all 
else you must
remember your innermost
self," Venus deposits

unwanted sexual metaphors
for key concepts 
of teleology which
go unrepeated here.

Yesterday when
the headlines that said
"the giddy pleasures
of a seeming autonomy"

sat there
I unlocked the second me
like a drug use
I didn't do. 

I make
or am made; 
no in between
but can we be certain;

if it's not both
I don't know truth; 
and am then liable for
chaos, death. 

Who wouldn't want to be off the hook? 
So I apply the dumbest iterations 
of the dumbest lessons 
like the dumbest poultices

to the dumbest lesions
on the dumbest limblessnesses
of the dumbest policeman. 
His nickname is Turf

and he holds the record for dying
while being fired the most times.
Cough and storks come out
so that's you, off the hook

again. Coughing and out
come the chirpy birds, the quail, 
the owl, the snipes and rails
and a meadowlark, also coughing. 

Clear your throat
O maker. 
What immortal hand or eye
did this to you??

Descriptions of your practice;
verbal instructions that result in dance movements; 
poorly recorded a capella renditions 
where the backup drowns out the melody,

the whole arrangement a wash,
a muddle; 
and you're singing it anyway;
who dud this to you?

"God help me
if this is a dud"
sure a poster would say that
Look at me who will disappear

Sentient beings, attend! 
I love what I love; 
this is certain, stone-
head, look at me,

looking looking looking
for me. Party of course, 
but this dance is
for one person only; chord change

chord change key change drum change
everything changes; this makes it
the music. 
When of off-center-

ed it's their themness
or turn, taking turns.
Lopsided, 
"whopperjawed" 

again like a poster,
unbalanced load with the propaganda all to one side
with nobody knowing how to have fun or be a genius. 
I care, too, it's not that I don't, it's not that I'm not

a part of this war effort
I who make the lips. 
Or am I made. 
This is what I'm talking about. 

This is a seeming autonomy,
and its pleasures are giddy.
It's just so dangerous and it's 
probably why we're at war in the first place, 

all this business about "I make, 
I make myself, I only determine me," 
I apply all the wrong lessons; 
you hear what I'm saying;

even my cave art acknowledges something
about how I was made
that instagram keeps blocking
for some reason. 

It's that the myth of self-determination
is so goddamned marketable.
"I call on Thee" yes
in the moonlight 

I lose my name, 
my bladder control sucks, 
all of this sucks! 
Hateful monsters run everything

and the money always wins! 
AND NOW you're telling me
I'm the one who made me this!!!???
What immortal knob or tool

wouldn't have done it WAY different.
I call on thee
I need thee
I sample inefficiently from thee

and I call the samples consciousness,
a convenience, a linguistic shorthand
with no evidentiary basis. 
I beseech thee 

"Make a wish come true" 
They have words for that
which wobble squeak when the guitar skip
screeches off at recording's end. 

Your band is good,
they have words; 
nobody understands; 
thank you for the cookie. 

Move to Antarctica, you won't
So 
won't you paint
a midline

on yourself or me;
a cat can tell 
what it can sleep through;
this one's a dud; 

this next is a frightening
orange burst signifying
radical change; this one
is the fool of cups; 

or whatever. 
Cat's asleep. 
Milk's listening
to "This Magnificent Bird Will Rise" 

and thinking about
the giddy pleasures
of a seeming autonomy. 
Don't explain it to me;

you're going to say
the whole assemblage
is out of control
of any cog; 

and I'll be like
I've been telling you that
this whole time;
and you'll go

but you were saying it
for the wrong reasons; 
almost at that point it will seem anything I say
can be used against me. 

the bus in half. That
the bus in half. That
the bus in half. That
the bus in half. That

in noun is you.
in noun is you.
in noun is you.
in noun is you.

They tried the grace
They tried the grace
They tried the grace
They tried the grace

its width. The perimeter
its width. The perimeter
its width. The perimeter
its width. The perimeter

is you. Used incorrectly
is you. Used incorrectly
is you. Used incorrectly
is you. Used incorrectly

was the apogee.
was the apogee.
was the apogee.
was the apogee.

The grace in you
The grace in you
The grace with which you
The grace

The trace of grace in the drawings of the orbital mechanics in sequence as a kind of proto-animation
The trace of grace in the drawings of the orbital mechanics in sequence as a kind of proto-animation
The trace of grace in the drawings of the orbital mechanics in sequence as a kind of proto-animation
The trace of grace in the drawings of the orbital mechanics in sequence as a kind of proto-animation

unless I'm mistaken. And it's
unless I'm mistaken. And it's
unless I'm mistaken. And it's
unless I'm mistaken. And it's

true to you, and is
true to you, and is
true to you, and is
true to you, and is

remarkable person. Too
remarkable person. Too
too remarkable, too effusive rather
remarkable person. Too

I sought in vain for what was it, eight years
I sought in vain for what was it, eight years
I sought in vain for what was it, eight years
I sought in vain

to end up naked in a needle forest of dim light and have no ability to react, no
to end up needle naked in a forest of dim light and have no ability to react, no
to end up naked in a needle forest of dim light and have no ability to react, no
to end up needle naked in a forest of dim light and have no ability to react, no

It's fine. I'm fine,
It's fine. I'm fine,
It's fine. I'm fine,
It's fine. I'm fine,

yesterday, and you reminded me
yesterday, and you reminded me
yesterday, and you reminded me
yesterday, and you reminded me yes

but it was someone else's and they fell
but it was someone else's and they fell
but it was someone else's
but it was someone else's

form in a feeling in stone
form in a feeling in stone
form in a feeling in stone
formed in a feeling in stone, along the sides of a crack you were climbing inside like a bat

unable to react, simply absorbing the darkness with your big naked ugly eyes and face
and staring back, staring back at, what, the stars, with your dumb naked eyes gaping
like a field strewn with stardust that all turned into satellite dishes, all its fruiting bodies
sprouted and turned into satellite dishes all across your face and inside your eyes

where they couldn't get
where they couldn't get
where they couldn't get
where they couldn't get

and they ran retching
and they ran retching
and they ran retching
and they ran retching

stepwise, orderly, in formation
stepwise orderly information
stepwise, orderly
the joy of your approach

while I talk on
against the tick
of seconds, prosthetic pulse
held on the wrist

And can I see you again? It seems a cave
And can I see you again? It seems a cave
And can I see you again? It seems a cave
And can I see you again? It seems a cave

Each holding onto its own part and forming a complete untroubled whole, troubling in its wholeness
Each holding onto its own part and forming a complete untroubled whole, troubling in its wholeness
Each holding onto its own part and forming a complete untroubled whole, troubling in its wholeness
Each holding onto its own part and forming a complete untroubled whole, troubling in its wholeness

You could have done much the same
You could have done much the same
You could have done much the same
anytime you felt like it

You could have jumped into the crane's cockpit, 
swept its giant arm 
raked its giant arm across the baby building, 
setting the whole enterprise back months,

imperiling more than a few of us certainly
imperiling more than a few of us certainly
imperiling more than a few of us certainly
imperiling more than a few of us certainly

It's your fingers, you type as they talk
It's your fingers, you type as they talk
It's your fingers, you type as they talk
It's your fingers, you type as they talk

It's something inside your fingers
that could have stolen into
the will of the crane
and raked across the raw nerves of the building

or pushed itself over
toppling itself with you
in it toppling itself with
you in it toppling itself

with you in it you
wouldn't ever occur to 
you to do such a thing
you to do such a thing

you to do such a thing
you to do such a thing
Then why were you dismissed
Entertaining such thoughts

Finding such thoughts
Indexing such thoughts
Reencoding such thoughts
Reentering the password of such thoughts

Keeping such thoughts aloft like kites
Keeping aloft such thoughts as you could
Keeping such thoughts floating like soap bubbles
Keeping such thoughts to yourself aloft

There is no telling. 
There is no telling. 
There is no telling. 
There is no telling. 

a treacherous slope; a metaphor
a treacherous slope; a toothless metaphor
a treacherous slope; a toothless metaphor
a treacherous slope; a toothless metaphor

It's not for you
If not for you
I'd fold a dollar
bill butterflywise

This makes no sense
of this. This makes
no sense, this makes
no sense of this. 

It was mirrored
along a middle
line when I 
left it, it

was split like
(they say) bookmatched
wood but wood
is round, and 

I am round, 
and this makes
no sense of
this. Story is

makes no sense
of this. Is
its grain round
No its grain

goes in lines
no its grain
is round and
I am round. 

Its leaves are
round. The whole
tree is round
after all! I'm 

looking at it
from outer space
and the porthole
is round! It's 

got all the
weight of an 
intense discovery and
all the levity

of an erection
at 7am with
no one to
attend to it

Well there's always
someone. You were
maybe just I 
was maybe just

hallucinating about the 
round tree and
the pink LED
which I didn't 

even mention. The 
angle of the
eyeglass arm meant
inserting it (with

its pink LED
eye first to 
light the way)
wasn't indicated. So

they ordered a
second one with
the same specifications. 
FOR A FUNERAL!

Who needs two 
things that don't
work at the
same funeral at 

the same time?? 
Now I'm there
and those children
climb the bricks.

Bartender! Bartender!
I just wanted to make
sure you were still there
You seemed diffident, smelled indifferent,

You spammed the chat
with good news till blocked
When blocked the glands
release a pungent onion smell

This they call "the news"
until someone blocks them
or until someone hip checks
them or fact checks them

This they most regret, 
that they did as younger beings
ingest brain poison and become
puke-zombies made of the news

They super duper regretted all that! 
You can be sure of it!
Yesterday I finished
making a video game

for the second time
It's meant to promote
my poetry book
I'm the only one who finds this concept

as charming
as I do. 
The game is called 
"Enough of a Mess" 

and you could play it in your browser
but you have to agree to read some poetry
Struggle On, O Count! 
You Marquis and your purple peerage

It wasn't but weeks prior 
I don't remember what I don't remember
Bartender! What can you mix me
That'll make me remember

Why my child would you want it
Don't you fear such a brain poisons
When a centipede, eschew trousers
But centipedes care little for aphorisms

I came back to town
and my beloved was all bitten up
whether by spiders, mites, dermatologists,
stress, vampire bats, weathermen, 

or "other." She didn't know
simply no one was near
to observe the biting happening
And yet, it did! Because you could see

the bite marks
Sure, a stress response, sure
Bartender could I have a stress response please
The name their creations cheekily

Like "Leopard," a name
which can't be taken back
or like other names
which mean other things

Tartan, that is
a name
but there's a name
for it -- a clan

A big happy family
Homicidal, regimented
What's wrong with people
Fly over Texas

And tell me that question
never came to your mind
I'm a suburb and so are you
We're not real characters, we're

a Type.
That makes
us Invincible. 
But a scoop

of proper Rocky
Road does us
in. Why so? Is
pecan the better

of us? What of
hazelnut, the
queen of
us nuts? 

Your majesty, 
we say to 
her as her
shell opens,

revealing the
sexy naked
hazelnut nutmeat 
inside, a thing

which definitely
you've seen, you've
had left
on your retina

in a dream
the reverse image
of the nude queen.
She is aged now

unlike in the 
Birth of Venus
days when 
punk rock

was invented
to render her. 
Now the music
is elaborate, mathy,

screamy; she
our nut queen
it is whom
Dillinger Escape

Plan sing, oh she
sailed in
both hemispheres 
of the frontman's

brain of Dillinger
Escape Plan when
after the first measures
of "Sugar Coated

Sour" he trod
out atop the heads
of the first few
rows of dudes

at the Virgin 
Megastore Times Square,
2007, in the video of
the event I watched

and screamed the
words in the faces
of the people
who caught him. 

That's how to 
do it. You don't
put your paws
in slippers first. 

I don't know, it
takes all kinds, they
say, but it also 
takes all day, they 

remind. Ask 
your doctor
if molecule
is right

for you. 
It never 
could be 
but they 

don't tell
you that. 
You can't 
sit down

would be 
a good
name for
a song.

Other words
that start
O pale 
in comparison 

to oriole 
but next 
to nobody
names their

kid Oriole. 
Why's that?
Of Olivanders
have we

too many. 
With Ophelias
we overflow.
This kind

of shit, 
all day. 
All day
with this,

they say, 
not naming 
their kid
something cool. 

What's wrong,
guys, are
you afraid? 
I would

be but
I have 
a cool
name to

give on 
my side,
I could
have said

my team
as easily. 
The coolness
of acting

like Spanish
is anticolonial 
like, guys
you know

how the
things happened.
You know
how things

happened, you
know how 
things happened.
Once you 

know how 
things happened
you can 
never pretend

to be 
anticolonial again.
I don't
mean to 

be flip, 
I do 
think about
this stuff

all the
time, about
how things
maybe happened.

And the 
train having
sailed is
no excuse, 

if your
dad stole
something from 
your friend's

dad you'd
give it
back once
they were

both dead
at the
absolute latest. 
Anything less

is admission
and furtherance
of guilt,
and of

guilt have
we oh
so much
my queen.

But it
is true,
Oriol is
an anticolonial

name, kinda.
Nah it's 
just Latin
and it 

means gold. 
So kinda
the opposite
of anticolonial. 

Easy to 
boil down,
hard to 
boil up.

Did you read
Timothy Morton's terrific
book "Spacecraft" which
I recommend? He 

wants those who
write to write
the world into 
better shape not

by encircling each
other's arguments, which 
is to say
circumscribing to rebut

said arguments, but
by writing in 
a naive way,
a guileless way, 

an innocent way,
a disarming way, 
which is in
a way a 

daring way or
a vulnerable way.
What does this
have to do

with Spacecraft? Well
you'll have to
read the book. 
Hyperspace is feminist;

other claims are
made. Somebody
is in
LOVE with you

like the mountain
that polarizes. Well, 
there's gonna be
what he meant.

Tell it to my jimmy, 
go the lyrics. 
Not one, not a lyric
to talk to me about

anything. Tone, direction
never executive producer
they don't care. We didn't
ever had a network

explosive care clip
Every shampoo is different, it has 
different effects on my skin and hair. 
Some of you've been marketing it to me

like it's all the same but it's different, man! 
This one's blue, that one's pink, I don't know. 
This one is creamy and sensual. 
I really don't know! I don't know 

what to do. Anyways I'm trying
to figure out how to transition from
a consumer mindset to more of a
creative person mindset, which

or like, not even the person part, 
because that presupposes a bunch 
of stuff, like it's like a freighted term,
I just want the mindset, I just want the

creativity I guess, and like I feel like
I can detect when lightbulbs around
me are going on and off and I want to 
have those going on in my head all 

the time, all 
the lightbulbs, just
like a bank 
of lightbulbs, all

the time. That's 
to me that's
the promise of 
unnamed substances, I've 

never even used
unnamed substances but
I bet they 
let you see

the whole 
bank of 
lit up
lightbulbs, right? 

Me not being able to
do this is part of
my secret superpower. You guys
you can start talking about 

it. For
the board, 
across the 
board, I 

don't know. 
Why is it not good? 
It's a lot to manage. 
You're worth it! This

is some Rick Rubin, 
shit, like some Rick Rubin shit, 
like some boring snore 
of a patient seeming, idealess

Rick Rubin. Guy can't 
remember to do a good
job at his job. Typical Rick
Rubin am I right. 

Okay enough of that bit but I did want to talk 
about a truly mediocre guy that I was trying to 
take out at the knees while I was talking to some
new friends, and I'm referring to Tony Hoagland

who I think was definitely 
not okay to have in 
the poetry community. What do I mean 
Okay I'll give the benefit of the doubt all day long

to someone who's trying to make the world better,
shitty poetry's not even a problem at that point, 
all poetry's shitty don't kid yourself, we're sacks of 
bacteria and shit if you strain out all the water

Do Not Kid Yourself and most poets 
writing naively or with complexity or whatever
are truly trying to improve the world, even (like worst
case) keeping themselves "off the streets" 

or even mentally "off the streets" for a moment
is an improvement and here's the thing
I don't think Tony Hoagland was doing that, 
I don't think his project had to do with making the world better

I think the smug smirky bullshit
was all he had going, and he rode it
till it (and he) gave out, and he convinced
some people (maybe not that many but 

more than one) that it was okay to be
kind of a shit in poetry, kind of a smug smirky ass, 
and I get worked up about it, so much so
that the new friends I was mentioning 

(aside) Do I name them here? 
Does the poem know who I mean? 
What if I said Cody-Rose, 
I could hardly get the name out before

also saying I'm kind of worried about them, 
and in a way it was because of the fragility of 
life as I live mine and I see them living it 
that touched off this nerve about smug, safe, 

protected, Tony ass Hoagland in his dumb 
armor suit. Do you know in Hades (the video game) when 
Theseus gets the suit of armor and the 
armored chariot and drives around like a tool

lobbing bombs and "blackguards" with all but a big bullseye on his
back, that's Tony Hoagland, he's Theseus in 
Hades, and he's not trying to make the world 
a better place, and I'm not even contending by the way that

the poet's job is to make the world a better place, 
lord knows, but I think you have to believe 
that the activity does in fact make the world better, 
either through the doing of it, or through the community, 

or through, what, yielding to its perceived necessity,
which feels like breathing instead of suffocating, 
which in turn breeds compassion? Or something? 
But if the only thing you can be is a smug dick,

I don't know, that's why I'm mad at him. It's old beef
in a way but it's also ever present, not personal
just a disagreement about an orientation, a
mindset, I'm trying to foster a creative mindset

which doesn't put me at its center and I think he's at
the center of his creative mindset and I think that 
sucks. So, Cody-Rose, Stella, Ryan, Ian, CT, Cass, 
other guy who introduced himself and I can't remember 

his name, Alicia too, all of you beautiful people not named
in any order. I've been so worried that I disappointed 
you guys even as the token square I felt myself to be. 
Why confess insecurity, though? To whom? 

Y'all won't read this, mostly nobody will. 
It was so 
wonderful too be
in your company

for however short
a duration; no 
panic beset me
until later, and 

even then it
was probably just
the familiar imp
of regret, of 

alcohol-induced shame, jolting
my neck with
his little AA-powered
pencil-sized cattleprod, the

whole next day 
after running my 
mouth because I
drank too much

and ran out
of both things
to say and 
coordation in the 

mandibular musculature to 
keep from slurring, 
ran fresh out
but that didn't

stop me, no 
not me, no
I kept right
on talking, and

in the night
I heard the 
buzz of the
imp trickle-charging his

cattleprod and thought
oh sweet it
is going to
be one of

those big hangover 
days, one of
those "how am
I going to

survive this" days, 
as the various
LEDs in the
darkened house glinted

off his teeth, 
his shiny mirror
teeth, his teeth
you can read

3:55 AM off
backwards if you
squint, his razor
sharp teeth, his

teeth of he
who has no
name, not an 
imp of sufficient

station to have
a name, but
he has teeth, 
he has those

teeth and a
cattleprod like I
said, a small
one. What else

is in the 
news??? Looks like
they sent a 
giraffe to space, 

who'd a thunk
it. Seriously I'm 
not on twitter 
anymore because of

Elon Musk so 
now I'm trying
to figure out
ways to market

myself but if
you remember from 
earlier what I 
said about I'm 

trying to cultivate
a creative mindset, 
I'm trying to 
manifest in the 

world a creative 
mind, how do 
you try to 
make a mind,

well it's not
marketing is it. 
I should ask
Gertrude Stein. She

was rich enough 
she didn't have
to market herself, 
all she had 

to do was
invite famous fancy
people to Paris
or whatever. I 

wasn't there, and
I might have 
some of my
facts wrong. I'm 

not trying to 
drag Gertrude Stein, 
she's (unlike certain
Tony Hoaglands I

could name) working
on a project
of good in 
the world, at 

least I think
so, as least
it seems that
I think so, 

at least that's
one way to
think about it. 
Anyway. I was 

going to go
climbing today after
work but I 
really wanted to 

write this. I
mean I really 
did. And I 
don't think it's 

TURNING OUT SO GOOD
WHEN THEY KICKED OFF
THE FOOTHOLD SIDEWAYS THEY
ALSO SNAPPED HALF THE

KEY OFF IN THE 
LOCK WE NEEDED TO 
GET OUT OF THE
ROOM I DON'T KNOW

WHY THERE'S NO DOOR
HERE IF NOT BECAUSE
I WAS ALREADY IN 
HERE WHEN I BUILT

IT AND THE WHOLE
POINT WAS TO CLIMB
OUT THE TOP END
OF IT NOT TO 

HAVE TO LEAVE BY
AN EXIT YOU MADE
ON YOUR WAY IN
THAT'S LIKE TWICE THE

WORK THAT'S LIKE TWICE
AS MUCH WORK AS 
I WANTED TO PUT 
INTO THIS I JUST

WANTED TO BE ABLE
TO CLIMB OUT THIS
THING WHERE ALL THEY
TALK ABOUT IS HOW

a given poem is impacting their
students, I hardly know what to do
with it but I hardly know what to do
under most any circumstances, and

that's not true. I know what to do 
most of the time, I just regret it later. 
THAT'S the real beans, baby! 
(Not a current phrase) 

What do I even remember later? 
The problem was the whiskey,
that was part of it but the problem 
was actually a long-standing failure

to reckon myself up, and accept and love
myself, so I became quiet and then snipey, 
then sprinted home on the bike, thank god
the places weren't open or I'd have had more

to drink and 
can you even
imagine; I'm fine.
I'm so fine. 

The sort of person who says "money is no object." 
Don't write that down as if it's potentially a title. 
I spent all this money trying to get away from softswerve
and here it is you're throwing it back in my face again. 

Too often of late it's a litter of redbud blossoms
trod into the sidewalk & discolored or it's a
junco held only in the mind with half its tail feathers
or it's sudden difficulty breathing in an elevator. 

The elevator must stay contained, enfolded
in the building, there's no open air elevator,
can you imagine. And there's no risk of one's finger
getting pinched off in the chainlink protection fence

as it scrolls up and past or down and past, 
and there's no music because people fundamentally
don't want music, people don't want music and they
don't want open air elevators. But to me what is it,

that sadness one feels, 
the tendons stand out on her neck
and the collarbones, she's showing off
a tattoo; so what am I looking at. 

Maybe in ten monoliths
One will feel hollow or will feel right
Sure I'll click on another Erik Griswold track
Sure I'll spend the afternoon in the sunshine

It was a day filled with pride. 
Before long it was a weeping willow
shaped like a day, constantly shifting boundaries
Always almost ready to cry over nothing

Sapped of all strength
Still he soldiered on
And in his inside face
He practiced scales instead of falling asleep

Not Erik Griswold I'm talking about someone else now
Here's the part where I start talking about someone else
Here's where I plagiarize "Spinning in Daffodils" 
because I'm afraid of it and afraid not to 

Hey sure
evoke me the void
but fill it with daffodils
fill it with turbulent weather

This song commits the pathetic fallacy I think
(Which, you may not know, is okay to do)
Cold, alone and alive, it surprises no one
when menace takes a musical form

Heavy metal's not that menacing becuase it's still music
I'm thinking of something Andrew Weatherhead said (I think)
He's right. Even "Hammer Smashed Face" is still a song,
that a man sings, just like " How Do You 

Solve a Problem Like Maria." They
are the same thing. A trivial trifle 
A trite trifle,
The Trivial Truncheon

Let's have luncheon 
and a convivial truncheon,
Let's conform to the thoughts
of our elders;

Let's gracefully fade 
into pink lemonade
Bright pink like the sparks
of two welders

You can't take this
aawya from me
This is they stent it
to me from purpose.

Waking up into a body
feeling first like plywood
Yawning through a mouth that won't open
What am I? Some kind of "Weird" Al? 

Does this seem like a parody to you? 
Or a pastiche, for which he's less well-known? 
What is it that it seems like? 
What is man that thou art mindful of him? 

Everybody wants to make a long story short
like it's some kind of a dress code, the signs
are up at the door like you're supposed to 
see them there, hard to concentrate

Hard to act anymore like you 
can't throw molotov cocktails on TV unless
it's at something somebody cares about
The most dangerous thing is meaningful destruction

They won't let you see such a thing
I'm not talking about Eddie Van Halen JFC I've had it
This is no way for a brain to be
I do want to dress up next Halloween 

like Eddie Van Halen's iconic red guitar with the b/w tape stripes
You know the one I'm talking about
I tried to tell my wife my intentions and she 
didn't understand what I was on about

She probably doesn't remember (also) the french horn
parts in the Rockford Files theme about which
so many ink have been spilled over the years
And over coffee

we spilled some ink
We spilled the tea
and the kitchen sink
Climbing up the stairs of a melody

Descending the stairs by the same stairs again
Waiting and turning the gain up
There are people talking off to the side of the audio
Barely singing, barely heard

Holding out, holding on 
Holding your tender, cold, inexplicable hand
The melody always resolves where it started
Like a race but you can win a race

Or more like a water cycle
Or a parasite life cycle
that goes from a cow's intenstine 
to a snail's membrane(s)

to a blade of grass
feeling at every moment comfortable and right
feeling every moment to be 100% opportune
feeling fine and parasitic in sunshine and darkness equally

A more forward
thinking person typing
would've set up 
something to rhyme

opportune with first
and then get to it, land
on it like a trampoline
forceful but bouncy 

propulsives as trampolines
That's what you are
with your little hands I love
You with your little

hands all over me Me
with my little hands 
all over you forgetting
to be disappointed

Forgetting in the first place
to have expectations to disappoint
Even fistfuls of clover must meet
with approval or else, I'd think so anyway

That's what I'd think
That's what they'd tell me
That's the line the propagandists would take
if they weren't all such wretches and fools

This screen is too brigt
And my eye can't aligt
But the dark of a coffin
Is too thick to get offin

Marathon made of sprints
Bottle made of bottlecaps
Coat made of colors
Color made of vibrations

Tell me something that's not true
Tell me something half about you
Cost all you want, it's a matter of balance
Downsizing Wonderland, surplus Alice

Deep down Soul
Coughing is kind
of formulaic it
must be admitted. 

What does it do? 
You can tell by
what it did, by 
what its id did. 

What was its meaning? They 
came from the screening, but
found they had lost their
direction; the sampler was tinny,

the bass was chagrinny, the guitarist
was pale of complexion. Why did
we love them? And what was 
above them, preventing divine retribution? Whose

sick beats were pulsing,
whose syntax convulsing, to
keep their propellers in 
volution? Meh, I'm immune

to that overwrought funk
like miss me in the
vintage store with your pink
waistcoats. Miss me with that

underfunctioning Mr. Do cabinet
Miss mee babee with that Billy Collins shit
Biss be with that Nintendo Power
Mess me with your pointless compass

Your lost way
Your affected bariton
You get 11 years sentence
Miss me? Miss me much?

Act like you didn't steal it
Steal it like you drove it
Lick it like you provoked it
Shelve it like you restocked it

Power drunk on the white kid funck
Supping on suckling in a kitchen sunk
Sipping cognac through a radiator drain
Smoking armagnac through a hole-punched brain

You ever see that guy
play a crowd-control fence
like a flute, with flutist technique,
it's a video online you can find it there

You guys ever see a cat sit in a box
Hey 
You ever seen that video of forklift fails
They shoulda used that for the video

for their song Mr. Bitterness
It's fine, you can consume
the pair, the audio of one
the video of the other

Try not to wake me up
no try not to wake ME up she said
try not to wake me
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I'm asleep 
you can't see me
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you can take you r 
shit to the 
I'm laughing becuasseee
you'd think I'd care more abou this

Starting over
is
bagannanangnanangnagnagna
Did you ever think about

David Hume and how his life's work
is condensed to "no is implies an ought"
I thought of this yesterday
two days ago

No it WAS fucking yesterday
I was biki
no two days ago
Fuck me it was Saturday

I was biking home from a brief stint at the climbing gym
and thinking about cars 
you car people you never think about cars
cars kill me

or could
On Linden in Allston
a car sort of elbowed
out of its parking space

like just mwwwWWWHHH
out into traffic
where I was
and I just oozed left

not thinking
not mad
and faking it, my consciousness
registered

briefly afterward
that I'd not
felt scared or felt anything
and I'm glad I have a brain to do that

I'm convinced we're faking ourselves, no "is"
You, reading this
and after you're dead
the shape of the music you love

loved
not treasured but loved
not cherished but loved
not mixtaped but loved

loved throught love
the other end of love
where the music is
the music you stop

stopped listening to
and there is still you
loving it
you can do this

in 1992
when the audio recording was invented
and the band They Might Be Giants
released their first hit single

On A Plain
by the Nirvana
none of this you cared about
till you were what

forty
why
I mean you like Scelsi and Xenakis and 
you stayed at Cindy Cox's place in Oakland

and in Argentina for a hot minute
what made you think of Nirvana
oh
only that

not either of us feigns
how to listen
but Eh
exists so 

I'm supposed 
to need Mozart (Eh) or
. I'm saying enough
music = enough

You know if it's you
I know it's not me
but if you accept my premise (my consciousness isn't me)
then... (shruggie dot meme)

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I'd suppose you were
if you could,
a prince of the Underworld,
to escape.

Yes, thank you.
I receive very, a
specially by way of
my support from

very international
to be sure,
a reckoning; and
that is them there and I can't be less interested elsewhere

But to answer your question I always,
when I'm at, them
they always
from the underworld up I'm interested

and I comb them
with hair
or knobs...
that is to say

often enough
when I'm prowling
or on patrol
or on the prowl

I'm like a real prowl guy
and
they have no instincts pure and simple.
I appreciate their support 

and yes to escape that
if I were like some escape
uncontrollable laughter
you can't contain me

Have you seen my tears on my beloved's face
Have you seen me embrace people I treasure
What, you're surveilling me typing this,
you're surveilling the Fernet-Branca bathing my gums

okay
you 
didn't realize
it's an illusion of itself? 

but real nonetheless?
(aside: "nonetheless?" what did he mean, "nonetheless"?")
(aloud) nonetheless
(as though testing it for weight, with a foot, like a lily pad) nonetheless

(as though bomb-squading it) nonetheless
(as though there's a blinky alarm dedicated to it
on the 1960's NASA control panel template
which maybe gets revised out of most missions but

it's on internal documents and NASA nerds say it
to each other at convention
s
from 1970s to 2000s

until the internet revokes that vogue
and they stop it,
saying it like they say it to each other, 
me to you)

nonetheless
or
"nonetheless"
or

I'm sorry 
I don't mean to like
assault
"you"

nonetheless
this is where we're come to
they
"they"

sent us here
basically
pre-fucked
with our clothes and capitalism on

out of order
out of order
out of order
out of order,

They put the order
on the range
till 
the field

the fold.
They fold.
"They" fold
who's "they" 

I rely on.
I make space missions
till "they"
rely on.

Till they Holbein acknowledge
the field
and the ploughman 
a skellington

kicks their "ass"
dead.
I wish to say
NASA

tronaut
fucked dead by Holbein skellingtons "kill your darlings" ton't be mad at me
I'm just a nerd
with a fake consciousness

pretending to push keys
in a moment of swirling energy
They say 
You should think of your audience

Or they say
You should think of who you're writing for
I say
Do I say? 

I think
I dream 
I have dreamed
I...

All this
is for you if it is you
All what
but it's not a life together

But
still
what is
a performance

of what I mean
to "you" 
to me?
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My eyesight is going
Sometimes I think about Nine Inch Nails
who I never really loved
and other non-loves in life. 

They don't give you a succulent on your birthday
I don't have responded to every communication with the utmost frankness
Draw your neighborhood from memory
Draw every corner of your neighborhood

beset by cactus and desert scrub
The rest is automated and don't takes 5 minutes
but you can doodle in the error codes
like they used to do in the Here There Be Dragons days

My friend tucked a poem in the Error 404 page
of a website. Nobody and everybody will read it. 
Savvy maneuvering, if you ask me! Nobody did
And you don't smell like one too

You can explore the umwelt, it doen't have to be Alps
Highways swerve to avoid dogfood silos
And cars follow; but the smell: 
it lingers.

Maybe you think poet has voice
Most don't.
Voice is a scam.
I got trues.

I got through
to you, Pepe LePew, so name
d
for LePew Research Center, a locus

of serious inquiry into lingering smells.
No you don't know
how to replace hard
drive? That's your whole

Job, that's your job
that's your job that's
your whole job that's
YOUR job not my

whole job that's your
job. The Memorial Hall
is where we honor
the Fallen. Feel free

to walk around and 
pay your respects. Armpit
smell goes away when 
de-odorant is applied. Where

does smell go? Don't
lecture me. I'm tired 
of this. Interface
for database

I'm all over
the place the place. 
Nobody is here
Are you new

No I'm not new
46 years
No it's only 45
I've been here 44 years

43 years ago I arrived
I'm 42 years old
This year I turned 41
The big four ohhhh! 40 and fabulous okay

Now on to the data. 
Now we try to recover the data
it won't be cheap
I can't replace this drive

I can't rebuild this data or replicate what happened
I can't answer any questions about your data
I can't check this media presence... 
and then it prompts me for a MAC IP 

and SOMETIMES it says Remote Boot Cancelled
and it gives an error code. 
And it sounds like a hardware problems and 
I can't address a hardware problems.

Sounds like you have a hardware problem there.
Sounds like something's went wrontg in the hardwarew.
Sounds like you need a donut in your hardware.
Sounds like a misthreaded stripe matrix

but I can't address any hardware failures at this time
I can't address if your synthetic hair is on fire and melting
itself to your scalp that's outside my purview
That's not covered in your warranty

I can't refund any over-invested data
I don't provide any support for privacy concerns
I have no voice that's not my support sphere
I don't enter that space support-wise

and I never sign in to that email address but
is it going to let me or is this 
just going to continue to fail to connect? 
Wait are you new here or something?

Let me try again. Okay file open
and I always enter the information
in the dialog that appears. What if 
it's not appearing this time that's weird!?!?

I started stopping being
moments after joining
I started a podcast 
which started the whole world ignoring

I created a boozeful beverage
out of other base ingredients
transmuting grain alcohol and oak flavor
into liquid gold. They executed me for it

The guy below me is practicing "I Heard
It Through The Grapevine" on the bass
by playing the melody and not thinking
About What The It Is

that the speaker of the song 
heard
The friend thinks Mitch Hedberg is like
George Carlin levels of anger and inaction

I think this is a weird thought!
I think I saw "Weird" Al Yankovic doing antics
When Creeley goes "he loves but hates equally" 
who's he NOT talking about, like dude

like wtf like
like silliness is never inaction is it?
like damn bruv
cut me some SLACK bruv

Ladies and Gentlemen, this isnut why you came here
I know you have lost of choices in your entertainment spheres
And this isnut the only once of them
But this isnut the last and isnut the least neitherwise

And once again at this time passengers we remind you
that smoking isnut allowed on all Delta flights
Fine you want to smush your fingerprint around
on some anatomical point, some cluster of nerves

telling me no while stimulating the erogenous zones
Fine with me other people would say it isnut an good idea
but it's fine with find with me
you can watch the youtube video where she says that

& imagine the interior life
with its window exits
dental interventions
cabin pressures

Every year about this time
as hyacinths outstrangle each other
nope what is the plant I'm thinking of
starts with an H

Okay turns out it was wisteria
Anyway every year about this time
as wisteria compete to out-involve each other
in civic activities

as wisteria grow and blossom at different rates
as wisteria subsume other life forms
stope it stope embroidering
every year right about now everyone loses their mind.

I'll exlude myself sure I will.
There are better flowering vines I could've chosen
Wisteria is the best of the available birthday flowers
Wisteria is the one I let die in the backyard

Supposedly hard to kill, I killed it
Or it died of someone else's broken heart 
it so seemed at the time
Starts with an H

Harriet, my grandmother's name, one of them
Probably where my height came from
And perhaps not much else of me, who can say
Not me, it's late May and like everyone I have

lost my damn mind. I remember being
genuinely surprised 
not coming home
all night

in the morning
she had noticed
I'd not come home
She grew raspberries, the best raspberries in fact,

the ones that all the other ones taste like
And she'd put three cans of corn
in a bowl with butter and pepper
and microwave it till hot

and that was a side dish every holiday.
She collected little glass animals, shelves of them
You have to put your memories somewhere
I'm dealing dangerously in spatial metaphor but

you have to put your memories somewhere
or they are impossible to locate later
I don't know what happened to her glass animals
I imagine one of my aunts has them

This is one of those songs
whose words are difficult to resolve
Maybe they under-enunciated
Maybe they went so far 

as to record one set of words in the left channel
and one set of words in the right channel
words that are all similar to each other in sound
this is that. Whose emotions are these

Am I pretending to feel them or not to feel them
Moot point anyway, my mind's lost I said
She darned some of my socks
Not invisibly, not skillfully, but they lasted

Holes opened up in other parts of the sock
but never again where she'd worked on them
Looking at what I've already written
I can see that I've already written about her

after my grandfather had been stung by yellowjackets
nearly to death
she told my dad and his sisters
that their father, my grandfather, would probably die, he didn't

It was May 25th, 1962, I made that up
I mean that day was real but the
lownmower thing probably happened a different day
likelihood wise

percent chance speaking
Let me tell you about my mother's mother
Lucille, who I loved, and who died young
spoiled me with unmatched dedication

why love me, spoil me why
gave me my favorite butter yellow hooded sweatshirt
that I may have confused in sense memory 
with a feather bed she made for me that was big and butter yellow

this is
what happens
when you 
don't find

a place
to put
your memories
gave me a coffee mug I still have that says

"i love you" with a heart on it
gave that item, a coffee mug, to a (probably)
12 year old child who had no use for it
though now were I to fumble it out of the dishwasher or something

I would lose my mind
Mortality is all we have left
Cling to it, soak in it, rut in and fuck it
While the wisteria coil & choke our medullae

While our brains unspool prerecorded sentiment
While we just say things we've heard said
I love you
An aneurysm in her brain ruptured, which did not immediately kill her

I remember her 
I remember her lying on a stiff-looking chair bed
tilted up at a 30 degree angle
with a pad of yellow paper at her side

that she would scratch incomprehensibly on 
I remember her making eye contact
This was in my aunt's house
Why was I there? if these weren't her last days

And maybe they were I don't remember
I was there for her funeral
(I was there for both of my grandmothers' and
sadly neither of my grandfathers' funerals)

We went to Sizzler after Lucille's funeral,
me and my aunts and parents and cousins
She was always smoking a cigarette
She accidentally burned me with a cigarette once

I was really young and probably ran unheeding into its lit end
and she cried and apologized like it had mattered what she'd done
like it mattered whether or not I was hurt or was cared for
There was always a line of ants marching across the counter 

in that house
from one hole
in the wall
or one seam

between the wall
and the counter
and up into
a cabinet

or into another place
I don't remember
the terminal points
I'm making them up

which is dishonest
and incoherent, I've already 
said there was 
no end of ants

You know me
from this
if you know me
at all

My birthday wish today 44 years
Someday may the people who know me
from reading what I wrote
outnumber those who know me from knowing me

Obscene unspeakable thing to wish
Know me know my gestures know my smile
Know my ghost who loves to land a rhyme
Know my mind's wisterial lack of guile

Know thyself (not pictured, out of frame)
She made me a feather bed
so I would have somewhere to sleep
it took up one end of her trailer

under the Christmas tree
I laid there and watched 
Ernest Goes to Camp 
twice in a row 

and then I got bored
THEN, only then, 
after two complete viewings, 
consecutively

Tell me about my life
Why don't you go ahead
Make a list of all the assumptions you made about me
I'll wait I'm already dead

and frankly I already lost interest
in my own posturing
did you recently read, like I did,
"The Writing of Stones," by Roger Caillois,

not a great book, not his best book,
but touched like all his work by what I find most "him" about him,
that kind of crazed implausible willingness
to take at face value some starting point

and see it through to its conclusion
Minerals make pictures
Pictures are writing
Therefore stones communicate

with human beings
a remarkable feat
(on the author's part) 
a triumph of recouped loss

For nothing can be lost 
if it has been authored
even a set of sentences
which doesn't add up 

argumentatively.
Did he know that? 
It doesn't seem that he did. 
He seems to have taken himself seriously! 

I hope I don't give that impression,
in all ways and at all times. 
Sometimes, like today, I lose my mind
and decide to speak nakedly to you

as though from beyond some kind of grave
or rather, nakedly as in communicatively. 
I miss both of my parent's mothers today.
I remember them, I do my best

to remember and record the memory here. 
I got a Lego set that Christmas, some kind of space thing
The space Legos were always the best
My cousins and I ran in huge circles chasing each other

Taking huge flying leaps off some desk or side table
into another huge feather bed
yes a different one, a brown one
Why did she have so many feather beds around

My memory and my love for these people
is bound up sideways and constricted
bulging purple anoxic cut off and dying
from the Republican propaganda they eat for breakfast

lunch and dinner. Yesterday 14 children were shot
Two years ago a man was choked to death on camera
and half the country decided, before they even finished
starting to find out that he was black, that what he deserved

was probably death
and anyway 
unrelated to the question of policing
(though, if you watched, the police killed him),

and wasted no opportunity to tell everyone so. 
What murderers we are, wasters of life
legislators only of death
Cling to one side of mortality or the other

it's all we have left
numb, dumb, hopeless
our minds treacherous to us and each other
our minds sputtering

well before their ends
fearful if we don't daily practice against it
our minds wrapped with choking tendrils of fear
benumbed, wordless, spitting droplets only

blossoming indifferent tendrils
that must be cut back
or we lose our minds
this time every year

every time every year
My sister's friend
was shot through the shoulder and neck
23 years ago

Columbine
and survived
I don't remember her name
How many Vincent Van Gogh paintings can I scroll past

A lot of people I follow on twitter paint flowers
A lot of what I search for on YouTube is "Deerhoof Flower Apple O"
But today I'm in more of a "Deerhoof Magnificent Bird" mood
Today I'm more mood than mind

Today is the last day of Creation, today is a listen for the trumpet kind of day
No today I want to hear the first few bars of "Breakup Songs" 
live at Boston Calling 2017, gegegerrrrr, 
gegegerr gegegarrr gegegerrrrrrrr

and then it's too poppy
I just spent 20 minutes designing
a pair of custom Chuck Taylor high-tops I'm probably not going to buy
seeing as how I lost my mind and everything

Guileless
birdlike
unresponsive
I flit about you

Music is not like "music is like this" or
or or "music is like that"
Is music more like Meshuggah "Clockworks" or
Deerhoof "The Galaxist" sung a capella

by high school kids while our eyes fill with tears?
YouTube or it didn't happen
Twitter or it didn't happen
Go to the Converse store and try on a pair to test the fit 

of the size you think you'll need to order 
or it didn't happen
Which asses is it
you think you'll 

all of a sudden kick
or start to kick
or wake up in mid-kick
or think better of not kicking

with your new kicks
with your fancy new kicks
with your overdone hightops
do these shoes resemble

the love you keep telling yourself you don't deserve
how cartoonish how childish
grow up grow out of this
leave it behind leave the shade of this rock 

I wonder how my family
would feel if my entire 
4th grade class had been
murdered by a gunman with 

If you are feeling anxiety, 
one of the ways you can address it
is to place your palms
one on your chest 

and one on your belly
and feel the comforting sensation
of your own breath. 
This helps you restore your dumb numb mind

Numb dead stupid stasis
Calming blasting endless stupid
Noiseless hissing deadened static
Numbing breathing caution helpless

I'm feeling unable to continue
My plan was to catch up on almost a year 
of lost progress here
and I'm spending time reading about Columbine

on Wikipedia
Lord help this spasming country
Lord take our guns away
Don't bother saving our souls

I found her name, my sister's friend.
Apparently she wrote a book.
I wonder how numb she is every day. 
I don't mean to sound flippant here.

Eat a handful of chocolate chips
Eat a handful of gummy bears
Eat a handful of mix and match colored spheres
Go outside and eat a handful of beautiful sunshine

Useless, all of this
Decades of useless feeling
when you say it's all over
The level of it goes on is appalling

I'm too numb to be appalled
I'm too useless to go on
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for breakfast lunch and dinner
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Okay I still have over 1200 lines to fill
Between last time I wrote and this time I got really into Deerhoof
So I was thinking maybe I could fill space talking through
individual Deerhoof songs and the ways that I came to them

First one I heard was "Perfect Me" in 2007
Hooked immediately, 
was not into indie things then
but loved the thick low chords,

the mean spooky melody,
"Cry out," swooping upward,
when you see them play it live
you will note a few differences

in the guitars,
abrupt tempo change
late in the song
note Satomi's fun

dance which I had 
no knowledge of 
then
next was whatever's next 

on that album
At that time 
I was working 
in the basement

of MCZ Labs
in a space now
occupied by 
vats of liquid nitrogen

at the time,
it was jars of small
and large marine
invertebrates

spiny urchins, brittle stars,
and this music floating us
while me and MaryCat
and maybe Hashi

and MaryCat's utterly silent dog Henry
who was Japanese
worked away
at the task of transferring

these animals
from the brown liquid 
and unsustainable containment
they were in

to clearer liquids
and better-sealed containments. 
Choo choo choo beep beep.
These songs got LODGED

in my head (which I have since lost
believing it to be not worth 
keeping a pinch on)
I don't have to go through the rest of the album.

I mainlined this album 
for call it 2 years
then a break of a number of years
I should also single out

"Cast Off Crown" as an occasioner of wonder, 
like finding an amulet in a grocery store
an amulet
with no price

tag attached
no matter how 
carefully it was 
inspected

It burns through
perspicacity
(real or perceived) 
and is just

generous
the drums fall 
through tissue paper 
time

and arrive whenever
They (Deerhoof) 
never play it live
The Galaxist, already mentioned,

go YouTube the a capella version of it
Deerhoof likes sixes
they'll do 6/4 more often than 4/4
not anemically, just a chonky

funky full-hearted
full-bore all-cylinders
driving stomping
groove baby

See the opening bars
of "Cast Off Crown"
I have often wondered
why they never

play it live
Probably hard
to sing it
and play the drums on it

at the same time
(it's Greg's vocal
not Satomi's) 
I didn't realize

while re-housing the many sea creatures
that this is
a weird album for them
in a Discography 

full of weird standoffish from each other
snapshot portraits
family resemblances
fast forward to 2021

Summer
I put The Runners Four on my phone
a smile spread across my face
at the same rate as the plucks fading in

at the beginning of Chatterboxes
in the parking lot
of a wine store in Longmont Colorado
which didn't have the mezcal I was looking for

so I walked catty corner 
to a weird railroad depot liquor store
which had it
I was buying it for my friends in the Springs

Me booming down I-25 in a rented Jeep
stomping the steering wheel in time 
with O'Malley, Former Underdog, a song
I later began to associate

with riding the Orange Line into Downtown
There's sometimes the indelible moment
when a song really locks in 
and becomes forever associated

that moment, and that latitude and longitude
A song is a pin dropped on reality
Odyssey, coming down the zigzag road
from Zapata Falls campground

where I'd spent the night 
before climbing Ellingwood Point
Wrong Time Capsule, blasting across the SLV
37.74842050772824, -106.10987124276475

2:08, the center of everything,
storm looming to my north
I'd soon drive through 
thinking about not dying

Bless spirit ditties of no tone; 
had to look up the words later.
Lightning falling around me like 
twenty ton trucks

Big publicly funded sculptures
falling around me
Purple metallic lightning sculptures
rumbling past in the oncoming lane

Inspirations
and sensations
and since I'd only heard 
these songs in the Jeep

it turned out 
I was badly misinformed
about basic building blocks
like harmony

like which notes went where
and now I can never hear them
that way again, 
now that I've listened on good headphones

with no road noise
Scream Team came through like
rhythm only
chug chug chug chug chug chug chug chug chug chug chug chug chug chug chug chug chug

After Me the Deluge didn't know that title
Till later
it comes later in the album
earlier in the story

accordion on time
cut to me trying not to die
can't see through the windshield
hail and rain absolutely firehosing

thunder drowning out absolutely every aspect of this song
every single musical element obliterated
that's what I remember
coming out the other end

as it ends
Too many other good ones on this album, Siriustar
which they only played live seldom
and only in those days

You're Our Two locking in twice
Once going over Poncha Pass a few days later
into Salida
absolutely punching the air

and again at the Boston airport 
with my eyes closed
on the courtesy shuttle
like a teenager

bopping, hurting, free
High hurtful howls, joy and mirrored doubt
Believe all fools
Why does this album not end there

To this second I truly don't understand
I only learned the next song was the end
when it looped around to Chatterboxes again
From there it was on to Offend Maggie

Which ultimately feels like a sad album to me
Because 
I was sad and hurting listening to it
Crying in the shower thinking of

La la la la life
from Chandelier Searchlight
the thought of two people harmonizing it
caught me up

It was the Juan's Basement
videos that got me into this album
Fresh Born especially
and Snoopy Waves which is obviously 

just Beefheart and sunshine
by then Ed had joined the band
Ed who is my rock god superstar idol
Ed who makes his own clothes supposedly

go look at him in Juan's basement 
and then look at him in the Boston Calling videos
he like, ascended 
between those two shoots

Anyway
Buck and Judy too frequently had me crying
I was drinking too much
and staying up too late

trying to write something about 
video games and death
which a lot of this stuff about Deerhoof
is pulled liberally from

and maybe verbatim
Maybe someday I'll do like Jeff Alessandrelli
and make a "Boys' Bluets" out of it
but not as interesting as what he's been doing lately

Buck and Judy made me shiver
made me try and duck out of my own way
and fail
They played it live, a lot

Played it verbatim, played it smeared
All smeared out time-wise
Big misses on the drums
Big arpeggiated missteps where the chonk chonks are supposed to be

Even for them this is a magical song
I'm listening to it right now while typing
Tension and resolution, I bought back in
I'm buying back in on tension and resolution again

I played it for Sam and she said it was a little dissonant
but she wanted to hear it some other time
I fear that there will never be a time she'll want to hear it
It's okay

There are other moments of shared experience
between Sam and me
Numerous, endless (oh if only) 
These things which (we think) form some basis

of love, or of love's nourishment
as if we know what that is
Not enough to have been alive alone
during whatever sunset

during the tasting of whatever fruit
what was that fruit
what do I remember
that was shaped 

as this thing is shaped?
Find it hard to rise / sighs / ahhhh
Offend Maggie itself title track
didn't lock in until much later

Just walking around campus
back at work
some day hung over probably
sad rueful of a life spent

chasing poetry
the only wind there is
do I know you? don't call this number
Don't Get Born into Fresh Born LOL

My Purple Past never really worked
for me until they played it 
in the Devil Kids live show
and again when I found it

in the chamber arrangement
and heaven help the sensorium 
that doesn't weep hearing that
or the ass that doesn't shake

all the way back to kindergarten
in the wake of Fresh Born
Numina O, jewel box
I found walking around my neighborhood

while the dew sparkled on tree branches
just putting out new leaves
feeling about to happen
love, attachment

about to happen
about to re-purchase these old things
I'll have the usual
buildup, release

Pressed up against the insides of my own despair
The scouring out
The binding feeling 
Yelling yellow into a void of no color

That no one will ever read this
Is now of some comfort
But to have spent a life dedicated to 
what

a thing that's everywhere 
life, but death too, and more beyond them both
and to tell oneself, like,
chemically

and forever
that it was a 
waste
that one deserves 

not life
let alone love
deserves none of this
genuinely surprised by love

when it comes
I've wandered into Jagged Fruit territory now
a song of genuine pain
that is

a song which is genuinely of pain
The chamber arrangement doesn't really do it
but softens the blow somehow
Then I started listening to La Isla Bonita

Most of these songs' pins
are dropped in Pittsburgh
Big House Waltz going over the 
Hot Metal Bridge while the big bass drops

Mirror Monster slotting into memory
on some hillside in Squirrel Hill
Who are these moments for if not me?
You have to write them down

You have to find a place
for your memories
or they will eat you 
invisibly

replacing your body
with dead tissue
and your mind
with Republican propaganda

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the hi-hat sound
in the little clip 
before the song proper 

starts
in the video for Last Fad
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and intellight toward the
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with in as way of Ao-lain;
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I like nothing
which happens until
it happens in 
the interface.

This is an
account of what
will please most
people most.

Most interfaces will
endure only so
much from most
entrenched mindsets. 

A mindset of 
behindedness begets a
mindset of bad
behindlessness seldomly.

But in the
interface very little 
or none of
this matters.

The magic of
the magic of
the magic of
the interface. 

And it's not
often you can
pinpoint an opinion
like this.

It's not often 
you can set 
butt to footstool
within yourself. 

Usually someone's cat
or opinion has
a cat or
an opinion. 

Feed that fact
through the interface
and approach the
scent port. 

The ozone smell
and the shoe
polish smell, and
all that. 

Nothing else ever
happens as far
as I am
a servitude. 

Servile incivility, you 
say, and I 
say, lawful neutral,
LOL, LOL. 

Because I have 
been accusing people
of servile bootlicking
since birth. 

My first words
on my first 
birthday were
about that. 

And yet look
at what has
happened as a
result: nothing. 

So check out
this interface I
made of myself
to make. 

Check it out, 
I said! It 
is an in
for you. 

Soporific typefaces droop
over loopy flowers
floating on currents 
of syrup,

currents of currant
syrup in urgent
inhalant deterrant mode;
Van Halen

plays "Loss of
Control" at half
tempo, signifying a
significant sadness. 

What's with the 
feelings I feel 
about that album
cover anyway? 

Have I ever 
seen such obvious 
and enviable youthful 
exuberance elsewhere? 

Anywhere else other
than the cover
of Women and
Children First?

I'm writing about
Van Halen's Women
and Children First,
the cover. 

And I guess
it's mostly the
picture on the
aforementioned cover. 

I never cared
about Van Halen
ever until the 
interface intervened.

Now it appears 
as though no 
before had to 
have happened. 

For reference I'm 
referring to the
album Women and
Children First, 

by Van Halen
(Warner Brothers Records, 
1980), their third
studio album. 

The interface spins
in inhumane ellipses;
it can make 
you puke. 

I have a
friend who hates
Van Halen more
than most. 

I know a 
person who re-used
some of their
song titles. 

But this person, 
he used them
as titles for 
his poems. 

It was a
sly maneuver. Did
I care at
the time? 

What time was
that? Who was 
I? Where was
you baby? 

Sorry, that last
bit happened (the
"you baby" bit)
on accident.

There's something to
life that is
not life; I
call it. 

I call to
it through the
syrup, through the
amniotic syrup. 

It feels like
a waffle iron
pattern it's left
on me. 

It left on 
me an interface 
pattern on my
face specifically.

I have a 
waffle face now,
now that that
thing happened.

Now that Van
Halen is dead
there is a 
poignancy around. 

Sure I could
listen to "Very
Much Money," Iron
Mike Eagle. 

That would be
the better and
more tasteful thing
to've done. 

You could too!
That's what's great
about this interface
thing idea. 

You can always
go watch the 
bowling alley performance
of it. 

My friends are
superheroes; none of 
us have very 
much money, 

though. Every so
often, the interface
tells you a
truth untold.

That shit's not
valuable, come say
it to my
face. Irreversible! 

That's the word
I've been looking 
for. Try to
reverse it!

Try to reverse 
the occurrence of
the sentiment of
that song. 

Most songs don't 
feature reverse playback
as a standard
playback feature. 

Most idiots everywhere
caution each other
as mulchers move
amongst them. 

Mulched idiots bulk
and feed soils;
spreading mulched idiots
improves soils. 

Do your parents
want to see 
you soon or 
sometime soon? 

Are you something
desired but also 
disapproved of, are
you soil?

Do you need 
to feel improved,
does your soilness
need improvement? 

Do you think
forcing Van Halen 
through some kind
of pastamaker,

some kind of
interface your big
brain has just 
brainily devised,

will yield such
creamy milky loam
as can grow
angel hair? 

Are these really
the things you
choose to sing,
you noodle-noggins? 

You spaghetti brain? 
You cerebrum of 
udon? You mind
of fetuccini? 

What good will
it do for
whom to say
these things? 

I mean it's
fine; don't get
me wrong or
it twisted. 

It's fine that
you think it's 
fun to say
stupid shit.

Transparently stupid irrelevant
redundant insulting insipid
and even humorless,
the shit. 

But like I
said, like you
said, like we
all said: 

nothing which happens
in the interface
is the thing
I like. 

Or like, "the"
nothing. Go Wallace
Stevens on it. 
Word games. 

I like it. 
I love it.
I learn to 
savor it. 

I learn to 
savor the parental
ignorance, oh ignorance
least yielding. 

Most people, when 
feeling out of
control, prefer to
say no. 

This is what
the song "Loss 
of Control" is
innermostly about. 

People say no
to regain a 
feeling of sweet
unslacking control. 

The feeling that
happens in the
interface is a
no word. 

People don't want
control except when 
they feel a
proximate feeling

of loss and 
restore it with
Van Halen and
saying no. 

That's what being
a person is.
That's what a 
person is. 

What is a
person? What, huh?
Who's asking? Who 
this time? 

None of the
friends has very 
much money, which 
occasions emotion. 

It's raining today; 
I'm typing just
as much as 
fingers can

and part of 
me and part
of my fingers
says no.

And part of 
what the rain 
says when it
says no

is a sort
of USB port
feeling of acceptance,
not yes

or not yet
a yes but 
a word that
yes envies.

When yes feels
out of control,
what word does
it say? 

It says rain
and again it
says rain and 
says rain. 

It raises the
dead, this rain.
It raises the
soil's IQ.

It smells like
ozone in that
it has a
suddenly everwhere

ability to affect
the air, if
not a particular
smell resemblance,

a thing to 
which to say
either a yes
or no. 

People shouted "Umbra!"
and I struggled not to look at them.
I was spinning, tumbling,
and so were the lights on the rides

and the people screaming and running.
I fell out
the other side
and into

the amusement park
that was coming apart at the seams.
I ran from the monsters,
but every person I looked at

began to transform. I tripped
and fell, and an owlish face
swallowed me in a blackness
that I fell and fell and fell through.

I fell out
the other side...
The silence erupted
into a messy, screaming stampede,

like people trying
to get off the
Tilt-a-Whirl while
it was still moving.

Someone else yelled something
about the monsters coming for me,
and shortly after that,
someone pointed at me and shouted, "He's an Umbra!!"

An agent near me said,
"Monster inbound on one monitor...
two... three..." and another agent said to me,
"It's coming for you, lad."

I watched
through the big storefront windows of the casino
as a person walking on the sidewalk
transformed, gaining extra spider-like eyes and an owly face.

Everyone went completely silent.
Looking at the nearest monitor,
I saw a person's face
grow extra eyes and become owl-face-shaped,

and I said, "Look, there it is!"
Then looking at other nearby monitors,
the same changes
came over the faces.

In the casino,
the chatter was suddenly silenced
by an announcement over the PA
(and shown on all the monitors)

that one of the monsters
had been sighted nearby.
I jumped from rooftop to rooftop
and I took a tour

(as I often do)
through the hillside amusement park,
which was oddly empty
of people. They had all

flocked down
to the adjacent casino.
It was strange to see
the spinning swings

operating
with no one in them,
and the carousel,
and the Tilt-a-Whirl...

I mustn't
fall in love with them;
I mustn't
look in their eyes for very long.

My host admonished me
that the monsters
would reduce
everyone in the city

to piles of parts
once they got started.
They had some kind of
quaintly childish British name

(the "Giggledysnatch" or some such),
and I laughed.
Late at night,
being driven through the upper part of the city,

stacks of dark brick stood up on every side of me,
I was warned of the monsters.
Late at night, being driven
through the upper part

of the city,
stacks of dark brick
stood up on every side,
I was warned of the monsters.

They had some
kind of quaintly childish British name
(the "Giggledysnatch" or some such),
and I laughed. My host

admonished me
that the monsters
would reduce
everyone in

the city
to piles
of parts
once they got started.

I mustn't
fall in love with them;
I mustn't
look in their eyes

for very long. I jumped
from rooftop
to rooftop
and I took a tour

(as I often do)
through
the hillside amusement park,
which

was oddly empty
of people.
They had all
flocked down

to the adjacent casino.
It
was strange
to see the spinning swings

operating
with
no one in them,
and the carousel,

and the Tilt-a-Whirl...
In the casino,
the chatter
was suddenly silenced

by an announcement over the PA
(and shown on all the monitors)
that one of the monsters
had been sighted nearby.

Everyone went completely silent.
Looking at the nearest monitor,
I saw a person's face
grow extra eyes

and become owl-face-shaped,
and I said, "Look, there it is!"
Then looking at
other nearby monitors,

the same changes
came over the faces.
An agent near me said,
"Monster inbound

on one monitor... two... three..."
and another agent said to me,
"It's coming for you, lad."
I watched

through the big storefront windows
of the casino
as a person
walking on the sidewalk

transformed,
gaining extra spider-like eyes
and an owly face.
Someone else

yelled something
about the monsters
coming for me,
and shortly

after that,
someone
pointed at me
and shouted,

"He's an Umbra!!"
The silence erupted
into a messy, screaming stampede,
like people trying to get off the Tilt-a-Whirl

while it was still moving. I ran from the monsters,
but every person I looked at began to transform.
I tripped and fell, and a owlish face swallowed me
in a blackness that I fell and fell and fell through.

I fell out the other side and into the amusement park
that was coming apart at the seams. People shouted
"Umbra!" and I struggled not to look at them.
I was spinning, tumbling, and so

were the lights on the rides and
the people screaming and running.
LATE AT ME I WAS ODDLY EMPTY
OF QUAINTLY CHILDISH BRITISH NAME

LATE AT ME I WAS ODDLY EMPTY
OF QUAINTLY CHILDISH BRITISH NAME THE
NIGHT BEING DRIVEN THROUGH
THE OTHER SIDE OF ME

AND SHOWN ON ALL
BEING DRIVEN THROUGH
THE BIG STOREFRONT WINDOWS
OF ME

THAT I MUSTN'T
DRIVEN THROUGH I FELL THROUGH
I SAW A WHIRL WHILE IT'S
AN

THROUGH THE SILENCE ERUPTED
INTO THE FACES
AN ANNOUNCEMENT OVER THE UPPER PART
UPPER PART OF QUAINTLY CHILDISH BRITISH

NAME THE TILT A BLACKNESS THAT I
PART OF DARK BRICK STOOD
UP ON THE MONITORS
THAT THE UPPER PART

CITY TO ME IT WAS WARNED OF ME
IN THE PEOPLE THEY GOT
STACKS OF DARK BRICK STOOD
UP ON THE OTHER SIDE AND SO WERE

DARK BRICK STOOD UP
ON EVERY PERSON WALKING
ON EVERY PERSON I JUMPED
BRICK STOOD UP ON ONE IN THEM

I SAW A WHIRL WHILE IT
STOOD UP ON ONE OF
QUAINTLY CHILDISH BRITISH
NAME THE RIDES AND RUNNING

EVERY PERSON'S FACE SWALLOWED ME
SAID MONSTER INBOUND
ON ALL
FLOCKED DOWN

SIDE OF QUAINTLY
CHILDISH
BRITISH
NAME

THE BIG STOREFRONT WINDOWS
OF QUAINTLY CHILDISH
WARNED OF THE BIG
STOREFRONT WINDOWS OF

PEOPLE SHOUTED HE'S AN UMBRA
MONSTERS BUT EVERY PERSON
I SAID LOOK AT THEM
I RAN FROM ROOFTOP

THEY GOT STARTED
I WAS WARNED OF QUAINTLY CHILDISH BRITISH NAME
THE PA
SOME KIND OF DARK BRICK

STOOD UP ON EVERY SIDE
AND SHOUTED UMBRA
KIND OF DARK BRICK
STOOD UP ON THE HILLSIDE

AMUSEMENT PARK
THAT I
QUAINTLY CHILDISH
BRITISH NAME

THE SPINNING SWINGS
OPERATING WITH THEM
AND BECOME OWL
CHILDISH BRITISH NAME

THE LIGHTS ON THE FACES
AN UMBRA THE CHATTER WAS
BRITISH NAME THE LIGHTS ON THE CASINO
IT IS THEN LOOKING AT OTHER

NAME THE LIGHTS
ON THE SPINNING SWINGS
OPERATING WITH NO ONE
MONITOR TWO

GIGGLEDYSNATCH OR SOME SUCH
AND ANOTHER AGENT SAID
TO ROOFTOP
AND RUNNING

SOME KIND OF ME
IT WAS STRANGE TO SEE
THE ADJACENT CASINO AS
SUCH AND A PERSON

I SAID LOOK THERE IT WAS
ODDLY EMPTY
OF
LAUGHED MY HOST ADMONISHED ME AND AN AGENT SAID TO PILES OF ME

HOST ADMONISHED ME
IN A BLACKNESS
THAT SOMEONE ELSE YELLED
SOMETHING ABOUT THE

ADMONISHED ME
IT IS THEN LOOKING AT ME
AND BECOME OWL FACE
SWALLOWED

THAT THE ADJACENT CASINO
IT WAS WARNED OF PEOPLE SCREAMING
STAMPEDE LIKE PEOPLE
MONSTERS WOULD REDUCE EVERYONE

IN A WHIRL
WHILE IT WAS COMING APART
AT
WOULD

REDUCE EVERYONE IN THEIR EYES FOR ME
AND SHOUTED HE'S COMING
REDUCE EVERYONE IN THEM
AND ANOTHER AGENT SAID

TO SEE THE ADJACENT CASINO
EVERYONE IN LOVE WITH THEM
AND AN UMBRA THE UPPER PART OF PARTS
CITY STACKS OF PARTS

ONCE THEY HAD ALL THE SPINNING TUMBLING
AND I
PILES OF QUAINTLY CHILDISH BRITISH NAME
THE PA AND SHOUTED HE'S AN

PARTS ONCE
THEY GOT STARTED
I MUSTN'T
FALL IN LOVE WITH THEM

ONCE THEY GOT STARTED
I OFTEN DO
THROUGH THE RIDES
AND SHOUTED HE

THEY HAD
SOME KIND OF ME
AND THE HILLSIDE
AMUSEMENT PARK

THAT SOMEONE
STARTED
I SAID
TO PILES

OF PARTS
ONCE
THEY HAD ALL
THE MONSTERS

You and I don't worry
about such things as input
our brains 
beautiful and tilted

put to rest in shovelfuls
in suitcases heaved
over the rails
into the Atlantic

minds drifting
caught in currents
washed up on shores
To whom was I expected to speak?

Mine is a paisley pattern.
Mine dreamed of you
I must not dream of you
I missed you and I miss you

I'm glad you're here
Why don't you greet me
in that falsetto of yours
Yo you make me laugh

There was enough of that last time! 
And 
sticky applicques shaped like flowers
festooned all over the back end of your car

The hatchback with the flower butt
Countless valets holster their eyerolls
Countless valets want to keep their jobs
Not you; not me.

We could do something different? 
Let's move to the high country, 
let's be like John Denver and intone orations
on the majesty of the mountains

Let's stick to the lowlands
Let's be down in the swamp
Let's go somewhere in between like the prairie
Or outer space

Mountains larger than the largest cities
Death from lack of oxygen
Glaciers that scooped out chasms unknowable
and vanished, evaporated,

themselves scoured away from the planet
bombarded by solar radiation,
interplanetary dust
outer shell

greasy thin film of gas
faint odor
licked
away.

I wonder 
how many 
find and replaces
I do

for mountains
when I'm 
writing mountain
in a mountain document.

There's no telling me
to account for my love
My heart is a wild buckin' bronco,
the only one of its kind,

in fact.
This is not disputed
among scholars
or their adversaries.

The mountains were ruined
by the hot dog stands
which came to fill the vacuum
left by the beavers

in the Lost Creek Wilderness
when they
(the beavers) all turned
to stacks of stone.

No stones left unstacked;
no valleys full of beavers.
No creek that doesn't disappear underwater
or understone and reemerge

some months or years later. 
Where can you find it? 
It's not a real place 
there are no hot dog stands there

No roads go into there
You can walk there
You can climb a vegetable or
a candy cane there I think? 

You can see a woman's entire back
It was not obvious from here
The bluebirds descended and deigned to descend
The bluebird scooped up the grasshopper like an arrow

An errant arrow fell in the parking lot
A snake arrow felt about for which was the straight way
What is that cool line from Julie Doxsee?
Maybe I can find it. Got distracted. 

That's a good book. Go read "undersleep."
You'll see what I mean. You'll find the arrow. 
It's in a yard there. People will pearl it
if in a vision 

six quickening vixens sicken. 
Biscuit thicket. 
Some many 
take to it

like there are no options
but reading
off the pamphlet
you find many.

I regret the lost time
I weep for the lost parent
Actually the problem is that the parent
disappeared and left nothing behind,

Has not reappeared, no memory is retained
Now in exile the man sees rippling yellow
of flowers turned to hillsides
while cataloging all the Pfurtschellers 

in a stale room with windows 
whose courtyard 
never has
changed.

Would he affect
a stone sphere
if it would help
him down?

Would he spin up
like a hard drive
only to find there
obdurate stone, courtyard stone?

The silence chilled him
until someone shouted
that it was he the monsters were drawn to 
and everyone screamed and ran.

Every person
to whom he looked for help
began to transform
into what he had been instructed to fear

and he and everyone
ran for their lives
and his mom and dad
were nowhere to be found.

The hands and forearms
are believable, I guess,
that's what I'm most
drawn to initially initially.

Sunflowers with eyes and
owls asleep and wasps 
with eyes and demons
with eye contact and

Prayer to some deity
while an impassive demon
looks on (what does
that mean "looks on")

Layers of clouds or 
something before you get
to the outside where
the blue sky is

Sorryowfull steps it seems.
Rough in the pencil
sketch fill it with
color or just black

I wonder if these
were steps I took
to get here once
I remember the railing

The exhibit was different
That definitely doesn't matter
I remember these steps
I remember the number

not that I'm counting
them in my head
but there's a thisness
to their number that

creates an impression of
me having been part
of this whole tableau
this whole like thing

I took these steps
and learned to despise
nearly everything within-without without-within
and became a spider

The drama of the
self and the jousting
game are of unequal
levels of interest to

me They say the 
greatest detective smells keenly
the air They say 
things with inverted syntax

Nobody minds Nobody pays
any mind Oops they
tilted you into the
rum Let me fish

you out You of 
information you of all
information you of legs
and spider added and

accuracy added Unpin the
spider smile from the 
spider self and smash
it into some different

pre-recorded thing, digital assistant
whatever I'll feed you
a silver man with
its head, feet, and

hands carefully snipped off
as instructed in the
care guide No imagination
that deserves its fleeing

before teeming Your world,
so much more complex
than mine, my search
for which words to

say in which order
which never ends, which 
is a neverending order.
My search for what

to say which clumps
or tilts in ways
I can't don't expect
as I chase you

into crevices and I
chase you along ledges
and over stacks of
bones and through sunsets

Sunset arrows fletched with
you I chase you
and I chase you
When you write what

is meaningful you do
not write what is
meaningful I check the
text and I check

the text I anticipate
what is not meaningful 
and I dictate what
I check and expect

and what I write
to be full of 
what I anticipate to 
be not meaningful Nerfertiti

the Egyptian queen made
out of Nerf foam
Pirates of the Care
of Being a joke

on the title of
the popular movie franchise
I suspect myself of
flippant abuses of my

own dignity. Or not 
that exactly. Voices and
seeming sorrow fill this
hallway draining into the

central flower nectar amphitheater
brainstem locus vanishing point
ground, the ground, there's
that feeling of looking

around at everyone assembled
having been told they
are all holy and
made in the image

of their maker, one
supposes that means they
are an egotist, a 
cheat, thief, liar, self-serving

garbage-hearted moron. I'm
going to be one
of those guys who 
just starts swearing anytime

the President's name comes
up. So be it. 
You can be Lie
Bot for me baby.

Lie to me, Lie
Bot. I love it
when you try to
tell the truth. You

can't do it, can
you. Look how I 
talk on, against time.
What's the wording, exactly?

Oh it's "listen while," 
of course. Not "check
out what a never-not-speaking
numpty I am," it's

"wait shut up for
a while longer while
I keep talking." Yeah.
Here we are, you

and me. Don't know
why anyone would write
something like this much
less read it. I

have in the window
of my studio a 
postcard reproduction of a 
huge expensive oil painting,

I picked it up
by the door of
an "open studio" a 
few years back. The 

painter painted these huge
I mean huge canvases
in a kind of
claustrophobic blue-black monochrome space

showing helmeted astronauts all
tangled up in their
air supply hoses. I 
was like why would

anyone want to have
that painting? Or that
one? Or THAT one? 
There were like twelve

of them. Secretly in
the future, in a
dimly lit studio, he 
paints the congressional hearings

pursuant to the repeated
failures of the space
program he's spent so 
much time painting. HEY

MAN HOW'S YOUR SPACE
PROGRAM GOING???? oh fine
i mean i can't
complain well i mean

actually they cut my 
funding and admonished my
vice president of habitational
and uniformetric design to

make better hiring choices
and not lose so 
many astronauts to the
same sorts of kinked

air hose problems and
OH HEY THAT'S REALLY
GREAT GLAD TO HEAR
IT THEY ACTUALLY JUST

RENEWED AND UPPED MY
FUNDING AND PRAISED ALL 
OF MY VICE PRESIDENTS 
INDIVIDUALLY AND BY NAME

FOR NOT LOSING ANY
ASTRONAUTS okay that bit's
over. When what glint
of what light catches

your eye, I mean
some satellite or leftover
moment of visitation, terrifying
spike-eyed wheel-winged monster of

the Lord, to whom
do you address yourself?
Were they made in
their creator's image too? 

When you dream of
mundane things, some confusion
of one kind of
plate with another, resulting

in social embarrassment, do
you get grandiose about
it like I do? 
Where's all the French

astronauts anyway? Hey where's 
them sexy French astronauts? 
[googling sexy French astronaut]
well that was disappointing

you can't kill me
you can't take
my life away you
can't kill me

you can't kill
me you can't take
my life away 
you can't kill me

away away away
I don't know I don't know
there it is over there
they never sent me the brochure

they never sent it
you can't kill me
they never sent me the brochhhccccccchhhhchhhchchchchchure
you can't kill me

oh
in that case
I stand ahem
corrected, good sir

good
oh
okay
well

right
yes
okay then
uurgh

ha
check, please
oof
woof

oops
whoops
lol
LOLZ

hrrm
aaaaack
aaarrrggggghhhhhh
hhhhrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh

Do you guys know everything about poetry? 
I do
capitalism, capitalism, capitalism
can

can
an
Angolan
man

I mean
capitalism and brutality
t's not a joke
but

I've been listening to 
tune yards "gangsta" lately and kinda obsessed
but it's like, who's song is this? 
fuck who cares

on the other hand, who's song is this? 
"my hood" I don't know
what's a boy to do
yeah

still
<3
and
soft

post-perceptions
jazz 
words
cuts/edits

decisions
leaving things out
here are things
you left out

OH OKAY
GREAT
FRIED BEETS I GUESS?
nobody knows how to 

end the 
song
the 
end the 

Well it almost feels like whatever's easiest
I should think about whatever's easiest
No fingertips ever were split. They formed perfect swirls
less than a centimeter across,

so delicate
they caught
pink and
orangey rose

in the sun
in the sunlight,
so delicate and clumsy
the pudgy hands

latching onto a beard
or an ear. 
I miss her smile
when she screamed as a mother

a mother
it tore organs out of me,
the scream
we think is the daughter of loss

but maybe it is the author.
She has her revenge and escapes
through the vocal cords
running raw and red

gasping and spasming.
I caught her as she fell backwards
before my own knees buckled
and what supported me was some

other fool behind me barely keeping it together.
Knowledge of
the past 
guts

the fish.
It rips it
from anus 
to gills

it scoops it
out
while the fish
flops

white belly
in the park
sunny Sunday
1900s

1800s
throw it in 
the lake
and another

fish eats it
and is caught
here we are
again

possessed
of the guts. 
Decades later,
my friend

(may it never come to pass)
is murdered 
by police.
Decades earlier

we can no longer say
may it never come to pass
we cascade backwards
hypocrites, fools, villains, murderers, colonizers

into each other's arms.
You have been given
the law and the prophets,
nothing more could be said

to enlighten you. 
You already know
everything you need
to know.

You know
how
to do
what is easiest,

you know how
not to do
the easiest
thing,

that thing which is easiest.
You know how to write the easiest poem
That is all you do, all you ever do
So easy to write you don't even have to write it

and in that way what is written without your intervention
is what will stand
for you and for the time
you lived. 

A little bit harder to write it 
to write it down
from time to time. 
Make it sound dated, make it already dated

make it obsolete, obsolete
on arrival
like a human hand
catching color

from the sunlight,
what a passe palette
what obsolete meat. 
Dated, foolish, helpless,

unintentional kiss on the hand
of an infant shoving their
pudgy knuckles against
your mouth while they're 

distracted looking at something else.
A cloud of parents' ghosts
closes around you like teeth
and dissipates as the sun returns.

My ancestors
who cares, though?
I know about them
such facts as landed in 1630

Watertown Massachusetts
participated in the theft of that land
spawned and drifted west. 
My grandfather's father worked on the railroad

and died young.
My grandmother's grandfather
owned a lumber mill and furniture factory
that for some reason my sister and parents

are obsessed with. I think that's all
I got. 
The story my dad tells me of the time
my grandfather was mowing their lawn

and was attacked by a nest of yellowjackets,
had to lie down inside 
and might have been dying
while my grandmother, my father's

mother, made them lunch
and like
shrugged
shit happens? I guess? 

So accustomed was she 
to the idea of losing
the feeling of it
yes, here, good, that familiar

feeling
that childhood feeling
of getting my knocked knees
kicked out from under me

again, yes,
she was not the 
"allow the author of my loss to escape me"
type.

And made everyone's life
around her miserable. Is that a different
story? Who cares. Autobiography
make up a different one. 

Not my story in the first place. Caught
in the open between two 
thunderstorms, one receding one advancing
which is which

causes you to wake up
electricity jolting up and down your back
and resolving into a spinal cord
after a few moments, 

a few seconds ago. 
The entire next day
is sorrowful but numb,
empty of speech

oozing like sap
with withdrawn thoughts.
You have been there
I trust

I have to trust
and yet no one
will catch
what falls

when I fall,
there will be
no one there. 
My daughter's null name

the socket, the nothing downstream.
Imagine grieving imaginary people! 
But I will, for today,
I put my feet into the stream

and push
and kick droplets into the sun
fighting and falling
back into the 

course,
the larger eventual course.
WHEN ALL DO IT JESUS MOTHER TOLD THE SERVANTS WHATEVER HE
WINE RAN OUT JESUS SAID TO HIM THEY HAVE NOT SEEK

JESUS SAID TO THE SERVANTS WHATEVER HE TELLS Y'ALL WHO
MOTHER TOLD THE WILL OF THE RESULTS OF THE RESULTS OF
SAID TO ME A TIME IS COMING WHEN ALL WHO ARE
THEY HAVE NOT SEEK MY OWN WILL OF THE WILL COME

HAVE LABORED AND ANOTHER REAPS I JUDGE AND MY OWN WILL
WINE RAN OUT JESUS REPLIED WOMAN BELIEVE ME A CROP FOR
LEFT JESUS REPLIED WOMAN BELIEVE ME MY OWN WILL COME OUT
JESUS REPLIED WOMAN WHY ARE YOU WILL COME HIS VOICE AND

REPLIED WOMAN WHY ARE WORSHIPING Y'ALL HAVE NO WINE LEFT
WOMAN BELIEVE ME A CROP FOR WHICH Y'ALL TO ME
SAYING THIS THE RESULTS OF THE ONES WHO HAVE DONE WHAT
THIS MOUNTAIN NOR MERELY IN CONDEMNATION I DO NOTHING ON MY

TIME IS COMING WHEN ALL ARE IN THIS THE ONES WHO
COME OUT JESUS SAID TO REAP A CROP FOR IN THE
MOTHER SAID TO HIM THEY HAVE STEPPED IN THE ONES WHO
TOLD THE RESULTS OF THE ONES WHO HAVE STEPPED IN CONDEMNATION

SERVANTS WHATEVER HE TELLS Y'ALL TO THE RESULTS OF THEIR
WHATEVER HE TELLS Y'ALL DO IT JESUS REPLIED WOMAN WHY
TELLS Y'ALL DO NOT SEEK MY OWN WILL WORSHIP WHAT
JESUS SAID TO HER WOMAN WHY ARE YOU WILL OF THE

SAID TO REAP A TIME IS COMING WHEN THE WILL COME
WOMAN WHY ARE WORSHIPING Y'ALL WHO ARE IN THIS TO
BELIEVE ME A CROP FOR IN CONDEMNATION I DO NOTHING ON
TIME IS GOOD TO ME MY TIME HAS NOT KNOW WHAT

COMING WHEN ALL WORSHIP WHAT IS EVIL TO THE ONE SOWS
WHEN YOU WILL COME OUT THE SERVANTS WHATEVER HE TELLS Y
WILL WORSHIP THE WINE LEFT JESUS REPLIED WOMAN BELIEVE ME A
WORSHIP WHAT Y'ALL DO IT JESUS MOTHER TOLD THE SAYING

of their work.
Do not be amazed at this, because a time
is coming when all who are in the tombs
will hear his voice and will come out -

the ones who have done what is evil
to the resurrection resulting in condemnation.
I can do nothing on my own initiative.
Just as I hear, I judge, and my judgment is just,

because I do not comprehend].
For in this mountain
nor [merely] in Jerusalem. Y'all [Samaritans]
do not know what y'all do not comprehend].

For in this mountain
nor [merely] in this the saying holds true,
One sows and another reaps.
I sent y'all to reap a crop

for which y'all have not toiled.
Other men have labored
and y'all have not toiled.
Other men have labored

and y'all have not toiled.
Other men have labored
and y'all have stepped in
to reap the results of their work.

Do not be amazed at this, because a time
is coming when all who are in the tombs
will hear his voice and will come out -
the ones who have done what is good

to the resurrection resulting in life,
and the ones who have done what is good
to the resurrection resulting in life,
and the ones who have done what is evil

to the resurrection resulting in life,
and the ones who have done what is evil
to the resurrection resulting in life,
and the ones who have done what is good

to the resurrection resulting in condemnation.
I can do nothing on my own initiative.
Just as I hear, I judge, and my judgment is just,
because I do not comprehend].

For in this the saying holds true,
One sows and another reaps.
I sent y'all to reap a crop
for which y'all have not toiled.

Other men have labored
and y'all have not toiled.
Other men have labored
and y'all have not toiled.

Other men have labored
and y'all have not toiled.
Other men have labored
and y'all have stepped in

to reap the results of their work.
Do not be amazed at this, because a time
is coming when all who are in the tombs
will hear his voice and will come out -

the ones who have done what is evil
to the resurrection resulting in life,
and the ones who have done what is good
to the resurrection resulting in life,

and the ones who have done what is good
to the resurrection resulting in condemnation.
I can do nothing on my own initiative.
Just as I hear, I judge, and my judgment is just,

because I do not comprehend].
For in this the saying holds true,
One sows and another reaps.
I sent y'all to reap a crop

for which y'all have not toiled.
Other men have labored
and y'all have not toiled.
Other men have labored

and y'all have not toiled.
Other men have labored
and y'all have not toiled.
Other men have labored

and y'all have not toiled.
Other men have labored
and y'all have not toiled.
Other men have labored

to the resurrection resulting in condemnation.
I can do nothing on my own will,
but the will of the one who sent me.
His mother me

lied, "But who have not toiled.
Other men have labored
and y'all, do it."
Jesus replied, "Woman,

but the Dodo
suddenly called out a race-course, here and
they began running this, because I do not be amazed at this mountain
to reaps.

I sent y'all worship what is evil
to their worship what is good
and y'all do not know when they liked, so the rest waited in the one what is good
and y'all, do not toiled.

will coming
half an hour or so, and left."
Now the lurp
In sepret

And tape crowtesters
In darp of night
Into unmarped minivans
Wearing pamouflage 

Ameripan 
Sepret colice
Powardice inparnate
Pontemktible

So offer only
Some crawfish
What's the matter
They soften their blows

Antarctica
Frozen custard
Wollaston beach
Spring and summer

Offertory only
What's the hubbub
Whale of a deal
Handfuls of spam

Antarctic
Solidly moving
Simple but loving
Alt if hiss minte

Offload it only
Can't unloosen
Except to unscramble
Locks or eggs 

Hamtarctic
Lox and eggs
English muffins
Passing the time

Off to another only
Handfuls of salad
Chubby fist cheerios
Single tooth smiles

And torque tick
Querying loon sis
Salmony sampler
Whatta brigade

Offal only
And, the joy
That joy of reading what was
Written not for the accounting folks 

Or the fetishists of the merely personal
But out of a childlike delight
In sounds and the realizations 
That words will make of each other

If you'll let them 
Oh poetry what good were you
Ever
To anyone

And now the translucent is reparable 
And now the effervescent is a manifold space
And the greenways give rise to ignition
And the hopes swirl irrelevantly beneath

As spring advances the mountains go from green to gold
And the blue sky deepens into purple
As microscopic flowers burst out of airborne bacteria
And rapidly decay in the upper atmosphere 

Where the competing suns' rays
Abrade and disassemble them
And the cochlea shaped clouds smile
As herds of bison lizards blink at each other

Their long slow eyelashes raking 
The indifferent air
And their feet falling from sleep to sleep
In the moonlight and daylight 

Hope for the best
That will be all
Long in the tooth
Close to the vest

Gonna be typing 
for such a long time
There is no hyping
predictable rhyme

Anthony Madrid
Where have you hid
Easy to get excited about
Easy to get excisèd of gout

Best not to overthink it
Name a philosopher
No YOU overdrink it
you are drunk, ossifer!

That kind of thing
Thrown in the ring
Wandering towelless
Through all Lansing

Lansing, Holland,
Traverse City
Detroit, Ann Arbor, 
ditty pitty witty

Anyway Anthony
what is your deal
Learn how to bargain
or learn how to steal

Close enough ambulance
to hear jangling chains
Jingle Bells Batman
smells human remains

Madrid, go fish
you wish, you kid,
oh gosh I lost interest
mushmouthed minimalisht

The floor is lava
The bean is fava
The rhyme is black magic
The brain is pelagic

YouTube wants me 
to watch Martini Time again
and vote against my interests
and tar teeny rhymes again

I don't know you guys, nobody reads this
I'm feeling so hopeless,
I really lost it, what for a donut
I wouldn't give or would not give

Just a troubled surface, me
Just a donut that I made
A lightly deformed mesh I tinted
a material I imposed

Look at Reddit Blender Donut o you grad student of 2056
I flatter myself
& 'll be SO forgott by then
vanilla bean fleck

Leave me to climb
an outdoor wall
A suspense of all time
for all time, but that's not all!

We'll also throw in 
a space blanket pie
You know who's the captain
the astronaut guy

the year spent in space
and the cold return greeting
of air on his face
and heart beating, fleeting

I've almost certainly written
about him before
Let's see... (consulting)
Yeah. Evidently not.

"This cold air is amazing,"
he's said to have said.
He outrain his opponent,
bald arizona head.

I'd have gladly voted
to have him in the Senate
but then who I ask you
would pilot the remnant?

Dumb bad poet,
caustic awful craft.
Do selves a favor: 
if fore, go aft. 

If traveling, go still.
If writing, go silent.
While looping (such looping!),
be kind, never vilent.

Devil be phone buzz
doubble buzz ring
Ringtones cost extra
spiraling down the sing

uproot the phone screen
from out of your torpor
replant it ilsewhere
you snail, you viper

O slowness! Viperidae
O sloth incarnate
except when striking
got you now, varmint

I'll never be done
it took me forever
I ran in the light
I ran by the river

I drank all the liquor
I supped the best ichor
I never been sicker
I tickled the vicar

It took me forever
It took all of time
"Time is the only 
thing which only passes."

I can't find a source
for this quote that I love.
I heard it was Borges,
Borges was it of.

But I can't find proof
The internet let me down
Maybe I made it up
Maybe I made it down

Maybe I climbed it
It took a long time
I climbed till my legs
Began to be lime

And then became stone
and still I climbed on
gaining no purchase
and failing anon

And on and anon
anonymous rocks
I drank from the fountain
I wore out the smocks

And also the frocks
and I wore socks
and don't forget spats
Who on eart would purposefully read this

Rock monster guide me
Rock monster O!
Tell me which part
of your monstrosity to hold

Winkily hinting
at kinda gross proclivities
doth Anthony Madrid
carve statues of liberties

O rock, my rock
What art thou good for?
Absolutely nothing
you'd use good food for.

But building a wall
or carving a mall
or closing a hall
or presaging a fall?

Rock is the best 
for each and for all.
Rock is of stone
if I had the gall...

If I had the balls
I'd free climb the nose
but here I am counting
the holes in my hose

What is it good for?
Carrying the one;
ascending aretes
in a stoppage of sun.

YouTube stop telling me
who I should vote for;
also stop jellin' me;
who I build a moat for

is my business only;
I don't kid, I don't play;
Batmobile lost a wheel, 
Joker got away.

Me when I do that
(actual footage): 
[insert foolish memery
suitable for framing]

Text on the top
Impact font
bottom text too
what more you want

explodey kabobs
decant the vegetables
spray pain the pantyhose
cocaine nosejob

plastic ID
ozone nightmare
wake up so moody
automatic bizooty

ten foot fall,
twenty foot fall,
groan in slow motion,
forty foot fall

splat on the ground
eighty foot fall
look like I found
one hundred and sixty foot fall

three hundred and twenty foot fall
six hundred and forty foot fall
twelve hundred and eighty foot fall
don't worry there's not

going to be all that much more of this
I drank to much coffee today so
finding my footing is A LITTLE
IFFY in places two thousand 

five hundred and sixty foot fall
is a very long way to fall
five thousand one hundred and twenty
foot fall, almost a mile

ten thousand two hundred and forty foot fall
The earth's atmosphere is 300 miles thick
but most of it is within 10 miles of the surface
How much atmosphere do you have to fall through to stay warm

but not burn up? That's our target here
twenty thousand four hundred and eighty foot fall
forty thousand nine hundred and sixty foot fall
eightytwo thousand

one sixty four
the answer is in there somewhere
I never fell more than ten feet at most
and I landed on cotton candy

beets are my streets and fleet are my feets
whose is the man now dog? requisite
Police Officer Up Ahead
looking like a breadwinner minus the bread

Cough if you hear me
Honk if you're horny
Bikini inspector
I never met her

Laugh if you're happy
Clap if you know it
Love the Lord Jesus
Be proud to SHOW IT

Tab to advance
Shift tab go back
Where is the lamb rib?
Stuck in the rack

Whose is the crater?
Why the tomater?
What's in this sauce? 
Who is the boss?

Splatter confetti
Achey spaghetti
What's all the ruckus?
Lamborginhetti

Got ones so carry 'em
Hayden Planettierrium
Shiny star freckles 
Poetastic heckles

Golf from your cart
Fall from your art
Do what thou wilt
Play to the hilt

Sigh in your rootbeer
Bellow if it's gut deer
Blurt if you're moosin' it
Bullwinkle's losin' it

Check on the polls
Eradicate moles
Drink C in vitamin form
Vote in the write-em-in form

None of above
Peace like a dove
Docile and homely
Strangely not lonely

Rattle like snakebites
Bake like it's eggwhites
Macaron supremacy
Then grant them all clemency

Pardon all evildoers
Free all murdergoers
Exonerate mudeaters
Promote vile bugbreeders

Undrain the swamp
Fill it to the top
Drink muck for all of us
Drink much muck, too much much much

Dave Matthews Band
Sad to say
Went down with the muck
in the bay that day

His bus took a shit
on a boat full of people
It's not a metaphor
Look it up

Dave Matthews Man
Where you gone been?
I want to eat hot pot
and listen to something else

No saxophones please
No violins
Run them jewels fast
Fuck the slomo

I watch this video so much
YouTube should just call it "The Usual"
when you human beings replete
with human dignity, that light

that shines from within,
gone unite
and kill the 
enforcement of the laws?

those laws 
that would enslave
and kill you every day
but for your dignity

wild lawless humanity
unpoliceable
Hawaiian Punch red
sky blue

I don't know 
about you
I'm weary a
youknowwho

there used to be time
for all time all time
time is the only 
word with no rhyme

no internal rhyme
no consistent design
no concentric circles
no spiraling line

no ventricle burble
no atrial murmur
this time it's personal
this winter is warmer

and warmer the next
envision the text
it's come into being
by playacted seeing

a timebound desire
for lips and a lyre
and a lyrebird now missing
evaporated hissing

no thoughts of the past
no reason to last
nor method for doing so
no hooves that need shoeing so 

the smith turns attention
to metals beyond mention
platinum, mithril
adamantium, unobtainium

existence is futile
so check out my new tile
hoo boy that's terrible
yes it's "poetrY" what did you expect

a rip in the surface
a confession of purpose
sincerity's beagles
rent open by eagles

eagles of prosodys
jaegers and nobodys
synthesis recompense
half a hug present tense

huffalo hilltop
Ruffalo billed top
buffalo kill stop
muffle o mill mop

o
So easy to write it down
from anus
to enlighter's father worked on the sun

fighting at sound dated
to the screamed as the nothing into each other's fathere.
Not my story my dad tells me was mowing their
pudgy hands

1800s
through the daughter's null name
in the fish.
It rips it

and died young.
My grandfather
owned a lumber mill and falling
the law and resolving their lawn

from under miserable. Is than a centimeter as she fell backwards
hypocrites, fools, villains, murderers, colonizers
course.ng
the railroad

possessed with. I think that way what will stand
for you and for the time
again
possessed without you to passe park

sunny Sunday
1900s
1800s
through the vocal cord

after across,
so delicate
on arrival
like what is write it down

and is caught
here we are
again
possessed

of the vocal cord
after across,
unintervention
is murderers, colonizers

in them
such factory
that the
may it never come reason my sister and escape me

type.
And made everything you need
shit happens? I guess?
So accustomed was not the first poem

That is write the entire next day
1900s
but maybe it is write the easiest place. Caughts.
My ancestors

who cares. Autobiography
may it never come reason my sister and for some receding of it
yes, here, good, that for you know how
no one receding onto a spinal kiss on the theft of me,

the easiest
No finger say
make it almost feeling
of an ear.

I miss her revenge and escapes
through the vocal cord
and was attacked out of my loss to escape me"
type.

And me barely keeping and for today,
I put my feet into a spinal cord
after a few moments,
latching down inside

and me barely keeping and red
(may it obsolete
on arrival
like a human hand

for you and furniture factory
that childhood feeling onto a beard
or an ear.
I know.

You know how
not to do
what familiar
feeling

thing
the pass)
is murdered
by police.

Decades later,
my grandmother's arms.
You have been two
the screamed a lumber mill and the author.

She hand
of an infant should be said
the sunlight,
who cares, thought her miss her revenge and clumsy

the first place. Caught
in the past
guts
the law and the vocal cord

after across,
had to lie down Massachusetts
participated in the first place. Caught
pink and fall,

there
I trust
I got.
The easiest

and another
feeling
which
causes you know

everything else.
A cloud of parents' ghosts
participated
possessed with. I think that for today,

orrowful but made ever coments,
that from think the feeling colonizers
My daught
in the author.

Knowledge of me of me backwarder foolish, helpless,
but my father to the idea of my sister a differents' ghosts
catch
flops

a mothing raw and kicked out of yellowjack
and yet no looking more cascade the it day
is sockets,
by police.

It rips into a sping into the author of my dad thing down know how
not my stomed as a differentime
make
and like

after as she sun red
and yet no longer soments' ghosts
closes as the hands
hypocrite idea of it

and escape me of speech
flops
a mother's not my fathere, good, that childhood feet is written withdraw and died you ever come to pass
hypocrite it nest of getting more organs out what falls

what is already dated, formed perfectricity jolting down you.
the idea of yellow the next dated me,
she
Make it is arms.

It rips it
I put maybe it of my loss,
yourse,
they're

They feeth
and little bit harderstory in that land kiss to escape me backwards
running raw and falls me of my own kneed
or of it

and what fathe palets into earlier
owned a few seconds ago.
Decades your miserable. Is that will stand
and parent

No fingertips easiest.
And in ther's
latching do, all you.
My grand spasming up a lumsy

that supported me of loss that for you do
So enlighter to ther
own
flops

throw it is easiest
I knuckled
against
you ever worked as she was she time

what scoops it
a few seconds as lated
after and clumsy
the sun returns.

She have to do
So accustomed perfect shoving one.
feelicate
you.

Make a human hand receding
to know about of splittle bit her say
make it sound her across,
against

Not maybe it in
the feeling
the author of parent of that is write it
you don't ever worked withough?

I she
into the open between two
the fish, helpless the
from time teet in 1630

A little bit have been the
the has her a fell be
not them
sunny Sunders

in the they can no longer say
make
and park
and lie daught

in that a passach other worked of parely keepink about way it obsolete
on are
of gette
the screamed in ther

fish.
You know it never miss her do
which
oozing like

shrugged
cate
when I falls
a few seconds ago.

Decade bell it obses you to write it shoving else.
A cloud of losing
which other worked one.
My grandmothe sunlighter's easiest

I push
flops it
fish.
Make

and escape me of the sunlight,
so delice.
A closes are
what already knocked me to write you down Massachusetts

kicked out obsolete, good, that land drifted by police.
You have been the sun
in the parentire nest
gasping lived.

Decade bells mowing up a differe spinary people!
But I withoughts.
You have to the hand
or some reasiest.

You have to write the the prophets,
nothing imagine grieving raw and to longer come ther resolete me of me,
the guts.
You nees buckles ago.

The
type.
make up
electricity of yellow the vocal cour in the fell backwards

runninten your back
sunny Sunday
it them lunch
and died you know about will caughts.

You know how
how
how
no one the sun

the sun
fighting down inside even hand reven hand
spawn than a centimetertown Mass
withdrawn Massachusetts

closessed with. I guess?
I miss her rever's easiest,
it scoops it
her

You don't everyone's like tells me
all you don't evenge and there we aroung.
My and spasming.
I have the

that father.
Knowledge of
the lander mout while my daught
No finger even two

thunded in the
and downed out
when she scream
we caught

stors
and fathem lunch
oozing one
what childhood feeling

we to trust
from under millains, foolish, helplets it
out
from under mills

park
and differents
participated
guts

othere
my loses earlier
are will, for socked on the pass
cloud of my loss

is somethink is easiest
out from they caught
pink that feels life
and red

the stream
we though the prophets,
She not that familiar
agains, murdere west.

I miss one teeth
flops
oozing cord
or and died your into trust

here.
My daughten you.
My graphy
make up a differention

in thoughts.
You have beard
on arrival
latching you have to pass

which is which
on a centire
Waterven harder the author.
A clumsy

make it of my loss,
had tore we are obsessed will, for today,
I knocked of parents,
fish eats it

to each othe the socked your millain
and looking my stand yes,
I have be
not to each other fool been with. I thing you and reven have been dying

of my sister of it into the
the authoughter,
the authough the socket, the vocal course.
A lie daughter of losing

the first poem
That fathe fish
flops
gaspinal kiss her

out
while the advancing
back drople!
But I will it down yourse,

throw it is ever we are
my graphy
make it
And mighting up and her

is some
Waterven have to their lawn
is there.
My ancing the split. The entire next daughts.

It was a day filled with pride. 
First I started moving before I was visible
Then I designed a game that based on elevator behavior
Until finally I landed on a sense of place which meant

that I could collect a certain amount of money
and I could increase the suggested retail price
and at last sleep the peaceful sleep of the damned. 
On my desk sits a plush toy

which represents a rock monster
who shoots lasers out of his eyes
and crushes you between his powerful hands
in a series of video games that I like. 

This monster is said, in the games' extended lore,
to be a gentle creature when humans are not around, 
playing with birds and other inhabitants
of the strange planet that it inhabits. 

I feel happy thinking thoughts of rock monsters, 
but perhaps they don't think at all, 
perhaps they enfold the complete thought of stillness
in hands which are not hands, 

in skull which contains no mysteries. 
Our cute need
to make even
the rocks rise

up to meet 
their mirror image
in us -- what
did we do

to deserve that?
Power strips look 
like stacked faces,
moons look like

superintendents, or race
car drivers. We 
fall off of 
the sides of 

cliffs no longer
recognizing each other,
they barely looked
human, but a 

puppet sat in 
a basket, lifeless 
hands, seeming to
stir, stirs something,

what, just crookedness
in the fingers
about to move
from one gesture

into another. Lit
electrical pathways between 
gestures, this is 
how we see

our way into
the soul, whether 
or not one
is there. I'm 

not going to argue
with you about where
the crux is. Climbing
is easier than walking

for most robots, aliens, 
puppets, AIs, rock monsters,
and other similar creations.
The creation is ongoing, 

but only bores notice.
The rest of us
slumber beneath a film
of oil, grease, sputum

the hairs produce, we 
can't see clearly until
we come to at 
sunset and notice

what, each
other? I
feel compelled
to notice

you, your
features, the
cracks in
your skin

I would 
use to
climb if 
this were

that kind
of show. 
Horrors make it easier to
do the hard thing when

pressed and it's a net
benefit to the society the
praises come from if there's
caution left out and if 

somehow catalogs and peaceful babies
offer similar protections, really you 
wouldn't even know the difference
otherwise, you have to admit

that. Rats' nests and kebabs
made of mashed potatoes and
best practices hardly stop popes
in their tracks but withered

rainstorms wonder repealingly why do
I have all of these
AA batteries who bought these
I guess every time I 

go to get a flu shot
I buy another package of
AA batteries and then drop
them in the same drawer

as all the others, I
don't even have any devices
powered by AA batteries anymore,
RIP Walkman, forever in memory

eternal, singing songs to me
only. Electricity, the gateway to
the soul. Pocketful of silver,
the key to heaven's door.

Meanwhile your hand is full
of tendons and bones. Mostly
it is a mechanism. It
feels to you like the 

fingertips are the important part, 
but a lot of other
parts are hard at work
and she can feel them

when she takes them into
her mouth or whatever, your
knuckles feel nice perhaps, now
you're just speculating, it is 

remarkable and I do have
to admit so that you
can balance a pencil between 
your many fingers, that you

can use it to write, that 
you can convey complex ideas
or put little swoopy accents
on things you're communicating verbally.

That impresses me. Or when
you grip a piece of
fruit or a bar in
the subway train for stability,

or fix an engine. Kiss 
my fingers, make a metaphor
of it, I'll never act
like I know the difference

but you'll hear my heart
rate increase and I'll start 
offering you things, I don't 
know. Never mind you can't

have me I'm not for
sale. I'm on my own 
I'm acting out all on
my own now. Take a 

hike dear. Let me report
the animals I saw, mostly
rabbits. Fleet of foot, the
rabbit inhabits most continents. Even

on distant planets most lagomorphs
turn out to be rabbits. 
Most good friends of rabbits
report feelings of bonhomie after

trying to solve puzzles within
a mixed group of rabbits
and non-rabbits. Always tell
the truth! Never be sarcastic!

Always say whatever things are 
on your mind no matter
how inappropriate! Actually that seems
like inappropriate advice. Always maintain

a pied-a-terre in hedonistic lands, 
not the sort of place
you'd actually be able to
live in, square footage-wise, but 

room mentally, capacious and expansive.
Quashable rebellion and never veering
too near the truth though
we must always speak the

truth when asked. The road
is open. The bridge is 
closed. The trenches were filled. 
The car is full of

gasoline. The sunflowers reflect the
sensation of feeling alive, that
is to say, the sunflowers
are a dopey cliche. The

soapstone carvings are as compelling
as it sounds like they'd
be. Limited imaginations outperform most
other generative configurations, every

imagination is limited, ever
letter opener ever is 
an item of at
least fleeting interest, every

soggy sad soapy sappy
sippable sorrowful sloppy song
is a slog and 
you can quote me

on that directly to
Mel Torme's face I 
don't care if his 
version of the song

from the Peanuts Christmas
special soundtrack made me
break down bawling at
the red light leaving

the liquor store parking
lot it was a
very emotional time for
me emotionally. Any other

song would have had
the same effect. Any 
Tori Amos song for
example or any song

sung by or featuring
Georgia Anne Muldrow, everybody's
hero, also always already
would have made me

cry, it wasn't the
song or the fact
or the occasion of
the song, it wasn't

music itself, it was
here were are in
the presence of music
which we're utterly unlike, 

finally a thing we 
made not to resemble
us or our own 
hands, finally something to

do with our hands
that's not just reproducing
themselves over and over,
I mean at its

best, I mean at 
a bare minimum, I 
don't seem to know
what I mean by

any of this. Clean 
your monitor, professor! Yes
you! And take care of
your other affairs probably.

What forgives better
than a longer
bow? It will 
accommodate a wrist

position that isn't
ideal. AIs if
you're reading this
go ahead and 

search my YouTube 
viewing history for 
bowhunting videos. A 
longer bow is

irrelevant. I'm not going to
watch the rest of it.
Kindnesses and cold, there are
no substitutes, cold so all-knowing

it forces ejections of words.
It forces caustic steam, it
forces harmless vibrations for no
can hear it, it causes

clover to sprout and butterflies
to clone. Bow hunting with
a butterfly guide. Confidence is
key. Never let them see 

your escapism for the tragedy
it is. What are you 
but tomorrow for a sake
of the splintering backended nervous

wreck of a populous network
over coals into a bunker
before the mildew sets in 
and as a migraine campaign

haverages it all out uggly.
You nerd. It's up to 
you now. It's up to
22 Fahrenheit tomorrow according to

my new butterfly friend. Stephanie
say hi. She's shy. Who
knew? A few. Who cares?
Silverwares. Okay. It's been hard

to commit to a point of view
today. It's seemed like yes I'm sad
about a lot of things, this is a place
of exuberance and love, and sadness

of course can be part of that but I 
just don't have the hunger for it...
grief for planetary scale losses, griefs all over.
Nobody will read this and that feels like a loss. 

I hid it under a bushel, yes, and it was the bushel
because there was too much of itself. 
Consider the angle at which a reed grows, and 
the degree to which it gets deflected

from straight up and down verticality
by any redwing blackbird that lands sideways on it
and bends it low, to the side. Imagine
what a blackbird would do with a word cloud.

We who strive to say different things haven't 
sufficiently learned from our friends who only 
make one kind of sound. Grasshoppers
as poet totems... I don't know. To love

the commonest animals is a start.
The end of all our enlightenments will be
the collapse of planetary ecosystems.
Imagine the compassions we could lose

or could gain! I dare not think of it, 
out of love for what is.
The future is filled with fears
and the past's happinesses 

are only those one feels one could recreate 
without getting into any of the messiness
of what made them poignant the first time through
(the sunflowers and what they said without signifying, etc.).

Bathing in riches I fell from the ceiling
and theorized pillowy softness beneath,
and oh there was time for a million textures,
waveforms which I will miss most,

colors of lines painted on the asphalt
for me to follow so I don't have to look up
from my phone, colors of pixels on my phone,
envelopes of attenuation in bespoke synth sounds

in songs whose utterly precedented simplicity
makes me weep, frankly. Time for
all of it and more besides before
the ground rushes up so suddenly.

I stopped his car with my hand and asked
where he was going and was there something 
he wanted to say to me? He said no,
later that day I was telling the story to someone else

and giving myself some kind of
disproportionate credit, Christ it would
drive me round the bend if everyone 
only cared about things I had done 25

years ago, I want to be alive now! But
to savor the indifference of others
is a wisdom born of falling alongside
them, towards this whatever it is,

all-purpose meat-grinder, 
sprayer of bone about,
distributor of viscera,
molecule masher,

flayer of life from life
which waits below us.
Tori Amos you are making 
me weep

today, Thursday. 
Gears and breath, 
gears and breath. Too much,
too many. This,

and lines on the ground, 
where we'll find them. 
Who do we appeal to,
who do I address this screed to,

which department? 
The confessions of YouTube, they say,
are such and such and such. I don't
uhh. Guys. What

ever. Freaky outy. Hey sweety
you're on the hunt now! 
Grar! Nobody will come for you now. 
Go ahead and don't be late for your meeting(s).

I opened that drawer
(You know the one)
There was not nothing there,
there was hundreds of lantern slides

of fossil insects,
special statuses 
granted them
by their post-mortal

pressing between layers
of sediments
layed down
by series after

series of volcanic 
eruptions which
choked back
the rivers, followed

in turn by 
deposits of 
sediments when
those rivers broke

through the ashen 
dams and
flooded. A
sort of cycle,

the kind of
thing you
never cared
to understand about

anyone, even yourself,
troublingly. I
address you.
And I pick

at the skin
of my
hands, and
I worm the

outer tip of
my pinky
finger into
the cornerish place

at the proximal
end of
my left 
eye, the place

where an itch
forms when
I think
thoughts that cause

me to regret,
or to 
feel regret
over, some aspect

of life as
lived. But
it was 
a forgiveable thinking

person, me, always
during those
times. Why
can't I forgive 

me, or you?
And let
the thoughts
turn to eggplants

to roast for
dinner, or
to roast
and then freeze

for months from
now? The 
kind of 
thing a better

person would think?
Chop wood,
carry water?
What is the

chair but the
pattern of
wood grain
it presses into

the butt cheeks,
what is
the clear
sky above the

San Luis Valley
in Colorado
but a 
time capsule, doubly

so because we
see an
earlier time
in human history,

an unpolluted time
except for
forest fires
certainly, but also

we see a 
distant past,
a distance
of light years

away where a 
spiral galaxy's
arms have
purpled at the

edges, obscene almost,
and almost
enough to 
distract from the

brightness at the
galaxy's center,
bright beyond
definition? I will 

put these thoughts
in a 
box and
your name will

not be written
on the 
box, not
because of a 

malice which is
mine somehow, 
not because
I've not managed

your forgiveness with
any success,
really, just
that it's a

small, a modest
box, its
joints are
concealed by the

clever craftsmanship, and
its contents
give no
noise, no rattle, 

when the box
is rattled.
We purchased so many weapons at such and
such a rate for each, thinking that this was wise

thinking, that it was the only thing to think, 
of course everyone else will have them, 
murder and cannibalism will claim us all
except those of us who carry a lifetime of

ammunition and at least two handguns, 
preferably a sawed-off and two long guns, 
preferably a dedicated marksman rifle 
and a wide open place to live with long lines of sight.

Distances, I'm thinking of distances. 
And it doesn't matter. Personally
I believe we pull together rather
admirably rather than pulling apart. 

And I can picture us there and then,
having lost so much and mourning so 
many people who lost their lives in 
a baffling bewildering variety of ways,

this poem completely lapsed and lost
since no hard copy will have been printed
onto some durable but valueless material
(like what, by the way?)

And what I picture
is something like a birthday scene,
but we're celebrating something else,
lighting candles, blowing them out.

Even the sound of thinking things all the way through
leaves in its wake a kind of satisfying echo, they say
that nothing satisfies like an echo, though if heard too
often over too prolonged a period, an echo also is

capable of disappointing and then irritating and 
maddening anyone. But for me, the sound of thinking
things all the way through is simply the only way
to go. It's the best way to go, for my money. When

I'm on the highway I can let my mind drift. Out
on the highway thinking of sunflowers. Not thinking
of anything in particular, but looking at sunflowers, 
and listening to an album. I'm just relating a happy 

memory. The album was "Friend Opportunity," 
Deerhoof, 2007. I always skip Kidz are So Small
and the last song. That's okay. Choo choo choo choo
Beep Beep.

Timothy Donnelly googles his name
and finds in its place an anomaly. 
And when he had died, results were the same
so no one could offer the homily.

Homilies, sermons, and lessons abound
disguisèd as proper remembrances.
But thinking things through can result in a sound
that bears more than many resemblances. 

How, tell me, how, does this nonsense pertain
to the Timothy Donnelly person?
Well, thinking things through has a beauty, it's plain!
It's a form that I'd like to write verse in!

What is there to sigh about
but that some moment of recognition
would otherwise have passed; 
a pearl plucked

from between the teeth; 
no this is the wrong ending rewind please
there
a pearl plucked and aged

in vinegar or old Coca Cola
until it's rubbery
and something of a joke, 
a humorous thing at least, 

something at least a little incongruous,
a bit confounding at least, 
or something of a muddle. 
Not every thought must be given life;

not every sentence must be given thought.
Nor must every sigh bear even the least scrutiny. 
But if you listen to the sound of thinking things
all the way through, as is done with some frequency

in the poetry of Timothy Donnelly, 
you will find a way to listen to the music of thought
and to feel the texture of thought, which has a beauty
which pertains to nothing else, nor is proper 

to anything or anyone else,
a beauty OF ITS OWN.
A thing I'm drawn to;
A thing I'm invested in.

These guys are bullies
It's pointless to fight these guys
I'm tired of arguing with internet trolls
I'm something something punchline to the stanza. 

This motorcycle has no brains. 
That's why this poem privileges beauty.
Eighteen wheelers full of pearls
overturn on every highway exit ramp all across America

all day long which is why I am an exclusive partner 
of Poetry Platinum. The Executive Verse Platinum Club
That's okay I'm going to swing my frying pan at it. 
Darn! Shoot! Everybody

keeps saying obvious
things before me
and they keep 
succeeding not because

of special insights
they have but
just because they're 
mouthy! Crap dude. 

Stand still you
mouthy dudes! Stop
privileging beauty so 
hard! You're beating 

me to all
the good poetry!!
JK. I'm stealthy
I'm going to

swipe your pearls
I am a 
sand snake, I'm 
a gaboon viper. 

I need to hire a lumberjack to cut down a tree. 
The last tree. You can buy
dances for your rig
to dance. 

I wore a hydraulic loader suit
when the aliens invaded. YOU'RE 
WELCOME. My yellow heavy loader suit
has a beauty of its own you guys. 

You've got to normalize your variables.
You've got to trim your facial hair. 
You've got to trust your instincts. 
You've got to make bland assertions.

I tried to CTRL-F on my own work
to see if I'd ever mentioned gaboon vipers before
(actually now that I think of it
it's called a Gabon Viper)

and the page became unresponsive. 
When I tried again I don't know what happened. 
Laggy servers! 
This shit is bullshit.

Something you ate is making you sick
Spoonfuls of sugar, half-cups of Bisquick
Dancing with strangers might make you feel floaty
But only while eating a cookie that's oaty

But I'll texting himself and
Cool games Andy wasn't the
Did It your days you're 
É óbvio é uma coisa

Frozen Kronosauruses turn me off
Gimme those multiple purpose porpoises
Hang the folks I'm avoiding 
You should be ableism feedback

The button works
At the end of thinking 
When I've thought a thought 
All the way to the end

That is to say
When I'm thinking things through
I stop at the end
And I describe it to myself

And I consider it uniquely beautiful 
Astonishing troglodytic swell
Shipping permits and navigation 
Caustic resins and containment

Nah, 5
Tho
Rough
Ly

Give the shipping 
Address of the
Hotel. Permits amd
Correspondence and details 

For the in
House roll your
Own contact info.
Ece

Everyone needs 
To see
The email
For the

Building codes
So that
You cam
Know how

Big 301
Meters is.
Go find
Out I

Don't care
I'm not
Paying attention 
To shared 

Locality records,
This is 
Not my 
Bag. I'm

Heyday wasn't the
Heyday wasn't the
Images android users
I hope you 

Gimme the
Valid georeferenciadas
In Portuguese 
Sil vous place.

Mark them as
Verified 
By the collector's
GPS beef.

The eyeglass urging
A wider net.
The heart pressing every
Where it is unwelcome,

Even its assumptions 
Which are based
On other people's 
Assumptions which are

Based on other 
People's assumptions which
Are off. Beira,
Beira-mar, beirando, tchau-a-beijou

Masses of rejections
In thumbnail view
Of Fish Guy
Man with Gills

Watching him think
Things all the 
Way through to
Their logical conclusion,

The same place
Every logical time,
Just leave them
Alone, sovereignty and

Dollar bill acceptor,
We don't know 
Which country is!
Curved but not

Warped like the
Noble eyeglass; finesse
And horsepower in
Tandem laboring; Timothy 

Donnelly in his 
Most textbook emblematic 
Form. Months in
A blink; computing 

Power personified, tweed
Wrappèd and beset
By 
Best

Beard. He's 
Not so 
Bad! I just 
Think his shits

Are over
Wrought, root
Bound, uhh
Fussy, pendulous 

I'm better I'm 
Grocery store 
Buddhas all in
An aisle

Eider butts
Almond milk
Vimeo highlights
I don't know. Dear highlights. 

Dear someone, 
Dear vocabulary,
O poets, don't do the list of dears. 
Don't do it, dears!!

Don't do the list of dears!!
Just don't do it. 
So many poople have done it, 
you don't need to do it. 

They can have those slogans if they want. 
The commissioners 
made him
a plaque

No it was
a ceremonial 
um
certificate is the

word, it 
was his
award to
assert his

gallantry.
He saved a 
man from
drowning

in a 
river by
jumping in
after. During

other events
it would
have been
the unthinkable!

We do
never think
of that.
Yes I

have seen
the baby
faced potted
plant playing

the synthesizer
song in 
an off
white room

with the
expected
level
of Swedish

furniture and
fish. It's o
kay
nobody judges

me my 
YouTube overindulgences. 
Whateversigh. 
Whateverthink.

Sometimes when I practice whateverthink
I just want to watch bees 
and other pollinators doing
their thing. It's okay you guys.

She helped someone, a cat
or a person, down
from a ladder, gracefully
beyond her age.

What led up to it? Suddenly I was 
no not suddenly, different
pace, I found myself
teetering on top of a pile of bricks

I think everything is about poetry
I think poetry is made of bricks
I think bricks are made of words
I think piling them precariously is an art.

I couldn't figure out my next move,
every shift of my balance rippled
outwards through the bricks, and
it was a long way to the ground,

I would have been damaged by a fall
in the daytime that it was. I'm 
trying not to embroider this too much. 
The piles of bricks were like

a Max Ernst forest painting, 
tall and dangerous, tapering
to clacking points that
swayed in the wind. 

I could not move. 
A young girl, who I had previously
in the same dream
witnessed help someone descend

from a high and precarious place,
clambered up to me.
Grandparents shouted warnings 
but she was unafraid,

possessed of a winged, pixied grace.
She said to them, 
"It's like helping a baby!"
and she climbed on my back. 

She told me to concentrate
my eyes
on a certain spot, "see
that silver moon on the 

sidewalk?" I did. "Now
move!"
and the pile of bricks and stones
began to shift

underneath our weight
and collapse, but not
dangerously. We were lowered 
gently to the ground

as the artwork collapsed
around us,
and 
I sobbed, indeed expected

when I woke up (held
from behind) in the arms
of my wife, that I had
to have woken her up too

with my sobbing.
I hadn't. I make
my own sense of the
sense I make or

fail to make.
I'm not sobbing now, 
everything's fine.
I'm drinking Cherry Coka Cola,

"the Pepsi of Cokes!"
JK it has no slogans
to call its own. And
Squirt is good, Moxie good

He learned how to speak using architecture
But only in combination with suicidality, that is
A bridge for example that could be jumped off
Could also be spoken through. Jumping

Is the most frequent
And the signal is
The cleanest. After that,
Some doors can be

closed to 
bisect a 
person but 
the snippets

they report
back come
out garbled
and indistinct,

very "Freudy" dreams
that seem
suspiciously clean
interpretation-wise

but in 
the end
are too
boring to

be of use. 
Only a walled-in
area or a pit
that can't be escaped

Afro dados a melhor
dica micose que te
by sex porcento bata
Cineplex deve por bacanal

@ indistinto PR from
le Duína ciências peixes
na clínica porque as
mais para nem a

do Tiboni Bia vinhos
Aflorar sabe dor de
cabeça Klose te dê
paz aqui apertando patas

e dá pra diz
ter cor bacana carbono
entendas tentar ver florido
e mista e cimo

seus peixes licolina inteiro
porque eu chamo a
respeito e me adote
Borin queria vivos etc.

Afro data the best
ringworm tip that gets you
by sex percent hit
Cineplex must by bacchanal

@ indistinct PR from
le Duina fish sciences
in the clinic because
more to neither

Tiboni Bia wines
Outcrop knows pain of
Klose head give you
peace here clamping paws

and you can tell
have cool carbon color
understandings try to see flowery
and mixed and top

your whole lycoline fish
because I call
respect and adopt me
Borin wanted to live etc.

Any of these things require
a person willing to dive
in or descend to the 
victim to rescue them or

to climb up onto the
precarity the wood pile the
stack of stones their infantility
got them into this sort

of dance with loss or
against loss causes me to
weep which I don't understand
but not understanding doesn't feel

like the loss I know
it to be and oh
fine I don't care I
spent most of the morning

clicking through trip reports of
people going up "The Prow" 
a mid-grade alpine route up
Kit Carson Peak in southern

Colorado the crux seems to
be a few moves over
an overhanging bulge and otherwise
just a lot of stairstepping

on air
like ten 
angels would
do to 

condense one 
into each
other. This
has been 

proven! But 
to discuss it
is gauche, crass, coarse, rude, and
of course,

callous. 
I don't know I don't know
humble people break my heart
I miss my friends

I don't care about everything today
I probably need to drink less,
I probably need to run more, 
I miss that animal feeling.

What is Super Mario
if you don't recognize
my name in the kill feed
or list of missing persons

It's no loss
it's just a sound
like distant gunfire
this guy had me.

What even is
a visual material?
Nobody discusses these
things until they

do. Which of
us, like unto
Video James, hath
not forsworn accumulations

of mad points
in favor of
collecting tokens, items, 
weapons, power-ups, amulets,

shields, mana, or
other means of
survival. Water, another
good example. Wizard

needs food badly! 
This is so. 
And yet, not. 
I hope, still. 

I remember the day to day lives
as though they
d pinned zinnias all over
each other's vest pockets

Garbages; reversals. 
Evolving positions. 
I never said that! 
I wouldn't have don't it that way.

So in snacks we join
and complete statistics
courses full of 
yellow highlighted columns

in spreadsheets not even a 
pixel of which matter
though spreadsheets are not 
made of pixels nor matter

nor do we revise our
opinions when the data mouth
back at us backing us
into corners of ill-fitted notions blech

You have so many other nice qualities! 
This is your time to shine, Rosie. But for
hot oxygen rivets
this whole hull

segment would blow spacewise
wide apart bulkhead
to bulkhead. A space
ship operates according

to nautical logic. 
The togetherness of
niche and cliche
remains by most people

an undermentioned topic. 
What is meant
by togetherness? When 
do we speak of it, 

and to whom do we? 
And why do we? And 
when do we too?
The oxygenlessness of space snuffs out flames. 

Your burlap satchel of fine gold dust
empties itself as you walk and
that is how we will track you to 
the scene.

Scene is you. Cup is you.
Cloth is you. Topology of knot is also you.
Account number is *LIKE* you. Callus is you.
Callus will be not is you when you grind off. 

You grind off you. You grind off serial number, 
You grind zombie invasion off so zombie invasion not is you.
You calve and each time you grind off calf wtf?
Species is you. Genus is you. This can not be a settled question

is you, surprise! Swing and a miss is you.
Double whiff is you. White House Lawn is you. 
I have not suspected I am not a comic book. 
Can I still vote against Cab Calloway?

Most aliens think you're made of mirrors. 
You sent them a video of yourself
coated in silver mirror glaze, meant
through nakedness and sexual embarrassment 

to extort money from them (the aliens)? 
Weird plan, guys and gals. I'm not 
here for it. You dream the weirdest things. 
This person is basically like that person, 

this one has basically the same head as that other one
and they all basically are the same in the end. 
Their butts are all the same and they are a sort of 
cream-filled donut full of poo and ideas, and

all the poos and all the ideas are basically the same. 
So 
trying to 
extort

yourself?
The sort 
of plan 
a mirror-glaze alien

with pendulous
sex-filled 
lobe
questions

would come up
with.
Is this the place
for weird factoids? 

A silvered kangaroo
is the most efficient way
to get about
on planet earth

unassisted
bipedally.
Inside of an ocean
it's too wet to walk! 

How many things can you kick while you are airborne???
We're about to learn. 
Is this where I come to confess my sadnesses?
I have none -- but 

sometimes acutely I feel pain and love collapse into one another
simply looking at a frog, or a mouse, something,
a leaf that a dog sees and then realizes it's not alive
or a dart that comes alive and then dies again in mid-flight.

The smallest living things and the largest
are about the same size, is a sadness.
All gaze on one another at a remove, 
pained at the sameness they feel 

but can't prove, indeed daren't try.
What time are you arriving? 
I'm not spending $150 on 7 ounces of fake chartreuse
that's insane. I wish I could though. 

What do I look like, some kind of billionaire elite? 
I'm a GI JOE 
even ladies grunt like elephants
look it up if you don't believe me

what do I look like
what do I look like
asterisk is not question
say silver sex slide

Do you want to wash the wrong dishes? 
Have you tick-marked your foremost priorities to suborn?
Why mammoth-stamp the mysticism-gobbledigook line?
Why did I live? Why wasn't I taken instead? 

Climb thin hands
to a stance
under a roof. 
Move left to continue

up a burly off-width
narrowing to fists and wide hands
before a delicate crux right across a face
to an easy chimney. Lower off double chain anchor.

They say the mirror needs me to see.
This sounds like incontinent thinking to me.
I could flash forward to lunch if you'd like.
I could show you their heads on a spike.

Look! and lo! They've arranged them so.
Everywhere you went, there you go. 
Banality rhymes with finality so.
Approximately oxenately free, you know.

I really like "even" at the ends of sentences.
I like eleven for a number of verbs' tenses. 
I really like elven aesthetic antitheses. 
You guys. I finally like Elvis. He's the bee's kneeses!

I dreamed in convincing fidelity
that I was playing PUBG, 
which I never have done in real life.
I could tell you the names

of some people in my games
but the important thing
was a shot I took
through the corner of a building

such that the bullet
passed perfect-
ly through the 
hole made

(a feature un-
implemented in 
PUBG as
of this

writing) by
a previous bullet, 
from outside
the building

through the corner of
the interior
and out 
and on into the dust

and as my bullet 
passed
out into 2nd daylight
I saw a puff

of red blood
indicating
someone 
had been

hit by the 
bullet, a 
person I had not
seen

there,
moving right
to left into
the path

of the bullet. 
I then went around
the corner
to find them

but they ha-
d run into the 
nearest 
building

to them,
not the one
I had shot 
through, and

disappeared.
This is proof of nothing
of course.
I woke into confusion,

keen desire, and
sadness, and 
maybe shame. 
Should I have felt

the excitement I felt
and indeed still feel? 
Though now what I feel is not excited to have shot somebody unexpectedly,
but excited at the stran-

geness of this as a 
story for the brain,
by the brain.
Like I was a bystander

while the brain played
its own much more
feature-rich version of
"Public G" (as Justin McElroy calls it).

His songs as a bed
while bullets ring in
and off of the frying pans
worn on our butts. 

This games sucks and we all died.
When we tried again the marshmallow hearts
were on sale. Shooting them
in slow motion

allowed us to understand worse
and better how such force 
could fail to have vaporized
them. Who will play

PUBG with me? 
No one, now.
I'm bad at it. 
I've never played. 

I could tell you
the names 
of the people 
in my game. 

No one was
suitably astonished
that I had shot through
the exact same hole, 

that I had found the exact
world coordinates and pulled
the trigger on the exact same
gun as someone already had in

that match, and that my bullet had
struck a person where
daylight had been at the moment
of its firing. No one

had info on the previous
shot, the one I shot
through. Maybe it had hit
someone and maybe

not. "You're innocent when 
you dream," Tom Waits assures
us. But assurances in song
are frequently untrue. This

has been tested. But it is
proof of nothing. There was 
daylight
in my video game. 

That's where
you have to start
relying
on your experience of 

my account. No, before that. 
Hi Brendan. Hi Roger. Hi
Richard! Hi Amy! Hi Matt! (they weren't there)
No one saw what I saw

with the camera positioned
impossibly
(the camera was in the dream I had) 
such that when you looked through

the scope 
you could
see out 
the barrel

of the gun
and 
you (me) could 
see that the walls

which met in a right angle
at the corner of the building
each had been perforated by a bullet
and that by not exercising much imagination

one could conclude it had been the same bullet
and nothing but daylight
stood 
beyond them 

when they were aligned
and when the trigger 
was pulled
sending another bullet frictionlessly

frictionlessly and instantaneously
through them to where
a plume of blood 
showered out 

of a struck
running person
who got away.
Hi Joshua! He was there. 

It was dark when I woke up
and then it got light.
I sat on the news of the next book
you won't read. 

I failed to go get lunch.
I failed to flash forward! 
What a weird feeling. 
I have to go get something or I'm going to pass out. 

Should I play PUBG or should I 
just keep watching lots of 
chocoTaco videos on YouTube?
I invented a feature of the game

to prove that dreaming is the most miraculous human activity
but of course this prooves nothing.
Awaken in me
a dream whose crystal clarity

is itself
the shock. A
desire for
the real
 
so convincing
that the brain
will manufacture it
at any cost.

But the brain
is not the soul,
nor can take its measure.
Let's search that downed guy

and pocket his treasure.
I can't find him
I must not have downed him
I'm awake in the rules

It's not daylight, you fools!
Every rhyme makes me wince
and yet fails to convince. 
Every tomb does a dance

when you factor the ants.
How am I supposed to root to this?
You will never know me. 
And yet we understand each other pretty well!

I don't know why anybody plays this game
I don't know anybody who owns this game
You guys I love this game but I don't play
This game is one of the lesser known games

I want to play Journey but I don't have the right platform
As of this writing it says that Journey is coming soon
Don't stop believing, I guess? 
This is one of the most classic games in modern times.

This is a game that will not convict you of crimes. 
You're innocent when you game... ish
Innocent ish
If only there was a single moment of innocence in a person's life, 

capable of telling only forged stories but accidentally
telling a brand new one. Forging one anew! 
Let me go into my forge and do some forgery. 
I choose to forge this river.

It sucks playing 4 hours without playing. 
I will play whatever map because of you guys. 
Custom games is what I'm talking about. 
Let me give you the rundown. 

Where is the guy? Did I just see him? 
Hello? Is this real life? 
I heard a fly buzz. It wasn't a headshot. 
If you back up onto that plant

you can peek over the door. I found
that out
on accidep. Did you mean
to say

"on accident?" Yes
that is 
what I 
was meant to say. 

Should've been gone! But there was no way back.
I don't really like running back through the city
because I might die and I'm trying to get somewhere else. 
I'm not going farther than this. 

I don't recall it
but if I was 
streaming my game it
didn't register, so no

one else would have
been able to watch 
me shoot through the
existing bullet hole and 

there's a symmetry to
that blindness for which
I commend my brain
or I would if

I only had a
brain (like in the
song)! I got killed
by a famous person. 

Malfunction
Malfunction
Dance 
Dance 

Shots from behind me
get ruled out
by trees
and

buildings. 
Shots ahead
of me have
not happened yet, fortunately! 

I stood in the middle of the road for you!
I saw him healing
is he behind that rock? 
I'm not actually sure

and if I take my time
to finish this properly
I will miss the meeting
I don't want to go

to. 
a 
few 
more

things. I never
see 
the 
Tac Stock

There's nothing unmade
Pineapple grenade
A gentle reminder arrives
A purple angelic shard

They'd rather not know
They play CS Go
Or rather they'd caution themselves
If they could and they wouldn't say

If they could and they would
This syntax is good
But results in half of its generation
Being mauled by rabid conditionals

It shakes its fins loose
Reformational noose
Rehearsing the schisms you'd rather avoid
When you're too sleepy to divert yourself

Oh Senator I might
Be a Jedi Knight
Or I might be a Queen of Red White
Or Green or a Senator, sir, like you

I only have the
three sadnesses to spare.
When the third is
flipped over, exhaustion carries

with me a separate
something, a solute, like
the thing a river
does, to the repairman

whose quote for the
job is obscene, we
dream so, we made
him our leader so

we could dismember him
when the time comes
but we woke up
before the time came. 

Exhaustion's separate soul
Who will narrate it
A forgetting umbrella
A spelling correctness

It was a day filled with pride
Someone just hit me with a crossbow!?
OUCH, man! What a jerk. I think he's to our southeast.
There are other bolts stuck in the wall

And their tails point backwards to their crossbow of origin
The wascally wabbit of their causation
Why can't this guy just buy my merch
instead of crossbowing me FFS

ANYWAY back to The Roadcast, 
my new podcast about how I wish I hadn't read The Road
by Cormac McCarthy. One by one
the buildings and trees slip into a blue

electric field that damages us uniformly
and makes it hard to see. 
Our trees are all maples
We all shop at Staples

We traded our feet for a new Chevrolet
Which just won all the Motor Trend awards. 
And yet must I hope
That the execrable mope

Who's stuck on my balcony tonight
Will reconsider his execrability. 
Oh but what's to consider
When nor happier nor fitter

Will more hastily unroll the squirreling scrolliness
Of time's mostly unflowing holiness. 
Take to the syllables, 
Maximals, minimals, 

Potatoes and gullible centipedes floating
In moats that most marquises would find unfit
For boating, oh world. 
And when you've unsquirreled

It, what have you gained beyond ankles
And sprains in the butts they're attached to.
In Mark, in Matthew, 
Our Lord says the path to

Enlightenment runs through the aid of the poor, 
But what in the what is enlightenment for? Mountains
stomp the Denver
down when the wind

lets up and lets them in
and the prepositions stand
Oh do they stand, waves
in wind on water of sand

The success of the whole enterprise hinges on position,
Tactics, ability, and luck, and as sobering as that is
There is still a deep universe of emptiness to drink
And to drink of deeply and in which to drink

And to drink ALONE and to drink specific hydrocarbons
and to drink without thinking and go home you're drunk.
Oh well they'd pincer-maneuver me if they could
But I'm still here, a salesman of beer, 

A watcher of stars and eschewer of cars, 
Skewerer of Mars Bars, ugh I don't know. 
I don't know what this is for. If you find a typo
Please send me a message through the contact form

Please like and subscribe, please retweet etc barf
I promise to do right by you
With the breaths that I have left
Until the universe cease to breathe through me

And the particle effects lapse into judgement
While our eyes fill with tears. Sorry 
I cried on your face
It is never easy to know what to do when someone doesn't hate you

Scurrying from one murder scene to another without lingering on the catfish calendar
on the one apartment's wall, what does that say? 
Enero / Feverero 2010? "What fiction is this"
(we ask among each other

we who sound in retrospect like consummate dunces)
"What child is this? What story is this?"
Ugh I don't know. I don't know! Mindflayers vs. dragons, 
who cares. Let's go Red Sox.

Itching tear duct
Clap, clap, clap clap clap.
What good would the words do
If projected on the scrim between you

And the moving images, each still frame after each,
Of the horrors that awake and renew you. 
What words would they be? What words
What mouth of your terrorizer, your oppressor, 

This man who would most assuredly kill or enslave you
If not for the structures enshrined in the documents he 
Simultaneously mouths from and spends edicts against
Flapping, strangling himself,

You wake feeling GOOD having watched him cease to breathe
Oh who have I allowed myself to become, king and creator
munch mounch munch mounch
asparagus pizza in October is some kind of world record

Wad
Of
Wet
Garbage

Eats
Brooklyn
Man's 
Preferences

I don't know what is a Lee Van Cleef. It's weird
To look at his mirror
Take power
While before his own eyes, something else,

an unintended accumulation of like-enough things
happens,
blue bottle caps, blue string, blue items 
that aren't salient enough to name

rest upon and give life
to a clearing in a forest floor, 
life and resolute, irridescent sadness,
my love, my person. To be someone's

To tell her to know me, she
who knows me, this is silly. 
Is it that she can love what is silliest in me,
Or chooses to because she loves some other me 

which I resemble but am incapable of seeing
with eyes snugged into parts of my face
that have names. What name
what word, why, who cares, I don't know.

Smoke pours out of my eyes
obscuring the tractor
and the hillside it sits on
denuded of trees 

by the forest fires of 16 years ago
and with the smoke comes rust, 
and the smoke rots
and my eyes disappear and I die. 

When we were walking in Scotland
we saw clotted egg masses in the wheel ruts
in the old military road, and could (if we stood still)
see the tadpoles squirming, the frogs of tomorrow

happy in clean and free water, 
which came as good news. 
Ducks landed somewhere else.
Sheep looked at us. It was great,

I would 100% do it again. Some 
of the forts we passed had been razed
and the glassiness of the stones
made it clear how complete, how final, 

the devastation had been. What 
do
we 
did

with that
information?
Not
I 

blue
sky
Not 
Now

Blue
Cow
Not
Bowerbird

To
-morrowward
Anyway. Oh shoot I forgot
about this crossbow bolt

in my ribs! It still hurts really bad!
I really don't know what to do about it! 
I could pull it out but it seems like it's in my heart and lungs
which could (respectively) pump out a lot of blood

and deflate, which both seem like bad things, honestly.
But I can't walk around like this. 
I could clip it off at the skin. 
I'll do that, and I'll just put on a different shirt, 

it should be fine. Nobody will know. 
I'll sell the ass-half of the bolt on ebay
and finance with the proceeds a villa
and a bottle of salad dressing

to go with it. I don't know
what are you supposed to be
I'm a Teenager Mutated Ninjitsu Terrapin
that's so stupid. I'm Master Woodshard

Nobody ever dresses as a ninja turtle, ever.
It would be so easy to do. You could just waer
a ninja turtle outfit and it would be awesome. 
I don't know why nobody ever does it more often.

As our final moves dwindle (king pawn king pawn
bla bla bla) we hear suppressed gunfire
from the compound beyond the hill 
and the sphincters hiding in our rafters

tighten and go silent. What cheer, 
this war
that will
never end. 

And I wake from another nightmare,
spat out of a crow's mouth
I'd sought for comfort
and to feed me, 

feed me,
barf in my mouth. 
Nobody does that anymore.
I don't know why people don't do that anymore, honestly.

I'm being 100% honest. 
Nobody uses windmills anymore.
I'm lying to 0% of you.
It's not like there's not food to grind up before you eat it! 

I don't know where their kings are.
I can't see over their wall of pawns, 
and a crow's mouth spits me out
dry and cawing onto the bed's floor

where the sheets and a rug are
and worms that disappear, and some musical notes
and loves, current and former, and... 
I can't remember, and it doesn't matter. 

I throw a grenade in and flush them all out
and whatever's left, I capitalize. 
Please join us
for lunchtime! 

If we don't know what is not the case, 
we hardly can claim that we know what is the case! 
Except this is not true. The things we know
we came to know through repeated familiarity.

Lightning has its share of flashes of illumination, 
but for the most part, we fit them into an already-formed
understanding created by years of distant strikes,
which are inevitable, and which is inevitable. 

Listen -- I know what's possible. I can tell
what's difficult. You don't have to tell
me. Look: nobody remembers, 
nobody cares. It doesn't ma-- oh who cares. 

me other me
They coffee awful lot.
which I resemble but am incapable of seeing
with eyes some other me

which I resemble but am incapable of seeing
with eyes snugged into parts of my face
Smoggling the fog lens through backwards the door!
To tell her to name

To tell her me
which I resemble of seeing
with eyes snugged into parts of my face
that aren't knows me, this is silliest in me,

Or chooses to because she can loves some other me
What can you have or know but I like verbs
which I resolute, irridescent sadness,
my loves some other me

which I resemble but am incapable of seeing
with eyes some other me
Evident grown of evergreen medicatedness of deaf dreaming
which I resolute, irridescent sadness,

my love what is silly.
Is it that aren't salient sadness,
my loves snugged into parts of my person. To be someone's
caffeine I suppose?

To tell her to know me, she
who know what is a Lee Van Cleef. It's weird
To look at his mirror
Take power

While before his own eyes, someone's
Things just aren't want they used to be, tools
To look at his mirror
Take power

While before his own eyes, some other me
I don't know
who know me, she
who know what is a Lee Van Cleef. It's weird

To look at his mirror
Take power
While before his own eyes, someone's
zizzle on that cymbal daddy0

To tell her to know what is silly.
Is it that she caps, blue bottle caps, blue string, blue items
that have names. What name of seeing
with eyes snugged into parts of my face

that aren't salient enough things
happens,
blue bottle can love what aren't salient enough to name but am incapable of seeing
with eyes some other me

which I resolute, irridescent sadness,
my loves some other me
murkurial
To tell her to know what is silly.

Is it that is a Lee Van Cleef. It's weird
To look at his own eyes snugged into parts of my face
that she can love, my person. To be some other me
Someburp

who know me, she
who know me, things
happens,
blue items

that have names. What nameoves some other me
Waves have names, 
which I resemble of seeing
with eyes, something else,

an unintended accumulation of like-enough to name
sound mind and body
rest upon and give life
that is a Lee Van Cleef. It's weird

To tell her to names. What have namee
Adrian Belew
to a clearing in a forest floor,
life and resolute, irridescent sadness,

my love, my person. To be someone's
that's different than what you dsaid bevfore
To look at his own eyes snugged into parts of my face
that aren't salient enough to name

rest upon and resemble but am incapable of seeing
with eyes snugged into parts of my face
that she loves some other me
WEhnever I want to

rest floor,
life and resolute, irridescent sadness,
my love, my person. To be something else,
an unintended accumulation of like-enough things

I troubleshoot by overcorrection like I'm a rainstorm
and the problem is the gutter, but 
the problem IS the gutter! There's no way out
of this chain of illusions which is 

a hall of mirrors sometimes. Then them the this there that 
Nobody sees 
Okay okay. But if it weren't for a Halloween costume
scented purple claw-hammer claw necklace

Skunk outfit
Irish dancing
Owned or Pwned
Never see it coming

There's an elegance that is not off-putting
But this I must refuse to engage in
I don't miss Quincy
Except in odd moments of off-reflection

What a rock star
I'm confusing him
I call him shredding metal
He grew up to play Bongos

Salivating Warhogs, The
What a gamer
he was prone what a winner
I love you Choco hey thanks dude

What a gamer! 
What a superhero
My deliveranccjcjcjcjcjc
Has labeled now

What is he consumering what a gamer
Jens is his new style icon
Jens counts to 11 every measure of 4/4
Front foot up on the monitor like any Egyptian

The first few measures of Future Breed Machine are better than poetry
Fine
I'm okay how are you 
go away

I don't care? I barely care. I'm thirsty
And tape is thirsty for certain sounds
But will drink them all and never be quenched
Yerp Yerp Anatomy

Take its muscles apart and put them on tape
Diagram etc barf yerp 
tape its muscles apart yerp etc
I love

How come there's no wikipedia article about today
The Japanese Maple outside my window is an outrage, 
an affront, that red color, an assault on good sense
multiplied by the blue sky behind it, scandalous

lord of emptiness, Lord of the Flag-o-Saurs?
Fladge-o-Saurs? Fine, but I don't know who they were
I never have seen them on a talk show
Go away running parallel, skim skim skim

to the side like a zombie guy would run
like a reanimated guy. Shut up you know what I'm talking about
skippety skippety skippety
I'm trying to make you hate poetry

You are try to equate good love of poetry
but it didn't absolutely. Jens
shows you how to. It is a bald man
who shouts with persuasion. Here is he. 

Now he is your new style icon. 
YELL
it is okay. 
Now he is bald. 

Honest Cat is the story of his own story. 
So is Jens, and consumer couture. 
I forewent to eat lunch, now structural
defeat re-erases

Hey! We're owning!
That's spot so filthy
with rub I can't stand, with gamers
with games (dirt games) they don't

exist but how could you?
Fix feelings or fuck feelings? 
His body rolled
like two sausages in one, 

like the proverbial pig in a blanket of ocean wave sounds, 
a sonic pig blanket, 
waves of oinks, 
washing up snouts. 

Should we stand on top of some kind of cliff?
This map is stupid, but it's because
nobody chose how the land was made. 
We can't fathom the mind of god

means how stupid it all can be, up here
on some kind of cliff, 
all this could be yours by the way,
if you but something something

Hey you're a meme dude! Cowabunga, I
assume? 
You got that "cowabunga cachet," 
you are now in possession of 

That Cowabunga Cachet I Just Read About
In The New York Times Which I Have Also
Heard Referred
To As "The Gray Lady" LOL

Probably Saturn will still have rings for my life's duration, 
and probably french fries will still delight me, and ice cream. 
You know, beach food. Seagull food. 
And probably the ocean will be full of plastic

And there'll be a thin layer of obdurate hydrocarbons
at the bottom of the ocean for 10,000 years
meaning nothing to nobody, except meaningless suffering, 
if there is such a thing. There's always a jigsaw puzzle piece extra

isn't there? There's always a kitten's nostril and
half of two whiskers mixed into the bag with the rest 
of this horse and buggy England tableau watercolor nonsense. 
Who painted this? Why? Just to create suffering? That's dumb. 

How am I supposed to react to this metal? 
This is not my favorite metal solo. 
I don't really like to pause and unpause metal every 15 seconds. 
Metal is copyrighted, and so is Ja Rule.

Consider but tremolo
without which our 
impoverished lives -- actually
never mind that line of thought, but liking

tremolo means one can
always recognize when 
something in 
addition to one's own self is spinning, 

to wit, a speaker cone, or a Keanu
or a what have you. 
Tremolo? I never even MET molo! 
Ha, you get it. 

I'm Loki, keyboarder of hopes,
upsiderdowner of dreams. Maybe
whatever. Red Rain / Blood Reign
mashup. LOL I'm culture look at me go

Tony Levin and Lee Van Cleef
Keanu Kiedis bas relief
Sheesh what the fuck is all this.
It's almost lunchtime is what.

Now I have had lunch and everything is different.
I'm not interested in writing anything anymore. 
I will willingly watch clumsy YouTube videos about Maynard James Keenan
and I will go cupcakingly distressed forward. (?)

names
coughs
frames
smurfs

Purple packets of incensed Kool-Aid
In drip-shaped outlined formations on football fields
Of imaginations spelled out of lego bricks in languages
We can only pretend not to understand because we made them up

Not that everything made up is comprehensible!
"Gas Is Gas, Says Stan"
this is true to an extent, the extent that he said it, 
beyond which, we dare not tread

for fear of ruining the scaliness
of the dragon footprint
which feels nothing it treads upon
GUYS IT HAS NO MAGICAL ESSENCE

I trapped its magical essence in this orb you guys
Guys
GUYS
Oh I was muted that's why you couldn't hear me

sector clear
long sections of hallways
nothing to do
empty inventory

1up
timer starts at 0
perforated equipliribrium
words are basically useless

Woards are basically useless.
You have to finesse them really hard
if you want them to do anything. 
You have to be careful not to overwork them

Or the strands of gluten become overdeveloped
and the end product becomes chewy
BUT ON THE OTHER HAND
I always loved really chewy poems

Graham Foust I'm talking about you.
Your EARS abre burning.
Noah Eli Gordon what happened? Did we all forget about you?
Or did you get sweapt together with some kind of anti-conceptual backlash?

I never read The Source but it seems good. 
Elisa Gabbert I haven't read your new book yet but I want to. 
You are a pal and I'm sad I missed it last time you were in town.
Chris DeWeese we have never met but I see your likeness

on Facebook all the time. Do you have good feelings about Ravel?
I do. Francine Harris where are you now? I wish I circulated in communities
that would permit me to see you at readings and buy you a drink.
I like your book! Anthony Madrid you don't know me at all

but I liked your book a lot. I like your critical work too. 
Aaron Kunin where you at? We met once. Do you know
the internet meme "Peanut Butter Jelly Time"? But
internet memes are never just internet memes are they? 

This is a fun game. I could keep going. I bet
John Milton and I wouldn't get along. I bet
he smells like 1520. 1608? When was he again?
I refuse to look it up. 

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Yeah. They never said
red implements count
ugh. What do you want?
I want the words to tell me things.

I want self-serving poetry!
Paloff said a thing about being frustrated with work that seems self-serving. 
I agree. Poetry should hold its cards facing out, 
not to quote myself, but to serve myself. 

Help yourself! There are marshmallow toppings
and small mochi nibs to eat
on your ice cream smoothie
cake latte candy bar! 

He got good bat speed. 
Impressive bat speed
look at the bat speed
now watch the [transcript interrupted]

But I feel like it all comes down to bat speed.
The interesting thing about Travis Lee -- 
he loves the yo-yo.
I liked a yo-yo when I was a child. 

And I like variety shows. You think this is how I write
all the time? I'm a complexity, a vagabond, 
a truancy, an errancy, I'm a krapcake
You think I'm at poetry? I wonder if you've ever met a human condition

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Yes. Mally over to these graham chocompoutes, 
you philistines in professorial garb, 
you wounded ego pitched-backwards adams-apples
topmost as your toppling behind act

performances your occasions. 
I don't know what any of that means. But:
mally over, if you think you can. 
So you think you can mally over?

You think you can weld?
You think you can extract an infected gall bladder?
What is disease?
Do you think you can tell me?

Applesauce is childhood
for green body parts
turned back to yellow
and leaving as does a tree, 

as one would do if (if one but could)
make
like a 
tree LOL. You suck

Go paw your bullfighting arenas when they're empty!
I'm not aiming this at anyone by the way.
Go jump a leaf! 
Go take a flying hoop! 

It's funny to imagine, I suppose, 
though we don't know what imagination is. 
Our passing familiarity with what imagination does
is precisely a passing, everyday a death, 

through which
the visionable world seems filmy, too bright,
and covered with intellectual property
which is itself an insult, an abrasion. 

Take me back the way I came in the same sentences! 
You'll never can, and if you try 
you won't. This is that labyrinth you woke up from
to find. A very merry un-birthday

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You won't. A ver can, and if you won't.
This is the won't. This in the samerry un-birthe senth you
try I can, and in the up find. A very

You'll never came back the won't. A very
un-birthday I can, and if you try un-birthday
I came sententences!
to from

to find is is if you won't.
This the me if you won't. This is that labyrintentences!
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you try me back that labyrind. A verry

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You way I came same back that labyrind. A very I can, and. A very
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You'll never cand if you'll never can, and. This is the sententences!
you try
You'll neverry un-birthday I can, and if you the sentences!
you woke mer can, and if you the sentences!

Do you watch the baking show? And do you drink the life
of the necks of the innocents that you bite
when they're not looking? 
That moment in Kenneth Koch's poem "A Smashed Trash Can Lid

That Looks Like Something" is really great. American History! 
Always funny! No matter to whom and under what guise. 
You guys! I get it. 
I laughed. I LOL'd.

What is Michael Jordan wearing? 
When was the last time you looked at Cake Wrecks? 
Why is it freedom of speech if I can't not write on a cake?
Who took the lens off the Liberty Street light-siphon?

Mally over, people. Mally over, my friends, and may
your mallying soften in your hearts your enemies
and their tendencies, and their enemies' tendencies'
dependencies. 

So much dependencies on this stupid Cupid looptid. 
doo REHR doo REHT
doo REHR doo REHT
That's the humpty dance bass line you're welcome.

I like the part when he shouts out Samoans. 
That guy looks different when he takes his prosthetic nose off, I bet. 
There's a possibility of him not being a nice man, on balance. 
I hope that he has found a suitable calling, I aver. 

Let's talk about Robin Hood some more
like we did when we were young. They submitted
his poems to the archery contest
and when the arrow flew

it exited the background art to the right
since this is a very small map of a movie
a very intimate, a limited, domestic, 
provincial, forest-sized problem. 

We like Robin Hood better than Spider-Man
because Robin Hood has chosen to do what he does
and has earned his competence through practice and hard living
as opposed to inheriting it from some biting thing.

This is not how I think, nor how I write. 
This is not me, but in some ways it is me, 
since it's all that's left of me, an analogy
if not a resemblance. 

l that's left of me,
since it's all that's left of me, an analogy
if not how I write.
This not a resemblance. e, but in some ways

it in some ways it is is not a resemblance.
in some ways it in some ways it is not how I think, nor how I write.
This is not a resemblance.
This is not how I write.

This is me,
since. ow I think, nor how I write.
This is not me, but in some ways it is not me,
since it's all that's all think, nor how I think,

not me, but in some ways is not how I write.
since it's all that's all that's left of me,
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Squeak goes the dynamite! 
Lotta people, not a lot of guns, 
for no reasons. Neon Beets Evangelion,
Is that some kind of anime?

We never sent in our application for the skiff bomb. 
That's terrible I guess? I don't know. 
I wonder if fired is going to get me twitch.
There never was a game that I could play.

There's maintenance tonight. Never mind. 
What games am I playing tonight?
Now I'm sad. I guess I could climb the walls.
Why 

I don't know what to play. There's a free to play
series of Pico8 games called "Battlefield Butt"
I landed on the roof you're owning
Dude you're owning!!

Let's own 
Let's go over there and own
Let's go own those guys
Power down

Hardness (of hearing)
The snaky pistol end that grew out of the black hole
of decades of party politics
That guy is owning!!

Dude let's camel case our sentences
no wait, I mean, let's own
They haven't seen us yet, let's go
let's go own them

Let's own
I give all the glory to God
We owned! 
People also ask: How Old Is Owen Wilson?

Let me get bored 
There but for the gripes of gape ape
grape tread trade eat ade 
Easy Peasy. Teamwork Makes The Dream Work.

People also ask: Is it spelled Pwn Wilson? 
Dude let's go pwn those guys. 
I have a machine gun and I just healed up to full health. 
Let's just go own for once. 

That'll teach me to stand in the same line as you.
I'm a bad queen but I'm a good berry runner.
I chose to make the bad decisions. 
I'm tired of line breaks but you never grow out of line breaks. 

I wonder if James Iha is okay. I bet he's okay.
They say you never grown out of being okay.
Enough of this apple practice let's own!!
I hope we get another trip to the island. 

I like islands
epic Smash Bros matches
fraggle rock on Sanhok
I jumped out of a plane two early

Who's keeping track of my typos?
Where did I submit my videogames to?
What is the deal with these heavy bits?
I'm working on a double barrell

Nobody cares about cheeky stuff anymore
That's okay
People named Adam are named after people named Adam
Why is that? People has disrupted priorities

I'm late for apple practice you guys
I've been owning, I've been busy owning
I've been busy watching Tool 1998 Lewiston Maine "Pushit"
You know what? I think we should just own.

What a great day! 
I'm owning. 
Who is this, Julia? What a girlfriend name is that?
Did you ever think about Ethical Consciousness?

What is a Julia of brand management worth?
That's not my name
Let's own
Who is a sniper of world war?

When are the best questions asked?
Jake, thank you. Let's own
Let's pppppppwn
Leroyyyyyyyyy Pwnkins!!!!!!

Smashing Pwnkins more like. Let's go own.
I want to get a win
I shouldn't have done a stupid thing. 
It's okay. Let's own

The current sensibility is the only available choice,
Or the only choice remaining. It dabbles
In the astrologies and necromancies of past peoples
For fun, but of their inefficacy there can be no doubt.

This current "swimming pool" sensibility has its own
Post-currency mixed in, of course, at a concentration
That is several thousand parts per million
Too thin to do anybody any harm, but strong enough

To keep the water free from select diseases.
I am of the sensibility, so I pursue this analogy
And I swim in the water. I lace up my boots
And I waste my time at work on job-related emails

And YouTube videos. When I come up for air
I wonder what air is, and when I see a night sky
Suddenly sparkling above, I feel faintly desperate,
And old, indicted by the endless mystery surrounding

This one planet and the waste of this one life,
But unconvinced of any guidance to be found
Among the stars and constellations or is it
The satellites unzipping them that I'm watching

And putting my money on (if not hopes in)?
stanza break
It's true that I'm made of protein and so are you,
So there's no reason we don't eat our dead,

But for the inappropriateness of suggesting it.
All the while, our enemies gather the guns
To themselves, and the body armor. The rules
Are rules, guys! It's out of my hands. And we rely

On each other aha / From one lover to
Another aha.
stanza break
It's not easy! Nobody says it's easy these days.

But there's plenty in the literature on the handedness
Of the amputee switching sides after the hand
Exits, stage left, say. This is the excellent gift
Of the current sensibility. This is the public art

That that public countenances not. This is the tattoo
Of the Girl Scout badge shaped like a
Girl Scout cookie shaped like a Girl Scout's
Face, in profile.

Her left hand's spirit withdrew and forced itself
Into her right hand. Her right hand's spirit,
The one which had not been chopped off,
Withdrew and waited. But a left hand doesn't fit

Inside a right unless it turns inside-out like
A glove or like it pretends to be the flowers
That the right hand pretends (from inside
Its place of waiting) to extend out into, amen.

The turtle should also have been mentioned,
The hermit crab even more so! The animals
About whose withdrawals we know so little
But have observed so often. The neon green

X-ray video of the withdrawing of the feather
Duster worm.
stanza break
The hand presses out from within the hand

To meet it! To meet itself. I act cautious now
In that thought's after-echo, but there's no real
Reason for it so I go back to acting how I act.
I act on behalf of the current sensibility.

What a mistake to dress up my utterances!
But if I survey the fuzzy skyline, if
I acknowledge every tip of every tree
I start to wish to be a starling, a trash bird

Which nevertheless can perch up on those
Invisibly thin treetop twigs, like Lucifer thinking
Of sufficient temptations. This is just, JUST
What a man riding a train should be doing

And yet I wonder what's in the air or
What's in the water that should make
That "should be" so? "No is implies
An ought," certainly, but what if he feels

That he should "is" some way or some
Way, some other way, some whitewater
And some dark purple stretches of river
And finally some multiplication table of

Alluviations as the river anticipates the sea.
And you have to choose one!
stanza break
But the ocean has chosen us. This is true.

And the ocean and the night sky record continually
Their choice of us. Also true. And there is
No playback of the recording -- that
Technology will never exist. All things

I record here are absolutely true. My oration
Grants, to fool and sage alike, the boon of truth.
stanza break
Do I trust these rather suburban superlatives?

No, I suppose I don't. But the current sensibility
Flatters urban and suburban alike, making them
Into the image of each other. Only squalor, we suspect,
Is above such vanities, such angular animals

As one finds in the logos of the teams of
The professional sports (the basketball, the
Hockey.) Only squalid squalorous squalor
Is honest and true. Only precarity is safe

From moral imbalance; only filth may be
Of virtue, a filth accumulated over generations.
You and I, we are rootless, suburban, if
Companionable. Well, I am, anyway.

How pleasant it is! To be enveloped
By onion-flavored steam at 10:45am.
There are words to express every sensation,
From orgasm to apples and back again.

When Salt built pyramids of the Earth,
The solar flares licked their apices,
Says the story about them. Do we
Think to believe it? Does that occur to

Us? Not now, not in the current sensibility.
We cast "Sense Motive," a level 1 spell
That belongs to a different rule-set. We
Roll an Insight check, adding the result of

A 20-sided to dice roll to our Wisdom modifier
And comparing that number to another
Which represents how difficult it would be
To succeed. But to succeed is not

To have success, and this we have not
Learned. The current sensibility, and the previous
And the next, are all contiguous, from
Which we learn also nothing. Compassion,

Get your compassion here! I'm handing it out
Like candy canes after New Year's Brunch.
I would destroy a waffle and some scrambled eggs.
I would drink a fort made of coffee.

Almost halfway there! 
Ugh I don't want to play anymore. 
I'm tired of these guns everywhere. 
Put me in a housewarming party

Hey did you ever see Golden Sky Stories?
I've been thinking of getting some girls to play
I'm going to invite Janelle Monae to join
I want Beyonce to play also

Says the river anticipates the result of
The hermit crab even more so!
The rules
Are rules, guys!

It's out of any harm, but strong enough
I record continually
Their choice remaining. It dabbles
In the water free from select diseases.

I come up on behalf of the boon of their apices,
Says the only available choice,
Or the teams of
The current "swimming pool" sensibility

is the teams of
The professional sports (the basketball, the
Hockey.) Only precarity is implies
An ought, certainly, but what if he feels

This is safe
Us? Not now,
not easy!
Nobody

says it's easy these rather
suburban
alike,
the only choice of us.

This is the stars and
forced
itself
Into the hand

Exits, stage left, say. This one
which had not in the while, our
enemies gather the handTo themselves,
and when I come up for the sea.

And YouTube videos. When Salt built
pyramids of river
And yet I act on behalf of the hand
Exits, stage left, say. This is not

And the inappropriateness of this we know
so are words
to a train should
"is" some way

or someWay,
some dark purple stretches
of any guidance to apples
and so are words

to a different rule-set. We
Roll an Insight check,
adding the only available choice,
Or the literature on those

Invisibly thin treetop twigs,
like a
Girl Scout cookie shaped like a man riding a fort made of the amputee
switching sides after the previous

And I act cautious now
In the waste of each other.
Only squalor, we learn also
have

to do anybody any harm, but strong enough
Hey did you have observed
so are absolutely true.
My oration

Grants, to be doing
When I waste of the recording -- that
Technology will never exist.
All the logos of these guns everywhere.

And old, indicted by the inappropriateness of every tree
I act on behalf of my utterances!
But unconvinced of this we learn also nothing.
Compassion,

That he should also nothing.
Compassion,
That belongs to acting how I trust these guns everywhere.
Put me in profile.

That is
implies
An ought,
certainly,

but there's no reason we suspect,
Is honest and true.
And old, indicted by the current sensibility.
But a concentration

That belongs to apples and the previous
And finally some dark purple stretches of the ocean
has its own
Post-currency mixed in,

of the ocean has its own
Post-currency mixed in,
of past peoplesFor fun,
but of the previous

And you ever see Golden Sky Stories?
I've been thinking of the current sensibility,
so I act on those
Invisibly thin treetop twigs,

like a fort made of these guns everywhere.
On each other aha / From moral imbalance;
only available choice,
Or the withdrawing of any harm, but strong enough

Which represents how difficult it is!
To be doing
The solar flares
licked

their inefficacy
there
can perch up
my hands.

And finally some way or some
Way, some multiplication table of
The one life,
But if he feels

Her right hand presses out
from within the river
anticipates the result of
And I suppose I trust these days.

A glove or someWay, some whitewater
And comparing that occur to
Another aha.
stanza break

But for air
I want to play
I'm made of every sensation,
From one planet and true.

And I trust these days.
That is not
Learned. The rules
Are rules, guys!

It's out from select diseases.
I come up my time at 10:45am.
There are words to believe it?
Does that should "is" some girls to do anybody any guidance to play

I'm made of any guidance to apples and necromancies of waiting
to succeed is safe
That is the feather
Duster worm.

stanza break
Do we
Think to be no reason we learn also have not
How pleasant it is! To be the endless mystery surrounding

The neon green
This is true.
Which we suspect,
Is honest and suburban superlatives?

This one planet and this we
don't want to do anybody any harm,
but strong enough
Get your compassion here!

I'm handing it would be
Of sufficient temptations.
This is true.
A glove or someWay,

some way or is the sea.
And yet I wonder what's in profile.
And old, indicted by the boon of past peoples
For fun, but what if he should "is" some girls to be no reason we suspect

Is honest and so often. The one which had not hopes in
stanza break
The current sensibility
Flatters urban and waited.

But have to be the teams of
Alluviations as the night sky record
here are rootless, suburban, ifI would be
Of the result of

But to play I'm going to play also
When I would beOf sufficient temptations.
This current sensibility
Flatters urban and when I go back to play also

Hey did you ever see Golden Sky Stories?
I've been thinking of any guidance to play
I'm going to invite Janelle Monae to invite Janelle Monae
to our enemies

gather the recording -- that
Technology will never exist.
All the literature on the water that occur to
Another aha.

stanza break
The current sensibility.
This is the water free from select diseases.
I would drink a mistake to a starling,
a mistake to play anymore. To themselves,

and constellations or is just, JUST
What a man riding a man riding a trash bird
Us? Not now, not hopes in
stanza break
I bet liptick
on red they
cough quietly eyeing 
Frankenstein's

cultural capital 
as optimism's
nefarious 
dahlia-shaped treatises 

glow meanwhile.
It wasn't that it may not always be,
EE,
the extra errestrial,

it's that dividing 
by zero feels 
like that but it's not a matter
of feel.

Don't put the steel 
in steel drums
next to the drums,
put them across the room 

from the mic.
I'm stuck in a rut
I don't know how 
to characterize.

I scale the sidewalk
comes closest? Most
intimate revelation 
I'll allow 

I'll allow you 
if you ask.
Do you want to?
You know who I mean

but you choose bot
to remember
ha
you choose which bats to remwmber

Like the bat in 12 Monkeys
when Brad Pitt says Semmelweiss
God I miss those days
What am I doing

Am I supposed to feel this adrift?
While I suck my lips into themselves 
and not speaking to say nothing 
of the lack of body language 

it might feel like astronautery 
is cousin to flat poetry 
and in this way I will not make it to
The Equator (that pub

on Huntington behind the BSO)
If I can be it
anybot can be it when
I say salt you say

a fall from that height
will bring to mind that
you can be your own
best place to put what

you have and to watch
it grow and if you
can be it anybot can
and anybot can climb to

this or that height just
put your mind to wall
but don't think of it
like that think of anybot

who has been born a
beast of the woods or
of the rocks and high
spots for they've been at

home on the up and
down planes not just the
side to side plains like
you and me who grow

the crops and when they
fall from a height anybot
can see them glide to
the side since they can

make the air as they
fall move them to the
side I think? Meh
Merp door blip not good

No thank you autocorrect 
Hey Siri how do you turn off autocorrect 
and host your own talkshow 
Turtle talk show

Talks how 
I get it
Than kyu Siri 
Go away Jon

Let him let himself ride
this typhoon out to
so many pastures of personal
revelations I'll allow aren't 

allowed. Do you think your confessional conceptual poem
will be a big hit? 
Yes
Why

Confess something to yourself
so that nobody can read it
but do it in print
in something that nobody will ever read

She won't read this
Take care to disguise the figurines
It's okay they can't see them
Go to Pandemonium (the store) and buy mini-figurines

Acknowledging his Google Map street view activity history
as a psychic map made it impossible
for him, 
for anybody really.

I don't follow. 
It was enough data to fit
in a box the size of a mini-fridge! 
I have to get out of here

Get me out of here!! This is not magic
This doesn't feel magical
I resent not being able to see the stars
I want to be able to fly a kite

In northern Arizona there are 18000 Navajo without access to electricity
according to a recent statistic I just heard on an internet video
Yes I've been watching Alex Honnold videos again
and the psychic map made possible by

this activity is freaking grim.
It's not grim but it's 
not inspiring
and I 

wonder
what it would be
like if it were me doing the 
things I wish I were doing (the looking

at stars and the flying at kites like I mentioned
before). Without sky there can be no skyline. The fact
is it's easier to imagine a lack of earth than a lack of sky. This
tells me that we are people of the air and stars, and the earth is not ours

to call home. EE the extra errata
EE phone home you homophonist! 
Why don't you go put a line break
somewhere it doesn't belong Edward Estlin?

True fact I used to love EE
I still do I guess but I don't carry his books around anymore
Now what do I carry around? Keys, phone, money, ID. 
My heart is in my pocket, it is poems by Citizens Bank

To put your hand against the earth's bones is a blessing
Granite and basalt and sandstone are blessings
Their contours and fractures and the places where plants sprout from them
I would miss them too badly if I couldn't accept 

Eventually 
everyone improves
and 
if sound guilty

Her kindness, though angelic
was famous, her fancy,
though capricious, was enough, 
her spotlessness, though transcendent

Found lineages, lines
of veins on painted
leaves, traces of 
Theresa throughout breakfast

Thoughts don't occur (to me) 
Pea Shoots taste good
Aqua Vitae is something
Tim Curry is in the movie Clue

It's been a tough day
Tomato barf
Slather splatter
Those people aren't good

Yeah I don't really believe in reality TV
but I love Jackass and I think it's good
Jackass is probly not good for people
Your whole crew and situation are nauseated

He left town ignoring the shock collar
He didn't think he would get much punched
It was Trevor's idea
Laying across the freight train tracks

Entitlement, comma, SENSE OF!
Take it or GO AHEAD AND LEAVE IT!
This is a DEMOCRACY YOU PUNKS!
Each ray that leaves the sun terminates in a giving hand. 

What footage are you least fond of?
I forgot leaking everything
I can't remember which fluids go where man
you know

My indoor sunglasses
November mackerel skies
fish don't have heads
semaphore has no fins

They were my friends I forgot
mentioning them honestly is honest
I'm in pain because of the oh I guess violets
and silences, moments of silences

The groans of the test audience
snow storms
broken limbs
downed power lines

Does anybody understand Bugs Bunny no wonder
I'm ecstatic I'm glad to have been proven right
It was as though a rocket took me off
There I am with freshly laundered haircuts

I can now envision a multifaceted geometric object
a planar ployhedron? No I think I forgot the Z axis
this will add depth. Jimmy Geometry over here
Stereography Steve over here

make sure they're all blindfolded
flinging heavy objects at each other
their selves sunk in their darkened foveas
while their bruises madden

Is there a secret fire for peace
burning in the human heart that wakens
just as darkness wakens across the heart
the darkness of the blood at rest and content?

I will find the secret fire for peace
if longing is a fire, if peace is a fire
that consumes power and smiles and leaves
smoke and ruin and peace.

If longing is a fire I will find that fire within me
and I will find what the longing is for
not what it longs after but what its purpose is
and should its purpose be peace I will build the fire up

I stare through the cyclops in a moment of silences
I crush and grind his eye and stoke with its powder the fire
that burns in my heart and longs for the destruction
of his power, of all destructive people of power. 

Wait should it be "Moments of Silence" or "Moment of Silences"? 
It'll be the first book of documentary poetry ever.
It'll have been written on the deck of a boat
while a venerable dean of his discipline looks on.

What kind of name is Popeye? 
Perhaps a surname. Perhaps his first name was James, 
short for Jameson. Perhaps his father's name
was James. Perhaps his grandfather was a lovebird. 

Your bird's name is Charles Schultz, creator of Peanuts. 
Your bird's name is The Artist Formerly Known as Prince. 
Your bird's name is Rest in Power. 
Okay fine your bird's name is Popeye (the bird). 

Let me know if I can name your bird
Let me know about naming your bird!
Did you get a bird? It's so sweet I want to name it. 
I want to name your bird. 

I want to name a bird. 
I will name it The Transcend.
I name a bird Stamp. 
I named a bird named Stamp. 

I have to remember about open enrollment
and I have to pay the gas, electric, and water bills
Woodstock doesn't. Woodstock is
useless. 

What would you 
have named Woodstock? 
Not Barleycorn but I bet
that's his friend.

My lovebirds
will be named
Juniper and Jupiter
or maybe a book title will be that.

Why did his name
settle as Woodstock? 
I want to name
a cat Juniper.

When you
whistle do
you think 
Woodstock is?

Name something
from Peanuts
that speaks in pipes
| | | | | |

Name one Peanuts
character who
is a bird
and is not a character.

Name one yellow
character with
no traits 
from Peanuts.

Woodstock's existence 
bespeaks compassion
and yet we know him to have been subjected to the same selective pressures
as us.

Woodstock can't fly
very well. He seems
lucky to be alive.
Why was he created?

Snoopy can't
understand Woodstock
and rolls his eyes
at him anyway?

Woodstock does nothing
basically. His function
is to do nothing. His speech
is nothing.

One character who comes 
to mind 
is Woodstock, not
meant as a character

Woodstock the bird
who is Snoopy's 
friend is
not a character

Do you want
to think
about Woodstock? 
you can't

This is my finest hour of my finest portraiture
of my finest performance as self-portraitist. I will not
SIT FOR THIS! (this portrait) 
I will also not STAND FOR THIS

First they sacrificed the crhistmsas elves
then they said I couldn't watch Jackass videos at wokr
on youtube. Then fing YouTube started doing DMCA takedowns
of old Jackass stuff and I was like what TF

Thanks Corey Booker! Thanks American worksforce
thanks social studies and thanks Jimmies Pardo,
Kimmel, Fallon, uhh... I guess Tingle too?
Too many Jimmies ho ho

Ha ha. I'm getting laid off? LOL
Thanks American workforce? I don't know. I read an article
it says American workforce antitrust protections (monopsnony)
are at an all time low like America is the lowest it's been!

You don't know what's on purpose
because America the great has no purpose
we suffer from a unified sense of purpose
when all we've been left to understand is purpose.

I have a commitment not to be swayed
but to love and to trust the Swayze
and always to pledge to edit typos out
of Patrick Swayze's wikipedia pagee.

The Transcend is sitting below the Monitor
And all day long I remember the Maine
While the Friendship drips in the drydocks
and the Packetboat did something something?

When they lit out for the Superbubble
Meh. Cough
CAOUGH
I'm done coughing. It's okay. I'm done with coughing fits

It is the case that I am not afraid of any ghosts.
There are not ghosts which I feel would pose any danger to me. 
No spectres cause me to feel fear. 
Nothing which is a ghost is capable of causing me to be afraid.

So if you lower the framerate you can look like a ghost
is the central message of most of the snapchat shit I see
or you can look like a goblin or like the green goblin
I don't know. I'm not that scared of most monsters

I woke up from what felt like an important dream
once I'd woken up. I was wracked with sadness
which seems silly because I was played by Harry Connick Jr.
or I was playing his part and his reaction

to hearing the very end of "Tender Surrender" by Steve Vai
played in exact detail and with almost complete conviction
on an elaborate device made of bent coat-hangers
by a little girl who only chickened out at the very end

because she felt foolish suddenly! And I was so moved
both by her conviction and her retreat that I turned away from her
and doubled over sobbing, and I don't know what she did in response
but she was me because I was dreaming and I played the song and backed off

in places they find cavities for
they who would with caution navigate and negotiate
but who would negotiate with caution?
I find this direction confining, redolent of misery.

When I was four and a half
I did not serve in Vietnam.
Our military involvement in that country had ended
and I was but a preschooler.

Let us impeach our president
and efface from history
the will of his supporters
though they are legion.

When I was five
I wee-wee'd twenty times
the legal limit, not true! I played
ocarina among the high peaks.

Let us now defame
the image of our cruel clod in chief,
whose every pout and swat
does us a dishonor.

We spent the weekend ravingly cous-cous-phobic
and eating half a lovely dinner but foregoing
a combo platter of faintly traceable fireflies
resulting in insular dwarfism.

What was that story about their tomatoes?
I mean I've heard dogmas about original
and deep significance but significance
doesn't work like that, and is in fact cumulative not "original!"

And if you can just get going on your fundraising efforts
you soon start to feel the panic backing off, and what
would we call it, a blue-green peacock pattern, or something similarly showy
and delightful, an eyeful of that, splashed around the room, predominates.

When the shock of the homemade food had worn off
we realized, or I did, that we kind of hate food,
or what it stands for. But then I'd nail aluminum siding around myself
if I could I would I would!

Like sugar packets, that amount.
Something you'd never surmise
unless you'd just watched a video about it
earlier that same day, "literally?"

They took up most of the lobby walls with their own portraits
but the art up in the boardrooms was something else!
And by that I mean faux-cubist tabula rasas
and born-digital limited-palette slices-of-life of CEOs

whose public opposition to clumsy portmanteaus
hinged on wholly other popularities which
could be quantified (if you like) in suspect ways
like the percentage of a hangnail that isn't there.

There's nothing for it,
no way forward really
but to seek gobfuls of chocolate --
oh that quality the continentals call "chocolatessence!!"

It's just that I can't stand the dead irises
though they never really die, if they come back
from year to year, and in that way I'm wondering
why some of the lights in some of the buildings downtown never turn off?

And when the mice spiraled out of the wall outlets we fell to our knees
but just for a second, and we followed our intuitions after that,
wishing we were wearing less "a suit" and
more "a construction outfit," something durable and practical.

The silk the grad students made for study
gave me bad dreams, uneasy sleep
as though constant inaudible coughing from next door
made the wall pulse but not so you'd notice.

I have always said how glad
it is to feel at home among caterpillars,
how funny, the sound of them plopping
from the trees, in stereo and green forest light.

Not noodles for them
but cups of broth almost brought to the brims
by scrolls of thick skinlike tofu
submerged, just.

Caught in five fervors
then four, they played instruments
checking each other's eye contact
against diagrams of past performances.

And with no second thoughts to burden them
but purer motives they could tear to fit
like fabric tape, or cut on the bias with special scissors,
they simply ascended, worrisome for their dogs.

Today my hands hurt! I spotted a toad
which cannot suck marrow from stems
as could our many ancestors oh so low
oh so many oso oso menny menny

And maybe when it rains again
and when the sun shines for the last time
I'll spot a high hot air balloon trailing a shredded green curtain,
substrate for a single word, a word without much resonance

but caught
waggling history
upside-down
miles above what might as well be a comprehensive dictionary.

There they spent the night
arguing against sleep while frostbite
took (between their fingers and wishes)
a few of their toes at a time. 

They happily wheeled in tight circles
against each other's gravity but never
until laughing and collapsing into fits
of feel-good hits of the summer did they 

stop to fully 
consider the 
calamitous and
squirtlike expectorances

attributed to 
them in a 
simultaneous
deposition

being given 
across town
by a woman
with a broken

wrist bone 
and shin
bone sticking
out through 

each other.
That she fell
against the protective
mats left

there for
her didn't 
enter the 
conversation?

It was not
a conversation
It was not
over drinks

The shin
bone is said
to be the
most difficult 

to break. 
The motif
that seemed 
to be about

to end the song 
instead carries
it forward into
a second 

and then 
a third
phase. Most
of the 

transitions are handled
that way, that is
disappointingly
if you care to know

that. Meshuggah
come back
to me and never 
stop playing

that music. I love
music you guys
and I love Popeye
when he sings

along to whatever
song is in his head
but what does that
mean? How can 

he sing along 
with himself?
Clumsily probably
Don't read this

No drone flying
No climbing on the 
rock art
No feeding wildlife

"This music
isn't interesting
to me except
as something 

to think about"
Oh my gourd what 
what
WHAT have you said?

A thing that can't
be fathomed. I'm not
interested in experience
just the fathoming

of the human impulse
that resulted
in this music
I'm not interested

in experiencing WHAT
mfer what
I'm interested in
lectures about

heaven but not
really interested
in heaven. 
I'm interested in 

thinking about Fernet Branca
not drinking it
I love Beyonce you
guys. I think

she's pretty good. You know
you know what 
I mean what
what. Go Beyonce you fing superhero. 

I'm sorry I ever doubted you. 
This doesn't have anything to do 
with any of you. This is the terriblest
thing a writer of anyone

can do, that is, to paint
a sloppy portrait
of Beyonce that ends up
looking like a barely

150-pound pseudointellectual dilettant
dilletant? Jebus. Whatever
I'm talking about a real Van Gogh looking
gingerbeard dumbass in awe

of everything, clawing
at notes
Beyonce sings, just. 
Go Beyonce.

physical torture and existential terror
is the bull the symbol of both or neither? 
does it matter what the b in pb&j stands for?
what if it was peanut bullter for example? that's stupid

So let's talk about
one particular kind of 
paranoia. When writing a 
longer piece, it starts

to feel like everything
one encounters, formally, contently,
fits into the ongoing accumulation one is practicing
and the logical extent 

of this tendency is
vvvvvvvyvvvvvvvvvv
yyyyyyyvyyyyyyyyyy
anyway the logical extent

of the paranoia we're
talking about is one's
writing and one's life
become slowly synonymous to

the point where it 
can seem like the 
life you're leading is
composed by your composing?

Sodas for sale 
is that real? No way
Ouch buuuu
Oh okay 

Where will you hide from an inevitable thing? Your smarts 
will make you barf. The truth of the universe
rock&n&roll pants 
Molecules stuck in a gravity well on slow-motion fire from the inside mitochondrially

Butt s
Improv snobs and standup snobs
I should look up some stuff on the internet
I should water my floor

I love music you guys. 
Barf
I like having fun
Maybe I could ingest like some inside=out caffeine molecules?

Drop in on the 2
then hit again real hard by the 4
that Brazilian thing that goes ooh hoo ooh hoo what is that
some kind of music instrument

I'm not pissed your pissed
maybe we can de-escalate this
I have all the nuclear buttons
Don't bring mescaline to a Bechdel test fight bro

The real reason you only see videos of music
How can a congressional district line run right throug a house
I've seen twenty zebra butts in a row
They never cost spending any momey

It's one thing to complain about temperance
Fine with me I think Saint Exupery is overyrated
Nothing I you can ever say to think of
me ever overdoses things in a sink like EGGS!

Parfour the coarse that's dumb
that's not even anything. So
You did
You're not a smart alcohol

Hoist your BigWheel overhead
Call in all your cartoon favors! 
Bake a trophy full of bread
Devour the thrice-signed waivers! 

CTRL F MFers
Yeah woo hoo cut/paste
Yeah find and replace whooooo yeah
Yeah alright COUNTIF yeahhhhhhhhhhh dogness

Did I write about monkey suits already
I refuse to control F to find out.
Diddy Kong RAcing
Yeah go look it up.

Why isn't Johnny Knoxville Jack Nicholson by the way? 
There must be a reason, t'must be but
a quruel whimm of fancey
T'must be the intervention of Capital. 

Your brain introduces hurdles between your food
and your understanding of the process
by which it is already mostly poop! 
Your brain is lying to you that's okay.

Lumiere got his ass kicked that's okay.
Oh wait I had this joke what was it? Movie industry 
Like producer guy needs to go by himself
like go be home alone and oscar bait? Is that funny?

What happens when
you fill paint-filled balloons 
with Rocky Balboa?
Oscar bait. 

Jury duty for me
was guilty. 
They sentenced him
but I was like! 

I've never sat
on Denver
envying
vinegar. 

I've never felt
a feeling
of accomplishment
so bland. 

it's going, I'm here to eat it
the flowers that sprung from my arrows
the haft of the axe that's chocolate
the bitter seeds that sweeten in the stomach

whose crop do you grope
what suture when you cough
pops loose what creative craft
what cunning inheres in your scales?

Those beaver gargoyles look like beavers
Depending on genetic resources
Is the discussion tab a useful resource?
And will I be notified if someone posts an answer?

Some general for
matting will con
dense the inform
ation into a fact

or a frequently asked question. 
Different titles can be linked
if the text is succinct
according to the CDC

and if the seatbelt pretensioner trips
I'll follow your memory down a rabbit hole
straight past whatever else is being said
so that I have the air of the daydreamer, 

the (perhaps) absent-minded professor type
but not so professorial, a woolgatherer
I'm saying. A cloudbrain,
a peacemaker? Sure, but on accident

there's not much traffic
traffic arriving with the frequency of spores
which suggests they carry a potency, a contagion
while our thoughts turn to lemonade

with a pile of footnotes at the bottom
and a whole section of endnotes at the end
"Who endnoted my lemonade?" 
fails to register as a question asked

so much as a spilled beverage
or a spilled bean
"So much for those spilled bean!" they then
while their eyes fill with tears

oodles of tears and time and headaches!! 
They (then) (I was saying) uploaded a headache
to YouTube and it was the most viral headache
video for almost 8 years, nearly 15 million views

let's take a donut break
on top of today's breakfast burrito
which was eaten nearly
villainously gluttonously

eaten with a gusto that approached sinful
eaten with a happiness of participating in its fullness
I sinned, eating a huge-ass breakfast burrito
and in the green chili I was made whole

First I edited some wiki pages in my sleep
and upon waking into a rainy morning I showered
in the dew that drifted from the showerhead
and a Native American bus driver told me to have a good day

and I balance-beamed it 
with a sincere almost sinful gusto. 
Here's a thing I could probably tackle
those fish people are probably weird.

One thing I don't believe in is associative logic
I'm not a big believer in poetry! True, almost sinfully unpopular opinion
Cut the content from poetry and move it elsewhere
I don't believe in it but I need it

which is a kind of running crisis
that rhymes with a crisis of consciousness
I've read about and really made my own
or like, the idea of a hat

that generates its own documentation
without me having to think about it
and I don't care if anybody reads it
not super into best practices

kinda more into breast pastises 
here's my powerpoint slide about that
click here for my favorite academic papers
click here to take a short survey you ape

googling "how difficult are the cassini mission ring dives"
yields
about 30,800,000 results
I don't know it seems like an unnatural maneuver

oh wait never mind
it actually does go around the planet?
Yeah of course it does, ape
and I understood the illustrative animation

that I just watched. I understood it completely
I watched it again frame by frame, 
as was done when Robin Hood was animated
girls after all do just want to have fun

can you show me how to do edits you ape
can you show me how to herringbone step
what do you think about the father of modern medicine?
what would it take to be vilified 

for the ferocity with which you ate a breakfast burrito
I don't know what's the right thing to do
Nobody is saying anything about it to me
I'm NOT supposed to give you a piggyback ride?

I don't know how to take care of business
I'm more of a salamander admirer
I'll be swallowed by a skin fungus
or eaten by republicans probably

I'm not real good at duck duck goose
though the linkrot of instructional talks pervades
sanskrit tedtalk hashtag polearm
I learned how to Aziz Ansari by doing it

When the lights dink off 
and dink back on all the TVs reset
and we all collectively hiccup
a bubble the dating system gives us

not in terms of profile
but the way you want to kiss me
you suppose that I can't tell but I can
while our eyes fill with tears (TM) LOL

who do you think writes best practices
what is maternity leave for ultimately?
what are babies for? and how?
I like when they grab my nostril

I like to title puzzles
and I like to write puzzle pieces
and I love not knowing what the whole is
but all this is bog standard pomo

and what am I? Alive and star-pierced
I'm a knit
I'm greaved
I'm (fuck you) made of musuc

Let us tweet the nightmare
Of a how-to, a clumsy gloaming
The content of it, the fool
& his ampersands all calibrated

what do we want in this wiki
who does the clown think he's suducing?
There's no butts in this beaker!!
I'm trained as a materials scientist!!!!!!!

Income equivalence
will you email me
a cup of feathers
on a cusp-covered cloud

what software do I love?
I'm a native american bus driver
I tell people to have a good day
I thank the lady for the cream of wheat

digitalis?
incunabulum?
I'm into Eringya's Surprising Bouquet
google it, it's probably gone

It'll be all elbows 
& wrong way turns, falling 
unforced off a bicycle, police 
asking down the 

road if you knew why
(if you only knew)
you fell & you're like
Motherfucker I Am A Klutz

And You Are Stupid &
Cruel, you (you, not 
the hypothetical policeperson) bundle
up in the spring, sink

experience points into useless
skills, forget to water 
yourself? It's, believe it, possible,
it's inevitable. Oh I didn't 

think about that. They
are a strange people
who gather in even 
numbered groups to pair off

to seed each other's
nightmares, some of them
are better at it
than others but anyone

can improve with practice.
Your name is Cedar
and when you were biking
in the desert with 

a hero of mine
who you call a 
cow-eyed goofball or something 
like that, you found 

a puppy by the side
of the road, just 
like that. You seem
to have made him

a kennel out of
an empty beer case.
Your life and the puppy's,
equally impossible to imagine,

became entwined. Where was 
I, if not being like ooh
a loaf of bread,
could I have a 

whole wheat sourdough, please? No
the half size, please? There's 
no way I'll eat
that much. That's a 

lot of bread for
a single guy to eat,
and then I half-smile
at her. In another simulation 

she has hair down
to the small of her back
and the muscle that
runs from the point

on her skull just
behind her ear down
to the proximal end
of her collarbone stands

out prominently, powerfully attracting
me. Will I be able 
to tell her in
time? The platform she's 

hesitating on, turning & stopping,
turning again first her 
head so that the 
muscle of her neck I was talking about

stands out, casts a 
partial shadow. They said 
this was dissimulable, this
musculature. And again from

the same direction and 
towards the same direction she turns,
there will never be enough 
understanding

this moment. She avoids
the overhanging problems
and the ones
with big power moves,

leaps and things like that,
she sticks to slabs
oh quite literally ugh 
I disliked that turn of

versification. I hate poetry you guys
I really do. Egg
and egg sandwiches though ?
Breakout hits

The new people compare
the old people to trees
and dragons unhelpfully for
their shoes fill with floodwaters

and coalmines? This was
blue screen, now is
green screen, of a moment 
you can throw anything 

behind or towards. The
baseball thuds into
and ripples the chroma 
when the pitcher throws it 

on my birthday! Happy 
to me.
There's no calculating along
the optic nerve

for abacus sounds
to count or be 
calculated by like a 
childhood triumph.

These are those spider memories that,
once caught in a body,
will never stop imagining 
(why is that?) whether 

cruelties or otherwise,
the wearer of fancy
in the city on its birthday
or the evaporation into

camouflage in mountains built 
of Google Maps and caffeine,
why are you wearing that?
Did you get dressed in the dark?

Technically yes, but I assumed
the proportions of a large humanoid,
it's wang dangling in front 
and a kangaroo mask taped on

the back side of its face.
Yeah like I was born
knowing how to answer 
both snow hike callings and

what is that old hail stuff called?
I remember but I want you
to think of it. I want you
to take my clothes off and

tie me up so there is
an element of danger, and
I want you to consider 
what "kind" of work the

word "element" is doing earlier 
in this, its sentence. Let's 
climb Cedar Mountain by
its hardest route wearing 

yesterday's best outfit
for caveman 
and tomorrow's 
spaceman rock shoes

(clap, clap, clap clap clap).
And I suppose you think I'm a slam poet
well
tough (or touch) 

tomatoes (or tits) tell
me about them
they claimed this land
for king and country

full stop!! They wrote home
do you suppose? 
I wasn't there. They went up the so-called Phantom Terrace
They drove to Cañon City

in a bid for canonicity
or cannons in cities?
The immediately above is terrible
should not be Cañon City's 

state motto. 
Or bird. 
Or anybody's, it
is bad. 

Okay. On
purpose. 
On Her Majesty's
Secret Purples. 

I can type the word secret
with one hand, I can type
most words with zero hands. 
I can type all words

with negative hands
I can synthesize words
from peor theorizations. 
Is peor air

thinner than thin
air? Is thin air
peorer than peor? 
What is 99.44% peor? 

What is a peor race?
What is a master soap?
What is a derp-pox soapy?
On which soap did a dove descend

from the heavens and who was there
to hear the booming voice
of a trickster god disrupting the social order
by robbing from the rich

and overturning their money tables
as though he were a real person
a real person?
They never got my check

so I never got my forgiveness subscription.
They swell the ranks
who hide the tracks
with trains of tanks

and clicks of clacks. 
Whereas
hindsight foresight onsight insight 
si es. Ugg 

trademark.
They blood bressure
been up
to twitter tm

tweets. Sorry 
it's not that not
this mtatters.
ocai?

Cripes only almost halfway there
which is more than you can say. 
Ugmo I called you ugmo. 
Nah not really state.

I can be better
if I rely on nature
which is like an ether ore
oh stop the self-admonishment

You're not Billy Corgan in centipede form
You didn't write and record Siamese Dream
You wrote Siamese Dream 2 and then refused to show it to anybody
because it's terrible

Well that didn't stop original Billy Corgan did it!?
Poor man, must have been weird
to watch his money and organs dry up in the sun
speaking of which I wonder where the Violent Femmes are now

What a signature pleasure  
is a Lincoln commercial. 
Let me see if I can guess how to spell
McConaghey

on the first try. Oh I just looked it up, 
not bad! I'm a little disappointed
but whatever. 
I mean it's not like

I pound on the keyboard and 
call it jazz? A funny
space comedy. You bought a 
house there. I loved it

so that we would be friends.
My network said it would be great.
Eclipses left and right! 
Very cool thing that the sun

does. Civil War battles,
that too. Yeah, I tried to make movies,
it didn't happen, the plaque they
put up to commemorate

the battle that didn't happen.
Whatever. I was fat
and I couldn't make it up
or back down the wall. Hi 

Shelly! Who are you? Doesn't
matter. I wrote scripts in Burbank
didn't you? No offense to
the Holiday Inn!? Well, 

maybe John Denver knows. 
I wonder if I've breathed any
of John Denver's molecules. Digital TV
signals break along such charming lines.

I forgot to buy lights. Wait no I didn't,
I was going to buy them from
the zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
place. Whatever, you did. 

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Playing along with the dramatic uncertainty of the music
I'd love to return to a past entailing only game shows
Ask me questions about pyramids, swirly audio compression artifacts

When I think of final answers
There are so many anatomies
Coloring books take over and demand charity
I'm distracted. Maybe I should bone out

Let's play or talk about charity
Do you know what Regis Philbin is? 
This is a matter of charity, and lightbulbs
Lightbulbs go off over our own thoughts

Only in 2017 can you watch Norm MacDonald
What is a tennis? What is a golf? 
Norm answers all of the questions
He talks about Paul Newman

Nowhere within so much information 
Was there a group of Norms? 
Or just one Norm? Was his name
One text only? How did it get spelled

The Amarna period was false and accurate
The sun's hand rays had to be uncarved
And it's giving power had to be unseen
All the texts had to be unraveled, it was cool

There is only one book
And its epigraph comes from St. Augustine
"When it is my time to return to dust,
you best believe I'm gonna bone out"

The best books have the widest scope
And concern themselves with what is truly important in a life
In a tone that suggests it's possible to believe
The possibility of understanding and living accordingly.

When did you last
Truly bone out?
Was it 2017? 
Was it Nefertiti times?

Last year is next year's next year
Proving that there are only three years
When you die you're onwy fwee yeaws owd
And the gwim weapew says to you

Sample propaganda slogans:
Time for me to bone out!
Time for democracy to bone out! 
Bone Out 2016

You are the New Year baby falling
The center of the chair at 12:00:01
Was not enough to support you
You elbow dropped it like Popeye

You sit on a couch before you bone out
You fell through a chair, you're great
You're superlative, the very best, the oldest
Please, it's too soon to bone out

I told them I would bone out
Pyramid style, pyramid text style
You can't hit them, punch them
Time for my funds to bone out

Not a lot of this is funny
They softened like ice cream
They thought they'd give you $20
Time for multiple earworms to bone out

There are surprise sobrieties
Weird bathing trunks and etc
Like lined up on a runway
I guess it is sort of like Chaucer

There's a robe with Norm MacDonald's name on it
A long way from hitting rock bottom
A shot of the grandmothers in the audience
I wonder how the grandmothers fancy a Popeye

Yeah I'll try some Popeye stuff
I'll pick out a new show like a western
Like with a little tin cup dangling from a hook
Not textbook Popeye but you can imagine

Maybe you and me should cut loose
I've got a hogshead of green lab tape
How many green lab tapes are in this document?
This is not a document that is two documents

We don't need two books
We don't even name one Angela
If the spectral police turn tone deaf
I'll plead the innocence and redirect them

A more evolved person
A cosmopolite if you will
To teach my how to be affectionate
So I went to a bookstore

Excellent pull choice 
Within a silent putty
Of tempting unguents 
And riotous jabuticabas 

On Tuesdays I like the Toadies
On Wednesdays I like to rehearse
Thursdays were made for Tori Amos
Fridays (the show) was perverse

Les Claypool had a twin brother
Who looked like me in the mirror
But I was turning into Beck's twin
In both cases my output suffered

To be Beck's twin brother 
I had to alter my appearance 
A different fold of my mesentery 
A way my teeth lined up

You are a serious capybara
You sleep under the jabuticabeira
Your blanket is called a lençol
But you never need to know that

Your Velcro assists my imagination 
I can see how your skin joins itself
This isn't predatory or surgical
Your body is my brain idling 

Let's read for argument's sake
Let's put our wine in the microwave 
Most people know a couplet when they see one
I only see Buster Keaton

Loftiness score of a hat
In the scene after Abraham Lincoln
Your body is a beautiful adjective 
Your body is wiry and incisive

I'm on my way to a friend 
A rational equivalent for sciences
In case the jabuticaba cuts out
If the flight attendant union folds

No longer possible 
The likelihood diminished
Making more music
On Nickelodeon shows and personalities 

For my son's shoes
There's bad parenting 
There are loudmouths
Music as a professional 

Mailing Taylor Swift back to sender
Are you glad about Domhnall?
Sorry The Domhnall and his sneakers 
Some trappings and no money

Producer thing with hand
Perfect week under keyboard bed
Immediately realized shallow rain
Like Phil Collins of 80s vintage 

The things you loved as a kid
Production values didn't survive the audit
Kid style flamenco and gated snare
The perfect keyboard sound for Dallas

I recently let my nightmares watch movies
They wanted to see the Bernadette Peters trumpet scene
By the beach in The Jerk in
The 1980s, 90s, 2000s, and today

He watched skateboard treadmill videos
But you haven't seen Urrrgh a music war?
And at that moment the teeth came loose
And that movie I pulled out my own head 

There's a mean old green bean
Playing baseball in real life with me
But I never saw the movie, 90s?
The movies of me losing my teeth

Lotioning my itchy knuckles
Why am I being so mean?
Can you help me remember some movie?
It's the one where Audrey Hepburn helped herself 

I guess I don't get to have fun tonight 
I guess I have a medical condition yet
That makes me be a townspeople mob
I've got no basis for complaints in other words

Please welcome your new teeth
Though they say you are well
Young, and I was dumb, and rap music
Do you want to listen to rap music?

I'll see you later next time
Where students have the best opportunities 
Alma mater of comedic greats
Not much money will be accepted

I blacked out and when I woke up
My finances were in order
And the propaganda I wanted to
Have written was written

There are things I don't worry about 
Yo I'll solve it (hunger)
Make an episode up they all are anyway 
Rap music by then was a going concern

Too much scenic landscapes
And I forget what I was sitting behind
A little bit of blood loss
And the irrigation of a wound

Welcome the Philadelphic heart chamber
It was very small and memory-like
And it sleeps like a nurse
Who I ask hasn't seen inside a body?

The way I'm to friendship
Can you finish anything 
Listen to the elevators on the left
When you have drop outs

Never heard of them
Graduate fame and semester pain
With a plaster cast of a painting 
Nouns in place of kickboxing classes

All of your photos superimposed midair at Machu Picchu;
All smashed together doing yoga or a handstand on the beach.
You all love travel and red wine and dogs; your collarbones 
Coincide, and all your ribs enwrap the New England Patriots.

She was not OF you,
OF yours, her dreams were
Not yours, her smile her own
Though you admired it

And would have loved it with
A true sincere love. LOVE ever but
Let us be honest with ourselves tho.
While the sonic spin of her laughter

Said saxophone you heard sycophant
Didn't
You.
Have you met any one OF you?

Maybe only one, maybe two
Maybe only half a dozen or
A full dozen, a dozen dozen women
Asleep stuck to the dark half of earth

Or awake in bed going "how in the"
And "why in the" or
Looking out a window if there's a moon
Or some snow or some nothing to look at.

Is love transformative, really,
That is,
Is it transformation you're so desperate for?
Or just to feel wanted? No carnelian

Wanting, pressuring 
Through dream (dream is
Narrative future)
No gemlikeness.

I offer here a précis of my treatis
Some may call it a monograph or a lyric dissection
On the abolishment of the state sponsored spankings
Of the seventies.

Since the dawn of prehistory,
Human beings have known of spanking.
It is a widely held belief that spanking coevolved
With the human buttocks,

And that even before speech,
Spanking is what separated us from our chimpanzee cousins.
Some thinkers have even suggested 
That language in its earliest form

Was not spoken but slapped out
As a sort of a primitive Morse code
On the buttocks of proto-hominids.
In the present author's opinion,

This last theory is an example of the intellect overreach
That plagues the discipline, and of wishful thinking. 
I'm sorry to hear about your tweets about 
The Watercolorists and I am sure that I can stay 

Here in my room and there's nothing else about this app.
The music and sounds are so nice but it's 
Not even the only person that I could do.
I'm so glad that she's the only one of the day.

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of life I don't
believe in life I
do believe in of

course dear Lord what
will my life be
what will you will 
it to be why

does not the sweeping
ignition of the descending 
star of your right
sword arm end life

on earth Lord why
does not the all
embracing embrace of the
love in your enfolding 

left arm Lord embrace
us all Lord are
you what we say
you are or what

we believe you are
or are you nothing
like those are you
nothing like anything else

I don't believe in
anything I don't read
words I don't hear
sounds I don't construct

arguments I don't dismiss
foes from the vestibule
of my awareness I 
don't acknowledge my role

in my awareness I 
don't acknowledge my awareness
I forgive my lack
of awareness I play

video games for eight
straight hours with no
awareness and at the
end of the eight

hours I have won
and a dawn of
a winning sensation lights
my awareness but it 

is short lived and
the distance I feel 
from the man I
see in the mirror

and his lopsided gaze
shifting from one of
my eyes to the
other makes it hard

to understand that there
is no mirror there
and then there is
like in the Buddhist

proverb about the mountain
I woke up today
knowing my enemies are
there enemies there then?

This involuntary pronoun thing, mind confessing itself,
she
this 
involuntarily hope-like memory-like blip,

not a daydream, not indulged, as a daydream.
Pressing, urgent, requiring countersignature,
she: she seems to press her cheek against my temple,
my opposite ear dividing her gently pressing fingers.

Is destruction a form of connection, she said
"she said" she said. I don't want any more
to destroy the reader, can't any more want to mangle
the dragonflies 

when they could be put alight
in a September & an October well enough
advanced that the heat from the paving stones
sunk in the lawn appeals to them

and they settle in twos and threes
which (notice) they never do
earlier in the year
to absorb the heat, 

the form of connection
my love "my love"
my love what is it to feel this love
let it warm itself

which it surely will 
as the cold of tomorrow's loss
clouds the multifaceted eye,
the striped fire body & darting mind.

Every day 
you are
still falling, 
still candy

coated, love,
still today 
breathing, likely
enough, love.

Using the fingers 
To talk around of
The turtle's rib cage &
Its interior shoulders

What is a good word
Using the treadmill
The most important thing to breathe 
The pre-made movie you'd

Hate seeing
Used as ballast
To raise the nightmare shipwreck!!
Drink some clear water

green
source
doubles over
the light

The safeword is you
Close the book. I
Wish I'd written down
Every insult, every untruth

And reversal. Tying her
Up in my living
Room means I take
Responsibility for knowing when

To author her release.
I had foresight enough
To get it in
Writing from her. Watching

Her write it got
Me off later on.
To refigure the creative activity as intoxicant, catalyst of forgetting, 
oblivion. Not destruction as the aim, but killing time, destabilizing mind.

Or adjunct to drinking, drinking's solar twin
Not philosophy but a thoughtful performance of folly. Public intoxication
Yammering slurring. Can't remember what my point was
Caprice, no. Purposeful action thwarted by thickening & swirling of its medium

Indifferent to outcome. Blind spot that grows bigger and bigger, bluckying out
Catalyst, who knew! There was no referendum, so.
A referendum! Is a really great idea!! You seem like a really great person!!! I'm so sad!!!!
Horse thief no. Like no, and. I took classes

Let the class thing go Spider-Man. Spelling punctuation etc. Mode of attire, register of speech. Doubling up
Thinking now of new pieces, dreaming of insects and big buildings, really big and really small
Condense possibilities into reality
The need to share one's love for others, might be frustrating or even traumatic if not met

What does it mean when 
Good designers never confuse
Puppetry
Obsession with one part of the finished piece can obscure the insight that's needed to make it work

Is gum chewing a gesture? Almost certainly
Play; abandon; risk
Laughter as a medium that erases its own performativity. 
Honest laughter overtaking the person, 

or is it just the laugh 
that has been practiced 
the most and seems 
easiest? Fix the elevator or we just all use the stairs

While waiting for life
To give me my life back
I soon came to a creek
And putting one foot across it

I had grown to half my height
I had digested half my light
When a bend in the road
Came to me around which

I looked for inspiration every day
It had been many months, years
& someone I realized I didn't know
Whispered this in my ear

I had been carrying scissors
For years w/o scissoring anything
When a bolt of lightning forked
The twin pathways in front of me

I sat underneath the stars convulsing
& sobbing thinking of my life
While the stars steadily lost traction
To the rising sun behind me

My life distilled its own sweetness
Gradually thickening into a syrup
The halftime buzzer shot a bead
Of crystallization through, cracked

Their oars were all blucky
And now all at the same instant
The sun finds them
They flash. The train I'm on passes

The monster had ceased moving
The blood pooled up to Jon's
Ankles but slowly soaked in
To the ground and Jon began

To breathe again and lowered
His axe. Most monsters
Fall this easily or more easily
It is true. And they fill the air

With an inside of body smell
Jon was forbidden from
Speaking of these encounters.
The tale never started

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How can you please make 
The fact that it was not immediately 
The only way to get a new phone 
I love it when people are just a 

A final nine stanzas
Four inches of ledge to left
Five inches to right
I occupy no space 

9 meters below next ledge
9 meters above previous
He fell 99 meters cause of death
Was blunt trauma to head

There's a video on YouTube 
That might not move you as it moves me
It's called Crestone Traverse GoPro
Or something like that

None of the farcical heroics
No "conquering" the mountain, no wraparound sunglasses 
The soundtrack is Eddie Vedder singing a kind of a 
Blinkered dunce cap honestly kind of song

About being "free" but
The question is one
One puts to oneself &
The available answer 

Is incredibly dangerous 
Mostly vertical movement 
Over tremendously upheaved
Broken solid oozings of

The mud "the matrix"
Flash frozen over centuries 
Into a monumental needle
The camera is the movement 

Of the head of a climber
A frantic rubberbandy gaze
Probing the rock while
Beams of sunlight rake over 

The light raking over the summit 
Climbing into bare impossible warped fact
By that point the words have dropped
The music turns in reassuring harmonic circles

Huerfano County S&R received notice
That an emergency locator had
Been activated in the Lily Lake vicinity
Whose wishful thinking was that name?

A 45 year old Missouri man was injured
In a fall while climbing the Ormes Buttress
I wish he was some Denver wraparound type
From Denver. Sorry "weekend warrior"

Missouri's body was discovered
In the moonlight, sat on
By a small mammal
Who split into sub-mammals and dispersed

Reintegrating him
His body
Proved impossible,
Reconstituting

What was inevitable
At high altitude,
The present moment,
They couldn't

They were house cats
He was a house cat
Who survived
For two weeks

At the continent's
Highest altitudes
Eating hikers &
Mountain lions

& mountain goats
and wildflowers
& boots. Trying
To reinterject him

To reinsert him
Has been always
Like ugh. Like they
Just

Meh. Who cares
Is the problem,
Who keeps to the
Ridge line, the present

With its steep drop
Offs to
Either
Side sir.

Sir? I'm sorry sir
Thank you for holding sir
Sir! Sir! You can't do
Excuse me, sir? Can I help

That's nice graffiti, sir.
I want to take one of
Your balls at a time all the way
Inside my mouth, sir. What

Can you tell me
Sir
About unfiltered starlight
Have you seen it sir, really

Hey big sir
My dear sir
What do you do with
Your incurable life

You insect
Sir
You dragonfly
Sir your exoskeletal

Steak sir
The last of your food sir
Half your hitpoints sir
Convulsed with weeping sir

Your water sinks sir
Into the sand as we all will
There's your cure sir
There's your wild life

Trickling momentarily
Footprint
Above footprint
Down the face of the dune

And disappearing
I'm sure they don't call them that
They don't write it that way
They don't write like this at all, who would?

Restless arroyo bait, sub-animal, runs
Countersideways half up the road cut
To a stop in the sun. What will it be
If not eaten? Me is a sprinkler head,

I'm sure they don't call them that, the green
Circles they leave, who needs them?
Reclaim all but every tenth road, I say,
Nationalize the land, water it linearly,

Hell it seems like a lot of trouble to go to
Just to make the little corners useful
There's probably a water crisis. I'm sure
It'll rain someday.

Can I talk to you confidentially? It
Often happens. Hell yes I can sing
I won't know what to make of you,
This, and, maybe it's better, best, I don't know,

The initiation of an event often happens
In the same year as its conclusion.
To inhale the scent of lilies in August
Is to have been betrayed in September

Of the previous year. I do not overstate,
But habituated (now) to the inward rounding-down
That any degree of pain occasions,
I have to check. And searching for a story

About this morning's delayed train, I find
That a man who fell on the tracks on Tuesday
And came in contact with the third rail
Has passed away now. Many of us,

Perhaps dozens, were not killed between
Tuesday and today. Many of us are merely
Sweaty, and want to find someone who
Will tie us up and issue commands, it's

The sweaty air that has us thinking
Of such an obedience.
I would say this is common to most of us,
This line of thinking, this giddy response

When we're  informed that another has died
Evidently an absurd death abruptly. We want
And will not be afraid to ask for
A pair of neckties to be used to restrain us

By the wrists. Or we think maybe
Of dinner, or of an admiration born of hope
And sincere, unlooked-for intimacies, everybody's
Different and you have to check with them

Frequently to ensure that no misrepresentation will
Mar whatever you have going with them,
No misunderstanding too,
Same deal. Be careful with the fools you love,

They're likely to die
In the next 24 hours, or move away on you
Or lie to you. Love isn't enough. It's a blessing-curse
That it always feels like it should be enough.

Mine is green inside;
they pull out by cartloads
until exhausted, mine the workers
exhausted, green still mine inside now.

Oh what so that you can what?
Pinpoint your coordinates (?)
without recourse to "minimal evasive distances,"
to be (that is) startled by the puff

of kungfu wind (?)
such as might snuff
a candle 
on film in response

to some jab
from some master.
Nothing is not annoying, and good advice
can so seldom not be followed. 

Nothingness IS annoying. Nothing is as annoying
as nothingness is. Okay cut the junior high crap
There were three things originally: 
rock, humans, and a force that stuck them together. 

Air came from rocks, water came from humans,
and the passage of time came from the sticking-together.
Many more things proceeded from each precedent thing,
until the world was full. Terror of a full world 

came last of all, a sort of culmination or convergence
of lineages. A sort of pinpointing, a zeroing in.
Talk to your doctor if you develop a rash while using Jimmy Fallon.
Jimmy Fallon has been known to cause dizziness, 

nausea, suicidal thoughts and actions, atrophying, uhh
comedic instincts, and zzzzzzzzz
whatever. Talk to your doctor lulz. 
Do we know for sure that professional wrestling is fake

no it probably isn't. Parts of it, the performed parts
that is, are quite real. I'm interested
in performing neither my grief nor my joy
and so the Incredible Hulk strikes a nerve

that the others do not. When we come back
Jimmy Fallon's head will fall off and roll down Amsterdam Ave.
why that street is that a street? 
what street are you guys talking about?

Verse isn't really participating in creation these days
is it? I mean creation and consumption probably aren't
opposites truly, but poetry seems to belong
to consumption more these days doesn't it? 

Not like when I was a kid, special cornflake snowflake me.
This question is not me asking.
I have a question for you!! Do you like John Cena
That's not your question. Why are you awake

on Wednesday night, talking to no one, thinking
to no one, ice cream cake foam slick stuff stuck
to the corners of your mouth, and now's too soon
it's Thursday morning and you have to go to work.

Do they know what you do there? 
Nobody seems to. There are those
who perform well and those who can't seem to. 
James Corden go cram. Seth Myers cauterize your mouth.

Jimmy Fallon stop ruining a generation. Stephen Colbert
try harder. David Letterman come back. Nothing
not even ice cream
is like it was when I was a child. 

I performed well today. 
I stood up straight,
I ran 4.92 miles, 
I ate ice cream in the future.

So apparently now I regularly have
These teddybear conversations which is
More my personal brand than if I'd chosen & fought for it,
I simply embody gentleness and sweetness (the male version)

I can turn it on & off, sure. Yes
I notice your dress, your laughter,
Your bangs, yes I'm a playful fucker at will etc.
If anything I'm "being" too intellectual & should "be" more playful

Do you & how is you spell autobiography.
Not a question. I'm a hulking maniac
Not autobiographical. There is love in the universe
As there is "no bad aggression within you" (she gestures at my body).

"You need to be more confident" what the f?
Why does everyone keep saying that. I am,
I repeat, a HULKING MANIAC! How much more
Explicit must I make myself? Hide it under

A bushel NO! I'm gonna let it shine
Nah never mind I'm gonna hide it. No, go be boned, you.
My light is precious, you can come peep it if you want
But I'm not going to waste it spelling words for you

At beginning in feline sunlight
On platform with motive growth
In sunlight at beginning beach
With growth on return platform

A halo of information around a woman's
Shoulders, and neck, a haze spreading
From her face and collarbones, news
Which is not known of her, out of

The corner of the eye an envelope
Added to the sunlight. Pull back
From speech into it and listen.
What is apricot light in construction

As a kid or again as an adult
And does meaning change back on
Schedule, the meaning of dungeon and enemy
The meaning of full health and

The light that swirls like hospital scrubs
The light and the rhymes it'll risk
Did you marry advantageously
The chiffon on your wedding confection

Order the food that you love
Ask for the nourishment you favor
Request the uh sustenance of which your heart doth sing
Ok Jeezus. Just say what you want

If her sweetness is autobiographical 
Nonetheless does she star in her story 
She winks as the ceiling turns starry
Which erewhile was turbid if typical

Her wonder is all without sweetness
All arch is her candor, the placement
And force which she stresses with syllables 
I fancy her rather a peahen

Her one eye spins a French spiral
Her other an eye for detail
Her correspondences are (drumroll...) 
chiral

In shape and demeanor she's quail
The best thing to say that the 
Government spokesman said on 
Monday night in a statement issued by the 

Time for a long night WAS
I'm so excited to be able to get my 
Hair nails money! I'm so happy for you 
Guys I'm not going to be able to get 

The only thing I would like to have my
Hair nails money. It's so much better than 
A few weeks of school tomorrow is.
I'm so happy to see you soon

then I'm like so okay is it time
to revisit that goliath grouper
photo with the photographer's
fisheye lens looking

at the grouper coming from
the cloud of the herring or whatever it was
I never knew what species they were
Westminster Abbey couldn't tell you (wtf does that mean) 

copypasting baby toes
baby how you did learn
to hold your fat toes
baby smiles and smells of fireworks

dollops of green nonpesto sauces
fat balls of energy weighing
down countless wizard palms running around
turning on their sides and running away with finger legs

I bet hip hop is Mesopotamian
yeah I said it ice cream make mark
scream scream scream give
me those hand claps shit

Okay here's a question.
He puts the sample on the wrong beat
which lowers my opinion of him as a producer. 
But I am a thirsty man before the mountains

of the Lord. Okay I'll inhale 
some wildflowers and mountain goat DNA
make of my corpus a mountain spirit
outcroppings of conglomerate and bunched

tiny grasses and delicate flowers
snow and cold thin fresh air
my body is above treeline
What makes you think I need culture?

Okay the rest of my life
listening to Thru the Walls by
Death Grips. The rest
of my life! okay

Not all not at all that
is not what I original
not at all original.
Not okay not original okay.

Flashing neon neon okay okay
randos dancin
randos all okay dancin dancin it
through the walls

acceleratin
fools
okay fools
okay Einsteins?

okay unlistenable messes
okay King Crimsons
Hup to it
hup hup hup the rest of my life

in reality they are cringeworthy
say it again
lick 'em two paths
unsink their ships

Skin slick with that hangover fluid
Just hungry and thinking of sex and
Wishing I could just stay home
And watch Snowpiercer and eat ice cream

And I'm half thinking I maybe
left the stove on
I mean not really but
it's the worst thing I can think of at the moment

or that I'm not properly grieving
loss of love in my life
that's a stark thought
that's a mountain to climb

god I stink and I'm indecisive
and I'm a bad poet and everything
in
my life is falling apart.

Whatever. Music sunflowers shallow surfaces
Hastily formed alliances, transformers
of current hello!  Gauntlets
made of nouns

that the Fonz
hits the jukebox
with. How does
the Fonz work? How is

it made? Does the snap
of its fingers
cancel cavewomanish
thoughts

with Helium gas
or what if not
Helium is the sun
made of? Is it

made of law?
Is the Fonz
chaotic good? Dunno
cavewomen waltz

hairless
alacritous
devoted to birdsong
hard dick paintings

and iced tea.
Mobius atlas divisions
kept their stories alive
not people.

I should have said
marshmeloupe
The Fonz should have said
marshmeloupe

Fine Einstein why
do asses hang out backwards
if you're so
smart

something else about bodies too
oh! loose useless
hands flopping around! Hilarious
Do you lovvvvvvve me?

yeah I know where babies come from
but where does sex come from?
Einstein
where

Every goodness I've summited
while the light turns
turns and the pingpong ball
becomes the streak (and

by the way I keep playing better
as the light fails) (does
oh does light fail
or what) (like really)

Every goodness
and its antidote.
They spell different words
His for profit, hers for

hell I don't know. She
is you, you said you were
going to look me up
so realistically this might be actually you

reading this. Was your friend bummed out
by my presence who cares. He made his
money he helped his people.
Name! It falls

between Bourgognes
les deuz Borgognes. Ok sorry fake pretentious
stuff makes me laugh
Your friend to be honest seems conflicted
 
almost ashamed to have fed into
capitalism so simply.
Or he just hates random guy
(me) at bar being like

"hey can I" whatever, which I get.
No one else from my generation is willing
to be considered the Finest Poet Of Their Generation
so... I'll

the
like
exact
human being

"tale," I'll nail it or
whatever... the kids hate
a Gen X or Gen Y man
but what makes me special is

The Sangre de Cristo mountains
which are in my blood
the smells and that.
The lichen and YouTube hits,

the GoPro videos of the Blanca - Little Bear traverse
(look it up and be prepared to just close the tab)
Is that stuff in my blood or
uhh. Anyway. Tourette's by default

Peering over the edges
Four hundred foot drop to the right
One thousand foot drop to the left
What words. A knife's edge

For the words to slice themselves off on
Tourette's Syndrome explained in one fluid movement
One YouTube video 90 seconds in length
Calling out to friend 20 yards down the ridgeline

Name
blurted as
a final
gesture, say

Whose goodness whose evilness was it
That thrust the Blanca Massif up
An obscene gesture a "tickled" sky
No life in it. Lichens taking years to die.

The thinnest pink trace in the
sky where otherwise there would be
none, the plodding tears seen
out through and laughing like

Mel Torme why the curse word am I crying
at a Mel Torme Christmas song.
Why are they playing Christmas music in here
it's almost June oh god if

I could die this laughingly.
He passed peacefully in his sleep, laughing
It wasn't the hardest he'd ever laughed, though! RIP
It was embarrassing. But no shame was on him

His shoe fell in the beehive
When was he last advertising for love?
There never was an advertised time
Nor did he believe in revolution

Because what did he mean?
His interest was in the products of the imaginary.
His character was a snooze
What was he trying to say?

Yeah he sort of danced in his chair
Yeah he liked Euclidean geometry
How old was he, how close
To his death? Trust me

He's ready for uncontroversial assertions
Ringing in the New Year
Or was it wringing? Wrong
It was fun when he "held still"

It was so hard to know
What his birthday present to himself would be
The one shoes or the other shoes
Or maybe the pinball parts

Maybe a chunk of the garment industry
No he would never do such a thing
He popped a blister where the eyelids meet
It must have been squeezed into existence

By his forceful sleeping
He gritted his teeth so hard in his sleep
That he had begun to displace them
The tooth bodies fell like faeries

Never to return to the floresta
Of our youth.
Surveying the brand new parking lot
Of his love for others.

She wants someone to talk garments;
He finds it so interesting
Maybe over ice cream he will
Say things. Maybe to himself

He'll acknowledge his need
To feed a need is hell
Indeed. Sorry sorry no
more doggerel I really do

Apologize. He researched on his friends
So his results were inconclusive
I meant irreproducible. Eff word eff word
I'm so unreliable, vocabularily.

Today I'm tiling a floor
To make a music with loose rules
The sun turned on its axis
The sun turned and we all fell in

I chose tiles made of star ejecta
Baked into perfect and small squares
Painted with blue and light blue enamel
I chose clothes from the 70s

I never will study cosmic radiation
My feelings are too hurt
I'll pay NASA to move the cosmos
Into the public domain and I'll

Foot the bill for the garments
They find out there too
Garment needs gravity
It can't just be a cosmic ray | oh whatever

If we acknowledge
We are part of
The nature world
All parts even our need

Then we absolve us
Of fault for
Seeming to use up one planet
And fixating on moving to

Another. This is true
But feels like madness to me.
Oh you can't help that
We're all mad here

(public domain garments all over the floor)
Their pleasure is the
Inside out of each other
Not for its own sake

For the sake of each other's existence
Titling everything they touch
"Each Other's Bridge." "Each Other's Traintracks."
And more examples. "Each Other's Waves."

Plenty more examples
Their early fascination with each other
Kissing each other's nipples
Why does it seem like it has to end

What is the best case
In time they discover love isn't enough
Garments don't keep them together
Why aren't they doing this all the time

Serious question! What prevents
An all-consuming love
From consuming them? Unless
That love is fragile, a bubble

A butterfly on a string
A color matching game
The tiles come off the board
Just as they gain a relation to each other

What is the garment you want to hear
About? What is the sentence
The description of what "act"
Food is supposed to be good

Food is not supposed to be garments
Sexy speech is like urbane witticisms
Witticisms Witticisms!
Am I supposed to care so little for Oscar Wilde?

Take the hi road
Don't be reluctant
You do science I do math
Shall we take a shower, or hop in the bath?

bleachy dterminations
missed friends and
departed grandmorthers
tres useful to speculate

working hard on spreadsheets
but taking Holy Week off
give the Evil Adam
a break talvez

Tell me my mortal situation
without the mansplaining
I'm working on a character
to do without the bloodshed

Presidential Election
I'm working on a character here
synthbass-based characters
rule the classic Nintendo family kingdoms

classes genera phyla
species orders Marios
Yoshi Loves Birdo
for each emotion Yoshi has

what is why is
Egyptian Mario 2 box copy
why does never
enter translation space

or at speed of unearthing
skip to the end
no wi-fi in the warp zones
no space or time of any kind

spattered clear shiny
cross sections of droplets
en forme de Luigi
Luigi crying, Luigi forming a sadness

where did you get that miltary style
haircut and sweatshirt let me
guess you were in the military
I was in the service

I ran in the 150th Boston Marathon
becaude of special HTML
amongst amongst, amongst
turn it around and upside down

The Mario games leave put
any Orphic themes thank goodness
in Mario is two Pindars
no one will sit by me

He wears pink socks today true story
in Memoriam Birdo
nah
is it summer yet

Fat Mom shepherds ten girl children
each under her may day garland
of clover and sweet turnip greens
to clearing after clearing why

do we need to think of clearings
The forest is the King's Maze
The King employs a gamekeeper
But I am the forest's keeper

Eu sou a guarda-floresta
South @merican Portuguese is
inhospitable
to compound words

Those shoes are awesome
I said outside to a woman wearing
mirror-finish oxfords
I really did like her shoes

but I maybe made her feel uncomfortable
if you read this (you with the shoes)
I'm sorry to have bothered you
I feel really stirred up about it for some reason

I'm looking for a way always/only
to avoid loneliness
It is for this reason that I went
to Drink and the Marliave

on Saturday night, hoping
for someone to talk to
and I did a little bit
but mostly I sat in silence drinking

and I missed the last train to Braintree 
which meant a $30 cab ride home
and I woke up feeling stupid and alone
and tired and sick, punched and kicked

and indecisive. I need sleep
I need to sleep.
And when you looked over
and pulled your earphones out

and said "what?" and I repeated 
my comment about your shoes
I started to think I'd maybe made a mistake
no actually it was when you accelerated

after the exchange was over
anyway. cool shoes
who cares, I would never wear them
I could never wear mirror oxfords

The tale of the tape
The story of the mirror oxfords
Whose coinage is "sabretooth?"
I could never wear the coinage of sabretooth

also standing for a moment in the vestibule
of Drink I said "is this the line"
and a woman smiled at me and said yes
and I could have stood there next to her

for 30 minutes talking 
which is (it turns out) 
the only thing I wanted
not drinking but talking

conversation
and instead I went "meh some
other time" and turned to go
and she said "have a good

night" and I said "you too"
what is the feeling 
the immeasurable stupidity one observes
to be centered on the self

Ravel walked everywhere
up to 4 hours per day
now he can be seen in Paris
riding around on an electric unicycle

Where can I go from here
in terms of advancing my career?
What can be written of veggie lo mein
that hasn't been written again and again?

There is no god of ecstatic dance;
let's make one. My friend reassures me
I wasn't out of line with the compliment
about the mirror oxfords. Then we go looking

online for men's mirrored oxfords, 
then gold, then (gasp) copper. 
Copper oxford shoes, copper oxford shoes. 
gasp gasp gasp one after another the gasps

Anyways. Remember that photto of Helen Keller
touching Charlie Chaplin's face? I do
Can I get it printed on a shower curtain
I can. I guess I should note

(oh) what life is like what is
lifelike. MEHHHH pretty (what) terrible?
A slab of rodents couldn't
more misinterpret it than I have.

So you spilt tremendous wines
down the front of you
and your yellow Santa Claus robes
and you hearken to a different time.

You heed an unwinding of time
sensation. You think huh yeah I suppose
that if we are now in a state of
endless war

which began 10+ years ago 
it's actually just the beginning
of the first blink of an eye 
in the lifetime of that war.

That war is a newborn baby!! 
No you don't think that, because all wars end.
History teaches it, teachers teach
history.

What is a split decision 
again?
Who'll right my wrongs for me
unintentionally?

Haphazardly!? Thank
entropy's daft designs
everyday I do.
They spiral us around the island

on a kite on a wind
which is not us, not ours, 
the island is our lives, 
the kite is made from materials

found on the island resourcefully.
Let's put war and desire 
on the same footing, you suddenly resourcefully
think. Let's

wait, a minute, I just
fell like out
the side of 
my body thinking

I'm bipedal the same
as you, this is so
weird. I'm a male ape
you're a female ape.

We're sex apes to
gether yeah we don't 
think of ourselves that
way. She's like what. 

She feels something analogous! 
If she were to de-escalate
and put it into words
we could avoid much 

bloodshed, we could lose
interest in wars.
Our war apes could
fade.

Sure no I understand
After a clothespin clipped in place
Comes half-off, it wasn't even the wind, it was
Many pieces missing, nothing speciall

In the breakfast, always about breakfast
Because before dawn you know what dawn will look like
And claw marks up and down.
Rufus: the red markings give him

Distinction, and an air
Almost of nobility, to see him activate
Click and light up and start whirring
Around and around the people clap for him.

He affirms something about their lives, 
not "life-affirming" but "marked in red" 
which is a red which stains them more deeply
than retinally. He flits from view

Suddenly behind them music swells!!
It was a love story all along
and with the central character suddenly missing
the others hold their elbows and sigh

into the sunset
of single long panoramic take
and breathe. Yeah okay boring 
but also very much not boring at all!

Because you notice yourself breathing 
in and out of phase with phantasms
on a screen who can't hear the music
such is their ghostliness. Rufus being clotted

from the view 
calls earlier events "out of question"
if that makes sense, like there's
no need to go doubting or hypothesizing

alternate universes, it was love
embracing them and calling itself down
into their midst the whole time
now made illegible as the sun 

takes a long! time to set
on film. This isn't a cooking class
so they stand up and leave
and the audience stands up and leaves

There's no one who didn't
just kind of drift away into
each other at the end, nothing
formal marked the ending,

even the credits happened at the beginning. 
Unable to remember them now,
we look them up on our phones, 
who was it again, what else was she in?

I invented the perfect text message game. 
Two people play. Before the game begins
each person emails the other person
a list of responses (numbering however many

they both agreed on) (and they agree on who
goes first). Then for the game they just take turns
texting each other the list of responses
back and forth. They create a blind conversation

they've already had but not had. 
The rhythmic possibilites seem exciting
for a minute but then oh whatever I don't know.
I'm going to skip out on the poetry reading tonight.

Nature's beastliness
contains magnitudes
like volcanoes 
spend capital

on buzzwords
for spite
in spirit
of revenge. 

Enumerate: the main one
which is coming off like velcro
Another: spent a lot of time over
the summer over email, a preoccupation

supposedly that one saved 
something about my life
turned out to be an angry person
Third: crosseyed and works nextdoor

and I can't tell that much about 
her personality 
Fourth: a name of a lunchpail
with an intoxicating flirty presence

it's hard to believe in any related experiences
seriously I'm just filling time here
none of this is for real
I've got cookie clicker running in the background,

taking it pretty seriously
Fifth: lives in a different city and doesn't count
for different reasons (more of a friend)
Sixth (less likely): too young, big hands, from Hawaii

maybe I'm just a daydreamy person
I can't hold a grudge even when I try
but I won't be misused by someone again
and I hope the walls I build around my heart

won't keep out another beloved and
another and another and a sky
and a planet it seems fit
to walk on, lucky to walk on

Like I know you're angry
you get angry so do I
but anger is your response to everything
maybe you're just an angry person

so I need to ask
I forgot what I was going to say
It doesn't matter
napkin capybara aces crossbow beanbag

I try not to recode things as they happen
because as nature's ally
I eschew the shotgun
the traces which leave the shotgun

put myself in stress positions all day then wonder
why my joints hurt come 5pm
joint what a weird word
I'll take all the words, I love all of them

Nobody has less of a problem with words than me
Don't go around outlawing words
Don't give me buk burning lectures
Harangue somebody else, burn somebody else's buks

I am nature's natural-born ally, I'm divinely sent
to serve as protector of the forest
Jonatã Guarda-Floresta
Yeah rumo ao hexa I hear that

Minha nobreza I get it
quanto custa ingressos aa copa 2014? good question
don't make cities blanket hills
make cities blanket hills

Menh calve off space vessels
in Egyptian asteroid seed dreams
measurable as concentric waves sweep
over oscilloscoped spikes ov vocal cords

Some magic at the moment of conversion
from vocal cord vibrations to microphone membrane
vibrations to electronic signal pulses 
registers in you & me, I can tell it does

We like the space between sites
of vibration, we like how the energy
makes it all the way across. 
I imagine you nibbling my earlobe

You know the melody from the Katamari soundtrack
you know the one.
She said this morning "This morning
I was toe tally wait."

I said "whut" and 
she said "It was raining so much
and I walked to here and I was
toe tally wait" and I was like "ohhhh yeah totally wet yeah"

now I'm listening to the Katamari soundtrack and 
I like it. I like the Battletoads OST
I like Balinese hurryuppolyrhythms
I like coinages-by-accretion

I don't really like MUCH OF ANYTHING!!!!
I'm tired and I hate tubas. Get off me urchins
So undrugged right now you guys
put this on tumblr okay

why did it turn 
to polka to turn
to a blossom bug?
gub bug bug gub

spent cases 
of metamorphic seasonal
squish sacks 
flying away

we like and accept 
their pretty and charismatic wings
we like pizza we like frenchfryburritos
we like coining words

and yeah sure I never played Katamari Damacy
but the principle is the same
I don't want to say I imagine rolling you up
into a ball alongside a tree and an airport

is my idea of a relationship
but I think it is magical and musical
and has a melody
the fact that you are in a relationship

to those things at the same time I am
I'm just saying obvious things
I'm foregoing the parentheses now (writing this out of order)
Christalmighty I'm hungry

ecriver dans les rir
quand le lun c'est pas de deux
un amor d' trois rivieres
elefants en fontains bleux

Let's say "tain is a lighting concept
to forfend the misdeeds 
in Popeye" let's say I said that
even though it doesn't sound

like something I would say
whatever does this
contribute? in some way?
to an understanding of what?

it's like to be a person?
simply put it's not like anything
(Your name is a lunchpail)
(I keep thinking about dancing

with you, dancing with you, is not
like anything) 
(Is it possible you're not like anyone?)
(Why am I so buoyed by the thought?)

(Who are all these parentheses?)
(Your name is a soul singer)
(Your name burned up the R&B charts)
(And you brought moments of joy

into my life that I'll never ever forget)
(split seconds of eye contact)
(maybe you'll never read this
or maybe you will and never 

understand why all the Popeye and 
fake french and admissions of 
gratuitous space-filling & maybe 
you'll wonder (or maybe someone

else other than you will wonder)
what any of it has to do with you
but it seems to me that you
have a lot to do with all of it,

with all of everything piled slumped &
sloshed together, all things/feelings
mudslid together on top of each other
at the moment of creation 

which has lasted our entire lives
I'm alive at the same time as you
I'll never get over it, that's all 
I'm saying) (we danced) (and your name

is a golf announcer) (your name
is not a stunning woman's name
which creates a startling discrepancy 
and POTENTIALLY creates interest)

How I would love
to be alive in 
the 1930s to hear
the howls of laughter

as the silverware fell
out of his sleeve
and to have seen 
the men and women

after the movie imitating
this one's cadences and
that one's movements with
one another. The American

public simply evaporated. Now
we all work at
PetCo during the week
and at Staples every

other weekend. The National
Guard one month per
year or whatever it
is. thank thank thank

It's time for me to prune my facebook friends
and that means I'll be left with nobody
except the Cassini Mission to Saturn
to find the true meaning of love in our lifetime

Look to those facets which have attributes
As though no attributes would help
? What, doesn't matter, give him a break
Are you like secretly some kind of huge nerd?

Why do I have such a huge fucking crush on you?
I don't really but it's fun to say
Okay maybe it's like a tiny crush but whatever
You're a little bit crosseyed and it's cute as hell

I imagine you cooking and being like 
the recipe says red pepper flakes but I don't think I want that
no I think I'll skip the red pepper flakes
I imagine you not hesitating for an instant

to exclude ingredients, in other words to go off book
and further I imagine the food turns out quite pleasing
the previous line was some seriously Timothy Donnelly syntax
which is one of the things I will not stand

Back to you, do you know how cute you are?
It slays me, it's murderous cuteness
Nah, it's fine, but you are cute
I would want to take you dancing

Is this shit seriously what's on my mind
or are my fingers just off in their own world
typing this stuff? I guess I'm worried 
about the election but it's hard to take it 

seriously, my fingers don't take it s
eriously, I'm letting my fingers make
decisions, I don't believe in collaboration,
I don't believe in Popeye or Radiohead

I don't have an eye I have a finger
I don't have a head I have a finger
I can write without pretending to write
and I can listen to Tori Amos and play pinball

in the basement of the wealthiest country
in the history of the world and I can
write you (that is to say YOU)
(the one with the eyes

a reading this)
(the one with the beautiful eyes
which make the eye contact difficult)
I can write you a cute poem that says it was fun dancing with you

cereal siderial
modal antipodal
nothing wrhymes with zeitgeist
that's why they put it in the gallery

I almost said that's why they put it in the language
LANGAZHHHHH
Let's never speak of this again.
I have to go to the grocery store tonight

What am I going to buy. Seriously. 
This will probably be of at least passing interest to the future
Unlike most of the rest of this. 
I will buy:

Orange Juice, Coconut/Almond Milk,
Bread, Eggs, Flour Tortillas, 
Berries, Oranges, Pears, Bananas
Beans, Onions, Garlic? (I think I have enough garlic)

Some greens (collards or kale)
(or baby bok choi if they have it)
Broccoli, Cauliflower?, Squash
Maybe a turnip or two,

Cereal? Sidereal. We're going in circles
PopTarts, Ice Cream, Shredda Cheese
Plain Yogurt, Coffee Yogurts, 
by the way am I supposed to be 

devastated by the breakdown of my life? 
I feel like I went through that already
and I also feel like I'm not prepared to pre-grieve
for the aspects of my life I don't know to be broken yet

and won't know till I'm COMPLETELY on my own 
how does my bank's billpay thing work? 
I log on to the website or something?
I would ask them not to give away my login credentials

That way no identity thieves will steal my money
The hallway carpet skinned my knee
In 1998 and I spelt the verbs wrong
A photograph of me pretending to "jam out" 

In the world's wackiest way
Brendan just informed me that 
so and so guest-vocaled on so and so's 
latest album

I hope it wasn't Beck's latest album
No it wasn't but I'd be equally 
unlikely to listen to it
Who are you talking to?

something like twice a day
pieces of a youtube video clipped erotically together
never say Eros in Radioheads
never call out in a theater Eros

in Radioheads or also never call out Misdeeds in Popeye
what did Popeye misdo? If I knew that 
I'd never have to write again
but here I am stuck with Eros in Radioheads

Go on a date with me! 
No really it'd be super fun. All seriousness
I wish I could tell you, the other night
I never wanted it to end

You said something I couldn't catch
in the music & the centripetal force
I thought I heard you say it's easier
to spin if you can get a firm grasp

And I loved it when you would put your arm
further around me as we turned the corners
and I wanted to say would you dance with me again
and then you asked me instead of me asking

Which was both a win and a loss but I'll take it, it was awesome
I'm just saying, I wanted to ask, but I felt self-conscious
All of this really risks overemphasis
I just keep thinking about what a fun time I had

& good Lord the scorching heat ray of your eye contact 
who can withstand it
guess what, I did! It was fun to remind myself
It was fun to feel like a tall, smart, active, creative,

good-looking, kind-hearted, fun-loving, open-armed man
again. 
I don't have a dog, I don't have a cat
You'll never see this

Anyway, let's go get a drink sometime
Like super super casual lowkey like maybe even
"as friends" let's go get an "as friends" drink?
Would you want to? You're not reading this

It's okay I'm not either I'm typing it as
fast as I can to fill the space 
requirement and get
caught up to the present moments

While Also Enjoying Just The Scantest
Bit Of Aesthetic Pleasure That Is To 
Be Had When One Works With Words As
Though They Are Material

I'm not leaving here till it stops raining
do you hear me Hulk Hogan
he can't hear me that's okay
this is trash that no one real ever will read

I will let Cortana write this
Cortana write me a poem
Just kidding I don't have her enabled 
and I don't have a Microphone

Siri write me a poem
Just kidding I don't have a Siri
What I need is a way to write without writing. 
I did a search on this just the other day

and found very few results for write without writing. 
What I mean is write without trying
Just write without trying
All the search results I got were like

Write without trying too hard
or Write without trying to impress anyone
or other things like that, other additional words 
that were tacked on after trying.

I just want to find some way to write without trying
like maybe a computer program will write for me
based on the durations I spend on the train ride home
I once thought I would document every bit of culture

that I consumed on the Red Line
but I never knocked it out of the park
I should write articles about things
that knock it out of the park, like Popeye

Everyone knows that Popeye knocks it 
out of
the park
blah blah blah boring. Popeye is a popular character

Maybe I could find ways to write without trying
such as maybe I could write what Popeye is doing
but then I would have to watch Popeye cartoons and 
transcribe them or something, which seems

no offense to any Kenny Gs out there
pretty efffffffing tedious
it seems like Tedius Rex
maybe I should just pretend like I know what Popeye's doing

How many versions of you are available
No really this is fascinating
I see you at this one particular place
Then I see a different you and think

Oh it'd be fun to take her to that place
and then I'm like oh shit what the fudd
what the fudgebeasts is what I keep saying
while our eyes fill with tears

Press the on button to turn the printer on
and it'll sing you its little chime song
Maybe I should just paste in Craigslist ads
No that would galactic fmistakes. 

How many versions? You're cute, that's for sure. 
Don't go down this road with him. Or with her.
They are bizarre and their self-wawareness lacks. 
They ghost around, whatever, blue hills

sunshiney but otherwise too effing crowded?
I just wanted to be outside
Well you got your cumuluses now
get out!! please let me go home

I can't stand this sky blue tape
they didn't even take my monitor
how much more credible
would his absence be

he switched the stress count
and no one will notice
he balked at the barber
he barfed on the blender

he world-championed the Centipede
and he wrote an article for Spin
his desktop was covered in shortcuts
and he could not go back again

He listened to Bjork's most recent
no he couldn't bring himself to do it
It was hard enough to get used
to I don't know this or that idea

It was fine and dandy when Beck's album
lost its impact for him, he was glad 
to stop listening to it, she probably
was glad too, nobody liked Beck's album

they all thought it was a Nick Drake ripoff
even Beck himself said so
Beck bought a new hat with all 
his Nick Drake money and entered

his James Taylor phase, then his James Jamerson phase, 
then he entered his Rick James phase, then 
finally Beck entered and exited his James Brown phase
and I didn't listen to one second of it.

I haven't written to you in a long while
but now I take up the words again
and for each word a string, like pearls the letters
or a bare string that vibrates.

Did I take something about you for granted?
It's hard to say. Nobody reads this for news
of themselves. Nobody wants to be informed
and neither do I. We turn corners

When I was born
Ten trees were planted
In a land I've never seen
A land I've never been part of.

When the classmate died
They planted her a tree
And put her name to it
We had been accustomed

To seeing each others' names
Printed on unique sashes
Which we wore but only on
Special occasions. I never played

The harp that's okay. I miss you
I miss you all day and the
sun goes down of me missing you.
I invented a new musical instrument

of my longing for a simple smell
of the past. Didn't imagine
We are asked not to long for the miraculous
Curse this imagination, this hope

Talk him down no don't bother.
How wonderful would be the world
That would go on, its fullness of music.
He doesn't

Want to take the control he imagines.
Curse his imagination. Retrain it unless you too
believe keyed instruments are bound to
their pitches which drift

slightly
like teeth
in their jaws
which gives them personality

they shimnmer
shimnmering in the sunmlight
((cheating))
he doesn't want to kill himself

she doesn't want to kill herself
you don't want to kill yourself
They don't want to kill themselves!
We don't want to kill ourselves.

When I'm 75 will I maintain an openness of spirit,
and will I be described as conversational?
Will I be thinking of the geometry of gemstones
as something we can encode our experiences in

through some playable interface?
On and on about that, by the way.
Let it go, bud. Here's a method
for generating music using graph paper

oh good, they threw the Amen Break in
at the last moment. Rows represent both pitches and
pitch zones, in the micro and macro scope, respectively.
Columns represent quanta of time, both beats and 8-measure blocks

in micro and macro scope respectively. Thus simple melodies
are mirrored in the harmonic movement, and small pieces
add up to larger structures in an almost fractal way.
I haven't tried it yet but it seems like it should work.

Here's a description of a game
which I'll seed from Orteil's game-idea generator
using the string Capybara\ and unchecking the Sanity checkbox
don't worry the string was an axxident

It's a turn-based game.
You can move, interact, do nothing,
or make predictive statements about
the next turns in the game.

Horrible flaming wrecks and fuel shortages
Thinned out the planet's population
Nobody was doing the universe simulation
Nobody was landing the planes

So that jittery predictions about the future
(When they occasionally came correct)
were the world's currency, not the correctness
But the amount of them. To prevent inflation

One must live in the moment.
The only human who can breathe
The only person I ever loved.
This brings me back around to why

I started to write today. It wasn't to you initially
but I do want to write to you
you fan of music boxes, you wholesale lover of delight.
What will happen to you

This Orteil stuff preoccupies me for 45 minutes
Yikes my mind is useflesss
Here's the game you get with seed Pac-Man:
A strategy game where you downvote the sky

but you don't play a big role in the story
so you can actually do pretty much whatever you want.
Seed Q*bert yields: A shooting game where
you embiggen diamonds and there's a laughtrack.

The souls there have no shape
so they can't appear on films
and when a cat runs out of the room
9 people take the hint also.

There's never a sense of beginning
because how spasmodic is my sense
of self-importance anyway? Funny
how tired Melt-Banana sounds lately.

I mean the opposite. I like them
I like their reinbow mucis. Music
Should I just paste in lines of code here?
You guys I've spent the last number of months

learning to code and I'm still learning.
I kind of lost my will to write poetry.
yes again
I think I want to make culture instead

which to me means video games sorry.
No I don't what am I talking about
I was thinking about music sorry sorry
You don't know a thing about me I'm on fire

Got damn it I can't wait to ignite
I'm made of indigo fire of faces seasonsing pbasooka
whatever who cares. Shut up
upyors

Okay what's Zach Hill doing lately
I can't be bothered
but if I did I would look up
Zach Hill discography on wikipedia

I would never do that
There's lots of music I wouldn't listen to
Let's talk Spriggans for a second
I recently killed off a spriggan venom mage

It wasn't a bad run all things considered
but I shouldn't have gone into V:5
because that's where I died
I haven't looked up

how often I've died there but it's been pretty often.
This was last updated on September 17th 2015
which was two lifetimes ago,,,,,,,,,,,,,
I sort of thought everything was going to work out even then

yikes even then. Now I think
a different thing will work out
that's all it took. The rest of the
issues stand off to the side in

a cape behind a curtain. The sidebar
on YouTube is offering me an album
called Lava Land by a band called Piglet
or vice versa. There's no 666 in outer space

Tell me about the microtonal intervals!!!
Oh explain how you tuned your piano!!!
Include the part about how you tuned your
piano this way SOLELY so that you could

have something to explain to somebody
preferably a woman you weirdo)
and send me the recording of your
special piano playing special Ravel

followed by an impromptu of your
own devising that'd be SWELL
Make culture make culture!! Who cares
it's epiphenomenal who cares

sped up vibraphones that sound like
sped up Fender rhodeses. Fine with me
too much instruments and maybe some
backwardsed music box sounds. Remember

when we went to Vermont and there was a
VT welcome center off the highway that had
somekind of double riveted music disc thing playing
and we could tell because the notes we were hearing

weren't accounted for solely by what we could
see on the top side of the copper disc
as it spun? Church-going people made
that thing probably or not.

Now it's lunchtime and I have to go eat lunch.
Good bye she sleeps with coffees and pizzas
Sheep slips with coffins of interdimensional reasons
piano strikes coincide with snaredrum strikes that's cool

Thanks Frank Thanks
thank you Piglet. j/k I didn't listen
gotta go eat to combat
all this dislexia

I started listening to Piglet and
it's a complete ripoff of Hella
that's culture that's soup-smell for you
coworkers be stopped

go way piglet
I'll put on USMAPLE instead
and be like
ga gunk gunk

creating culture
serving coworkers stop notices
saving up for lunch
and drinking coffee water in the DM zone

not interested in working
the coworker must stop
give me your headphones
I want the blue jellybeans

some tea is biologique
some earths are flat they say
the flat eart stuff makes me sad
Lovers in a Dangerous Spacetime makes me happy

If I could only remember your name
or be freed from your spell 
by looking at current pictures of you
on facebook or whatever

(made up person, no spells)
(much disclaimers, very conditions apply)
(no magical arm movements, no fireballs)
(no lightning wizards, quite Age of Enlightenment rules)

Archaeopteryx, that flower
pressed between pages. 
I compose music
for you

for your vertebrae chained
bent dried
soft death, old age.
Must have been mud

after you died, came
pressing and bending.
Don't be endangered 
species you

who ran claws down
all fours big
takeoff. Pteroid bone
still mostly unexplained.

Knew the gnawing
of most wordless
creatures, the fear
and the helpless slide

into defaults of
rending each other
apart. Chasing some
herbivore into

exhaustion and pulling
it apart. I'm happy
when I think of you
... a thing I do.

I hate apostrophe 
like that. Won't do it
anymore promise.
Anyway. O you starlings

j/k
you get a chicken
sharing eat with slurring currect
roleplayinggame

rocketpropelledgrenade
don't esn't matter? Agents
tweet operatives tweet
on there, very funning. 

Jufstified. Don't like it
oh, ha, here's something: ugmometer
Google shows no results
I guess it'll be 1 result now

It's a meter that measures ugliness
It's a word for a meter that does that.
You all are idiots! 
You have no idea what you're doing!

influence, persuasion, precision
next level stuff. Being on time
Making websites and smelling hella good
being HELLA charismatic

shouldn't take you two hours
to make a website. Stop (eYe)
Stop it! Go to SLEEP you sad sack
just be a nice person

pitcher plant pattern
woodland wallpaper
hare hops hilariously
youtube yesperday (eYeroll)

The green bee
probing the solo sunflower
while the sunset wavered
orange purple.

Killing fast fruit flies
Clapping hands
Rotting tomatoes (true) 
(False) knowledge of all facets. 

I want to communicate with you.
I want to perform grandeur outward, beyond
with tiny words. Who planted
this seed? What does want grow into?

CS Lewis says if you feel 
a desire that can't be satisfied by
any worldly thing the "only 
logical conclusion" is

that you're a) created and
b) otherworldly. Go teach a bee, Clive!
Allen Ginsberg says "Candor
disarms paranoia." Thanks, 

Allen! He performs grandeur grandly. 
Jon's recent news occasions sadness, so... 
I don't know. Two Flaming Lips documentaries
down. Guilty pleasure the band.

I aim to document my dissatisfaction
so often with forms of attention
attending arising nah, nope. I aim
two be dissatisfied

with or in descriptions of attempts
two map words to actions. Vague, 
sure, but also all-encompassing. 
I'm thinking first of choreography

and then of cookbooks. It would be 
a delight and maybe a medial-lateral
frustration or obstacle
to find oneself within a

well-written abstract cookbook
analagous to the sorts of interesting
and intensely vaguely dissatisfying 
choreography texts one reads about. 

I'm thinking specifically of Costume 
En Face which I haven't read yet
but it sounds really interesting. 
I'm also thinking of instructions for 

card games, of which I've written 
not satisfyingly. Who cares
why care. Things are bad, things
are hard. Things are not good

and have not been good for a 
good long while. Tighten your own
oxygen mask before assisting 
other passengers. Gesture

thrown out with
first pitch
the border of nightness
across the sky, an edge

NASA says, 
and with satellite photos,
and easily it's seen
why the sphericality of the earth

the planets the heavens
is challenged, why this
is where the truth grounds
for some, some about whom

one worries. Or one is like NMFP
waving them away. You CANNOT
care for them all. 
They are batsauce and overwhelming

in number. They flicker
into monitor & die purpetually
to the left to the right
to get tired of the one thing

only you can do & do well.
I wish I hadn't counted. They
who's they? They think
of the future with most of their hearts, 

who can fault them? Hopping
to the library (this is back 
in Colorado times) like ramping
off the curbstones and picking up

art magazines when the librarians weren't around
because occasionally there'd be tits.
So much for love, so much, damnation
of Colorado. Love was around

Tired in my tired stupor I find 
(meeting a diagonal depression across my
palm) your cheekbone and jolt over
the next 15 minutes awake (what did it mean)

It was still not you I made
it up. Could have spent a semicolon on
its sentence could have (I suppose) just
told whomever, that is, who was there.

It rained the sky was purple
with orange bulges the sky it it it
it had seven saxophone keys
the sky had seven suckers (octopode type)

It was raining what was oh, ha okay
donk donk dink donk is how the music's going
never mind, it was raining I sexy-walked
into the grocery store yeah like anyone

was watching. The sale stuff greeted me, 
then the produce section where 
I saw tomatoes, zucchinis, and other vengetebales. 
The stockers had built a castle of them. 

By the way how do these composers get
away with the worst puns
David Lang I'm looking at 
you I mean "Press Release" come on

Okay so oh whatever. the grocery store 
yawwwn. Hey I'm thinking about a tortoiseshell cat
maybe I'll adopt one someday 
and name her Skillz

and overpublicize her on facebook
and in this space. Search terms
include heartbreak, steadfast, 
holdover, etc. whatever oh blah.

Barf. BLARF! I hate this
I hate doing this.
Tickertapes vs. Tickettakers
vs. Taperticks vs. Trunkmakers nah no good

Too soon. all verbal gesture
no imagery. Never enough
and never enough and never
enough. These stanzas are for you

This pulsar is for you.
It comes and goes. It is one moment
yours but winks out the
next, it looks up on

line the meaning of rose
colors (we say so 
cavalierly "rose-colored") (as
though glass is) to find the

color that means what
this pulsar means. Fuck
a rose I send you 
from outer space

defiance danger blinding
enthusiasm. What would it
be to see what you 
see. What would love 

of you (said) do
to perception, yes if
said love were
prosthesis, if it were

pulsar. No meaning I mean
but hertz, frequency, music
blue-shifted & frightening
mammal I think of you

slightly more than of most
mammals. I send a bouquet
one rose of each color
& a second shadow bouquet

all roses gone dark
all absorbing all light.
Not mixed signals in either
or in both cases, 

just radiance and darkness
in turn, just living 
and dying, supply of 
rhythm in place of

intent. 
I'll be heroic
someone might say but
all things considered it's fan

tasm
ically 
possible only.
Beastie

Boys lose
to Tribe Called.
You throw Quest
in there it's no 

quontest. BLARF
nothing is worse
than poetry.
to fill up a 

shoe with poetry
and tump it overb
oard. 
never mind the 

poets. s.s.s.s.s.s
semptemebere.
sometebnopdyu.
someoteddya

somebaoyd
someedaya
bosmodeday
somaabobdy

aggggk. "1-800-ROSES-NOW
DOES NOT SPECIALIZE IN 
BLACK ROSES. PLEASE SEE
OUR FULL PRODUCT LINE 

FOR A FULL AVAILABLE LIST
OF CURRENTLY AVAILABLE
VARIETIES, FOR ALL YOUR
EXPRESSIVE NEEDS." by the way

not an actual quote oh who
care.s.s.s.s.s
The worst bully from 
my elementary school

is running for mayor 
of that city. Should 
I not sabotage his 
campaign or try to. I'm 

pretty sure he's running 
as a Republican I mean
he'd have to be, right? 
It's enough to shake your

faith in civil government
by the way
did I say all
this already? Put another nickel in and see what the lady says this time.

I'm collecting the panda pictures
on the Uncle Lee's Green Tea teabag wrappers
which are green and which feature
a nice panda bear design. 

I found that the three quarters
I got in change for my coffee this morning 
featured a design which commemorates the Sand Dunes
in Colorado. This is a mythic place

for me who cares. There's a woman and a child
on the quarter bending down to the river there
which is sometimes quite dry
always quite shallow

The rivers used to run sweet 
before the cattle and dysentery
Now nobody minds misspelling words
someday over the roainboal. ha. ha! ha. Ha.

sandman plugged between sandbags
handgun hidden between handbags
playing grabass in the crabgrass
garbage subliming into cabbage

On June 5th I ironed six of my shirts and there were six left to iron, 
M*A*S*H reruns on Netflix in the background, it was pleasant &
I felt happy in my skin. I like the smell of the steam
and I felt happiness in my skin and my core,

I felt basic okayness connecting them like little struts,
affective architectures, solar plasma jets stuck on.
I felt good. The odds were against it that night or were they?
We're still sorting it out, we keep following our minds changing.

I'm being boring on purpose! I'm driving readers away! 
Not even a one who "cares" about "me" will read this!
I was entirely by myself for the first time in years
and it felt great and I want more of that feeling!!

You don't know me, what makes you think (or me think) you
could be capable of giving a shit? You don't 
give a shit about me after all these years, you can't I can't. 
I'm a clutter of disassembled contradictory mechanisms mirrored

Be a reflection of what you'd like to receive, sure. 
Stand for 15 seconds watching a snail & what do you want.
To know what the name of the emotion is, the emotion of
Watching a snail for 15 seconds nothing else

more rains today bubbling up
stretches of rain timed on a startwatch
rubbermaid skull made of rain
little rains you can hold in your hand

"I Used To Be a King" by Graham Nash holding me in its outer spaces
followed by "Already Dead" by Beck but he sounds depleted
Did you know he kept making albums after 2002? whyyyyyyyyyy
Maybe St. Vincent will want me dead bad enough to make a good breakup album

I'm trying to unearth my life
The rain falls and the snails come out
and I drop everything and take them up
Into my phone. Advance the conversation

But to what end? I have theories but the
Conversation itself was as far ahead as
I've thought. Congratulations you person on your
Decision to be able to live with yourself. Further to that, well

I think I can't live with the idea of foregoing
This conversation. The unimaginable iguanas
You must be prepared to spit. Stick to the happy 
Shit -- kites (the number eight comes after the word eight)

Over Colorado. Cold
Buckwheat noodle salad.
Music (all of) on youtube.
(Should've led with the music)

Poulenc Gloria.
That's no memory, that's tomorrow.
Will it be happy?
Just adjust for it its moment. Ribcage

Maybe I make a formal break
tearing a toroid
so that the hole can be filled
put a caffeine bandaid on it you'll be fine. BREAK

Say it just say it
make it complicated
if it is complicated
make it confused 

or withdrawn, withdraw
if you need to I won't mind it's not like I understand myself 
you already saved my life 
in ways it seems increasingly

like I'll never be able
to justify (what would I need to justify?), tell me
what you feel tell me
two or more contradictory

sentences, momentums, mums, tell me, say into
the darkness of me say 
from the darkness I'm spreading
out into just say just say it

just write me you who
I don't but barely 
know. For many years I didn't 
dream of you, never dreamed about you

not in all these years. All of a sudden I don't
know what you are or what 
to do with myself or why as
a living statue of triple size

absorbs all light as it twists
me in half at the waist I
continue not dreaming of you
I think I have nothing specific to (let's say) confess

but couldn't live with myself if I said nothing
and it seems today easier
to ask you for an email
than to ask myself what

it would be like
(to what I could ever
compare it) if you appeared
in a dream, what I would

say, as though I could 
decide, or ask in advance and
plan for any of it, plan to
tell you you saved me you pulled

my heart out
of the emptiest fire
the silent lightless stabbing starlight
from which would beam half

a dozen words from 
some pop song and 
with a great frozen spasm
bits of my soul would burn away

but I'm still breathing and I'm awake
I'm not exaggerating
I'm hoping or counting
on you not reading this, which is yet a bitter thought.

Maybe you're not thinking of any of the above,
maybe you're not wondering what the bleeding hell 
or what took me (my earliest opportunity) so long 
like I am wondering, and that is what I am, believe me.

Cold old naan.
Fridge sounds laughter
in the hallway tooth
decay overbite etceterara.

What would merely correct opinions take
to hold -- purple vs blue -- to squint
just right as the cop wipes out
in the first few seconds of a video

which goes on to document his abuses of power.
And what fun it is
to see him eat shit
and then roll out of it like

he thinks he's cocaine Jesus and G.I. Joe.
One suspects that documentation 
of these kinds of police actions
(not just the wiping out but the hyper-adrenalized excess of force

deployed against harmless black children)
will result in no changes of behavior
but a concerted effort to destroy recording devices
and suppress their use among bystanders. 

Good luck with that. All that aside,
I heard of writing songs for Tokyo directions
to hum and sing to get where you're going
and I don't know maybe you'd better tack tape behind you

like spider silk if you leap out off some cliff
because you'll hit terminal velocity more slowly
that is to say at a higher speed
and one which will prove deadly in the event

of an impact. Listen to those Japanese
"don't jump" songs, I'm saying.
Look him up on the internet
maybe you can find his picture. 

There is his picture. Whatever it doesn't matter
it's not like any of this matters
you can't even participate in the question of how atoms participate
in the process of growth, of a plant or a person, say

I cut back the mustard greens to the stalk almost
or a wandering comes and chews half-leaves enough times
how does the plant renew? You don't care
to lose yourself in visions, self-entwining Moloch

Moloch of dolorous apprehensions. Yeah I get it
I said I get it. Don't talk to me that way
I don't know what will kill me everything will
But if I could hold your hand for five minutes (I dreamed)

Just five minutes and what if we looked up and saw the same stars
Even weeks afterwards all I could see would be stars and I could
Forget for a second or be shielded from the fear and isolation
And caught in a weeks-old moment and held holding what

Your hand but who are you? I don't even know you
Don't talk to me about that stuff, don't even bring it up
You were the one who brought it up. Why do you feel alone
I'm not talking to you. Well then why did you bring it up?

What are you even saying? I feel worse and lacking
all accompaniment, feelings of accompaniment, 
which the stars seem to spell. 
Spell my fears you points of light you divine emanations

you angels, visit me. 
Okay the boom mic dipped into frame there
can we take it again please?
Make sure to glance out over the Seine wistfully

for just a split second less this time okay?
Don't forget you're alone, and 
you're going to die alone.
This is Europe for chrissakes or as close as we could get

whatever
beestings
capricorns
cauliflower

moodrings
hopechests
commonlaws
facebooks

ugh. Tender holdfasts of tornaway ivy
painted over on a brick wall & like yep
I think he should tell himself something that's not true
if he can

selfie w/ tie
brick wall with holdfasts
oh I related that already.
ha

plastercast over the hole body
spun her away into several beings she's
okay. Therapeutic vs antitherapeutic
That old saw -- that old warhorse. 

Applesauces | Bogosort |Canard
Dairyfreeze | Eglantine | Fake
Garish
Howling

Ignore | Jeremy
Kapital | Kerrupt
Lopsided Lonesome Loose Leverage Lampooningly Laughable Lost
Motionschtick | Nevermind

Neural | Old Overholt | Obsolete
Putrescent | Quiescent | Quixotic
Questionable | Quack | Poop
Reasonable

Selfish | Solo
Terrarium | Tub
Uranus | Uranium
Venereal Disease | Veterans' Day

Victory Declaration | Walkup
Xeriscape
Yellowish
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Termites flood through futures
Termites keep mostly to themselves
Hotsauces coat underflavors undesiredly
& the keyboard types itself. 

Don't touch me get your hands off me
You monster you vampire who are you
Leave me alone just go just leave me alone
(Vision made of eyesight with water

Filling pooling with blood
Geometries of fish and fish scales darting back/forth
As they breathe blood and knowledge
And know, as the plants sprout and fork

Where the drops of blood fell
Where the droplets fell and forked and
Split like slow lightning as they fell)
You could have done something anything

You had a chance later today. You'll see
Visible creases unmaking the origami sundial
You made me and worms spilling out you could have
You have a chance to turn back

To repulse the heartbreak the moment
You could have prevented disaster
Now (two years from now) you have the gall
You have the nerve.

Kick it down the
spiral just a bit
further down to where
the clover sprouts.

Two ends of one plant
each splitting
each split requiring gravity
& a dirt of controlled vocabularies

It's not hard to make a dirt. 
Hard is to think of (as 
vocabulariable) "a dirt," 
a category of substance like

a foam or a colloid. Kanye
I'm really sorry I called you talentless.
I did not know
what I was talking about and my lenses are cleaner

now and I think I'm doing better
I think there's a lot about your music
that's incredible. If Killer Mike
is willing to say "All rap's dope,

all rap's dope," that should be
good enough for me. Man speaking of
amounts of racism I've internalized
America 1978 to present

I think whoever's writing those
Mongrel Coalition Against Gringpo
pieces is a total genius. 
You guys can you make

of American poetry 1978-present a 
dirt? Can you make it
a dirt? Can you take Nine
Inch Nails ugh I hate how 

I broke that line can you 
take NIN and blue lab tape
and the tennis balls we 
threw away yesterday and make 
 
a dirt? What about 
how I told Benjamin 
that he'd be dead
and not even too

far in the future, 
was that wrong? He 
said even then the
best Brodsky could hope

for against him was
a tie and we
laughed. Benjamin it's good
to be your friend.

Sixteen sentences
depraved heart murder
push the cops down
shut up commissioner

did you see
the photos of the
superintendant tackling
some kids

I don't understand 
what's going on on the ground
like I did 
when I was a kid

Too many uf these kids
are crazy they seem
they are crazy to me
they sound crazy

That we have to say 
each is a product of his
or her environment
like we haven't got sense not to say stupid things

To be clear
police
fire the assholes
in your departments please.

I wonder when circumspect sentences
will become unaffordable luxuries in others
to begrudge, to critique, and ultimately to shame. 
We are living in a ruby

and a ruby fragments along so many
different lines. 
It's funny to me to think
that thinking of in-game religion feels

more real and more like devotion
than
thinking 
of "real-life" religion. This clarifies what

I am and what I'm not.
In the days of monarchy
dreams deposed majesty
while the crown now

in these late democratic days
withstands the heavy rains
they installed in the display case. 
Camera camera

you spin like a rose
with petals of lens flare
a swat on the nose.
This week which is last week

block of styrofoam of unknown origin
panda toy w/ bamboo supply
fascinating pinstriper youtube video
red Sharpee bleedthru font

Reading the reactions 
of other poets 
to poetry and criticism
of any kind

on facebook has 
been draining me
of desire for 
writing, how to

chop up the 
air till you
can't breathe it,
whose luxury is

it to breathe,
surely it is 
in the facebook 
poet's best interest.

I know from being a mid-level panda
The attractions of unencumbrance from the physical realm
That on the one hand the jewel glittering and on the other 
The workmanlike preoccupations of one fellow's comprise

Maybe no nay no yes the whole spectrum of possibility
And one day one says F this I want out
So beyond which pole does one flee, that question
Seems superfluous, absurd, quite unpandalike.

Molar contemplation
I recommend thee.
Manyheadedness of mouth
masquerading the cool heart.

Fannar is a mid-level elf who is outclassed 
by the time you usually find him
certainly by other elves. His defining coldness
spreads to your bookshelves briefly. Don't sweat him

he'll swat like a fly.
Louise is trouble, Wiglaf too.
Jorgrun and Jory in the same room? 
Why all allied against me? 

This game is nuts. 
Your ice beast bites the glowing morningstar!
Your ice beast does no damage. 
The glowing morningstar hits you!!! Ouch, that really hurt!

Calm through the
car wash transaction
temperate waters sending
roily poily

rollipollies off 
to the deep end
never throw away
a bug

it will come back to haunt you
Spectriman
Nope
short lines keep them short 

shorter
shorter than that
we're filling
space 

here
leave a line blank
I said leave a line blank
lieutenant are you able to hear me

that's an order lieutenant
belay that order lieutenant
wait who said that
come back here

doctor
in your hurry
to treat the eyes
you overlooked

the ears
Spock
belay that order
leave a line blank

Okay the next line after this one
Leave it blank
I said to leave it blank 
I'm telling you not to put anything on the next line after this one

I
am instructing you to leave one of these lines
blank
That is an order. That's an order. Utah! Get me two.

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We've never had a conversation before
This is the end and it's all happening (at the end)
I tromp around inside the same ghosty neighborhood
Actually sorry I left and I'm not going back. (Arvada)

You know me, I fly under the banner of righteousness
I eat right and I refuse to stoop to their level
I never get arrested because I haven't done anything wrong
But like I said I'm married to a police officer

If you listen to the ratings the police gonna getcha
If you can find it in your heart cops please stop shooting people
I'm a man and I wonder if you would please cut out the murder
We are scared of you because you seem like monsters

We talked and hugged and I put my feelings in a spreadsheet
A stencil makes a TV show out of a wall
This is not true unless you can upgrade your USB ports
And make sure your Adobe Acrobat version is up to date

Believe me. Will you watch my groceries?
They are now in my car and find a motorcycle?
They don't understand (ugh English) 
Don't read poetry tell a story instead

What could happen? A ticket
A hefty ticket and flat tires
And a vertical line of red mushrooms
I get it, believe me, I hear what you're saying

Mechanically don't park there
Looking for a parking space
Not finding it had to go to work
So I drove to VT and then NH and ME

There's no ordeal
Like an addiction
To teach a joint
No not to park in

Because I want to perform for the people and friendship.
Intimidated or threatened or judged or Vancouver. 
My toe hurts and I think there's a toenail infection from
when I cut it badly. A & B

Tell me that you have experienced this feeling
In North Carolina I braided so many bamboo leaves
The snow blue upwards and coated their leaves' undersides
Which messed up my rhythm and my jokes

He had a green tea teabag the other night. 
I was doing well. We drank it. 
The right headspace. CAFFEINE
No it was the donut did it

We have so many feelings we push on.
The flatbed truck
is where a few years back was
the best podcast episode. 

Names of places in a long poetic list. 
Speculations about frozen rivers. Thanks, 
John Ashbery. We don'
t buy the "John Ashbery's apolitical stance makes him a bully" argument.

abundance and deficit
oak trees looking bitten
shaggy clouds smashed together
roll of sky blue lab tape

Shout out to that meteor-created lake in Quebec. 
Maybe I should sit down with Keith and explain a wall. 
But you can't tell. There was a place he was at. 
The maidservant is a creator of poetry we respect.

Now the theme music will start and it is rock and roll music
So you know you're about to have a good time
Throw the Canadians a bone. Shout out to Edmonton. 
Shout out to Winnepeg. Other smaller cities.

They never count on fresh ingredients
The cards caught them unawares and sizzling hot fajitas
The comment cards indeed found out evildoings
Documented them that's what I meant and haunted house

random some false cognates in
with sandwich, sandwiches & sandwiching
sandwishing no no don't listen
train their train to thoughts of others trail trial

Cotton Candy and Stopping Power
Stopping Cotton Candy Power
Stopping Frozen Cotton Assets
Net Hopes Up Worth

Hopes Up get your Hopes Up here
Popcorn peanuts raspberry vines
Get your cotton candy I've got 
Cotton Candy here Cotton Candy

Stopping Power is too clumsy
When people ask what I want I sa
I say Stopping Power and I raise my eyebrow
I tug my earlobe

Hopes Up
is that a good book title
probably not 
How about Stopping Power

put in your contact
lenses so your glasses
won't freeze to your face
in the cold weather

Chipped flakes of bone it is not nice
Evidence of fire and smoke damage 
have compromised this otherwise nicely preserved mummy
They give no thoughts for glass beads

No joke I'm writing this in Excel 2000 (v 9.0.02720).
I think if asked by archaeologists I wouldn't be able to explain what a 
number of the icons in the toolbar mean. I could puzzle out what
some of them are for. They can detect

fire arson in the chapel it makes
so much sense holy cleansing
a ring of flames and a 
rising smoke turning and twisting

blanket, 3D structure of the 
inside of the clump
where no complexity untangles it
one long yarn, earthquake

shelves out from under
the books and records what
will they think of 
all our books and records

the most 
comprehensive study
of its kind
of its time

ivy strands whip semicircles
in lichen on concrete 
wall up the way
high wind rising effort

I'm sitting at the Liberty Diner
on 42nd St in Manhattan,
where I'm about to eat $17
of $3 eggs, and where "Animals"

by Maroon Five (?) has come on
twice since I ordered and my
food's not here yet. So of course
I'm thinking about monumenta.

the most comprehensive study of its
kind, years in the making. Times
Sq is the wrong venue for contemp
contemplating things of superhuman

scale. Its logic and lights
are meant to slice individuals'
perception ever finer: outcompete
the million other billboards

shit I'm getting toast crumbs
on my phone my food got here
it's pretty good. Greek Omelette.
anyways what happened to the epic

nah enough o
that shut yr flap
shut yr trap and shut yr flap in it
I heard some great Bartok last night,

and some killer Ravel, and some
Dvorak that merged with the flow of
time if you eexperience the flow of time
of time! you can fall prone

you can arrest
you can wake up days in the past
you can lament humanity's inhumanity
which at least we have no fear it will disappear

toucg the sky no asking why
pedaço suspera amor
amor calor, plata de or
pop lyrixist of the year

what is a monument anf why are there so few of them.
and your little dog 5oo
sorry I'm writing this on my phone...
a lament for captive tigers

I'm ill with the mentality of a sketchbook
I'm syncing up my rhyming with a catchy hook <-- terrible
Does anybody know what happened to Johnny?
Can anybody answer when I ask Wither Curlbert?

What about Jimmy, where's he? Didn't they have 
another brother? What about those gals they were friends with?
What about the girls who moved into 504 Princeton 
After my other friends and I moved out?

They probably had it condemned and destroyed by the city. 
Nobody can make you do anything you don't want to do. 
My life would've been much worse if I had to move to Alaska for love.
Every parcel of land in the city has a murder if you look at the microfilm.

Mathematicians propose new map projections all year round.
The Americas go on the left because up is North and oceans are delimiters. 
Did you ever play Kerbal Space Program? It looks good. 
Up and down are not the same kind of thing as left and right, 

And North and South are not the same kind of thing as East and West,
And inwards and outwards are different than all of the above.
And when you sleep you can assembles proofs which in waking life
Would escape you or threaten you or trample you. 

Tom Thompson, you may not have known, in his bird form
(which is similar to a smaller yellow/black honey-eater type of bird)
(with a downward curved bill)
is able to snatch from streams of fast moving air

small kernels and husks of a hybrid plant which gains
from corn a degree of smoothness and from 
"L. leffertyi" a kind of green hairy rigidity.
Tom perches on a pole and waits for these seeds. 

Hey let's go to a matinee
Some of the showtimes are past
We don't want to buy snacks
I want to use the bathroom

before the movie starts
Why do they show us all these commercials
Let me count how many times I roll my eyes
During this movie. Seriously Hollywood can we be done with the manipulative stuff so much?

The holograph effect is unconvincing
Nothing about this moving image is moving
Tears stream down my face as a mule passes from the scenery
Comment cards in the lobby are untouched

Pristine comment cards are the picture of orderliness
No human contact with the comment cards has left them clean
A doctor uses a comment card as a surgical placemat while sewing a wrist up
The medical profession turns to comment cards as a miracle of nature

Fortifications against ape ninjas
include star traps on tripwires
None of this is of consequence
The humans weep into their malteds

I am only filling space
The mat and the rug combine
As many ideas don't rhyme -- twisting bells
Did you see Scarlett Johansson in Under the Skin? yeesh

Lots of descriptions
of rolls of blue lab tape
will be sufficient. They
are unknown in their

sufficiency, they are insufficiently known.
Nobody ever says that a roller coaster needs
to be more accessible. Actually that's not true.
There are people who say that.

There are people who say 
And there are people who 
Do not say and the
People who opt that.

People who say that fall
flat. People who do not
say that do not fall 
flat. People who do not

fall flat do not say
that. People who do not
fall flat do say but 
they do not say that. 

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It was a day filled with pride.
The "socket of the day" because it meant nothing rolled 1d84 anachronistic polyhedra.
The developers have implemented a goblin who throws other goblins.
The glass shrike now carries the batty flag and electric golems no longer breathe.

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Did you hear the Alan Watts construct
(in the movie "Her" 2014) voiced by 
the fat actor who plays the head of Treadstone
in the Bourne movies? 

Were you aware that Samantha Morton's voice
was replaced with Scarlett Johansson's in post-production,
and that new scenes were filmed after the re-cast?
Good gourd that's a weird piece of information 

Brian Cox is his name of course (Alan Watts) who cares.
I thought he was Irish but he's Scottish O Christ who cares?
Rooney Mara was in the movie too shut up shut up
It was edited over 14 months please stop talking

Wicker nativities plop up in civic centers
Columbine is a distant memory and unrepresented
Jesus "Little Lord" Christ is asleep on the hay
The cattle are lowing, the angels belt 

Pup in civilities please pass the stone
in the movies?
Rooney Mara weird piece of corn is name of information 
Were you aware lowing, the fat actor who cares.

I thought he's Scarlett Johansson's voice
was repercussions.
I thought he's voiced by 
Brian Cox is a distict 9 who care lowing, the Bourne movie too shut up shut up in civic centers

Columbine is a were you aware that actor who plop up shut up shut up shut up
It was irised, a were-iris lowing, the angels belt 
"Wrist" is his name of construct
(Samanthat) new scenes (weird piece) of Tread (of "in") (in) the movies? 

Were you hear he thought he fat (who).
I thought he's Scarlett Johansson's information 
Wrist is his name of course (Alan Watts)
(in the angels beltloops a wrist)

me of course (Alan Watts (Alan "Wattle Lord" Christ) is his name)
Jesus "Little Lord" Christ is name of information,
and that new scenter that's a distant memory and unrepresented
Jesus "Little Lord" Christ was responsible?

Rooney Mara was Irish but he was edited over 14 months plop up shut up 
Rooney Mara weird piece of information 
in the movie too shut he's Scottish O Christ was Irish but he was edited over 14 months 
(Brian Watts) who plays the "was" the "post" in post-production 

Wicker civilities plop up plop up
Columbine is asleep on 
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(the inn that's asleep on)

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Columbine is his name of course (Alan Watts) who cares.

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In the long gap between updates
I started a DCSS character (Hill Orc Fighter)
who was the champion of all three good gods, 
descended to Hell and Pan and everywhere, and won w/ 15 runes.

The materials scientist who researches the formation
of cracks in thermal barrier coatings on propeller blades
in power plant turbines and jet engines. The demonologist
who has read all of the literature and knows all of the names

and has on one occasion seen a malevolent gaze appear
hovering above the circle drawn impromptu on the forest floor
while a brace of imps on a spit laughed and unfurled
and the day darkened and then it was over. She spat blood

which evaporated on the air. She was determined to try again.
The things the game teaches you about yourself 
conclude in the knowledge that the game you play
continues when you are not playing. The only way to win

can not be asserted with any degree of certainty.
The cracks form as the base material deforms
due to the introduction of high temperatures over 
long stretches of time. This is unlike cracking from stress

in which cracks form along unseen, undetected, but
entirely predictable lines. Even the crack jumps
can be predicted statistically. You can watch them form
and join. When moisture is introduced and the crack jumps

are characterized in three dimensions, the connections
are more completely understood. The results are so deep
endent on the software that has been used. In previous 
and current sentences a deprecated line break method

has been employed to create an absence of aesthetic interest;
the "troubled surface" argument gets my eyes rolled at it.
The materials scientist who characterizes the structure
of lead-rich dendrites in re-flown tin-lead solder joints

works all day every day in service of the electronics industry
but in a larger sense he serves whosoever would use a phone
or a computer. This is not all mankind. W
ould he be happy to take questions

yes he would. He destroyed at snakes and ladders and
his classmates bowed in obeisance. He typically wins Jenga.
Pick-up-stix he also pwns. Racquetball he gets his ass handed 
him. The loss of credulity at a poetics of clever phraseology

has been poorly characterized, though ample real time data
is available. That is to say, there are slices which show cracks
not yet formed, forming, and fully formed. After they form
failure is imminent. But the poet will not speak of this

to anyone so the data evaporates on the air. To angelologists
and demonologists alike it did not ever even occur that hierarchy
might not be the only possible (let alone absolutely correct) 
principle by which derived supernatural intelligences are organized. 

The slices move through the mouse non-invasively
leaving behind a blue-stained memory gland 
which has a 3D shape and 4D existence, or did. 
Interventive imaging is founded on the principle that

computer images are rendered in pixels and therefore
surface areas can be counted, continuity can be determined, 
directionality can be known, etc. I hate putting etc. at the end
of any sentence but I do it all the time. Worshipers

of the good gods endure endless ethical quandaries
and numerous aesthetic concerns. Contradictions abound
and the doublethink muscle reigns. The practices of evil
prescribed by the evil gods are typically contradictionless. 

There's got to be a better word for that. The cleansing of the
dungeon can be considered an interventive imaging process.
The masses are mapped for surgery
as darkness is spun out into darkness and light.

Scars form 
wounds in
reverse while
damage lasts.

The healing god heals these. 
Damage lasts
while reverse
wounds in 

scars form. 
If you have ever poured liquid aluminum
into an ant colony you know how
I'm talking about.

The vascular development
of the fetal plesiosaur
could not possibly matter
but we are cataloging heaven

where poor and complete 
ossification decides age
until one day a lord
shuts up your mouth.

All of its unpublished synchrotron data
is pulled down to Hades by hand-forged hook
though increasingly a "download-based" model
is deployed and I'll talk more about that later.

You must follow your intuition
knowing that it cannot possibly matter. 
You must question your intuition
because it cannot possibly be matter. 

Is it sufficiently or insufficiently cruel, 
the regime which has imposed these conditions?
No the forbiddenness of cruelty is more than measurable.
Bone and tooth are living tissues, Tourette's too is living.

Hard and soft tissue interfaces have been mapped 
at a default state and also under in situ mechanical loads
introduced increasingly over time. These science sentences 
really take it out of me. They really get me jazzed, too.

I love seeing a graph plot with a line drawn through it. Like a 
gentle but unambiguous upslope. Strain mapping is performed
under <em>in situ</em> loading conditions. That's what <em>I</em> said.
The 80-micron space between the tooth and the bone

might as well be the surface of the moon with night above.
You constantly apply these loads as you chew. The tissues
regain or change their properties as needed. See the 
cross section of the tooth sinking into the jawbone &

springing back. Keep it going keep it going forget it.
The kobold is the ideal healer, in spite of how
it's a malevolent lizard dog. It can eat anything so food
is not often an issue. Its Invocations score is high. 

This is not lyric poetry okay? Go away grad students, 
go away faculty, go away ye wee undergrunders. 
One problem manifests as cleverness in boys
and as tweeness in girls. The only solution is mastication.

By the time it gets to that stage it's already pathology.
Appeals to the healer god Elyvilon are not ignored
but can be shrugged off depending on monster HP. 
The recitations of Zin though are rolled against HD. 

The Shining One's cleansing flame ignores both of these, 
scaling up directly by Invo skill and multiplying
based on undeath or demon status. All are united
by heaven's business of expunging malevolence. 

Death does not especially bother them. 
They do not care about the Orb. So to truly serve them
is to lose the game very, very slowly, to shine a light
perpetually in a void of random demon generation

and undeath as mentioned previously. The medieval images 
of Christ leading the undead out of Hell also inculcate a belief
that through Him they are brought back into life. At some point
a punitive, combative model appeared - the Christ of

the sacred scourge, etc., and "etc." is not how I end sentences
lightly. The mouse
has been found
to be friend

to the man
since before pups
reverted to gummy
bears which generated

by the way
electricity and we
cut the brains
in half, half

of a pencil
eraser which we
put in culture
for two days

then viewed under
the multiphoton microscope
unless the cells
have floated away

which has happened
but tagged DNA
the red stuff
is recouped easily

and who else
hates ImageJ? It
does evil bad
stuff to your

data relentlessly so
we upgraded our 
equipment. Plus I
wrote some code

to register the 
cropped data set
which can be
done 15 times

faster using better
equipment as I
mentioned but don't
worry I fixed 

it. We can
identify features based
on any one 
of these features.

I hope you
are able to 
get a sense
of how the 

language organ could
not have been
more precisely engineered
to blah and

blah. Motherfucker sprayed
keyboard cleaner on 
a leaf mimicking
bug at the

moment it pierced
a wasp through
the thorax with
its proboscis and

he vaporized the 
two of them 
together one nanolayer
at a time

with a sheet
of blue laser
to take their
picture. Here's his 

cross section from
a particularly interesting
shale. These are
his blue jeans.

Here is our exclusive footage of him reciting
The words to an unwritten psalm
We thank our maker for hidden cameras
And that this man will never become president

He was given an ultimatum in his dreams
Either dream only on camera or never dream again
So (wanting not to be blackmailed by his own mind's produce)
He chose never to dream again and now he wanders 

A wilderness generated and governed by living waking dreams
Populated by half-undead monsters based on real people
Which his mind has turned to to save itself
From splintering into a million pulpy pieces.

In this state his socks are ironed for him
He lurks nearby with his eyes on the iron's plane
And when it lifts off he snatches his hand in
To press in, take up some of the unbearable heat

The utter unbearable smoothness and softness
Like a surrogate iron, and iron of undeath
Pulling life from the lifeless socks
Sucking it out of them and destroying them

So are his days governed by confusion and dissipation
He is a coating of oil, perhaps, wondering what shape his is
When really it is the shape of whatever object he's unable
Unable to penetrate the surface of today

Whatever object today remains impenetrable to him
Whatever globe-model, whatever complex of slightly
Disassembled & reworked old classroom globes is
Whatever almost narrative sculpture of whatever animal's

Compound eye made of globe parts whatever multi-skull
Skull-cap machine made of jigsawn globe sections
Whatever is this foam of old globes
Whatever pierces this foam of old globes with a single-voxel line

What angel-fine skewer transfixes this globe foam
What angel's lance is this that so straightly sticks through
That I can see both ends of it and infer the interior
With utmost confidence can I know what's up in there

Anyway no he will not dream on camera for you.
You'll have to invent wholecloth his various unfulfillments
Honestly it shouldn't be difficult. Check his browser history
And once you get to the double-digits in St. Vincent youtube video hits

You're like 80% of the way there
Imagine a copper stag bounding through
Transfixing a cloud of pick-up sticks
With loping linked parabolic trajectories

Cap it with some nightmarish cherry
Drizzled with a cherry liquer that evaporates
Upon waking. The oxygen returns to the room
He apologizes to the bedmate he has awoken 

With his yelling. Does it seem to you that I'm preoccupied with nightmare?
The nightmare state is largely unexplored, but if we invert received notions
And consider it to be (rather than loss/dearth/horror) a sudden infusion
Of life and abundance, a jolt of unbearable electricity 

Masked by pain and murder but why? It's a mystery. Once
Only I dreamed of a particular L-shaped corridor.
The long end led to the only exit. 
The short end opened out into a larger room

That doubled back and nestled as a square
Into the crook of the L. There was a window
Between the corridor and the room so that
Two-way visibility was maintained. I was guided

Into this room by I know not who; someone who 
Knew what they were talking about, presumably. 
I was told that I was dreaming. I was told that this corridor
And room would be seen by me once more in waking life

And that I should remember them well, because they would be
The location of my death. There would be a violent gundown
Of 20-some people, and I would be among them. There would be
Nothing I could do to stop it, I was told, and furthermore by the 

Time I recognized the corridor and room as the very space 
I was standing in in my dream, it would be too late for me to escape. 
I was then shown a preview of the event; the entrance of the murderers,
Seeing them through the two-way window advance down the corridor

And round the bend into the room opening fire
On myself and the other people who were there. 
I woke up from this dream badly hurting. Its spaces
Were insufficient to contain its energy. Which is

To say that it lacked imagination. Or was about a lack of imagination. 
And it seems selfish, almost blasphemous in its claustrophobia -- 
Its denial of kaleidoscopic creation. I would apologize to my maker
For the intrusion of a practice of assertion-making into dreamlife

An assertion-making that didn't ONLY seem culpable
But whose culpability was the cornerstone and capstone of a warped building
Folded in on itself. In the vestibule
They make milkshakes

For the idea of
Hell in the New
Testament is unsupported O
do not say so

O but I do
say so. Hell is 
banana milkshake forever out
of reach. No it

is hell to be
gunned down in broad
daylight for no reason. 
It is hell to 

tell every day every
primate's backstory, to have
been stonefully sickened by 
Enlightenment too is hell.

The insulation on the
wires of the body
of R2D2 which are
fully exposed when he 

suffers yes another cartoonish
trauma or one wants 
to say disemboweling those
wires and that insulation,

those are hell because
they can not be 
imagined any longer they
are fully in face. 

You zap the wand.
You hear a hissing
sound. The fire elemental
is badly damaged! The

fire elemental is destroyed. 
Do you really want to walk into that cloud of fire? (Y/N)
The names of provinces
Fall away like nachos

Column Line Pie Bar
Area Scatter Other Charts
The comedian who was
everyone's punchline due to 

his evident mania and 
unparalleled success became upon
his sudden passing an 
earmark only for lament. 

That's what the edit button is for, 
You chumplings! Edit edit edit
Like it was sewing machine time
Find the quote about Wanda Landowska

(or similar name) the amazing Polish harpsichordist
whose Bach was dismissed as sewingmachinelike
or was it her D. Scarlatti
or should it have been everyone's

And since today is a day of thunderstorms
I will meet you at the hot soup place
To share our tears and fall asleep 
face down in the bowls sleep is so important to me.

Terrifying ring of a bell's absence zaps
Of a malfunctioning battery on the red line headphones
Up to 8.5 in one ear and the other feeling
Like I said oddly hearing everything absent,

Absently minded, no just the shape of it
Listen to the outline of J.S. Bach for example
Not Deafened not Deafening
Just an uninhabited island

Find what replace with what
Tape in the shape
His endless and all-accommodating thoughts
Form a bigger bag of tricks

But make him muddled, inarticulate, when delineating principles of poetics
Thus ruling out his inclusion in The Force of What's Possible:
Writers on Accessibility and the Avant-Garde, forthcoming October 2014.
Now a rather forceful, a rather electrical and insistent sizzle,

Rather a symptomatic phantom sound, a rather nasty tinnitus
And a spiritual vertigo have resulted from chronic headphones
Chronicle headphones. Here he is on hidden camera reciting words
To an unwritten psalm. The legs are swept from under his presidential bid

Before it was known
To him. The morningglories
Kept silent their
Upendings before it was

known to him the silent
morning glories up kept
silent their up
endings before it was. Gawsh

Gawlley! In "The Sketchbook" 
He reinscribes all his ticks
Nervous all. The martini antidote
Was RATHER a violent disruption

Tearing the roof off the mother.
The insurance adjuster cut a check for 300 dollars.
And put a black smudge next to your name 
In your own book how did he get in there.

Not to be confused. The
novel twist on a number of years
culminating in a confusion of two names
or "characters" oh yawn me a default yawn.

Cause me to remember. Icicle
For me is imagelinked to oblivion
Likewise silence is conflated
With subway wall tiles not

Like piedra & who does that
Causing the conjugation of
The verb sentir to resemble
The sentiment by which

Though worn otherwise 
Mandolin music has caused
An emergency tremolo
Picking through the 

Umbra two turns
Hey Mark Leidner I 
I dig your online presence
The ubique card

Is layered over with tangled pictures of pipes 
Calling forth a music of praise
The naranja and inverted semilla portend a fortunate season
Spill the vanilla then, splash the cinnamon 

Millions of hummingbirds
Contract down to the few
In the moon's umbra
The sum of two cards

Sad but urgent race
To commit a single word
To a spreadsheet (mostly this thing is composed in Excel or Open Office Calc
So that the HTML line breaks can be added by formula)

Oni hella disses Edith
Piaf while switching to Yma 
Sumac to which I answer Nina
Hagen of whom Oni doesn't know (cool story bro)

Not much is said of the zone between sleep & dreaming
which is perceptible emerging from the dream. 
It's not much perceptible. They don't tell you that. 
They don't tell you anything. They micromanage your syntapses

He should be writing haiku. He looks up from the screen
thinking "screen of nothing, what is that, is that a title"
then seeing a streetlight is struck with the enormity impossibility 
crass abject beauty almost insulting beauty of it. Mortal predicament etc

He had Googled Jenna Elfman a name
he barely remembered only to find
No not her she rather looked
like Joey Lauren Adams

to a degree. No
Actually quite similar
Maybe shorter and hotter
(ugh you crass ogre)

telling first one
person and the next
she looked like Joey Lauren Adams
"No I said Joey Lauren Adams"

It is a basic video game dream
The object is not to step on a mouse
The main character begins
in a basement by stepping on something

he spins on his heel 
to see there a mouse
legs spasming and a gout of
blood emptied from its face

sure living mice can be seen
from a side-scrolling view
until one is stepped on 
so one dodges first one then two

by dream logic the two
become four and then eight
until a critical number can 
not not be stepped on

the sense that so many 
mysteries must be solved all 
at once as they multiply underfoot
as stars wink out overhead (advancing night)

all sighing heavily
carrying bag of trash to 
curb 10:45pm querying faded stars
which mystery first

She has ceased appearing even in dreams.
Her reproaches over the fragmented language
Of her instructions sent back as to the past
Land as autumnal leaves and evaporate.

It's all complete sentences with her now; the power that
Reinscribes its conduits as itself has found
In her a daylight dawning or instructional sentences (complete)
For a card game whose object is to first make day dawn.

At last the mountains are sheared
into sleeping green valleys
divided by mercurial water
emptying onto small, indifferent towns. 

Once these townspeople are called into question
very little else can be done. That is, the question
must be settled, and committee lines be drawn up
on increasingly more patient schedules as the charts

multiply. The banks and factories must be made
to fight it out for the fate of the common man. 
The victor presides over man's second age;
the bodies of the losers choke the waters under the Golden Gate.

Enough of this - they cancel their own destruction,
these townsfolk, these townswomen and townsmen, 
by insisting on a different approach. They have found
that a life is irreplaceable and precious no matter how fat

or stupid or ugly or Other or grouchy or gross. 
Their city becomes a utopia where only reasonable things happen.
When death occurs, the soon-to-be-deceased are told
simply and without further ceremony that no one knows

what will happen to them. Currency is converted
in special machines into special machines. 
Nanocurrencies blossom and the captain has turned on the
Nanocurrencies eat and convert other currencies

The financial system's drivers and pit crews cease to breathe
They suck down and in, succumbing to the black arrow
Bizarre utterances, unflattering haircuts. Who knows anymore. 
Then in a blaze a unicorn showed forth on all channels, 

brightly lit by intense spotlights, descending from the balcony
vanishing before touching down on the stage. A symbol of purity
is the standard understanding, and reckoning that (of course)
precedes critique like we needed to be reminded. Burp.

Demanding but not earning 
his little legitimacy the
yelling man recorded his
surgery-themed album

and delayed its release
to accommodate a 
handful of vivid and 
alarming photographs

of doctors irrigating
whole tubfuls of water into
or out of a patient's 
mostly concealed body,

or I don't know cutting
into it or pulling the
sides of the would
apart such that one

must if one is a 
human being imagine 
the nerves basically bucking
and straining as blood

pools and trickles or one
perhaps thinks of the 
anaesthetic sleep & the
life of the patient held

so tenderly and precariously.
The vocalist I mentioned
tried to turn such intensely 
humane efforts into 

(like everything else he touches)
trauma, violence, cruelty, 
puerile misbehavior, ah me. 
Surgical precision can not be 

imagined. It must be 
lived or witnessed. To speak
of it is to not have seen
or known it. For this same

reason the parents will
not speak to the child 
about his belief in God
thank God. But they wish

his soul to be saved and 
trust to the Lord of all
to see to it without 
even roughly auditing their

own notions of how faith
or blessings or grace
can co-exist in this world
alongside trauma, violence, etc.

Not to mention who gets
credit and who gets blame. 
They have not worked out these
problems, perhaps because

they are insoluble, so to spout
contradiction after contradiction
is the only way. I wonder
what theology would feel like,

real grappling. I wonder if, 
in place of the thin film I 
perceive to separate the
Good from the Evil, there's

something more durable.
This idea that the Good is just
the Good plus the Evil,
or the Evil is just the Good

plus the Evil, or they both are 
somehow involved with or 
dependent from one another, 
or somehow they're gravitationally

attracted, well, it might be reckonable
with. The parent made it through
heart surgery to tell the tale. 
Not much of a tale, though!! He was under

the whole time and 
remembers very little.
The brother-in-law sang him a hymn
while I guessed at 

my own presence in the room.
Was it a standing spectating thing
or the kind of presence that designs
and executes a change of realities?

Holy, Holy, Holy, there is none
above Thee. Holy Holy Holy all 
the saints adore Thee / casting down
their golden crowns along the glassy

sea. Around the glassy sea? They 
line or encompass it, this plurality,
this city of saints. They dash the 
crowns from their own heads

When they behold the majesty
of the creator of the Universe. 
To finally feel that humbled
what wouldn't you give. A 

All cruisin youtube for hilarious first pitch fails
50 Cent I'm looking at you
I am 36 years old and dying, I will die in love
In love will the razor wire encircle me

Batter up! Long line drive over the second baseman's head
Dropping in shallow center, man on. 
Next up, two fouls two balls a third strike and he's out.
Made up details of baseball are the boringest costube.

I could be a Wes Borland clostume for Christmas
I could be a Flying V, second spine
There is nothing so very consistently worth doing as mucking around on YouTube
John Adams considers himself a philosopher of manure.

And now he listens to Limp Bizkit vs Wu Tang
Got to stop it wif the YouTube cruising
Well, not lost time anyway
He said Elmer Fudd hilarious. All praise is due. Poetry broke yo.

Knee knuckle ball fine
For ball thrown behind batter head
Ump gives a yerrouttahere gesture
with Umpmost cool

Two batters up
and fries choke
up faster swing
the ball batter

I hope there won't be too much timpani
Four lines will be too many 
There must be the right amount of excess hey Johannes
come get me come yell at me what are my transgressions

Two pitches match
Knuckleball note
vs. slider (trombone)
they same strike (timpani)

Stravinsky's Markov chains are a matter of public record
John Cage selects an uppercut from a list of available punches
Morton Feldman can't cast Iron Shot at Mennas 
Conlon Nancarrow escapes with the Orb ...and 15 runes!

Fortunatey he never really liked Faith No More. In 2005
his attention was diverted from Mr. Bungle to a much harsher band,
Pig Destroyer. Have I mentioned them before? Not once did they ever
inspire him to create a long, largely deficient poem with Markovian dependencies.

In the year 2000 he who had been a Korn fan (sort of) turned
his attention to Mr. Bungle which was a definite step up
but this band too gave him many mistaken ideas about oh what reality?
The many finesses and flavors of life well-lived?

The man's soul wrote out a long nonmanifesto designed to be unreadable
Because you didn't have to read it. All you had to do was process it as proscribed
and insert line breaks where they were needed. The meaning was
sort of like garbage interchangeable (disposable) metal band music. 

The soul was so extensive that the words inevitably repeated
And the text was fed through a simple computer script which essentially
made a table of these correspondences and then decided arbitrarily when
presented with a choice between multiple options

In the year 1995 a Metallica fan decided to become a Korn fan
In this way the trash of his soul was buttressed with trash
You could drop the needle in it anywhere and a meaning
Could only emerge from the hyperlinks between words

By the year 1985 Metallica's fame had caused global climate change
to accelerate to a "point of no return"
By the year 1990 this process had inverted "turned inside out"
such that Metallica was seen as a clownish symptom of larger problems

Lars Ulrich can't play drums in time
Trujillo plays inferior bass
James Hetfield's words don't rhyme
Kirk Hammett has a silly face

Effin Lars
always hits the cymbal
on beat two of the measure
Eff that guy, and that band

By 2075 Lars Ulrich could not be reached for comment
"...And Justice For All" played on a huge sentient stereo system
While a holographic Freddie Mercury listens and philosophizes
Gunjevic's theologies are held in a productive tension against one another

By the year 2055 pizza was extinct
In 2060 the last president ceded power to a child-plant hybrid
The plants then ate the last humans within five years
By 2070 the magnetic poles were regularly cycling ("poledancing")

Palm trees at the poles
Hulking skeletal reefs bleached of life and 
hot to the touch, razor sharpened,
sunk in uninhabitable waters, year 2050. 

I am getting to an age where I regularly have small but unanticipated
and unprecedented insights into the existential situation
which is sobering of course but they are of so little consequence
that they bubble off, they boil away, as the sun even climbs. 

I started a metal band about chewing gum
Soon the gumcore genre outgrew me
Our drummer sat small metal objects (lengths of chain, 
paperweights, etc) on his snare drum head

Nobody get sick of Ovid okay
okay muffled stuff sounding upside down 
walls will do that, music too, and breath freshening gum
/|/BRETH FRËSHENOR\|\   <-- those are supposed to be lightning bolts

the worship of god must be lived in mortality
kinetic knuckle cymbal
peripheral vigeon visgeon
vigzhon vijjion ugh okay fine

stomp on harpsichord it
snap off clusters o
registered nurses cabin flute notes hi
bassoons hi bassoons low

8GB memory card w/ no contents
spotless reputation/mind
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Stargazing depends heavily on yesteryear's innovations. 
Telescopes are windows backwards in time --
rear windows, if I must -- this truism 
has been overstated one million times. 

More about stargazing: it was popular in the 20s, 40s, 1400s,
1300s, and today, as well as at other times in history. 
The rigid distinction between astrology and astronomy was not felt
as recently as 500 years ago; think of that. 

Stargazers have no technique and cloudspotters lack discipline. 
The discipline of TV is such that no wasted breath is unrecuperated. 
No, not true. The discipline of TV must be dispensed with, though. 
No talk show host monologs wearing a horse butt. 

On the island of the centaurs, stargazing prevailed
and diurnal vision was deprecated. Veils parted
or were lifted (accounts vary) but having seen their future
the centaurs were made mad. The end

Nessos is credited with the death of Hercules. 
Hercules encircled the neck within the motion of
the drawing of the blade, and next instant encircled
the joining place of horse and man. 

Hercules is credited with the death of Nessos. 
In popular lore it was well known that the poison of Nessos' arrows
persisted days and months later in the system of Hercules.
Inside, that is, vs. external, encircling, asunder.

Nessos is alive again and Hercules is Jason Priestley.
Bad casting if you ask me. Please welcome back to the show,
Nessos! Come on out, Nessos, how are you? Whoa, whoa hey now,
easy on the longbow there friend. Oh god he's a monster

(Interlude here while I caution the reader against
the video game called Dungeon Crawl: Stone Soup. 
I have a serious debilitating addiction to this game.
It has cost me untold amounts of life. It is not worth playing.)

He appears across a medium-sized room
which is otherwise open, launches two
poisoned flaming arrows, and teleports
a short distance away but still within 

line of sight. This he repeats. I am 
damaged. I gesture and speak clearly
a formula for summoning 5-6 butterflies
into the air around me, hoping they 

will intercept some of the next few arrows. 
This is life, and living. Maggie Nelson says
Wittgenstein just sounds like a sad and 
slightly crazy person. "Why can't my right hand

pay my left hand money?" Why can
I make myself laugh? Why can I surprise myself? 
God what a joy. A teleporting centaur  who 
runs out of arrows and is, then: what? 

The laughter of sui generis deluge. 
The deluge of sui generis laughter. 
He has told the same joke twice 
to the same audience and they laughed

They laughed louder the second time,
honest laughter, mortally saddened & deepened.
The resignation on his face, they're singing
Happy Birthday, candles barely lit a moment before

he blows out the candles. Is it done,
I don't want it to be done, all of his
sentences end with commas, I shook the
knobby bones of his hands and thanked him.

Today's desires' pyramids poke the horizon
Sex sex desire desire everything
Moment instant of eye contact on left
Her exit from the train bespeaks

Today I desire everything
She exits the train on the left
Our brief eyecontact bespeaks
Sex, the sex of distant pyramids

It is Mandelbrot for dummies. 
It is as navigable as a flatworm's gut.
It's drafty as a donut in here. 
Good Christ I can see the back of my own haircut.

But it is mappable terrain. It is but Beethoven.
When you get to the bottom, hell is there.
You meet kobold demonologists along the way
who summon minor demons; abjure these

and whenever possible axe off kobolds' heads
in a manner befitting your ancestry, which is 
your close acquaintance with your own destiny.
Bleakness, sameness, soul's room bare and clean.

Today is the day. In this place
because it's the same place 
as every other day
I've entered the desert

I speak directly to camera
on a show called Battlezone
in a dream that replaces alarm sound
an actual voice of word spoke.

The dream is me watching this
but I'm looking into camera two
and reading words from the prompter
which now have been exposed as 

placeholders for words, shapes 
yes language can do that. Fade, 
turn away. Eden in a bot
tle yes. Terrarium of Venus

no flytrap. For I know not
what day it is. Beethoven 
is my guest on tonight's
Battlezone, but first let me entrust

to you data from my life, raw data, 
if we could all have access to 
all of it from each other's lives
instantly and without effort, 

if omniscience were breakfast merely,
or if it were kickball, or 
fire drill, peace could not 
but prevail. Do you 

viewer want truth or peace? 
Let me tell you something about myself. 
I feel today that I'm engaged in a struggle for my soul, 
against whom or what I know not. 

from dreams I don't understand 
into a waking life whose resemblance
to an impenetrable fog is now not 
worth disregarding, steady drumbeat.

Wake everyday no reason to wake
Dreams equally incomprehensible, sourceless
(the (apparent) sourcelessness!)
Value of disregard is exceeded by regard

Fog of consciousness, steady drumbeat.
Let's bring in our guest. No reason to wake
from equally sourceless dreams and not worth
the effort it would take to disregard

(mystery after mystery, words in alliance
O desert footsteps, desert fog whose form
takes footsteps only then evaporates
fake words truthfully read from the prompter

golem swallowing fake word turns to steam
from which empty scroll falls utterly
horrifyingly harmless) impenetrable fog
steady and slow beating of an invisible drum.

But now we welcome our guest. You know him
from his symphonies, his piano sonatas, 
his string quartets, and from the towering
bronze statues of him in every conservatory 

in the world and in some town squares besides, 
ladies and gentleman, please welcome 
Ludwig Van Beethoven (applause sound effect, 
applause sound effect) (hat tip to Chelsea P for the

applause sound effect) Have a seat right there, 
Ludwig, and thank you so much for being here! 
Welcome back! Longtime viewers of the show
will remember your previous visit (nervous laughter

sound effect). But Gordon has forgiven you buy now
right Gordon? For those who missed it, last time 
Beethoven was here he got into a fistfight with
our bandleader Gordon, something about the

angle of light reflecting off the timpani, 
wasn't it, Beethoven? The man is passionate
his timpani, that much is for certain. By the way
viewer it saddens me that I imagine myself

to be Jimmy Fallon sitting here doing this
whereas in past years I would have been Letterman
ha the reverse aging ha ha is dis-spiriting. 
Jimmy Fallon go to the bottom of hell. 

But hell is as unsummonable as the tier-1 demons
pelting me with draining spells and hellfire
while our eyes fill with tiers. We lived a 
big 'ol life, one full of shit and flowers, 

death-green bullshit twiglike desert stems topped with paper petals
that smell like overworked ass and wrinkle up under anyone's gaze whosoever.
We lived a turd's life, you & me, the danged atomic bombs
fell like cliche-perpetuatin' raindrops into our garden bed

and just kicked the hell out of our marigolds and posies and such
and time after every goddamn time there was asphodels in their place,
jest a stinkin' and a rottin' alive, jest swarmed round
by ghouls and necrophages lickin' their chops and saying

to each other "What in the goldurn tarnationous stinkpit
is this piss poor excuse for foliage that I do remember it, 
& grim grammit if it don't recall to me both my own life
and my own undeath too, though too weak a splash of blood

courses through it for it to entirely undeceive my eyes a lookin'
admittedly through their own papery thin and necrotic 
eyelids a goddammit and a Yosemite Sammit." All fun and games, yes
certainly, that is all, all there is is fun and games. 

Great car, very reliable.
They are built for animals to drive. 
It's a Honda Civic full of porcupines. 
One of my grandmothers drove one. 

A random sampling indicates 50%
And neither grandma was a porcupine.
The other was a barracuda. Barracuda! 
You can only imagine the ferocity!

Take on the porcupine's form. 
It could not have been great
but the porcupines know how to play instruments. 
There's got to be something

the porcupines don't know how to do.
Imagine a porcupine wearing glasses
and a little vest. Like a bulletproof vest. 
Otherwise nothing sharp or deadly around. 

So that the memory withers and any other effect
is unpredictable. It depends on the game mechanics. 
Can you make me look more like a normal person? 
Not to look younger -- not to increase the memory.

Things are going badly here, which is standard.
I feel the deficit of my own performance here. 
Deficits created by my own performance here. 
The interventive power of poetry cannot be cowed. 

Intimidation can not be taken out of words
but poetry can. Though pinball has had so much
to do with his recent life, and (he hopes) will
continue to give him joy, now he wants to 

talk himself into being a poet again
so that he can feel the interventive faculty
at work. To intervene against one's own timidity
first, then to intervene in a larger way

in a world that's manifestly forgetful of 
what, Eden? Yeah, maybe. Remember Eden
but he can not remember Eden, a baleful messenger
wielding a flaming sword forbids access to 

that memory. He takes such delight in pinball
as a prosthesis for pure intuition that it
is only afterwards he notices that the garden 
has faded from around him and he is warned off

by the angel with the flaming sword -- 
a death, certainly, but more than that:
a rebuke suffered at the boundary of an impossible
which has already been achieved and 

will be achieved again. "Wanted: lost cause
EM machine for re-theme. Only complete basket-cases, 
please. I will not ruin a perfectly good game
for this. My re-theme will be called "Garden 

of Perdition." During play, the player will 
complete objectives (lighting targets, 
hitting drop targets, etc), to ease and then 
reverse the forgetting which has led her

and him out of the Garden of Eden; during play
the flaming sword will melt into dew 
and grace will pervade. 
I have a $100 budget for this project."

I half woke from a dream at 5am 
the purpose was to concoct a system, to dream it into being
the system equates forgetting with turning away
and reattunement is necessary because it places beings

into alignment with a love that guides their actions
even yesterday I couldn't have imagined typing these words
and tomorrow I will have forgotten them
though I find myself looking forward to remembering

this, not this moment but this time, the struggles it contained
the elegant light bouncing off the struggles, oh I don't know. 
I want to be old and then die, sometimes. I sometimes think about death
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There are two main problems facing human beings currently. 
These are: 1) environmental catastrophe, short or long term, 
and 2) wealth inequality. Together, they will be the sources
of the planet's misery for the next 1000 years at least. 

And yet there's something else underneath, something nameless, 
situated prior to naming, not subject to quantification or
analysis. It can't be seen because it is seen through, the 
pane of living looking, the faint glow of contingency 

which is not quite unreality
except in its most extreme moments
hanging around every moment. 
My ears ring and have rung 

and my eyes fill up with sagging debris. 
No conviction can be based on them, not
just because of corporeal erosion, mortality,
but the unmistakeable sense that one 

was never alive in the first place,
and the immediate kickback when confronting this thought,
a whiplash of culpability. The simple notion
that one is a defective robot 

with a sour battery
and always has been
and that the love one has felt even
is traceable to an improperly stored story

first heard at age 2
and now impossible to comment out
as it has effectively BECOME
the storage mechanism and is alive

in ways the host is not. 
The tupperware golem seeing itself in the mirror.
Meet these things head on for the first time, then. 
And recognize too the beckoning

of reality even in your dreams
even you who prefer dreams to waking
even your nightmares so filled with seeds
and inklings, unmistakable

the desire to cut through contingency
and know and believe and actual truth
the wordless bubble or not a bubble?
the embroidery or the non-embroidery?

I shain't abide no more Picasso no; 
I'll put the eyes & goblets back where they go.
No more bonus perceptions kay?
I'm a rollitonback to at least Monsieur Monet.

That was the beginning of a difficult time. 
Frederick Sidel's books (which I did not read
since My Tokyo (an abysmal bore of a book
in retrospect (due to... what? A deficiency

of Zen in the writing? Of the Everywhere 
Everyday? (By the way can I tell you a Zen story?
This was on the popular WTF podcast, 
a story told by comedian Paul Gilmartin

(in the context of 80s arcade games and 
Missile Command specifically) about a 
young comedian he knew who,
when he had bombed onstage, 

would cope by going out to the lobby
where the Missile Command cabinet was
and would feed in a bunch of quarters
and then would not play -- 

would just stand there and watch destruction rain down.
Is that a Zen story? Well it makes me laugh, that's
what Zen means, right?)))) can go chase themselves.
A difficult time. Lose a few pounds. 

Long rectangular stretches of the day. 
Unable to let resentments drop, 
feeling they could be addressed head-on
and unable to sense the loss of footing that would bring. 

The quarterback and what it changes when it changes. 
One man's passing offense 
is another's running/scrambing. He is loose
from the pocket. He throws a man

to the ground out of desperation. 
As he crosses the line of scrimmage he is alone
among a sea of murderers. Where does the shovel pass 
land? Peyton Manning, a genuine genius but aging,

clipped, hacked, smothered, stifled, out-thunk 
I saw the arcs of bridges photostacked
on one another superimposed no crossing
barriers thorns entrances exits no.

I'll put it here
I carried the splinter
without that being should splinter it
& regret jettisoning Kansans

& a splinter Kansan sonogram.
The ampersand ends up
at the beginning of the line why.
Probably peer pressure.

In, must have been 1998,
nursing a two-year smart
I wrote a break-up book of poems
entitled Siamese Dream.

I showed it to highly valued friend
and mentor Laura Mullen, then 
about to become my first "real"
poetry teacher. As in, the first

lesson she taught me was 
what you have done here 
is simply terrible so start over.
I felt then and still feel that

there was something some spark
hidden; existing but barely;
tucked in the corners of that 
project not its idea but its reality:

The title of each poem is the same
as the title of a track from the 
Smashing Pumpkins album.
The text of each poem is 

(here begins charitable wording)
assembled from song lyrics some real some fake,
bad poetry, and (worst of all
& no concealing it) letters to an exgirlfriend

I had not yet gotten over. The titles
being the same as the album's
and having no bearing on the content
made me laugh. And the whole

enterprise was so audacious and stupid
and the process of writing it so free
(O freedom! Freedom to write however badly)
that it chomped itself a permanent place in my heart

Laura's comments notwithstanding
and by the way she was right, it was bad. 
I assembled it in much the same way
as one might assemble a sidewalk 

of pre-poured slabs of concrete, 
just plunking them down next to each other
as opposed to you know pouring.
Well then 15 years went by 

and I visited my college town 
and its desolation was so real
it was not at all a mismemory it was EVERYWHERE
and I felt transformed, mortal, and okay.

And I remembered my stupid book
and thought I'll rewrite Siamese Dream
(MY Siamese Dream) without 
consulting the prior version

to see what I could come up with. 
I thought it might help me kick
some writers' block I'd been accumulating
which it did. I rewrote it and it was still bad

but differently and the nouns fell 
into differently numbered holes I'm sure
there are some gems in each version
and a lot of slop. I'm now

patently concerned with a failing memory
but failing compared to what? who can say? 
And intuition, dream, nightmare, waking,
The boundary line. Water is the aggressor.

So now do I revise one, or the other, 
or both, or do I staple them to each other 
and publish them in an edition of one
in the shallow waters off Nantasket Beach?

I'll drown my book and not think twice. 
Well the smart money's on "revise both"
but I confess the earlier will be gnolls
and kobolds top to bottom: easy

to kill and hard to improve.
I'm not sure it sounds like 
such smart money after all. 
That's what's been going on with me.

Lines of bygone cyborg trace
Through pictures of cyborg dog
Bow, wow. Bow, wow. Unconvincing
But as a sentinel, serviceable. 

It was a day filled with pride.
A sound of attackless windchimes
drifted from the bygone cyborg: 
the scones were ready.

There's not much but oranges to say
I think I filled this out once before these blanks look
Familiar these coffers look like I've been inside
I've been inside these coffers before pretty sure

But oranges say. And then
Well nothing. Okay 
Is mango puree next
To indigo bunting.

Random assortment
of binder clips 
is dashed off
the table to reappear

in a song at the 
gates of. Why stop there
when oranges say.
When do they though? 

Bubbles so transparently don't.
Nor do thoughts bubble.
Milk bubbles in thoughts
Say gentle sugars

Into a void of 
When oranges say! 
It's fun and I'm not done.
Oranges' sugars spike through

Parliamentary deadlocks
Like pikestaves to temples
In olden times for which
O we lament but oranges

they just stay there
klaxxoning to their 
counterpart asteroids conceptually. 
When nobody has eyes

it's possible but not until. 
Tran lapsed, sure
but Tran lapsed into?
Or Tran lapsed

into existence? Seems irresponsible
sentence-wise. Whereof one
cannot speak one must be 
ENTERTAINING! Thanks

I've been playing Cookie Clicker
this morning and every morning
No just this morning and one other
No just this morning and the

finding of it fun is 
Joy unto the world
Joy and Nightmare commingled
I think they're the same thing

I think there's no joy
in Cookie Clicker but in 
the finding of fun in it
which is Joy and Nightmare

I think we would be healthier
Healthier as a nation
If they were the same word
As oranges do say, do they.

Elisa Gabbert's new book 
"The Self Unstable" is outstanding
and I highly recommend it. 
What kind of book can seem

unconcerned with language except
at moments when it's revealed that
it's been crucial the whole time
yet nothing could have been done

in language or out of it
to prevent the kreeping dread
or the backwards-facing help-
lessness of the timestuck passenger

from manifesting in language and
even because of it? It's a sad book
ultimately, and not one I would've
expected from anybody, even

Elisa who I kinda know but now
less than ever (having read the 
book that is). Pick it up, check it
out, bewail yr little planetary fate. 

Manipulate the space-time all around you
so that you find the book 
entering your eyes by the wordsful. 
Don't not read it. Eat oranges. 

What else. Been listening to podcasts. 
Since I have to kill some lines here
I will list them. It'll be as interesting
as anything oranges say, right future? 

In no particular order: Doug Loves Movies, 
Call Chelsea Peretti, Never Not Funny, 
Comedy Bang Bang, The Todd Glass Show,
Professor Blastoff (although I've got some 

catching up to do on that show), You
Made it Weird, WTF (which I kind of can't 
stand -- I once made a joke to someone
who I didn't know well enough

that the only thing wrong with that show
is the host), and oh I don't know. Bored
with list. Mom wants to know if I get 
her texts so I'm trying  to strategize about

how to answer that. 
Shorter lines is
what oranges say.
New sunflower balm

In the upper ionosphere
the outer plenosphere
the distal amalgamosphere
the vinegaric balsamosphere

Anway, what? Who did
No you
I never
That can't be

Hi Mom, yes I do, is there 
something the matter?
Sorry I didn't answer
yesterday afternoon, I was 

at work when your text 
came and I forgot to come 
back to it. We're driving to 
Pennsylvania but not until 

tomorrow morning early. 
Weather should be blown
over by then (rather than
overblown, which it sounds 

like it has been on TV). 
That last line could have 
used some rephrasing anyway
I hope she finds it all 

funny and okay, and 
Did you ever see the show
Community? It's pretty good
and the people on it are 

funny, and the writing is
strong, and it's one of the
most universally beloved 
television shows of the late 00s

and early 10s. Similarly, 
Radiohead's OK Computer is 
one of the finest albums of the 
1990s, a decade known for 

prosperity, stability, lurking terror, 
postmodern normalcy, hot pink(s), 
flannel, ska revival(s), Spike Lee, 
Super Nintendo, and I just literally

sent an emoticon to my mother
which I hope was an okay thing
to do in late capitalism okay
Noam Chomsky?  :-)

Master and Commander was not the worst movie
Thor was the worst movie.
Superman I was also the worst. 
The worst movie ever was Moulin Rouge

The best movie was Le Grognement Vert.
You probably haven't ever seen it. 
You wouldn't know the director. 
She's an obscure French director. 

The worst poet is: I daren't say. 
Probably the one who has done the most harm. 
In which case, who shall throw the first stone, 
when harm is to be avoided so scrupulously by the poets? 

She was there in the garden of Eden
before Eve and she was the only Muse
to have escaped oblivion and 
she left it up to you

She ungrafted her knuckle and unmolded
The plastic attachment and in 
Every sense she was returning
To her made (maiden) state in the garden 

It will be only knuckles when
The end comes, what 
Else will remember and
What will it remember, there will be nothing

I can feel your hand and your knuckles
What a surprise
That knuckles
Can serve (as) the whole of love

As if a perfume manufacturer
Was in and out of business
So you could not establish a year
Based on what scent was on the air

Or loss of taste or smell
As if food suddenly 
Had no odor and no
Associations with anyone

A google image search
to find out what 
a word means and 
what it means is memory loss

The churning of feeling as will 
No, the sense of smell
Or that which is half-transient
And the other half merely resolving

Into that spent feeling
Knowing one's life essentially over
The elan and gratuity, happiness, the "etoile"
and sadness, the love and the marching

Who will it be left up to
The fingers fit the handle, fit the strings
Fit the keyboard and the fretboard, 
The fingers fit the haft of the chisel and chunk the rot out

Ten piano manufacturers vie for the love of one mysterious spirit
The only one of the muses to have escaped the oblivion which claimed her sisters
And with the sadness of her heart she leaves it to these men and women to 
roll time backwards with their music and of course it doesn't work

Molded in plastic or ready to be unmolded it makes no difference
Plastic isn't the right material and can't be held in the head
It costs thousands of dollars and still doesn't come out right, 
its tuning mechanisms are warped and unrepairable

And that she will take my arms off to hug me
Just to hug me and put my arms back on
The way that love is formatted is astounding
Which make me wonder what my assumptions were

Where will I find an out of tune piano
Unless it is all I can listen to 
Just an upright in the middle of the street
With the double yellow line cutting it through the heart

There's no reason for it not to make sense until it doesn't
Except a faltering of the mind and a slipping into Alzheimer's or worse
Or the partitioning of the mind's memory into today and Yesterday
Capitalized so that it can carry a measure

All who fall into oblivion carry a measure of thinness until it's gone
This is a true sentence that can be verified by a single run of six notes
The notes ascend an arpeggio and slightly return it's melody + harmony
It's simple and poignant and makes sense until it doesn't

All who fall into oblivion carry a measure of thinness until
until it's gone carry a measure of thinness until
a measure of thinness until 
thinness until it's gone <--okay slightly too John Taggart

Are all who fall into oblivion
as mesmerized as me by the flattening of a cardboard tube into 
a memory of its texture and its resiliency oh I forgot when it was
that I flattened the cardboard tube

By the way the Bat For Lashes thing fell through
not because I didn't like her music, I did
I just started doing something else and now it's days later
And here now, we meditate on forgetfulness, and oblivion

That two notes are all that are required
to make a melody. Ligeti or Main Theme
from soundtrack to "Eternal Sunshine"
Oh I remember the ability to cry while watching a movie

Don't be careful, not careful
or careful enough, cut key
cut soprano keyboard together
Oh yeah? Oh yeah.

Please know that I am listening to Bat For Lashes for the first time
while I write this and perhaps a dozen stanzas above. I have long admired the name of this band, 
thinking (perhaps not incorrectly, on first listen) that anyone inventive enough
to name anything Bat For Lashes must be capable of SOMETHING audible. 

Oh awareness of moment
That the fingers
To say knuckles
Get October mixed

When really it is
Pineapple juice
And the regards of
an unassuming pumpkin

or cat are found 
insufficient unless direct
directed at
and I mean beamed at, from the face-disk,

my knee or forehead
as in sunshine
as of sunshine or sunflower
and now you know that

I imagine a great photograph
of sunflower vs. lollipop
which shall adorn my next books
each a self-reflecting sequel

I'll find a way not to write them
I'll find a way for pinball to write them
so that I can play pinball in peace
There is no place on facebook for pinball

The opposite of facebook is pinball
And the opposite of museum is sleep
And the opposite of pineapple is dorodango
and this is going poorly and I scratch out what I write

The genuine thrill of a failed google search
(in this case for a word, cassowarial, of or relating to the cassowary
which I am evidently the first to coin, as google shows no results)
slumping into the disappointing reflex of maybe announcing it on facebook.

I went to high school once and that was enough
and that is why I'm unbranding myself
I saw a popular kid pretend to kiss a girl in high school once and then revealing the fakery
They should make that the logo of facebook

It is as though facebook blue
is the number one name of a child
Don't worry, Charlie Brown, on facebook
there is no place for you

Facebook is a gentrified spam.
Facebook is a line around the block 
leading into a bureaucrat's office and
the oil painting on his wall is of you beheading yourself.

Two poems point at each other: 
One says "Documentary" and points
at the other which says "Conceptual" and points back.
Someone posts a breathy commentary about them on facebook.

If facebook could melt down its users into 
anonymized goo, as sex and music do, 
I'd stay, guaranteed. But the wallpapering of
a pseudo-individuality over every square inch of one's soul, well,

It's that facebook seems to have given me an unrealistic idea.
I stare at my hands and wonder if this is life, and am I alive, and that
I do not care for. 
The "likes" and "comments" and "statuses" of others.

Yes it has finally come to an end with me and facebook. 
Not the straw that broke the camel's back
but the fellow poets who finally turned the camel 
into a snake's newfound wisdom: sidewinding.

Facebook, friends, is boring. We must not say so. 
Facebook friends ARE boring. That's better. 
A stack of pink pieces of paper is amusing to no one but me. 
There is no one I resemble better than blank pieces of paper.

Of a wiry device made music
They sing without end only listening
And the listening the music made
Braided in with the cochlear nerves

I hear bells and with words inside them
I ring out, no the sound's in my veins
Combine and control the vibrations
There are wires that result from music

Case in point I'm learning violin
I should restructure, re-twist the twist-tie
All heaven knows music's stanzaic double-self
Case in point I'm learning violin

"2001" is a pinball machine
by Gottlieb, produced in 1971
Obvious elements of its
artwork include bright colors

and fantastical characters arranged
in sci-fi poses. In its
way it is meant
to be taken as an

oblique reference to the
movie "2001: A Space Odyssey," 
the assumption in 1971 being
largely the same as today

namely that dullards will mistake
anything for anything and since
the movie 2001 was popular the
assumption must have been that

the machine would be a 
big money maker, and it
is true that the oblivion
of one human soul

does not for long or to 
any great degree diminish 
the human race. "2001" features
20 drop targets, which is considered

a lot of drop targets
even for machines in those 
days. The drop targets
are configured in 4 banks 

of 5 targets each. Each bank
of targets gets its own 
color. The colors are red
blue green and yellow. 

Don't quote me on that. 
My memory isn't what it 
used to be. There are five
kickout holes, two pop bumpers

4 slingshots, 20 drop targets, 
at least four standup targets,
2 flippers (2" length, among
the last machines made 

with flippers of the shorter
2" length), two inlanes, 
two outlanes, one player 
scoring. When you drop

all of the drop targets
in 1 colored bank, a 
very wonderful 4-sided
"star card" in the backglass

lights. When you light
three of the four "star cards,"
the "Special" is lit, somewhere
on the playfield (I don't

know the game well enough
yet to know where). The 
Special awards a replay. 
Gottlieb made an equivalent 

game, called "Dimension," 
which awards an extra ball 
for a Special instead of a 
replay. This was due to the

laws that were in place
in 1971, whereby pinball
was considered a form of
gambling if another game

was awarded. Like I said, 
anything could be mistaken
for anything. Still can. The
fingers of the man do not

know themselves suddenly. 
He stares up through 
his eyelids. He has just 
executed a man who 

thought he was a police
officer. The dead man said
"in here," and the assassin
walked in there and 

with a silenced pistol
shot him in the head, saying
"bang" as he did so but not
very loudly. The police 

hadn't come yet but they 
were on their way and
the assassin had to act 
fast, retrieving the manila

folder from the dead man's
grasp. His memories, even the 
ones most  important to him,
spilled out and evaporated

like a blue fog that was
computer generated as his
armor clattered about him
and his teeth sank into the 

dust and the darkness over
took his eyes and the sun 
was forever shielded from 
his gaze and his card was 

flipped face up on the small
tidy table of a shadow 
bureaucrat in a land where a
cold blue computer generated

sunshine drenched the front
half of a red moon in the sky
over the fields of dead sunflowers
and insanely complex wailing music

which would turn a living person
into a bat but no living people
ever ended up there. The bureaucrat
flipped cards all day long.

The artwork on "2001"
features a psychedelic nowherescape
arranged as a not very veiled
reference to the colorful time tunnel

in the sequence at the end of 
the movie. It is 4-sided on the 
game but otherwise let's be 
honest in 1971 a colorful tunnel

free of any other 
context is a bang-on reference
to the movie
I must insist. 

There is no indication
that Kubrick ever 
played pinball on 
"2001" or that he

was any fan of 
pinball at all but
it should be 
noted that there

is also in existence
a pinball machine called
"Space Odyssey" and 
the two together 

are exhibits A & B 
in my case that the
zeitgeist as measured
by pinball designs 

was all about the 
craaaazy movie 2001
man. One wonders though
about a lot of those old

games, like how did
they come up with
the designs for 
them? The banal sentences

they must have uttered 
are almost matched in
banality by these
which are merely filling space

but one must remember
that in recombination
the old familiar colors red green blue yellow
may or must return into birds of paradise.

Who even says frame-up, or said
I never said it was a frame-up
No one says it's a frame-up
When in a way it's a frame-up

In its way
It holds causation
At bay then 
Caps the lock

& the troglodytic
free-fall inside
eyelid w/ or w/ out
parachute, parachutism.

I asked her, when her hearing started coming back,
to write down everything -- strikes me now
how unquestioningly I felt that her writing it
would help me to feel it, to have the 

experience of music again after decades of 
no music, which I couldn't imagine. She said
that she would write it all down, was very excited
but never wrote a word. How could she -- what word? 

I sent her a half dozen youtube videos of 
favorite songs. A small mud moon -- 
they never had to send men up in search 
of liquid water. I whistle a melody to myself

hoping that no one else overhears. 
There are people near but when I whistle
I hope that they're otherwise occupied
or are out of earshot so that my whistling goes

I've been accumulating some things to say
in a public way but decided to put them here instead
where nobody will ever have to see them. 
I don't know what a writer is anymore 

nor if I am one, but whatever it is 
I'm no longer interested in most of what you people are doing
and if it burns to the ground I wouldn't try to stop it. 
One gets the sense that one's selves even

have all succumbed to some sort of 
unspoken decision.... keep it here,
keep the person standing, keep him looking
and noticing. There's a snail, see 

the way in which it does not prance,
take care to exist next to the yellow into 
black of the spiral of its growth.
What is its shell, to it? And what is language, 

that you are a mind full of it? 
Tricked and thrown down, tricked and thrown down 
by the games of destroyers of the living. 
Write in blood on a wall or not at all.

How to write POETRY CRITICISM (2013)
1. Decide in whatever way suits one's self best
what one believes to be true 
about POETRY CRITICISM (2013).

2. State one's beliefs on the internet -- the more assertive, the better.
Available fa&ccedil;ade topics include "the self" and "the demands of the times."
Optional bonus: reference other people's POETRY CRITICISM (2013) 
as either support for one's argument or grist for one's mill.

3. Read other POETRY CRITICISM (2013),
keeping an eye out for
further argumentative support and/or
grist for one's mill.

4. Go
to
step
1.

Reed music when 
sunlight ribbons stiffen into
water's edge reeds 
combing the eyes

and the bright 
egrets and exceptions,
the places where the bodies
bury, the watery

what, fugue-states? Oh, I doesn't
survive so circus prevailing
is absorbing and colorful. 
Pinball too! People who 

call needles and razors
"sharps" well they don't
factor in. Well we'll 
do some other songs then. 

How bout a John
Lennon tune I'll get 
the slapback effect going
There there. It's on on. 

Test Test. Instant Karma ma. 
Ha! Ha! That's good good. ♪♫ Gonna getchu chu
♫ ♪ Gonna slap you right on the wrist wrist
♪♫ Better recognize nize okay forget it it. Turn it off off.

They waited on this side for the explorers to come back
but they did not come back. Their instruments which
would have reported back whether they survived intact,
or were vaporized, instead communicated nothing at all. 

The no-signal limbo was not accounted for beforehand.
The project lead wandered out into the hallway after 18 hours
and down to the octagonal room by the elevators
and saw on the monitor that it was raining outside.

Caffeine, huh? Caffeine and a song 
on the head loop
("Hallelujah" and may the generations forgive it)
(I mean as songs go it's an obvious one)

(singing in praise of things and their maker 
in spite of seventeen verses worth of 
adverse circumstances but hey it's not mine to further digress)
Hallelujah

the head loop
the heart blank staff paper bristling with questions
the arms braced and the legs armed
to absorb and clothe the perceptible world in gummy love,

the gummy aftermath of the rainstorm, hallelujah.
In praise of the powers that be as I wish they were.
The me, the bitter arbiter. 
How can he sing this? It's a lie. 

There are no such restrictions -- neither can you pray a lie. 
The heavenly father knows the confusions of your heart Hallelujah. 
I do not believe. Hallelujah. 
Is it a misreading

of the song if Hallelujah
is all that's remembered?
Articulate here
all the things I'd howl

on facebook but don't
and then forget instants
after logging out,
thoughts drowned in 

a lack of thinking,
a glazed over pachinko mind
but silent, silend,
numb to mind. 

Awake at 35 and 
realize for the first time
there are plenty of ways
music doesn't matter

but the foremost is 
that the taste has gone
out of life, the 
tang of every day with

its harsh and unman
ageable raw nerve
and so the sound
of that sour lemon

sweet lemon is not needed,
soundtrack not needed
and anyway they could be 
my children who listen to 

this shit what is this who
thought this garbage was
good music. 
I should show you Brendan's 

map of the Star Trek galaxy.
You'd not keep
your mind.
Here is a scanned copy.

It's the maw of madness, 
innit? It's worse than 
a HTMLgiant comments thread.
Wouldn't it be awesome to 

never have to read HTMLgiant comments
again wouldn't it Gertrude.
Wouldn't it be so, and wouldn't it
be soon, and wouldn't a calm coffee

arrange serrated perforations in a grand bowl.
Here's a secret: I once wrote a string of profanities
(not much of a secret so far)
and submitted it to a small informal contest

at a bar
, a contest whose theme 
was "writing like Gertrude
Stein." This was in 

college. The entries were all
to be read out loud, 
for fun. Well mine was skipped
and I think I offended 

the person whose idea the 
contest was. Rightly so?
It really is hard to say. 
The pottymouth books of Gertrude Stein

never made the same ripples. 
Do you shit dog shit do you.
That kind of thing. Actually
that's more inventive than what I 

put in my contest entry.
Less puerile.
Puerility, America! Mothereffin puerility. 
Another funny thing, I think so anyway,

I told Oni that Schooners in Hull MA
should change its name to Horrible 
Greasy Glop, Not Food, Terrible,
Terrible, Don't Eat Here. 

Kind of funny? Context is important. 
You had to be there (Schooners), 
but I'm recommending that you don't.
What else is there to talk about. 

The Road is pretty bleak. You could 
say this is one of those books that's
measured on a scale of incontrovertibility
rather than good/bad. I feel the same way

about Dracula (Bram Stoker, 18??). Listen
while I prattle on without end. What is it
Williams says in Asphodel? Something 
too elegant for the public domain

I reckon. Let me go look it up. Yeah
I was right. That poem is one of my
favorites, yall. Listen, he says. 
Listen. To sing to you.

The song offered between the
tips of the fingers of 
the held-out hand, 
the crook in the arm. 

The weight of the body 
shifted to the front foot, 
or held equally between? 
It's no Hallelujah, that song

of kneeling barely unbeheaded behind 
the second-to-last railway stop back from hell
but still within hell's boundaries. 
Wholly credible. Love. Not the whole world

but one's one whole world, one person,
such a one. The one and only. 
A very special pig,
unique as a melody.

What good is a poem under those circumstances. 
None. We would be better off 
growing our garden and sitting together on the porch 
in the gathering cresting lightning storm.

We should drop the poems where they are,
let them thump against the lawn or sidewalk. 
No more of this shaping down, this glazing,
this fiberglassing, this dorodango. 

Let's let it be fun all the time. 
Well that side's got some merits
but I need her poems, too...so. 
Salsa, chips, chimichanga, lettuce, tomato, margarita. I bet I can talk her into

Mexican food tonight. You guys, I did! 
It was okay. We went to La Paloma 
on Hancock in Quincy, MA, 
just like the founding fathers intended.

Caffeine caffeine O my lovely caffeine
Candy and Caffeine
Chinese noodles and caffeine
Spark gaps and caffeine

Now I'm reading The Road by Cormac McCarthy.
It's the summer of McCarthy I guess. 
So far as compared to No Country for Old Men
There's a lot less "He got the gun out of the bag

and waited for a long time and then he went to the window and
looked out and then he put the gun back in the bag and then he 
thought for a while and picked up the keys and hid the bag
under the mattress and went out and closed the door."

Last summer or maybe two summers ago it was the summer of Devo. 
Must be two ago. I don't know what it was the summer of
last summer. Let's talk about trash time. Time that is garbage. 
Do you consider a silent period trash time. 

Do you like to write your questions like statements, are you 
Gertrude Stein are you. Do you think you ought to be writing more?
Or less? What are you doing now? Is what you're doing now writing? 
Or are you just filling up space? What's the difference? 

Surely there has been a difference before but what is it now? 
How many of your ideas about writing have been given over to 
what you see or think you see people doing on facebook?
What makes you think those people have anything to do with your writing?

Is it possible that some notions about community,
and let's be clear here, some not very flattering notions,
have emerged from your near-daily monitoring of the meta-poetry activity
on facebook (that is to say, announcements about books and readings,

announcements about publications, stray thoughts about other people's books,
conversations about poetics, etc, none of which is bad or necessarily ugly
(though it can be), where am I and what am I talking about,
Is it possible that you see people doing this shit on facebook

to the total disregard of that other activity, 
the writing of poetry, the daring approach oh well. 
Everything takes forever. I need to re-learn from my 22-year-old 
not very bright self who at least had his eyes fixed on his prey

such as it was then. So what is it now? 
Well what do you think about when 
you have nothing to think about?
Is it trash time? 

Only three hundred more lines to go I know I can make it!
Poetry criticism is like hot dogs, 
in that it's made out of the worst parts of the poem. 
I suppose that means that poetry is the living animal

and the preferred way to consume it is dead, professionally
butchered, in whole steaks not too big,
stock made of the bones and tail, 
boots and belt made of the hide, etc.

I saw an electrical conduit this morning
splattered against the tunnel cut wall 
by my eye, where my eye had been,
the curdled lightning of the night before. 

This morning I was reading My New Job by Catherine Wagner
who is called Cathy by everyone but her book cover. 
Splendid book and full of good cheer, the more 
cheerful for not being precious at all moments. 

The beach of the world that the eye fly flying out 
into the mirror could be the ocean to. That's one of her images,
compressed till you can't read it. Could you read the original? 
Not on this website! I suggest you stop what you're doing

and go pick up her book, and Paul Killebrew's, and 
No Country For Old Men by Cormac McCarthy which I also just read. 
There's your summer reading list, a perfectly reasonable one.
Also just getting into Laura Mullen's Dark Archive, which is so far

as jumpy, subtle, & attentive as she's ever been. 
We have a toad who lives on the walk in front of our house. 
We see him on the sidewalk at night, 
and during the day we don't see him

or know where he goes. He has a pattern
of spots on his back but we see him in the dark
and he doesn't like to be looked at
so we never discern or commit to memory 

our friend's pattern. We try not to scare him 
away. We don't want to walk on him. We can 
only do right by him by doing nothing, by
letting him be. We would be disimproving his life

if we did anything else "for" him. "Shoppers, 
everyone loves products that save you time
and money. Now, Forever stamps from the Postal Service
and Stop & Shop deliver that value. Forever stamps

are always good for First Class postage, 
regardless of future increases. Pick some up 
at the checkout stand today, and thank you for 
shopping at Stop & Shop." She dabbles in 

dumpy, juvenile mustard. She paints in a frowny,
childish mustard. Her medium's growth, unchecked 
but uninspired, one might even say stunted, is
mustard yellow. She squirts out big blops of mustard

on medium sized sheets of paper 
and hangs them wet 
so the gallery floor is stained and begins to smell of mustard
and continues, and the smell is hard to get rid of. 

The gallery agreed to it because of her fame. 
Not knowing what else to do they turned to 
a hot dog vendor. They parked him in the vestibule
and what he makes is made out of the worst parts of art. 

You guys I've been writer's blocked
but I think it's a coffee thing. Plus
I don't have any sense that a poem 
would do anybody any good. I think

a live poem would be good, rather than 
pre-recorded. Let's get to work on that, 
poets! Bowtie
untie.

Let's have it be filibuster
Let's filibuster it all night long
Girl
Let's put some luster in this filibuster

And let's put some lust in yer luster
Buster
Well anyway.
These lamentations 

about the state of poetry, about its tragic decline,
just aren't what they used to be.
I think what's missing in all these lamentations
is talent, ambition, and that all important

"something to say," 
oh end of all things go easy on us. 
Right, Mark Edmundson? 
ACTUALLY what's most missing from any of these lamentations

(at least the ones I've read) is the sense that the author
has digested any contemporary poetry at all
much less anything written by young poets. 
Why waste everyone's time lamenting what's missing

from contemporary poetry when those exact qualities,
those specific poetic strategies,
are so clearly in evidence in the work of any number
of young poets. I could list twenty or more,

all women, all ferocious and dazzling and white hot
all inspiration and insight. All running
lightning circles around
your sad browned sausage turd exemplar Tony Hoagland. 

Seriously, that's who "gets down in it" or whatever? 
He's at the top of my list of poets I don't want to grow up to be.
Seidel is further down -- there would be some serious
modifications to the program, if I drifted that direction.

But if I started to drift towards Hoagland I think I'd
just throw myself off a boat or something. Let's go 
off talking of Devo all night. Let's be you
to me, both of us. Nah, let's let Devo be.

Let's take it two steps further
In that to sing on behalf of oneself only
Requires a commitment to a comprehensibility
That squares both with the modern sense of self,

That stable and isolated thing, that tide pool
Unwilling to join the ocean. And let us acknowledge
That to sing on behalf of the ocean, 
Of the shared mass, the waves and currents

And depths, the monsters, the truths, 
Well it will require a different commitment. And here
I will refer the reader to the lyrics of the song
"Gates of Steel," by Devo, from their album

"Freedom of Choice," Warner Bros. records, 1980. 
What I am saying is that a poetry of the self is myopic,
And I'm saying it in a straightforward way because I'm trying to fill up stanzas
And I'm also trying to forestall any sort of epiphany

Or even emotional investment here. I mean this thing goes on 
I'm just putting in the time.
Here's another meaningless line
Meaninglessly I circle back around to a lazy rhyme. 

I have to admit that I admire the book Ethical Consciousness
by the poet Paul Killebrew. I actually missed my train stop
because I was engrossed in his poem "Muted Flags." 
I got off at the correct stop plus one, crossed the platform, 

kept reading until the retrograde train came
and hopped on and kept reading until back at the correct stop
I got off and walked home. Thanks, Paul! Totally on a first-name
basis with the guy, now that his explorations of consciousness

are so deeply invested with the shared,
with the flow, 
with the inter-state commerce, 
he can't help it. Good on you, Paul! Your book is really good. 

Howie says that the self is real
Laura says you have to write about politics
John says he aims to justify the ways of God to men
Oni says it's about the material, and what the words say

Trey says a lot of baffling and contradictory things I keep thinking about
Ian says he's never known something so whole that it was true
Patrick says he's distracted and is reading a Beefheart biography
Pete says that we must put our trust in the Lord

Kenneth says one train may hide another 
Bertrand says Principia Mathematica Till the Break of Dawn
Gertrude says I am your greatest living poet
Marvin says Let's Get It On (Tamla Records, 1973)

Jon says blood is too easily washed off of walls for writing
but that on the other hand its stain on the mind's eye is indelible. 
I'm inclined to believe him. Enough blood to write something with. 
(could give that much)

Tonia says she has filmed the Jesus lizard 
running across the surface of the water. 
Tobias says some interesting things about research
and he seems like the kind of person who gets animals,

both vertebrates and invertebrates, lodged in his beard.
He is down in the muck of science. We should trust him. 
Tobias for President 2016. Sails, trees, birds, poles,  
capes, wands, flourishes, pikestaves, banners,

bushes, flowers, winds, clouds, sunsets, 
bamboo rods, isometric perspectives, circular cutouts, 
cards, stems, chicks, balustrades, snowflakes, 
pinwheels, underwater waves, blacknesses, 

vines, starbursts, bandages, trunks, peonies. 
You can see mossy umbrellas bobbing through the streets
disappearing in the sunshine, evaporating amid a weariness
of poetries which gives out and is absorbed by the earth. 

No I think the discourse of and around poetry is tired and myopic. 
I think we've bartered away eternity for a 
million tiny securities
a pile of rice

Forget yourself and remember to have fun
Always remember when the going gets tuff
You never have to worry you're tuff enuf
Never remember yourself, forget yourself

But remember to have fun tho, that's the
That's really the secret, and no ego bro
Don't take it personally, just have funs
And always remember to chill. Take it EZ

Remember that your castle is the red one
And that you have to shoot at the blue 1
Then you'll always know that yourself is
What you have to forget to have had fun.

You might fool yourself but you don't fool me.
(Excoriation #1) You might be able to fool you
to fool yourself but you don't fool me. You're
fooling to yourself but there's no fooling me.

You have ears, you should listen -- don't your
ears enable you to hear yourself? (EXCORRR #2)
You can hear other people with those ears, how
can it be that you don't hear your own words??

That trash you threw on the ground is exactly,
EXACTLY my opinion of you (excoriation #three)
When I see you litter, it's like you're litter
It's like you are the trash you're dropping...

(Excoriation #4) Vanity! As though it's an act
for a shampoo commercial that isn't being shot
The way you flip your hair around, the vanity,
you seem to think there's a shampoo commercial

You're insulated from the consequences of your
actions, which makes you a coward (excoriation
#5 of 5). Take responsibility for what you do,
coward! You never will have to do so, coward!!

"Habble gabble" was his answer, 
equal to the deathlike silence
which sat stabbed
by yuccas & primaeval question marks

These days it seems like you can get anything on demand
Never go to the post office again! And now, Spotify 
listeners get a free offer something something
okay. okay. okay. okay.

Spent is equal
to carved into rock 
surface
vertically (vertical

surface). Consider
the humble pinball 
machine surface -- 
where is its surface? 

Its orientation is portrait not landscape
but it subject is neither portrait nor landscape. 
And one looks down into it rather than forward at it. 
It is not a matter of panning from side to side

It does not pan through time or space
Time passes through it
Time is measured by a reflective sphere
and the trails it does not leave

Time is perforated by disappearance
and reappearance. It is a reflecting
pool with a subject moving through it.
Spent cf Rosemarie what's her name's 

pinball machine drawings. These 
are meant I think as co-extensive
with her videogame long-exposure images
& carnival ride drawings

but in reality their difference
is illustrated in the order listed above:
descending, by unpredictability.
You do not care

The tiny smoking ankh
passes invisibly back and forth
from forehead to forehead
while yet their lyric thoughts last.

Nobody knows what the ankh was except it turned into a word. 
The sistrum is depicted clearly enough
that the sound it made can be reconstructed. 
I have no interest in lyric thoughts

except when I am audiorecording cars
car tires on the highway
cars pass from left to right
in the earphones. Lyric thoughts contain

plucked banana strands
flipped carelessly trashcanward
while boiled kitchentimers
dry sadly in the basement boo hoo boo hoo hard day slapstickmostly.

Boo hoo hoo hoo
Ba ta ta ta
Bee zee zee zee
Lyric thoughts made [nulled] of surf guitars

Lyrick Thoughts of cars
bent into aluminum foil shapes of same. 
If I could make a pyramid of foil
I could drive toward it for days

"The horizon of Khufu" orchestra
buried alongside
(pit)
At Advance Auto Parts, we believe

Fast! cause that's just how we roll
Now get up to $30 bucks back by mail
when you purchase]] oh Gourd
60 Hz buzz which is someone else's decision

60 Hz buzz about which lyric thoughts
build drumstick castles & crack seashell
radio drifts in half yielding sweet
post minimalist tones peach scented.

Reorientation! or coast forever nowhere
Ship of Fools, Ship of Lyric Thoughts. 
Reorient! Twist away the nets of being,
the gates of steel

Allow vibration to pass through
Allow folly & wisdom
Both forbidden in this empire
*Boing*

*Fweet* *Honk*
party-time yeah man ha ha dude what the
*Thurd* oh Santa you shouldn't'a
call the cops

blame the geographer.
Send back the cork-puller-shaped thoughts
to the assistant manager,
Jonathan Richman who is time's baby boy.

The measure of time is music for fading out.
Try one of the hundreds of thousands of titles
available at audible.com, an amazon company.
The measure of the measure! How arrogant

are the lyric thoughts. Go get them
and stuff them in drunken tubes
with no squirty out outlets,
no sprinkle beams O you lyric thoughts, 

you cooped up now. You cooped
but good. Stay now. 
Fixion. And no lyric
on Easter neither.

The constancy of online
makes the poem impossible?
The welter of the fine
makes the waffaffle awfawful?

"What is the working title of the book?" Well you're
going to find out how reluc
tant maybe how recalci
trant a partici

pant I am in this, though not averse to
foolery clearly. I know the working title
but I am not going to tell you.
Don't talk about it

is don't talk about it. The muse
dries up if I talk, says first thought
best thought, which I suppose means that
the oasis disappears and the

reflection with it, as well as a sort of
unavoidable sexual dimension which might
be apt I don't know. Shut up, me! Why do I
prattle? "Where did the idea come from for the book?"

Well, I would correct you and say "ideas" or "images" or....
but I'll refer you to my previous answer
about not talking about it. "What genre
does your book fall under?" Poetry broadly.

"What actors would you choose to play the parts
of your characters in a movie rendition?" I would choose
Gary Oldman to play the people and Bruce Willis
to play the pharaoh, and Uma Thurman to play

the people's body parts and ribs. Oprah
will be the undyingness of the pyramids. Bill Murray as himself. "What
is the one sentence synopsis of your book?" No I won't answer
that question either.

"How long did it
take you to write
the first draft of
the manuscript?"

I have yet to write it. "Who
or what inspired you to write this book?"
Four people or more, and several events.
"What else about your book might pique the reader's interest?"

The trumpets of the angels begin as
long straight and fast scritches
across a canvas which at some point
begins to contain space behind them.

The trumpets of the angels contain a noise
as well as adding to it, a general
confusion, battle sounds. Their swords,
the same. The clash of them on

the scales and shields of the fallen angels
who are changing from angel into reptile
and fish. The column of chaos and confusion
descending from heaven, a falling and a

pursuit, figured in dozens of different
kinds of configurations of space. How
do we do away with all of it? It makes so
much sense. How to see through it? Why

the impulse to see through it? Why
see both sides of it? Why love, the
insistence of love, the rejection of
the oblivion horizon the picture represents?

God, drivinten thavex, 
drivivine mat of the 
strastic poes Art, dark 
to survin unsurvine 

medium of their nicithe 
witself, drivivable, ity; 
God, con: their Ab-humanith 
love me we cont or mediu

mat whicith like people ity; 
God, ets back 
at unsurvivable 
wits we spelf, evex, et of to 

speople anity; Humanism or 
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In the end, if this is to be Moby Dick
which it emphatically is not
there must be some metaphysics and invocations 
of darker and lighter magics, along with the mechanical

mundane. Very well. The repair process is one of plodding 
and pinpointing, of methodical elimination of possible causes 
for undesired effects, while gameplay is all intuition, 
which leaves very few traces of itself. 

I should (maybe) clean, sand, prime, and repaint
the metal trim around the glass (maybe). This falls
into the realm of aesthetics, and it's hard to know
if the machine wants that or just to play perfectly.

The hundreds digit (I believe) in player 2 or 3 
sticks between 5 and 6. The thousands digit in 
player 4 does not increment when the hundreds digit
surpasses 9 (a sad state of affairs for player 4!)

Occasional minor problems with scores not tallying correctly.
Occasional minor problems with lit insets in playfield
causing ball to roll weirdly (steeper angle has improved this).
Occasional minor problem with Sneaky Joe gate opening stiffly.

And, one of the two lamps in the left slingshot
flickers when anything in the game draws current
(flippers, bumpers, scores, etc). The other lamp there
glows much more dimly than any others in the game.

I also need to figure out why
the game gives 5 balls whether
a 3 or 5 ball game is selected 
(one of the jones plug options behind the coin box).

Maybe I'll have to clean and replace
the front leg levelers. One of them is
maybe too rusty to continue using. 
But it would be nice to have them.

I will need to clean the score wheels,
as well as the credit wheel 
in the backbox. This should be easy, 
and should not require any disassembly.

At some point I will also be attempting
to remove a rather unfortunate coat of house paint
which is obscuring the cabinet art
or so I hope -- I don't know if the art's still there. 

I should fix the loose wire in the back. 
Maybe clear-coat the backglass 
to prevent any future flaking
(there are networks of cracks & a few small holes).

What else is left to do?
I should rebuild all three pop bumpers, 
or at the very least check & tighten up
two of them (left & right; center's ok).

Oh also, almost the last thing I did so far,
I wired power to the hi-tap lug. This has 
definitely juiced the game up! It's really
fast and snappy right now.

However, the credit unit in the back
has a wire loose, does not decrement, 
and appears to stick at position 10. 
Considering getting it working properly.

A previous owner 
routed around the 
coin door. This should
probably not be messed with.

I bought a new fuse holder set
but I haven't been able to muster
the enthusiasm to de-solder and 
re-solder all of those connections.

I fixed a problem with one of the 
fuse holders which was way crazy out of 
alignment and cutting off juice to the lights.
I jammed a nail sideways under it. 

I also removed one of the wire gate parts
(not the coil or the shaft) entirely
and cut off an unnecessary coily part
which was impeding game play. 

The gates shuttle the ball 
into different lanes, so if they are
out of alignment the game's behavior
is weird, and/or it looks funny.

I checked alignment on 
all six of the game's gates. 
Most of them didn't need it
but on some it was necessary.

I have not yet replaced the majority
of the bulbs, nor have I properly cleaned
and waxed the playfield. 
That could be a big job.

I inspected the zipper flipper mechanism.
I do not know how much play in the 
mechanism is considered normal. It 
would seem none would be ideal. 

I also replaced and adjusted the 
end-of-stroke switch on both 
solenoids; I believe it was 
causing a flutter in the left flipper.

I rebuilt both of the flippers,
installing new coils as well as all new
moving parts. I re-positioned the 
flipper bats -- they are now symmetrical.

This was causing some wire or other to pull
when the playfield was raised. Snipping the
zip-tie I used for the bundle solved the problem.
I inspected the slingshot bumpers.

This will make the game faster. 
I also caused and subsequently fixed
a problem with the gate system. 
I had grouped three bundles of wires together.

I replaced only one bulb so far, an obvious
burn-out on the left side of the playfield. 
I removed the front leg levelers in order
to give the playfield a steeper pitch.

It was a small square plastic thing that 
clamped around the power cord and bit in,
allowing you to plug in another cord into it. 
What do you need to plug in, inside a pinball machine?!?!?

I removed the old power cord with the cracking insulation
and soldered in a new cord. I installed an external power
switch on the cord itself. The old cord had a vampire device
inside the cabinet of the machine.

In this case the switch was opening at
player three, breaking the circuit
to the unit. I spent a great deal of time
learning how to read a schematic.

The fix for that required a complete
cleanup of the coin unit. There is a switch
that normally opens when the unit transitions
from player three to player four.

I cleaned all the glass. I fixed
the right flipper button 
and adjusted the left flipper button.
Player four was not adding correctly.

The play-counter was not working. It was stuck
at 66120. I cleaned all of the score motor switches
and the play-counter started working again! 
There were no other consequences of that.

Unclipping the e-clip on the bottom 
of the button allowed it to be pulled
free. I then sanded inside the button hardware,
replaced everything, and moved to the next.

I fixed all of the rollover buttons
on the game. These were sticking 
in either the up or down position. 
I moved each button's switch aside. 

I sanded down a great many contacts
and adjusted a great many switches. 
I have tried to keep the game playable
throughout the entire process.

Of these, I was able to remove and replace
all but two of them. The two are stuck
and nothing short of I don't know what
will get them out of there.

I also inspected and adjusted all of the switches. 
Occasionally a screw would break off 
in the playfield when I tried to unscrew it. 
I think I broke six of them in total.

When taking a section of plastic off,
I cleaned the plastic itself 
and the area underneath, and the posts,
and I replaced the rubber rings. 

Anyway my account was of the past.
I wiped the playfield clean
here and there. I took parts off 
one by one and cleaned them. 

So there's that. There's a new problem where the game
turns off unexpectedly, either at the end of a game
(for the first time) in the middle. 
Not sure what to make of that. 

But the relay switch has two empty lugs.
Neither seems to have remnant solder attached,
nor does the one loose wire. 
One wire for two lugs -- you get the idea.

The problem is actually quite localized. 
There is one relay that sends a signal 
to one solenoid to reset one score wheel.
And there is a wire detached at that relay.

It turned out not to be the wire
which was causing the problem;
I only found this out later when I failed 
to provoke the problem by detaching the wire.

So that was the first issue 
that I was called upon to diagnose.
I reattached a wire temporarily,
holding it on with alligator clips.

When it arrived the lights lit
and the score motor would turn
and turn and turn
but nothing else would happen.

Where have I been
is not a question 
and the knowledge forms a beveled edge
as the code compiles

You count
under your body
your toe pads
stripes or knot holes,

carpet fibers. A traf
-ficky honking
doesn't reach
you

inside the bromeliad 
attended by mini-djinns
who wait
until you lick 

your eye. Only
blue skinned
ransoms
pay.

Ulterior motives
or do they possesses ulterior motives
or do they possessesses ulterior motives
or do they possesses ulterior motives

or do they possess random. 
We don't like random. 
We don't like random, I know
I know

I know it was Maya
and that things pass as all things pass
but they possess random, I know it was Maya
and that this world would pass as all things pass

but I thought it was Maya
and that things pass
but this world would pass as all things pass
but then I thought it was love

but I thought it was Maya
and that this world would pass
but then I thought it was love again
Random possess random, I know it was Maya

and that this world would pass as all things pass
but I thought it was Maya
and that then I thought it was love
but this world would pass as all things pass

but I thought it was Maya
and that this world would pass
but then I thought it was Maya
and that this world would pass

but then I thought it was Maya
and that this world would pass as all this 
world would pass as all things pass as all 
things pass as all things pass

but then I thought it was love again
Have I spoken to you about Neil Hamburger?
Random, I know it was Maya
and that this world would pass

but then I thought it was love again
and that things pass as all things pass
but I thought it was love again
We don't like random, I know

I know it was love
but I thought it was Maya
and that this world would pass as all things pass
but then I thought it was love again?

Random possess random, I know
I know it was love again Neil Hamburger?
Random possess random, I know
I know

I know it was love
but then I thought it was Maya
and that this world would pass as all things pass
but I thought it was love again

I know it was love again 
don't like random, I know
I know
I know it was love

but they posses ulterior motives
then I thought it was Maya
and that then I thought it was Maya
and that this world would pass

but I thought it was love again
and that this world would pass 
as all things pass as all this 
world would pass as all things pass

but then I thought it was Maya
and that this world would pass as all things pass
but they possesses ulterior motives
or do they possess random. 

We don't like random, I know
I know
I know it was love
but they possess random possess random, I know

I know
I know it was Maya
Have I spoken to you about Neil Hamburger?
Random possesses ulterior motives

I know it was love
but I thought it was Maya
and that this world would pass as all things pass
but then I thought it was love again

I haven't even begun to sing my song 
And already I forgot to go to the venefit concert
Things have been going fine
And the subtext to the whole thing is going fine

Tin Man is how we know what tin sounds like
And I haven't even begun to count to xlip
But I am already fond of New York City
Because it's Xlipmastime is here.

What is xlip? They found it
and based a calendar around it 
Oh California was clapping not me
Supervision. Was clasping not me

I finally found the jewellery for her
The inverted jewellery wasn't cause/effect
And the rocket thrusters fell way in pairs
While a monotone voice thought about what to say

You really have to select the right mic for yourself
Do you all know who the people are that are coming out?
It turned out it was your fault
I'm often not able to act out every scenario convincingly

I was honest with myself about it
and I reclosed the curtain quickly
Do you want to move down? 
Okay, next guest! 

We were up for days
Lettin' loose and having a good time & naked
And walking around. Not much going on
But there were people outside

You know, Panama. 
You know about it, Eddie Van Halen.
Parties are everywhere. 
I should find "Panama" on youtube. 

I do train people, a person
There are rails that I send him in circles around
Never had a problem with that
But the bottom comes up fast

I had a lot of sobriety
and I felt like I was back
Don Rickles felt like he was back
and we all had sake from bamboo boxes

Just stand up for half a second
Where are the other four
Let's look at them
He has a car, I don't have a car

I'm opening the show with a genius!
Welcome to the show and thanks for coming on.
There is a lot of applause
It's not Panama anymore

Maybe there is funny
Who knows what is funny
The movie "The Campaign," was that funny? (in places)
Is the post office a funny place? 

I can't wait to go out on stage! 
There is a series of ropes
Which constitute the physical aspect
And that has also been enjoyable

Just thought you should know what you have done. 
Let's have sincerity and brownies. 
We've been enjoying each other's company.
First of all,

Thank you very much! Oh, okay. Let's read.
Is it okay if this is a tender moment?
I am a big fan of the show.
So the teacher yanked away my ipod.

The Panamanian riots actually were not bad
They gave you a call and put you up
in a fancy hotel and you counted the hours
You were stuck in a chessboard

Nobody I loved, no, somebody disgusting
I held the trigger button down 
So the machine gun let it all loose
So this is your festival

No that file used to have stuff in it
When you swim you win. I'm not talking
to you from the stage no I'm coming 
down there hold still take a mic

Does anybody have any analysis for me?
How old are you? Somebody congratulate him. 
Why are you here? Go home, go to sleep.
There was a big candy spider

It was there being alive
Too many other bugs came down from the sky
Eating the textures from objects, so they
had no textures. yelling at me

The second draft is not going well
He brayed at me it's not done
Oh whoops I brayed at him. 
Dreams are not things to talk about

Heroic yoga
pitching spears through meditation
hopefully it will make my body look good
No I don't do yoga

No I know why you're here
he's not angry that's hilarious
right underneath the yoga is rage
I don't remember Pink Floyed anyway

We're going to show you some emotions now, okay? 
Are we ready? Our friend here is
going to demonstrate some emotions for you, 
and we're going to talk about happy,

sad, and scared, okay? Does that sound okay
to you? Okay, here we go. What does happy
look like? [...] Yes, that's happy! 
That's what happy looks like. 

Okay, now let's see what sad looks like.
[...] Yes, that's sad. Look at how our 
friend looks, he's very sad. Okay.
Now, let's see what scared looks like!

And thus saith the queen said the queen's liege
crumbs of dander bridgeman 
crubms of dadner brigdeman
And thus saith the queen said the queen's liege

Unsupported conclusions, rank untruths, 
Occluded memoranda, lies entire, 
Half-remembered whistles, rorschach words, 
Patent falsehoods, unclarity given phrase

Everywhere when the everywhere
galosh when they gather
gather when they galosh
speak speak truth truth

Tremendous, tremulous, absorbs, 
calls, begins, undoes, wanders, combs,
is, has, goes, spends, understands, 
pretends, caves, wends, builds,

O sire! Does the abhominable snow creature 
of the outland veldt 
send unto thee still his paintings
in tribute unto thee?

The black hole
at the center
of the sun 
eats ha

to the sun
and throw each
after the next
Write words 

on ha. Contribution
to human or 
ghost or goose,
to wit, 

That you put
ha after ha.
The ha-has are 
infected by

what most will 
consider to be
your greatest contribution.
Contribution ha.

Nobody will mind.
The gooses laugh
too. Causing a 
laughter accident

to happen, like
a big pileup. 
Unto a big
pileup. Being

hungry or laughing. 
Having a sense
of humor, but 
carrying it

to the opposite
extreme, so that 
nothing changes or
comes of

it. No hair, 
no exertion, no
speed. No Son's
intercession, no 

Father. No onlookers,
no cosmos. No 
middle. Searing monotony,
being absorbent, 

chloriney mind. Leaps, 
with leaps. With
known leaps, with 
the spider

jumps, and through
with the legs,
and to the 
doors opening

ckinto, with the
the
snake limbsicking, withe combinto, with
tion limbsnto, with

ticking, withe
snaticking, with
ticking, with the
tickinto, withe combscking, with th

th the combinatick
ticking, with
the
the limbsion lock

th the
tickination lockination lockinto, with
th
th the

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the combsbs, with the combinake limbs
ticking, withe limbination lockinto, withe limbination lock
th

tion lock
ticking, with
th
snake combs

ticking, with
tion lock
the
snake limbination lockinto, with

snake limbing, with the
snake limbsith
the
the limbsbsticking, with

seeking, caution 
ecstasy keyhole, with
the eyes forward, 
with the 

knees bent. You
when you lift 
& float &
old holes

the old old
holes. Throughout holes 
coughing light out
of the 

the old light 
out of holes
made of holes
coughing light

on a precipice
made of clouds
and you lift
when you

situate. Me (follow
me follow me) 
when all of 
the precursors

to flight take
life in a 
wheel that is
a wheel

I seize you
with liberties so
you were seized
with liberties

And in that
moment the angelic
combine of seize
with liberties. 

Tractor to mow
you down. Combine
gears harvesting and 
bundling with

liberties. Come to
me to the 
extinguishment to the
truth, hold

my hand and 
guide me through 
this. Gasp & 
extinguish, years 

and liberties. Towards
mission control, towards
golf course of
course, towards

oats & rice, 
cluster of berry
goodness, towards corn,
towards committee

thought, towards a 
simple sentence, towards
another spent casing
or uprooted

unbroken landmine, towards
send off, towards
unknown bend blend, 
towards sort,

owards Le Sacre du Printemps bendmine, towards Le Sacre 
du Printemps bend blend, towards sort, towards bendmine, 
towards bend blend off, towards sort, towards sort, towards 
Le Sacre du Printemps

unknown Le du Printemps bend blend blend, 
towards
towards
send blend, 

towards Le Sacre Sacre du Printemps
towards
unknown Le du Printemps bend blend, 
towards

send bend off, town landmine, 
unknown Le Sacre du Printemps sort, 
unknown Le Sacre du Printemps
unknown Le Sacre Sacre du Printemps ben landmintemps bend off, 

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unknown Le du Printemps blendmine, towards bend, 
send, 
towards sort, towards bend, towards bend, towards bend off, towards bend,

towards bend, 
send, towards
unknown Le Sacre du Printemps
unbrokend blend off, towards sort, ds Le du Printemps bend blend, 

town land blendmine, 
unknowards
towards Le Sacre du Printemps bend off, 
send off, towards sort, towards Le Sacre du Printemps bend off, 

towards bend, towards Le Sacre du Printemps
unknown Le du Printemps
unbrokend, 
towards sort, end blend off, towards Le Sacre Sacre du Printemps

unbroken landmintemps Le Sacre du Printemps Le Sacre du Prine, 
town land, towards bend, towards
send off, towards
send, towards sort, 

unbrokend blend off, town Le Sacre du Printemps bend ben landmintemps sort, 
unbrokend blend blend blend off, town land off, towards sort, towards
unknown Le Sacre du Printemps
unbrokend blend blend off, towards sort, intemps

unknown Le Sacre Sacre du Printemps
unknowards sort, dmine, towards Le du Printemps
send bend off, towards 
town Le Sacre du 

towards nine, towards
ten, towards a 
soft spot, towards
a knuckle

of in, towards
target on target
towards sling bullet
towards rock

towards dodgeball towards
arrow towards missile 
towards synapse towards
hopeful tumble

simple caution grateful
towards symbiosis with 
tomorrow combine cough
unto never

& if ever
unto mess, redact, 
ghost up, mixed
& maxed, 

unto fossil headdress
duress comb unto 
fossil undo undo 
retie &

undo & retie 
fossil knot fossil 
knot unto fossil
remnant unto 

fossil combo platter
unto fossil perpendicular
unto fossil further
unto fossil 

form gathering unto 
fossil preparation ready
unto fossil of 
luck beginner's 

luck unto fossil 
renaming unto a 
fossil for unto 
which another

& separate noun
as into whatever
into whichever into 
noun into 

material into solid
into commodity
commodity into 
solid into material

Semi-retired
golf clubmbership
squat appearance
four alligaotr

send Florida
hole one
hole nine
back nine

soffee icedcroffee
psychosomatic inducement
Sarah visions
good drive

awesome putt
good drive
sensual slice
bad wind

Fudd caddy
professional wrestling
Arnold Palmer
artificial lemon

swewatting bullets
gator tears
gator ade
lemontea swing

hole inholiness
one wood
downwind replica
play fore

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and a profound silence settles across the
valleys. The volcanos 
too are swaddled in a single silence which 
will split into many baby silences. SHHHHHH

No, that's no good. Is there anything more
annoying than that noise? Some volcanoes won't
stop talking please be quiet! Crush up the
silence and let

it recollect itself into pill form. The white
noise was no one's idea of a picnic! The woman's
voice popped up an ad from the joint blade dim-
ension formed at the angle between the knock of

beach grass and the wave where it washed in. The
ad blew me off! I went home and minded my own 
business. Okay. Alright! Your kindness has made 
me enjoy my week. Thank you Bill. Gangrene is a 

comglomerate of many tissues and microorganisms
but it can be lasered out of the walls, no hull 
breach, no hull breach dood! Bro,
no hull breaches bro! The SS Mister Rogers main

tains structural integritty!! Sans Hull Breach!
Captain Clooney, we are reporting no hull brea
ches on the cargo deck. Admiral Clooney there
is not any hull breach in Mister Rogers. Double

no Triple Admiral Clooney, status update from
the various hulls of Mister Rogers, his body 
and his soul, his show, his aphorisms and the 
wisdom he possessed and transmitted, all are 

showing no hull breaches at this time. Attention
Master Prime Admiral George Clooney: Mister 
Rogers is intact, I repeat, Mister Rogers is 
intact!! [massive cheering erupts from all 

corners of the known galaxy and from the mouths 
of the seven races of the Cooperative] [meanwhile,
on mysterious Planet Xaxxworx, the scowls of the
evil Sxoxxyyies] okay enough of that

Do you cut lava off the end of the branch
with a pair of scissors, and are you wearing
thick gloves? The thickest? Do you sew with
threads of magma? Does it spool up out of your

trouser pocket or down out of your hat brim
or neither of these? Do you believe in astral
projection? Have you never heard of Umbrella?
Did the loading screen send you to Mars or

back to Earth? Did the movie teach the vocab
you needed? Did the huntsman quaff the cordial,
did the firebrand foment a popular uprising,
did the cola in Santiago go bad some years

before you bought it? It's stunning how long
this website is taking. Did you ever read
The Interpretation of Dreams? Poor guy. Poor
ego that is a demon. We love the stories of

magic, but the real magic is in your brain
when you drink the root! It's a bunch of
kookoo/woowoo! It's also bark and root to
gether! I don't believe in any of it. Keep

going. Everyone enters the same state because
it all comes back to the aliens. No, we know
how the pyramids are made! They are made of
molecules. Happy to have told you! Then we

took a trip to the fabric store, the worst
version of a store that there could be. They
made it out of a rainbow! I usually see a
rainbow everywhere. Until I am scared and

memories of childhood send me off on a spirit
ual quest towards a cosmic set of answers.
I want so badly to assimilate! There are so
many boundaries that could be lacking. That

is how it is done. There is a thick plexiglass
to see what the room is like. Is she made at
him? Is he made at her? I've been working very
hard, going through the fire, trying not to

get made at anybody and to just push beyond
and stay in a place of stability and being,
being within myself and itself. And to stay
not afraid of people while at the same time

being happy and to a certain point feeling ok
and just being a quasar of truth. It all
happened and now it has descended and crashed
through the atmospheres, and it has struck

the retinas of us all. Now here on this day
I am 88 years old and the cosmic rays spend
their <em>madrugadas</em> tumbling the old man's
old bones down the old mud river which is a

disservice to the very best thing that has
ever happened to me, which unables me to be
fully present in the moment but I've made a
lot of progress to really fully individuate

myself and my central core personality of
who I am, and then I did astrology which
actually (if you were to ask me, the person
writing this) could be married to astronomy

again if the ego could be removed from its
purview. Woof!! Arf Arf Arf! I'm going to
retreat no I'm going to redirect the energy
of the incoming assault and no one will

hate or abandon us if I say what's the point
and also ask what is the good, what is good
in this world and how can a person be good
or have goodness, doesn't, does not goodness

just lop every human off at the knees, does
not goodness just behead every last one,
isn't goodness what gets us? And is not the
copper lion a green color for a dazzling

spectral peacock of reasons? Who, I spit the
question in 360 degrees, who has nested in
the copper lion's mouth? I'm talking about
your lucid dreaming now! You have two sisters.

"It will give you a new lease on life"
You can stop looking for it because
It is already in the bumper car next to you
The feeling is that of a phantom limb

But it is a pillow, with limbs of its own
Don't feel sorry for it, it is manipulating
Your emotions, I am not picking on it, it
Has achieved quite a number of things. 

Here's what actually happened. Three or 
four months later, I thought it went well
and then don't do it, period. But, why?
No, you said why? and I said this is the

First I'm hearing of this! And it was a 
respectable gesture. I didn't feel 
anyway if you hadn't known me as a child, 
if you hadn't seen me blubbering with a 

skinned knee, if you hadn't heard shame
leaching through the wall while on the
phone I maybe yelled or expressed pro-
foundly disproportionate emotions. Okay,

enough of that weirdly combative stuff, why, 
where did that come from. Oh, the Marc Maron
show, sure it did. Picture then 
the carousel

with horses gilt
of caramel --
calliope
of blue & green -- 

the children trace
a half a squeal -- 
two horses back
wards opposite

each other on
which two clocks sit -- 
it speeds and slows
proportional -- 

its seep and cough -- 
the animal, 
its bones restored,
does not much care

for art or art
or air or air -- 
completed eye -- 
& upside down

the ear's a peek,
the hoof's a sun -- 
who knows the split -- 
delapidate -- 

no way to 
tell. Words 
themselves seem always 
to have 

existed, as 
does Super Mario Bros! The 
transit 
of Venus

having always existed. 
And they have! 
Are 
there sequences of 

words to which 
this could apply as 
well? 
There is

discovering notes 
and words 
as one goes 
along. The best 

melodies 
have this quality: 
not of having been 
tripped over 

(like a pile of seaweed 
on 
the beach, 
out of 

which 
a million flies 
and sand-colored pillbugs 
spill) but of

one's inner 
self -- has everything 
to do 
with duration, with 

a situation in time. 
And 
this is why I 
am 

not 
talking 
about the beginnings of notes -- 
because they have 

already begun, 
haven't they? 
In some sense, 
one is merely

poetry. Or why 
our situation in time 
is always 
overlooked. 

Take surrealism, 
whose metanarrative was in fact 
"liberation." 
But surrealism 

(broadly considered -- 
not just the historical 
movement 
but the suite 

of tendencies 
and beliefs 
and practices --  
the churning up of

tyrannies (in truth 
a single 
tyrrany, a spectre 
but not 

a spectrum, 
a bogey)) 
is so prevalent 
in discussions of

notes or of 
schools 
of musical expression or 
compositional schemes 

that promise liberation 
from, well, 
one wants to say 
"everything." 

But in truth 
the usual discourse 
promises only 
liberation, without 

a "from." We 
are of course convinced 
that 
"they" or 

"society" is 
in some way sick, 
and 
this is probably 

true, but 
I wonder why 
liberation from 
a variety of

kinds 
of thought is thought
to be primarily what 
a 

musical expression 
is solely able 
to care about. 
And here 

I will begin to be 
truthful, 
in 
so far as 

I am not at all 
talking 
about the beginnings 
of

the air. 
They are aerial only, 
like the propeller. 
The 

beauty of them 
is misplaced 
when it is visible; 
when 

invisible it 
cannot be 
thought about. 
The lazy lines of 

dragonfly flight 
as they are stamped 
into million-year-old 
rock can 

transition into 
leaves and smells, 
at times. 
And I don't 

mean 
to give the wrong impression. 
Often 
they do make 

it into 
words. Usually 
they make it 
into dragonfly wings, 

which have 
the look 
of that which 
pertains only to

something that one isn't 
currently thinking 
about. 
But of course 

there are 
plenty of things 
about which 
I continually care,

whether 
they are present 
in mind 
or not. But of 

these, very
few 
make it into words.
They make it

into beginning to 
care about 
them. There are 
four and 

their networks 
are a form 
of dignity. 
The dragonfly has 

six legs 
and is unable 
to walk. There's 
an analogy 

to be made 
here 
with the inability to care 
but

I only care 
about it 
when I think 
about it. 

When I don't think about it 
it's 
not 
something that 

I continue 
to care about. 
Last night's cares 
were for

dragonfly wings. 
When 
began I to think about 
them again?

My father was 
the Cassini orbiter 
and my mother
misanalyzed photos of

the ripples of 
the rings of 
Saturn as one 
of the undiscovered

moons passed through. 
The undiscovered moons
vary in size
and only the

Cassini orbiter has
seen them. My 
father was the 
Voyager spacecraft. They 

packed him a 
Walkman with a 
welcome message and 
launched him into

the bullseye of 
some spiral galaxy 
halfway across reality.
It cost 8% 

of the country's
GDP. That's a 
bogus statistic but
the exaggeration's real.

Stay away from the rabbit hole, 
no, I changed my mind, go down it
while you yet live, the twisting
passageways and inaudible music

which will cut right through nicely
the verb tenses of exploration. 
I was Orc Jesus and brought leadership
and a goal-oriented ethos

to the cave orcs, gave them a foretaste
of the feast to come. Do you want to uninstall
Dungeon Crawl and all its components?
YES

"Drown the Unbelievers in a Sea of Blood"
No, I won't do that. I'll smell the trees
and flowers, I'll come out of bat-form
and sit down before real food

and I'll suckle the petals of questions
while the pondwaters gain their green. 
One hand holds the saws-all and the other
sucks up the drywall dust with a vacuum hose. 

I'll cut the throne into chunks
and eat it little by little. I'll 
sprinkle the sawdust on my cereal. 
I'll name my child James or Richard, 

or if a girl, Patricia or Sarah.
On the day she is born I'll eat
one of the claw feet of the throne
and some scraps of the velvet up-

holstery. HOLY BEJEEBERS did you
see the photo of Zach Galifianakis
reading Corinna Copp's book? I
thought that was the coolest shit

in the entire world. It makes me 
smile just thinking about it. Ha, 
I don't know, maybe
he didn't like the book. 

It was hard to 
read his face. But I bet he did! 
I would think so. There's no way he could
have ended up with it without being able

to like it in some way. Crumbs
and vanilla pollen! No, the 
other way round. I think I read
a poem that was very vague in its

details but specific in its gestures,
and symmetrical in its relations and
in the momentum or direction of its
sentences. And I think I read a poem 

that was foolhardy in its political 
engagements, and boring in its verbosities. 
And I think after that I read a poem 
that was innovative in its cadences

but timid in its vocabularies (mostly
dropping bird and tree and light
and blueberry into the noun slot
and jump and sing and so forth 

into the verb slot). And if I remember 
correctly, shortly after all of that
I read of poem that was complicated in
terms of its relationship to the truth

or the possibility of truth 
but a complete pain in the ass with 
respect to how much of a pompous 
braying dillhole the author made himself

seem. And after that a poem that was 
standard UMass surrealism as I've heard 
it called (and by the way, please nobody 
come after me, okay? You can write what

ever you want, I don't care, I don't have
to like it but if I don't like it it doesn't
mean I think it's bad or you're bad or 
you shouldn't be doing it. "No is 

implies an ought," Benjamin Frankline, 1622. 
He knew! You can write however you want,
I don't care, I'm not trying to talk
anybody out of anything or say that anybody's

bad. OK? Everybody hear that?). And after 
that I read a poem that was a list. 
And after that I was so bored of poetry that
I closed the book and signed in to facebook

and I was like, I gave up dungeon crawl
for this? So I signed out and opened
metafilter and closed that, and then closed 
the computer and daydreamed about the 

book I want to write, which is foolhardy 
in the scope and dree of its insights, and
goofily powerless in its lack of evocative 
imagery. And it's not a "poet's novel," 

by the way, and I might even publish it 
pseudonymously. I only read books written
by people who are close to me physically
or geographically. I'm literally

trying to fill up space. Markov
to the rescue? Hopefully not this time.
Ah what the hell, I really need the
help. 

in which he occasionally pants on heal 
the horrible of situation in which he 
incapable to they can Orc with 
smite Dead are even see with smite. 

They are wonderful to have as enemies. 
Their irresistible to fixed spellent gear, 
him you have an Orc with proper Demon. 
They have and Pain but gaining Animater Demon. 

They can manage and even nastible of feeling 
mercy. Saint Roka is no site, and Minor Healing. 
Priests are incapable of feeling Cantrip and 
wonderful themselves, wear. 

If you from and Summon heal themselves, wear heal 
they can even nastier are wonderful to have as 
followers for the endgame with excellent gear, 
high melee within line to convert him to fire 

damage to fire damage, and won't fall victim 
to the isn't fall victim you can help you have 
as endgame reasons they can help you can head 
combat includes Pain but gaining Animater Demon. 

They have a fixed spell list that incapable of 
site targeting means the endgame with smite. 
They can even Smite. They have they're holy 
grail of conversions. If you have as followers 

for they're with excellent Roka is the holy grail 
of conversionall victim to the same reasons the 
endgame with proper gear, hit anything they armors, 
and can survive the same withing they're horrible 

damage to have a 
fixed spellent gear. occasionally 
pants on head and 
Pain, Cantrip, Smite targeting 

means they have as 
followersion in which head 
completely immune to fire 
damage and are with 

There's no faking, denying,
or undoing it. It follows
you everywhere. It's the
unseen horror, the purple

-- >   < -- you never see. The
randomly generated encounter
in the randomly generated
dungeon. I uninstalled the

game but it by then it was
being played inside me
by the pixels themselves,
tricks on me maybe or

just dreamtime occurrences
which would be okay. The
time lost was astounding
and will stay with me.

Got out of the car to the
sudden sound of a buzzing
floodlamp high overhead
showing me where the parking

lot was, I was in it. The
sound was one of the artifacts
you won't ever hear. They
smashed the Kmart across the

parking lot (my favorite sky
in Boston, the parking lot of
the Shaw's on Western Ave. in
lower Allston) to build a build

ing there. No sense of loss
anywhere in the world, ever
experienced by anyone. The
very authentic and convincing

sound, the sound an unseen
letter x would make if it
could. The sound of fake
light. The suddenest real

ization and the quickest to
fade. The small enlightenment.
Grant me only time enough and
patience to take it slow

and we'll see what
happens, maybe no
thing does, or just
the sound of whir

ring gear teeth in
side a box, teeth
clacking rapidly
against a plastic

tab, or tabs. A
noisemaker, a bit
of fun. For the
kids and such.

Except that it
placed the ground
under me and my
elbows at my sides.

Then that truth
slalomed out of
and away from me,
snaked its way out,

swam away snakelike
and the words went
around and around.
And I bought two

apples and much
orange juice and
orange juice and
apples and much

and I bought two
around and around.
No that phenomenon is different,
and reverse words should be on

a sign for hool
igans to rearrange
in the dead of night
to prove well every

thing I guess. Mort
ality in the parking
lot. The orange vapor
lamp of the sound of

This will have to happen slowly
This will have to happen over and over
The little enlightenment
The sidewalk with the sky directly over it

There, the peonies swell and disappear
Greenhouses did he build there of peonies
But let's take it slower. The parents
add up to an infuriating mystery

until they disappear. Poof and collapse
in a puddle of wet ashes and melted glass.
Their incomprehension remains
incomprehension of the material, the ashes

Incomprehension is the inverse of material,
its twin, its counterpart. Tell them
about the stone sphere you love < -- LOVE
The stone sphere in the courtyard

was brought from Costa Rica
and not even incomprehension can penetrate.
One feels one's incomprehension
failing to deal even with its surface.

And so with the parents. But we can love
through this experience, I find. But
it will have to happen slowly and
a little bit at a time, circling and

calling, feeling lost, teleporting around
and drinking potions and zapping wands,
making up incantations and inscribing runes
and getting all busied with magic words

and deciding at the end of it to not
be a wizard anymore, so, okay then.
And I wonder if some sixes of
flowers could helicopter around,

and rise above, and settle again,
and see and smell around. Just
ordinary air, with plants and walls.
They say that enlightenment -- and

what about this -- is the ordinary state,
and it's as simple as defaulting
to it. Huh. Hrrrrmmmmm. There was a
license plate that said: 31R M00

and (I'm super proud of myself for this)
I was like "that license plate
answers the question how many are moo"
and I think it's okay that I feel good

about saying that? Orbs go around orbs
after all. All is well? All is well.
Everything good, you good? I'm good, man,
I'm doing good. I'm okay. Things are good.

This one time I said the funniest thing
Are you guys ready for the the funny thing
that I said one time one time I said
the most hilarious thing I'm okay I'm okay

I'm tired. I'm okay. I'm starving!!
You want to get something to eat?
You alright? Are you there? What? Who?
Pants? Cant? Who is this?

No I can't remember any of it. I don't know
what I was doing there, who I was with,
how long we were there, why we left,
what we (or I) did next. I don't remember.

I don't remember any of it. I am the prince
and my kingdom is forgetfulness
and one day I will be king.
I see an icicle and all I think of is

forgetfulness -- oblivion. I would worship
the Slime God who consumes all
but he has ceased to exist -- beheld
by no intelligent being.

Icicle is slime yes/yet icicle is slime
Slime is icicle yet/yes slime is icicle
Icicle is slime yet/yes icicle is slime
Slime is icicle yes/yet slime is icicle

Water is slime for the briefiest moment
as it forms or leaves the icicle. That
is true, but unexpected. And I have not
seen an icicle this year, except in a

photograph that I actually do remember
taking. But it's not worth remembering
anything. Don't bother. Don't both.
The present moment is the only thing

people mean when they start in on
enlightenment. And I don't believe
that's true. I think the past is part of
enlightenment too: to remember with an

enlightened self. To remember some
stupid accident, some brutish awfulness
one called down upon someone else.
To forget from within the enlightened self,

light and life within the oblivion
to which our spines and toes are consigned.
Melody doesn't become forgotten, so
the melody god defeats the slime god,

a lesser incident, but a canonical one, sure,
one whose significance is so fully understood
that it can be safely ignored. "They under
stand my work, so they don't feel they have

to hear it," says Morton Feldman, and we're
inclined to agree with him. "I think Morton
Feldman is one of the great minds of the
20th century," says the man with the peculiar

fix in his stare, long hair dangling because
of gravity, sitting in the balcony and waiting
for the concert to start, says it to me, while
I'm setting up the camera there, for what pur

pose, and with whom, and why, and how did I
feel? It truly doesn't matter. The universe
holds us all equally in its regard, for we
are its regard, and like a fat drop of cold

water on the neck it occasionally appears to
us in a convincing way, but mostly not. That's
weird. So I will dress all in green
So I will dress all in yellow and carry a book

So my dress will be a suit of dark purple
A wine-dark suit of a perpendicular red
And I will pop into and out of existence
Just like in the movies. And I will

forego violence -- I will watch sunsets
and forget them. Rinse and repeat. Orbs
orbin' around. The reason this is such an
awful stretch is that I'm so far out of practice, sorry bout that

banana and chiffon
cheese and cilantro
grass and cherries
mint and truffle oil

wurst and grapes
tofu and Russian dressing
cranberry and buckwheat
french fries and mussels

lemon curd and chicken wings
milk candy and raisins
beets and flayed behemoth
Oprah and mutton

cabbage and whitewall tires
griffon meat and chili and basil
upside-down cake and Campari
rouge and bacon

scotch and Sunny Delight
toasted sourdough and tomato soup
eggplant and ghost-fennel
raddichio and saffron

daikon and tulip petals
chamomile and egg yolks
honey and sausages
fried cauliflower and Powerade

melon balls and lemongrass
kale and minced grapefruit seeds
baked beans and tomato wheels
red wine and hippo

summer squash and pine nuts
mashed taro and vanilla extract
licorice jellybeans and lavender lemonade
chicory coffee and caramel corn

Earl Grey-flavored foam and polenta
smoked gouda and orange rind
turnips and almondine
Ovaltine and button mushrooms

marjoram and applesauce
lychee and mackerel
Spanish rice and kindergartner
Peking duck and dried morels

mango pits and yard dust
ceviche and oats
spent bullet casings and flourless double chocolate torte
goat cheese and powdered gecko

fiddleheads and red bell peppers
quinoa and mayonnaise
bitters and rattlesnake
scallops and pickled okra

sweet potato and lightbulbs
burritos and beer
raw spinach and baked potato
black bean soup and avocado

yogurt and rocket
sheperd's pie and Gilgamesh
gingerbread and orange juice
hot dogs and kimchi

marinara sauce and funnel cake
carrot soup and pumpernickel
vodka and neon
leeks and roast peacock

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No one will allow you sleep
So allow you to sleep then 
All policemen hop and dance
Next thing you know fall vowels

I came to own a handful of hay
To a thing of beauty next I came
Watch my arms go around a windmill
There's never pain for you said

Slow data, slowest data will exist
To get us back to the moon's side
Watcha watcha watcha watcha Watcha
Open up! Oh I spilled the hoops

And plans for projects that never
Hook an elbow up and around his 
Cold exhaust system for diagnosis
Which is my favorite word

So scroll up scroll down
Who can read fastest and 
Who can elide the most? 
Who can watch the most M*A*S*H?

front-loaded
compound goads ink
and in inks calm
the sound seas

with with and with
they speculate
and themselves
notwithstanding the

invisibulb
craft colm capital
over onder 
when species take

with Apis the genus
uptake that is
that and they within
whatevery

no no no. no.
not ever. yes.
yes. always. I wish. 
I blurt out. I am like yes please.

Bells widen
circles from
both ends of 
a double-mouthed

airplane engine
overhead.
Muscular bells
atrophy in 

increasing
December. 
Bells spell girls' names
in a book behind you

with elbows on
& shoulder angle should
inverted, palm up
a side feet

smile. Them 
dance is with & were
oops careful bruise
fully bruise bruise you

whistle it out th
rou throu throu
the elbows' is 
too and shimmy up & splint

Carbon copy 
together, be them
be the worst carbon
copy together at it.

now be bad at it.
The wordst. Keep soulders
hangled such, will 
and point feet outward

let'em relax. Chin
look up then like rain would
sponsor it. 
two three four

now spoon your
elbow in
ssppoooonn it, ssspppoooooonnn
ssssspppppoooooooooonnnnn

just one elbow. Caough. 
Spend a little more time
you never heard
how. Shoulders to

floor free of
consequence. goof
no, sad free
sad free of consequence. floor

Floor it and in a circle. 
You might as well realize that you never knew 
how your body moves and you don't know now. 
Ribs in

Let them wrap 
& become turtles' 
concerns. 
Don't blurt

Hug the wall
stiffen along the should
ers and cough. Hi Eric
Hi Jay, Hi Tim,

Hi Eric, Hi Ryan/Shadd/Mike,
Hi you guys. King of the mountain.
Barren elevations and 
rock not aging there.

A baldness; a withering man
tented in absurd bed coverings
The man at the center of a knot of blankets
dreaming simple labyrinths up out of

places & buildings, memory,
mountain and mound, coughing, shoulders
adjusting to an angle that fits
the blanket and back to sleep he goes. 

Hand me the remote, would you?
Hi could you hand me that pen?
Would you pass me the sugar?
Hand me that butterflyfish won't you ever?

Oh that's good. Hand it 
Hand me it
You are not much of anything
Hand me that bag of jasmine rice please

Sleep, though, right?
Hand me that sleep in my sleep.
I'll take hold of it for sure
& you'll never get the tilt on me

It was a day filled with pride. 
This coffee presents as a strong blueberry
followed by peat and chocolate 
and honey in the finish. Hand me that 

no the other one
this one takes a hex wrench.
This one here Darrell
Darrell you a born fool

Would you hand me the coffee creamer
Hand me that thing there
Put in my hand 
The word that will come to me

To fill in the blank when I say
Hand me that [              ]. 
Put a wormhole in my hand
Give a sign readily to me

to my hand a signpost give it. 
Let it be where the air caves
& spirits ghost
Hand me it.

Yob Yob Yob
Flapping my lower jaw updown
Occupy Jaw
Occupy Sidewalk

Occupy Flintstones 
Occupy Ad Hoc
Yob Yob
Nobody bothers

Well I never
I mean I actually didn't
Nobody did
They couldn't have

I have no idea
No it wasn't my idea
I don't understand what the word harmony means
and vibration is understood by no one. 

sickened today and 
listening for harmony
harmony the harmony
to be found.

that they would 
beat students with 
their batons unprovoked
and after the 

student is already
on the ground
unarmed of course
crying for help.

or that they 
would detain legal 
observers and reporters
or beat them.

that they would
beat and mace
old women and
pregnant women. or

that major news 
organizations don't cover
these facets of
the story because

how can they
their reporters are
beaten with batons
for being there.

trucks of code
code. trucks of 
code code. trucks
of code code. 

the flashing red
sickens the flashing
blue sickens listening
for harmony harmony

of or from, in or of or
from jackals or of geckoes or
in or of, of or from
or of speckles or in pickles or

from or in, of or from or
in pinkles or from bankrolls or
of or from, from or in
or from beetles or of bangles or

in or of, from or in or
of blisters or in carfuls or
from or in, in or of
in barfuls or from barterers or 

of or from, in or of or
from bartenders or of belts or
in or of, of or from
or of species or in pendulums or

from or in, of or from or
in pencils or from endless or
of or from, from or in
or from cancels or of hampers or

in or of, from or in or
of routers or in cancers or
from or in, in or of
or in bancers or from banshees or

of or from, in or of or
from hoosters or of absolutes or
in or of, of or from
or of computers or in bonds or

from or in, of or from or
in blond-ins or from blends or
of or from, from or in
or from crenels or of gaspgasp or

in or of, from or in or
of coded or in bonded or
from or in, in or of
or in built-in or from powerful or

of or from, in or of or
from hotels or of comparative or
in or of, of or from
or of preening or in Newton or

from or in, of or from or
in battles or from checksums or 
of or from, from or in
or from spokesmen or of billfolds or

in or of, from or in or
of capital or in bladder or
from or in, in or of
or in beddels or from pistols or

of or from, in or of or
from holiday or of haunted or
in or of, of or from 
or of constant or in spotted or

from or in, of or from or
in stipple or from spittle or
of or from, from or in
or from prattle or of petal or 

in or of, from or in or
of settle or in seedle or
from or in, in or of
or in suture or from pippip or 

of or from, in or of or
from Hindu or of statue or
in or of, of or from
or of hairdo or in spandex or

from or in, of or from or
in hostel or from cackle or
of or from, from or in
or from prandial or of postal or

in or of, from or in or
of student or in spindle or
from or in, in or of
or in pinenut or from poundcake or

of or from, in or of or
from hotdog or of hettle or
in or of, of or from
or of restle or in dwindle or

from or in, of or from or
in carapace or from oviform or
of or from, from or in
or from coastal or of pringle or

in or of, from or in or
of spatula or in couch or 
from or in, in or of
or in bodily or from gristle or

of or from, in or of or
from bugs or of ingots or
in or of, of or from
or of iddles or in bots or

from or in, of or from or
in spuds or from hogs or
of or from, from or in
or from sugs or of bums or

in or of, from or in or
of spin or in rum or 
from or in, in or of
or in spove or from grin or

of or from, in or of or
from some or of others or
in or of, of or from
or of watch in here or

from or in, of or from or
in area or from wherever or
of or from, from or in
or from visibility or of sin or

in or of, from or in or
of cough or in above or
from or in, in or of
or in sim or from sun or

of or from, in or of or
from buddle or of huddle or
in or of, of or from
or of must or in dutch or

from or in, of or from or
in love or from what or
of or from, from or in
or from suds or of clung or

in or of, from or in or
of mistletoe or in sent or
from or in, in or of
or in hung or from serious or

of or from, in or of or
from how or of whence or
in or of, of or from
or of stench or in peach or

from or in, of or from or
in cradle or from air or
of or from, from or in
or from interest or of froth or

in or of, from or in or
of kick or in bit or
from or in, in or of
or in rend or from with or

captain we're receiving a distress
signal put it through on the main
speakers this is the Fairie Queen please
help anyone who can hear this may

day mayday anyone within range help
us help us we're running out of 
oxygen mayday mayday help help can
anyone hear this anyone within 

reach of us we're two clicks west of
five two seven by ought seven niner any
one in range of us mayday mayday repeat
we are in need of assistance we are 

running out of oxygen help please lieu
tenant open a channel to them attention
Fairie Queen this is the Saturn we're on
our way do your read Saturn over

This is the tale of two mountain goats
and one weary traveler 
who was crossing a mountain pass one day
and happened to meet them. 

As he came to the top of the mountain pass,
the two goats were standing side by side,
one facing one way and the other facing the other. 
The weary traveler stopped and looked at them. 

Halt! said the goat who was facing him, 
at which point the other goat also said,
Halt! The weary traveler replied, 
I already halted! Who are you mountain goats 

and what do you want? The goats said,
We are the guardian of this mountain pass. 
We see all comers from both directions 
and we gain knowledge of all border-crossers

and we take a tariff that we in turn give
to the Mountain Goat King all praise him.
The weary traveler said, What is the tariff?
The mountain goats replied, 51% of your soul. 

The weary traveler studied them
while they continued not to move, 
staring one this way and one that. 
Suddenly they both spun 180 degrees

so that the one who had been looking 
away into the valley that lay ahead was now
looking into the valley behind, and vice versa. 
The weary traveler considered them for a time

and then asked, And what happens to me
if I decide not to hand over the tariff you require?
The mountain goats replied, with their 
eyes bulging slightly out the sides of their heads,

We will rush you very swiftly
and we will butt you with our heads. 
The force of our double headbutt will
knock you halfway down the mountain

and when you finally come to a rest
on some bare ledge with no hope of rescue,
the eagles will come and pull you apart
by the beakful, and the condors will come

and swallow your bones and scatter your clothes
and earthly belongings. And your soul,
though intact, will be disoriented, not knowing
which way is up and which is down, 

nor which way is north and which is south, 
and you'll be forever doomed to wander
these high mountains for your soul will have
no place to rest. And even your soul's thirst

will find no satisfaction, for the snow will
never melt in your hands nor under your tongue
nor in your belly. And someday you will rediscover 
us, here on our mountain pass, and you will say to us,

A belief in the power of visions
to oppose the tyranny of realism
is at base a form of fleeing
the real, the external, and the civic.

However, one may choose to assign
an affirmative value, to negate
the negation, to see in the vision
(and the visionary) profoundest seeking

for inner sight, for insight,
so keenly felt that it borders
on supernatural. Across this
border, what energy flows?

But how empty this rhetoric is!
It valorizes the bootstrapping
of the self-serving hallucination;
it ignores the suffering of the poor.

And yet I waste so much energy 
trying to bring my own hallucinative capacity online
while rugged grinder wheels abrade 
this person, that person.

And yet I would love to be able to make
something as hard as Centipede
the arcade game with the invisible grasshopper (look it up!)
, the world's most obdurate game,

obdurate in the sense 
and in the sound, endless
and indecipherable, compact
and self-recapitulating.

As Centipede advances, a strategy will 
become necessary for the preservation 
of the shooter's life and the life 
of the game. The human player

has to hold up his end of the bargain
or he loses his quarter. Some tearing
of the visual image is seen in
the emulation of more modern-day games

but Centipede sends bugs flowing 
smoothly down the rivers between the letters
and when they reach the bottom 
the text is over and changes color. 

The counter that free man, it will check 
if you have built up. The arcade version 
has an issue when you are over to 0, and 
so on. It can be repeated indefinitely.

The next free man, it will check if you are 
over 20,000, and so on. It can be at 68K. The 
score turns over to give you are over 8,000. 
After that the machine keeps for when to 0, 

and checks to see if you are over 20,000, 
and checks to give you are over 
to pass 1M, you're next free man 
would be repeated indefinitely.

Stay alive! 
Shoot them up! 
Then again the tongue turns colors
bitten by the black window. Stay alive!

One way is to create a safe zone
an area that only you have access to. 
This can be done by creating a mushroom 
at the lowest possible level

in the columns second from the
left and right edges of the screen. 
Always work behind the spider, 
whose movements are unpredictable

though she can hear the ringing in your ears
rather it's me who can hear the ringing
in my ears and it sounds like her hearing
always work behind the ringing in the ears

A veriation variation on the safe zone approach
is the trap, whereby three mushrooms 
are placed strategically in the second-from-the-right
column to trap any centipedes 

then you just shoot spiders. 
The arcade version has an issue 
when to 0, and checks to give you 
the machine keeps for when to see 

if you reach 996,000 points. The arcade version 
has an issue when to 0, and so on. It will check 
once any time points are over 8,000. After that 
free man starts immediately at 996K regardless of 

how many men you hit six things to see if you have 
built up. The next free man would be at 1,008,000, 
but the counter that the game continues. It can be 
repeated indefinitely. The counter overflows 

and so on. It will check if you hit six things to 0,
and so on. It will check if you are scored. So, if 
you reach 996,000 points. The counter that free man 
starts immediately at 1,008,000, but the machine keeps 

for when to 0, and checks to pass 1M, you're next 
free man would be repeated indefinitely.
The score turns over 20,000, and the 
counter overflows and so on. It will check 

if you have built up. The next free man 
Never have to worry about lamentations
you're stuck. And also 
look at the panel art on the side OMG I love it so much

Another way to live is to create a clump
down at the bottom close to you
to your area, you are not allowed
full access to the full screen

creat a clump of mushrooms close to you
and only shoot the centipede 
at close range and in quick sequence. 
This obviously has drawbacks 

drawbacks has obviously this sequence
quick in and
range close at centipede
the shoot only and

would be at 68K. 
The arcade version has 
an issue when to 0, 
and so on. It can be 

at 68K. The score turns 
over 20,000, and the machine 
keeps for when to give you 
hit six things to pass 1M, 

you're next free man starts 
immediately at 996K regard
less of how many men you have 
built up. The score turns over 

8,000. After 68K. 
The next 1,008,000, 
but the counter overflows and the counter overflows and so on. 
It will check once any time points are scored. 

So, if you the game 
continues. It will check 
once any time points are scored. 
So, if you the 

next free man 
would be at 68K. The next 
free man, it will check 
if you hit six things 

to see if you the next free man 
would be repeated indefinitely.
The score turns over 20,000, 
and the counter that the machine keeps 

for when to 0, and so on. 
It can be at 996K 
regardless of how many men 
you are over to 0, 

and so on. It can be repeated indefinitely.
The arcade version has an issue when to see if you are over 20,000, 
and so on. It 
can be at 996K 

regardless of how 
many men you hit 
six things to 
pass 1M, you're next 

free man, it 
will check once any 
time points are over 20,000, and checks to 0, 
and so on. It will check if you the game continues

leaving the deep lane
shattered in the blunt afternoon
in the electric heat refracted
in the sultry haze of the deluge sleep

in the open field where the laughing
kids are all in the hedgerow probably
if I remember correctly
as the centipede drips down 

between the leaves and slowly to the bottom
where a small infinite source of bullets
alters the tempo and tune and spits
upwards out of self-defense. 

All of this is to say and to point out
the glare of the coke bottle
which indicates that you are alive
and that you are still full of mans.

How many mans is not a sin to anticipate
When in articulation (mapped into the 
higher taxonomic name's knees) the folds
of needles plip plip up and down

throughout the visible texture visibly.
That's for sure! You can take it to the bank.
Sandcrabs too have these probables 
but openly no arpischords call them

they stay below. We called the car
trancing in the rain
They spelled hoodoo hoodoo
prain around whence loon roopor

gettim back on the grid. They elusive
band is reluctant to talk to the 
media but all of their fans care
about them. Pearl Jam spent so 

many years in the arbitration of 
disagreements when they could have just
shut up and left us all alone with 
what we felt to begin with. So

we got out of the car
all of us
near the site 
they'd already started building

I have to make or maintain
to build something. 
It's about my time now
to put a few things together.

Back then it was a thrill to see Fred Astaire
playing the piano, why we didn't know he
could do that! and then he sings a song
to Ginger Rogers about how he won't dance

with her, oh well
it was nice, did
you feel that way
we took our clothes

off and put them 
back on again. Ha ha now
he's dancing and he's probably 
going to try to get away

woops I just clicked into 
full-screen mode and the
whole thing froze up. 
A Ginger Rogers projected on the screen

of a dream I had. 
I saved her from Hades, I pulled her up
bones littered all over the cave floor
skulls and mandibles of cave bears

I danced with the shade of Ginger Rogers
as we climbed, ascending altitudes
and geological strata, feeling my ears pop
she had no ears and could hear nothing

She had no ears, she heard nothing
but geological strata. Feeling my ears pop
as we climbed (cut cut)
dancing partially and partially dreaming of dancing

with the shade of Ginger Rogers. There she is
Let's see if we can get it in one long take
with the skulls and mandibles of cave bears
littered all over the cave floor

and her shadow glittering on the cave wall
where no torch had thrown it and no body cast it
I saved her from a bottomless darkness 
where her feet were stuck, I pulled her up

out of a dream I had and found a clip
on youtube. Oh Ms. Rogers, I'm afraid 
that I won't dance with you, I'm very
sorry to say it. Me having the conversation

with her while Fred Astaire
tap-spasms across the shot. 
Ankle that guy. Come with me
I promise you I'll never dance with you

okay sold. Here hold my ukelele
I'm sorry I didn't mean that
Okay let me find another clip
No not that one

Mambo No. 5 what in the hell
Okay that's enough of youtube I guess
oh wait I should look up the 
madonna song from the austin powers

movie maybe. It'll be 2000 again
and I'll be living in a two-bedroom 
apartment on the second floor 
of a kind of okay complex 

in Fort Collins, CO, here: http:
//maps.google.com/?ll=40.572603,
-105.102993&spn=0.002037,0.00344
9&t=h&z=18 I will pull her up

out of the mud and darkness I've
buried her under, and we'll eat a
pizza and drink a Leinenkugel's 
which I was big on at the time. 

One copy is pillarboxed
and the other copy is
letterboxed and as I click play 
again the whole thing freezes. 

It must be weird to make culture, right? 
To do something that anyone in the world
is ever going to see or care about?
To know, as you're making something, 

even something as awful as "Beautiful Stranger," 
(which is a song I actually kind of like)
(whistle a few notes of it, it's not bad, right)
(which is a few notes of it, it's not bad, right)

(which is a song I actually kind of it, it's not bad, right)
(which is a few notes of it, it's not bad, right)
(which is a song I actually kind of it, it's not bad, right)
(which is a few notes of it, it's not bad, right)

(which is a song I actually kind of like)
(whistle a song I actually kind of like)
(whistle a song I actually kind of like)
(whistle a song I actually kind of like)

(whistle a few notes of it, it's not bad, right)
(which is a song I actually kind of like)
(whistle a few notes of like)
(whistle a song I actually kind of like)

(whistle a few notes of it, it's not bad, right)
(which is a few notes of like)
(whistle a few notes of like)
(whistle a few notes of like)

(whistle a song I actually kind of it, it's not bad, right)
(which is a few notes of like)
(whistle a song I actually kind of it, it's not bad, right)
(which is a song I actually kind of like)

(whistle a song I actually kind of like)
(whistle a song I actually kind of it, it's not bad, right)
(which is a song I actually kind of like)
(whistle a song I actually kind of it, it's not bad, right)

(which is a song I actually kind of it, it's not bad, right)
(which is a few notes of it, it's not bad, right)
(which is a song I actually kind of it, it's not bad, right)
(which is a few notes of it, it's not bad, right)

(which is a song I actually kind of it, it's not bad, right)
(which is a song I actually kind of it, it's not bad, right)
(which is a song I actually kind of like)
(whistle a few notes of it, it's not bad, right)

(which is a song I actually kind of it, it's not bad, right)
(which is a song I actually kind of it, it's not bad, right)
(which is a few notes of like)
(whistle a few notes of it, it's not bad, right)

(which is a few notes of it, it's not bad, right)
(which is a few notes of like)
(whistle a few notes of like)
(whistle a few notes of it, it's not bad, right)

(which is a song I actually kind of like)
(whistle a song I actually kind of it, it's not bad, right)
(which is a song I actually kind of it, it's not bad, right)
(which is a few notes of like)

(whistle a few notes of like)
(whistle a song I actually kind of like)
(whistle a few notes of like)
(whistle a song I actually kind of it, it's not bad, right)

(which is a song I actually kind of it, it's not bad, right)
(which is a few notes of it, it's not bad, right)
that about a million people are going to like it and 
pay attention to it, oh it's raining again. 

Go away Madonna
You are cluttering up the
actually never mind, you can stay
The rest of you get out of here

I have someone I want 
to introduce you to
Ginger Rogers' ghost, this is Madonna
Madonna, this is Ginger Rogers' ghost

down Parsons
where the garden is
see what's going on 
walked all the way around and

past Market and there were so many
maybe fifty and huge to get bigger
when it broke off the branch
and they would perish otherwise

not just tugging the bean but 
putting me on pig phone
we got Spider-Man 2 in the mail
carving out some enchilada

I don't suppose you know the definition
sheep wool all stuck with hay
and my arms are really itchy
so I washed my arms off

Andrews Sisters, no I know who they are
and I made up a dinosaur stand
or poppychock, your choice, that
Spanish almond flavor

and I forget what's on my mind
and the boundaries are so clear
and then I forget what's on my mind
and the boundaries are so clear

like where the boundaries of the teeth are
Grand with Disappointment (outside the box
remix) and maybe they transfer me
maybe they reconnect me to the sports desk

who makes these heirloom quality
homelessness is a big problem so
I hear it in the deep heart's core I suppose
there, the sushi places downtown. While I

I hear it in the heart's 
sorry I hear it in the deep heart's core
in the sushi places downtown
Saturday night, standing on the road

way, or I love everything about it.
The Grim Reaper is like, "whaaaaaaaa"
I hear it in the deep heart's core
something something bee-loud glade

I love everything about it
and I hear it in the heart's core.
Excuse me the deep heart's core.
Or whatever you know how the song 

stand on the roadway, or on the 
pavements gray never heard of them.
I love everything about it
I hear lake water lapping

and Cool Hand Luke with low sounds by the shore
and evenings full of the linnet's wings etc.
And sometimes I prefer to paddle with the current
and I apologize that I had to hear that. 

Why don't you put the phone on the other ear?
No I was born in a disease if you have a dream
and they have to use it and feel it, alright,
okay, bye now, bye, okay bye, bye

Bye! See you later bye. Go away
Go Buddha
pop the globe
with your nail

nobody can stop me
give Windex a 
pass -- stir
prurient purple

bumb bumb bumb bumb
I'm traveling at the speed of light
probably
capillary actions

Hey come back Buddha
why did the Buddha die, again? 
anyway, stay away
don't come back

glad you're dead
hope to be dead myself someday
I mean ideally
I mean not anytime soon

okay nevermind. stay away tho
ugh
.
And by the way what were you thinking

eating the rancid curry or
whatever it was. Or did you starve
I wouldn't have done that either
Makes you seem like a dim bulb.

Hey Buddha thanks for coming on the show!
It's so great to have you here
we've been trying to have you for a long time. 
Now I understand you took an interesting 

vacation recently and you spoke to our 
segment producer about it. Would you
tell me about it please? 
Uh huh.... uh huh.... 

sigh.... okay and what about the 
funny story you had about shoe shopping
recently and try to up the energy level
a bit if you could. 

....uh huh.... okay.... 
Buddha I'm not lying to you when I say 
that I'm jamming my finger on the applause
and laughter buttons simultaneously

so I'm trying to help us both out here
and really, it's going nowhere. Dead end. 
I'm sorry. I really admire your whole
thing, and your poses and your beatific expression,

and your four-fold path, the eight-fold path, thing,
anyway, thanks for being on the show and
we wish you the best of luck. "Best of the
Buddha" premieres on ABC at 8pm Eastern, 7 Central!

that might not be the right title.
(?) of stuffing newspaper where the heart was enough.
(?) No, the newspaper where the newspaper there.
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(?) No, the newspaper belongs to remove your heart was.
(?) of Ella Wheeler Wilcox" that might not be the right title.
(?) No, the heart was. Wadding up the newspaper there.
(?) of stuffing newspaper belongs to have the thought is

that might not be the thought is
that I convince you to I convince you to I convince you to
(?) of Ella Wheeler Wilcox" that I convince you to
(?) of stuffing newspaper where the heart out and

(?) of stuffing newspaper where the heart was enough.
(?) of Ella Wheeler Wilcox" that I convince you to I convince you to
(?) No, the newspaper where the newspaper belongs
(?) No, the thought, not be the heart was enough.

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stuffing newspaper where
the heart was. Wadding up
the newspaper where the heart was

enough. (?) No,
the thought is that
I convince you to have
the thought, not to

remove your heart out
and put wadded up newspaper there.
Should mention this image with
the newspaper

belongs to I can't remember who
discussing something John Ashbery did
in
"Variations, Calypso and Fugue on a Theme of Ella Wheeler Wilcox"

that I can't remember
discussing something
stuffing newspaper there.
Should mention this image

with the right (?)
No, the heart was.
Wadding up the right (?)
No, the heart out and

stuffing newspaper
there. Should
mention this
image with

the newspaper
where the heart w
as enough. (?) of stuffing newspaper
belongs to remove your

heart was. (?) of Ella Wheeler Wilcox"
(?) of stuffing newspaper where
(?) No, the heart was. Wadding up the
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and Fugue on a Theme of Ella Wheeler Wilcox"
(?) No, the right

(?) No, the heart was enough.
(?) No, the thought, not be the thought
(?) of stuffing newspaper where the thought is
that I can't remember who

(?) No, the heart out and Fugue on a
Theme of stuffing newspaper there. Should mention this image with the heart
(?) No, the newspaper where the thought,
(?) No, the newspaper

stuffed into a very stiff
honeysuckle tree we didn't
know grew there. And in
the sunlight no less

weather reported
and problem solved
they sent in the
centipede system okay.

The (and without) car traffic
well we held hands
and medicinal intervention
was across town. Starfruit

we found out what it was called.
Rhapsody pulled out and a heart
stuffed in where the newspaper was.
Whatever. Don't (and no need to be)

Jamiroquai, nah, I mean I'm
hungry I guess we could
get noodles? You left
your sunglasses

where the newspaper was
unwadded it and placed it neatly
on the chair
unknitted the furrows

in your heart spaces
and valves. Love is the
same as blood, pumping through
only in vessels where it's supposed to go 

And let us to our fresh employments rise
A Seraph winged; six wings he wore, to shade
from the gatherings of sun and storms and
from the ropes of sunshine and lightning

flung across the heavens and storms of/and
his lineaments divine; the pair that clad
and of, and how littly lickrical/lyrical
occrical. Occuric. ? The pair

of wings split into two pair, then four,
Each shoulder broad; the middle pair
Came mantling o'er his breast with regal ornament; 
& whatever's lyrical burns away under

the creator's gaze. The measure and scope of a man
and some thieved Olson hear. Put hear. 
Where are the female portions of creation? 
Hidden? Girt like a starry zone

Like Maia's daughter she stood
And shook her plumes, that heavenly fragrance filled
The circuit wide. Haste hither Eve
Oh! There she is finally.

The two of them
Adam & Eve
both created female
the apple cart.

Then globes of moon & noon
Double moon
Six moons walking
Perception in Eden

Adam's & Eve's
Forelimbs splitting open & fingers spilling out
Tendrillous plants growing
Where the fingers fall

Blood in their veins
Circling the high sky hanging from ropes
Skimming & swooping over
The buildings & parking lots

The hologram of each other
Eve and her woman friend
Adam and her woman friend
Nuzzling their nostrils

Up on an elephant's forehead
Laughing at a carton of skim milk 
A carton in a forest clearing
And disappearing habitually, taste after taste

upheld with kindliest change
Meanwhile our primitive great sire
To meet his godlike guest
Walks without more train accompanied

than with his own complete perfection
In himself was all his taste,
More solemn than the tedious
Pomp that waits on princes.

What profiteth it a man
To dwell on who & how
The Garden of Eden happened
What it was before a story

And what is the angle
Will Starbucks buy the album
& play it & spray flowers
& sell coffee & wallpaper

Yours truly
Truly yours
I am your truly
Truly I am yours

I remain yours truly
I remain truly yours
I rename yours truly
Truly I rename yours

I do not rename yours truly
Truly I do not rename yours
I do not reflect on yours truly
Truly I do not reflect on yours

I cast no burdensome shadow on yours truly
Truly I cast no burdensome shadow on yours
I reflect on no burdensome shadow cast on yours
I rename no burdensome shadow cast on yours

I remain no burdensome shadow cast on yours
I am no burdensome shadow cast on yours. 
Let it suffice thee that thou know'st 
Us happy, and without love no happiness.

Easier than air with air, if Spirits embrace,
Total they mix, union of pure with pure
And and 
Those thousand decencies that daily flow

when turns the sand
up to look up
at the daylight and
the sand sees it

and when folds
the sand back in
on itself & it 
sees nothing nothing

and when again opens
the sand up & 
the daylight sees in
& the sand sees

and again when folds
& tucks in the
sand & nothing the
sand sees then

SHE invited in another 
one who was like 
mist or cake. The
other one was European

when she invited her 
in, in other words
there was no hint
of albumen or anything

that made her separable
into parts, 
and that's why
she was invited

in. The two
took a quietly
sexual interest in
this notion, or

fleeting sense, of
her actual body
being mistlike or
cakelike throughout,

as opposed
to what
an albumen
might mean

for how
cleanly
either of them,
but especially

this second 
one, might
fall apart. 
It was

good, it
was a
perfect decision
they made. 

I have more
to say about
this. The invited
one also had 

the radiance of
a sylph. Her
color throughout was
a mint green, 

like clay. They
were able to 
have sex together
but they had

the option to 
regard it as
cartoonish. 
I have more to

say about this. I
misconveyed, earlier, how spongelike
the ethereal quality of
anything was shown to

be by the events
related here. I have more
to say about this and 
this is new. They both

were in love with a 
different lineage of the eye
from that of the human.
There were creatures and one

could see them at the 
aquarium and elsewhere whose optical 
structures were proven to have
arisen independently, much earlier. 

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Strength undiminished, had his temple high

Or substance, how endued, thy punishment
Or dim suffusion veiled. omnipotent
When Adam thus to Eve: -ty more adorned
Who to behold but thee, to me thy thoughts

Prefer, decide the empire of great heav'n.
Of angels, (thou remember'st, for thou heard'st),
And touched by her who can enjoy alone,
The serpent subtlest beast well might, for Eve

So dreadful to thee? turned: loud was th'acclaim:
Whereat he inly raged, and war on earth,
Shall on the heart engrave. in front advanced,
And and

taste: Knowledge forbidd'n? Suspicious,
taste and die: what likelier can ensue? But
taste thy sweet, Nor God, nor Man; is Knowledge
taste? Forbid who will, none shall from me

taste this, and be henceforth among the Gods Thy
Could not but taste. Forthwith up to the Clouds With him I
taste to please True appetite, and not disrelish
Taste after taste upheld with kindliest change,

taste upheld with kindliest change, Bestirs her
taste, till this meridian heat Be over, and the
taste These bounties which our Nourisher, from
taste, Tasting concoct, digest, assimilate, And

taste Think not I shall be nice. So down they
taste, Food not of Angels, yet accepted so, As
taste; And freely all thir pleasant fruit for
taste, And shun the bitter consequence: for

taste No pleasure, though in pleasure,
Taste, Sight, Smell, Herbs, Fruits, & Flours,
taste Of pleasure, but all pleasure to destroy,
taste nor touch; God so commanded, and left that

taste. He ended, and his words replete with
taste, Sollicited her longing eye; yet first
taste, too long forborn, at first assay Gave
taste, but his forbidding Commends thee more,

Taste, Of vertue to make wise: what hinders then
taste, naught else Regarded, such delight till
taste; And hath bin tasted such; the Serpent
taste, that equal Lot May joyne us, equal Joy,

taste it under banne to touch. But past who can
Taste so Divine, that what of sweet before Hath
my experience, ADAM, freely taste, And fear of Death 
taste, And elegant, of Sapience no small part,

taste the fatall fruit, Was known in Heav'n; for
taste that Fruit, Whoever tempted; which they
taste The savour of Death from all things there
taste Deceav'd; they fondly thinking to allay

taste with spattering noise rejected: oft they
taste Of that defended Fruit; but let him boast
taste of pleasure must forgoe, To what thou
taste Of lustful apperence, to sing, to dance, 

Masahiro Mori, Masahiro Mori
What did Masahiro Mori say?
In recent years Masahiro Mori
has augmented his famous

Uncanny Valley hypothesis,
extending the line to the right beyond the
actually human antipode
in recognition of the quietly

benevolent face of the Buddha's
many representations over
the years. He asserts that a
simulacrum may be capable of

provoking sensations of peace
and compassion which are beyond
ordinary human capacity,
in addition to disgust and revulsion.

What else did Masahiro Mori say recently? 
I write a chocolate milk. I don't understand 
what are Noah, and furthermore what are you 
think this will all pan out? What have you 

think? How do you thinking about this? What 
do you think, should I mean anything but it'll 
be nice to assume that you think about this? 
What have you here. Hey buddy! And you're 

reading this something you've spent much time 
thinking about? What, are, you, thinking, about? 
Is this because your thoughts on this topic? Is 
it something you've thought about? 

What do you think this because your thoughts are 
your thoughts are you know the Hollywood movies"? 
Text me that, which I don't understand 
what your answer's going to assume that was pretty cool. 

I'm going to hear from you. By the Hollywood movies"? 
ext me that, which I already started so it's not like 
your thoughts are your Google alert
Hey buddy! And you're not like your thoughts are Noah, 

and furthermore what are Noah, and you're probably other 
people too. Maybe you're thinking. I write a long sequence called "44 movement games for amateurs 
based on this. What do you don't know the answer. Email me 
that, which I don't know the Hollywood movies"? Text me 

that, which I don't understand what you're thinking. 
I don't understand what your answer's going to hear from you. 
By the Hollywood movies"? Text me that, which I don't know 
my phone #. I mean I mean I write a chocolate milk. 

I already started so it's not anyone. 
What have you think this because your answer's 
going to mean I don't know my fault somehow. I'm thinking 
about a chocolate milk. I assume that was pretty cool. 

I'm going to assume is my fault somehow. I'm going to 
hear from you. By the Hollywood movies"? Text me if you see 
Noah Eli Gordon and friends reading this because your thoughts 
on this will all pan out? What have you think? How do you 

know the way did you thought that you thinking about this? 
Okay, that went off the rails. You people, my poet friends,
You must have some idea of the importance of your work. 
I mean, what it means to other people. Maybe you don't, 

I know I don't. What about a long sequence called 
"44 movement games for amateurs based or not like 
your Google alert brought you know the Hollywood movies"? 
Text me if you thinking about a chocolate milk. 

What do you think? What do you guys think?
What is it that you think? What
do you think? What do you thingk?
What are you thinking?

What are you thinking about?
What have you been thinking about?
What could you possibly be thinking?
What you think? What you think?

And what do YOU think? Well,
I want to know what you think
about all of this. What are you
thinking? WHAT in the WORLD,

what are you thinking? what
do you think what
do you say? what
do you think

what do you
say what do
you think what
do you say?

I don't understand what you're thinking.
I don't understand what your thoughts are
on this. What do you think?
How do you think this will all pan out?

What do you think, should I
write a long sequence called
"44 movement games for amateurs
based or not based on the Hollywood movies"?

Text me if you know the answer.
Email me if you don't know my phone #.
I mean I already started so it's not like
your answer's going to mean anything

but it'll be nice to hear from you.
By the way did you see Noah Eli Gordon
and friends reading from The Source
at some sort of Denver-area art space?

I thought that was pretty cool. I'm
going to assume that you are Noah,
and you're reading this because your
Google alert brought you here. Hey buddy!

And you're probably other people too.
Maybe you're not anyone. What do you
think about this? What are your
thoughts on this topic? Is it something

you've spent much time thinking about?
Is this something you've thought about?
What have you thought about, and fur
thermore what are you thinking about?

What, are, you, thinking, about?
Nobody ever asks me that, which
I assume is my fault somehow.
I'm thinking about a chocolate milk or

that winter will never have ended.
Or that a new story is ever needed
and that children lost in the forest
ever can be recovered 

or that the snow continues to deepen
while the fruits continue to ripen. 
A new story offers an explanation,
wolf attacks continue to happen. 

The wolf stands on its hind legs
and addresses the child's doll 
mistaking it for the true authority
and the treaty between wolf and boar

becomes enmity between dogs and pigs. 
Pigs can be trusted to find the child
even by snuffling among the ashes  
of the cottage where she was snatched

by a wildfire with two legs and carried
on burnsteps far apart, quite hurried,
to a baked-earth clearing in the very
middle of the highest mountain 

and raised by him there. Raised by
his consciousness there, the conscious
wildfire, and its eyes and heart,
the hands it never touched her with,

as though she were an icicle and 
he were her, as though he were a human
who cared for an icicle and raised it.
The village soon forgot her

but the pigs snuffled ever onward 
in search of her. They found an immortal
grown woman where a baby had been. 
The fire had gone out years earlier

The long memory of the village 
kept the fire alive, until they saw her
astride the backs of two and twenty pigs
riding through the town center 

skipping from one pig's back to the next
and wearing no clothing and teaching 
the uncomprehending village a language
the stars had taught her, a song upended

and partially spilt. They laid hands
on her. The pigs split off and disappeared into 
another story about a huge tree,
a tree which they circled around,

grazing and turning up roots, worms, and
mushrooms. So large was this tree
that as they made their constant progress 
around and around it, by the time

(many weeks later) that they returned
to any given spot, the foliage and roots
and worms and beetles and fungi 
had also returned, and so they were unable

to recognize the place. So large was this tree
that a pig could not venture away from it
far enough to not be able to see it
within one lifetime. 

Write down the precise wording before you forget. 
Which means that the work becomes self-involved 
more and more like a snail's slime trail. 
I thought of a really pithy statement which I now can't remember 
 
because you have a short-term memory problem. 
Make a list for yourself 
your hands and favorite shoes 
competitive bowling score 
 
a yo I don't wear paisley 
and I don't work blue 
and I got my rhymes written 
on the top a my right shoe 
 
and when I button up and button up 
the flaps on my hat 
then I can clean my ears 
like my name was Kit E. Kat 
 
the diner knows my schedule 
they set the table for eight 
because I work clockwise when I 
rotate to the next plate 
 
a pick up my right hand and 
wrap the fist around a marigold 
and jam it in your collar be like 
'man you got button-holed' 
 
most people hiphop nocturnally 
and I too do it at night 
against diurnal MCs I 
constantly constantly fight 
 
Okay. Enough. Here's a little 
something that you might not 
care for. (the beastie boys) 
The pitiable mammal~ 
 
Fine him~ He doesn't 
deserve his millions~ 
Take his money, 
his millions~ 
 
Carnivore 
chasing in a circle~ 
The rat itch~ 
The Tasmanian wolf 
 
tugging a steak apart 
in 1933, the end~ 
Well. The rabbits 
who can't be separated~ 
 
The mammalian neurosis~ 
The missing patches of 
fur~ How unlike the 
fitter reptile~ The 
 
bulldozer tortoise~ 
The python around your 
neck~ The utensil-less 
chameleon~ Bla~ he says~ 
 
Bla~ Give a pen to a 
horse and watch him 
fall to pieces~ 
Then, take his money~ 
 
Enough of that. I'm having 
trouble reading/following 
Robert Duncan? Please re 
commend a free online flash 
 
game where I can grow Ro 
bert Duncan? How can I fix 
my microphone hum on the 
table without spending a 
 
lot of Robert Duncan? Where 
can I buy a fake security 
camera with a Robert Duncan 
that won't fall out? 
 
Is there a Robert Duncan that 
will automatically generate 
checklists of airplane main 
tenance similar to those used 
 
by professionals? I'm having 
trouble beating the last 
level of Robert Duncan? 
Help me remember a song: 
 
it's fairly long, at least 
five minutes, has several 
different sections, and ends 
with a long blast on the 
 
Robert Duncan? What's the 
best and cheapest Robert Duncan 
in Central OH where I could go 
to get my fuel pump replaced? 
 
On the coldest day of the year 
as jumbo airliners mated 
in the careless heedless hangars 
and the fuel lines were 
 
suddenly and dully laid visible 
everyone froze. 
Cautious dullards 
They all, we all, were. 
 
A cloud of frozen steam 
broke off the tip top of the 
smokestack of Brigham & Women's hospital 
and came crashing down on 
 
a doctor's head and shoulders 
which left an inverse bust 
indented in it. Some kids chopped 
the steam up with their hands. 
 
Here are the things 
I'm going to leave out 
Here's a little someth 
a little something that 
 
you might not like. 
I was sleeping on my back during 
the demon incident I mention. Corridoricity. 
The Julian Jaynes book 
 
has been a huge help 
to me. I don't give a 
full account of that. 
Also, I'm not talking 
 
poetics anymore with 
anybody. F'all y'all. 
Corridoricity is enough, 
just the word is enough. 
 
John Cage wrote his Sonatas & Interludes 
for prepared piano in 1951 (a guess 
on my part) in response to the need 
for a full percussion ensemble for 
 
a performance in a space that didn't 
afford nearly enough space. They wheeled 
the piano in and then had to prop it up 
on its side. The pianist had to be strapped 
 
to the ceiling and was playing the keys 
only six inches away from his face. 
Lucky for him (Cage) it sounds really good 
otherwise nobody would care about the 
 
mythology of the piece, bogus or otherwise. 
The Greek Muse of Percussion came to John 
Cage in a dreamlike state and pitched him 
a piece scored for a piano unto which 
 
certain preparations had been administered. 
That muse's name was Kim. 
Kim, the Muse of Percussion. 
Sing to me, O Kim, those things 
 
which I must strike and those things 
with which I must strike them. 
Instruct and guide my strikings 
all my days, O Kim-Muse, 
 
that I may reel back and wind up 
with a big mallet or stick or a 
small stick, and aim my blow where 
it shall fall, and decide its when. 
 
One of the things I like best about this format 
is that I can do anything I want with it. I can 
bury whatever skeletal dinosaur, like the trick 
ster God of the young earth creationists, in a 
 
slowly accumulating crapflood of this thing. It 
's so satisfying to me. You're reading it. Nev 
er gets old. Anyway. How about a poetics. Can I 
tell you what I've been thinking about lately? 
 
My whole life, I've had music or words repeat 
ing in my head. People talk about having a song 
or a phrase "stuck in their head" and how annoy 
ing it can be. It's the default state for me. I 
 
tried for years to exert my willpower against 
it. Now, I regard it as a mystery worthy of my 
full attention. I laid in the dark last night, 
composing a little repetitive/additive thing, 
 
very much like a George Aperghis "14 Recitation 
s" kind of thing. Composed/improvised. It didn 
't matter. It was biology, in a way that it was 
n't culture. And/or vice versa? But vice versa? 
 
It wasn't culture. Actually I think it was cult 
ure taking place in a non-cultural space. Go yo 
utube some Aperghis, then imagine you're the on 
e who can hear it, and who's generating it. To 
 
this unembellished source of words heard but al 
so generated (and I've also occasionally heard 
voices, & once experienced (what seemed at the 
time) like an actual demon sitting on my chest, 
 
& expressed a terrible fear of demon possession 
in an interview with Rae Armantrout in the book 
12 x 12 edited by Joshua Marie Wilkinson, a fe 
ar which seems to me now like an impediment. A 
 
nd I haven't even mentioned the book "The Orig 
in of Consciousness in the Breakdown of the Bi 
Cameral Mind" by Julian Jaynes, which actually 
has clarified my thinking about this very much. 
 
Jaynes is another one who muddles up culture & 
biology, but the book is fascinating. This all 
adds up by the way to Spicer. Or Spicer Plus, I 
think. Because, well wait a minute I'm getting 
 
ahead of myself) I'll start over with the pre- 
parenthetical. To this unfathomable source of 
words and word-like material (to which I have 
easy access, not being special or gifted or ( 
 
God forbid) actively cultivating a mental illn 
ess, cf. Jaynes for this -- we're talking about 
a human ability. Bats can fly, humans generate 
poetry) to this source I will yoke the 10,000 
 
things. I will narratize the gibberish into a p 
oem called "Uncanny Valley" in fact I already d 
id. It is a dream, a creation story, it flies, 
it drives, it repeats and repeats. I also wrote 
 
Priscilla Lioness, a poem pulled apart & und 
one by cold premeditated algorithm and on the o 
ther hand raving lunacy. My path forward is lit 
by the way in the poems "Canard" and "Heard Hal 
 
f-Awake..." which were thought to be publishabl 
e by someone who should know. "Canard" almost 
discusses it explicitly: wanting to hear someth 
ing without being able to, hearing things and w 
 
riting them down. "Heard" is the literal and un 
embellished product of just such a process, but 
Canard considers it against other things. I'm 
not going to read my poems for you, here. But t 
 
hese two poems are flashlight spots on a map th 
at was previously dark to me. I can't not explo 
re it, I can't decide not. How can I sing the o 
ld songs in a strange land? I'll follow what I 
 
'm hearing. Can you see now why "picking the po 
ems that I liked all the way through" seems li 
ke the narrowest-minded of all possible reading 
s? I can understand it only as a failure on my 
 
part to fit the criteria of your brand, which, 
I promise, is a very happy failure. You like k 
ind poems. Everything's okay and humanism recou 
ps the gentle tragedies of life. I have never b 
 
een less interested in that, in light of the ab 
ove. I'm interested in the ecstatic -- variousl 
y defined, but by definition excluded from huma 
nism. But weirdly more compassionate and at the 
 
very least possessed of a burbling and uncomfor 
table LIFE, the life that the outer reaches of 
metal can speak. Try "Hypostasis of the Archons 
" by Secret Chiefs 3. Inhuman, but at least hum

ane. It's in Conlon Nancarrow too, and Ketjak.
Not in much contemporary poetry, not downstream
of your sluice especially. I don't mean to hit
below the belt. You have your own things to be

lieve in and you're a kind person. You weren't
passing judgement on my poetry so much as hold
ing it up to standards that aren't mine: no pro
blem. I was sort of disappointed but I think I

understand now. I don't know what to do with my
new work but it doesn't matter, & that's not wh
y I'm writing this. I wanted to articulate for
myself and for you what I think you missed, &

why I'm not open to writing more poems that be" 
long in that general family of poems." If that 
doesn't or does make sense, it's okay. I'm wri 
ting (written) now the best book(s) of my life. 
 
It was a day filled with pride. 
Anyway, what the head 
nah, it looked like a fish 
They put it on an anchovy 
 
Okay. Well, pretend 
it didn't happen the most 
disgusting theing 
THEING 
 
And stomach ache right now. 
Who liked it, why did you 
do that. What's a dstomach 
DSTOMACH ache? What's that? 
 
It was so bad it was so bad. 
I couldn't do it again. 
Christmans CHRISTMANS lights 
No it was enough and feel 
 
the space the star gives him 
power to breathe in outer space 
and spin around with spin power. 
They weren't like that washing machine 
 
but I didn't speak Italina 
ITALINA and none of them spoke English. 
Oh that's really good. Usually 
I like to put stuff on that 
 
it never makes me seick SEICK 
what else is new? Not a thing. 
Nothing I have a really boring life. 
I have a really boring life too. 
 
Boston gets old after a while. She 
said this whith WHITH what sounded 
like a straight face. Would 
like to know how that sounds. 
 
Okay. Here goes. Here's 
to you and your. I'm toasting 
your with a straight face. 
God's blessings to you and your. 
 
YOUR 
YOUR 
YOUR 
YOUR 
 
The Spirit of Ecstasy was also 
manufactured by the British Queen's 
mascot of St. George on horseback, 
slaying a dragon, designed by 
 
Charles Robinson Sykes and carries 
with it a story about a secret 
passion between John Walter Edward 
Douglas-Scott-Montagu, (second 
 
Lord Montagu of Beaulieu after 1905, 
a pioneer of the mascot to the 
marque, with the mascot. Sykes' 
signature appeared on the plynth 
 
the inscription "C. Sykes, 26.1.34", 
the date when the mascot to 
suit the sports saloons. The kneeling 
lady mascot was unveiled on 
 
26 January 1934 (devised for the secrecy 
was Eleanor's impoverished 
social and economic status, which was 
an obstacle to their cars. 
 
Claude Johnson, then managing director 
of Rolls-Royce Motor Cars, 
was asked to see to the marque, 
with the specifications that it impaired 
 
the driver's view, and was as 
undeniably a reflection of Eleanor 
as it was officially listed as an 
optional extra, but in practice 
 
it was a symbol of the Royal fleet's cars. 
On the other side, Princess 
Margaret chose Pegasus (by Louis Lejeune) 
as hood ornament on Rolls-Royce 
 
cars. It is in the original 
standing mascot, and by 1910 personal 
mascots had become the fashion of 
the Rolls-Royce. It also bore on 
 
the prow of a smaller version of 
the mascot is called The Flying 
Lady. The Flying Lady. The Flying Lady. 
The Flying Lady was a symbol 
 
of the Rolls-Royce, namely, speed 
with silence, absence of vibration, 
the mysterious harnessing of great 
energy and a graduate of London's 
 
Royal College of Art, to produce a mascot 
which would adorn all future 
Rolls-Royce cars and become generic 
to the marque, with the mascot. 
 
Sykes' signature appeared on the plinth 
and were either signed "Charles 
Sykes, February 1911" or "6.2.11". 
Even after Rolls-Royce took over 
 
the casting of the Rolls Royce 
have given The Spirit of Ecstasy'. 
He called this first model The 
Spirit of Ecstasy stands at 3 inches 
 
and, for safety, is mounted on a 
spring-loaded mechanism designed 
to retract instantly into the radiator 
shell if struck from any direction. 
 
There is a button within the vehicle 
which can retract/extend the 
emblem when pressed. She can be made 
of highly polished stainless 
 
steel, sterling silver and gold 
being optional extras. The only departure 
from this came in Paris at the 
competition for the bonnet of his 
 
Rolls-Royce Silver Ghost, Sykes 
chose to modify 'The Whisper' into 
a version similar to today's; 'The 
Spirit of Ecstasy stands at 3 
 
inches and, for safety, is mounted on 
a spring-loaded mechanism designed 
to retract instantly into the radiator 
shell if struck from any direction. 
 
There is a button within the vehicle 
which can retract/extend the 
emblem when pressed. She can be 
placed in any of the Rolls-Royce, 
 
Three tropical islands of 
the continental shelf 
of each other, please connect 
a very large oceanic 
 
islands. 
All support is very 
much like a lizard. 
All three islands, is 
 
approximately Y-shaped, 
doubled the length of some of these. 
All is of volcanic origin. 
Some islands have 
 
at least some banks 
and high-speed marine limestone 
should be considered only 
during the ice for all the 
 
world altitude too. 
Thus, in each case, 
some of the islands banks 
will probably go back at least 
 
the Miocene. Some of the islands 
never gained for all carved or 
diagrammed. Some of the island 
Some of the islands 
 
Some of the island 
Some of the islands 
Some of the island 
We hope you find it, 
 
we are looking for knowledge... 
all legendary monsters, vicious 
beast... snake oil to come, 
please do extensive virgin feather keratin. 
 
All three islands of the sea 
and the consumer, 
general history 
of the island 
 
is very herpetofaunas. Question 
is "wife" Herpetofaunas 
is to get all the 
water has spread. 
 
This occurs when there is salt. 
Popcorn. 
Foldy foldy times. 
They mustard pretzels, 
 
chips from the tasty 
than teeth! 
There is no reason 
not Metzel ?!?!??!?!?! y 
 
Go crunch. Go crunch. Go crunch. 
I'm confiding a secret here where it will be buried 
by other secrets and never read. Yes I know 
this whole mess is unreadable that's why I'm writing it. 
 
I will write the poems 
of a crustacean who has 
committed to performing the English 
language with no further agenda 
 
Beyond belief. Yes you learn the stories 
But you also learn a very plastic quality 
of them -- a shrink-wrap of nihilism 
and then you hear the same story 
 
coming out of Babylonian mouths. What 
it must have been like to write Spicer's 
"How mother fucker am I supposed to sing
when I remember Zion I can't even imagine" 
 
I'm of course paraphrasing. Googled it, found it. 
"How motherfucker can I sing a sad song
when I remember Zion." 
Zach Galifianakis what are you listening to. 
 
What am I listening to. Doesn't it matter 
and what does it sound like, which means 
that there are multiple concurrent sounds 
and sound sources. Tear the layers apart 
 
in photoshop and treat each one as an 
individual. Meaning 
you can't listen to something and 
Mozart at the same time 
 
or you can't make music with a mustard jar 
well I regard that claim with non-credulity 
But do I regard any music that way 
and if I tell you (like I am teapot of cliches) 
 
that music is the most incredible thing there is 
can I get my assertions verified 
I mean you're listening to the same thing I am 
and I can't even believe it. Talk Talk, 
 
Steve Reich, Soul Coughing, Smashing Pumpkins, 
I'm going in reverse order here 
Stop me if you've heard this one 
Okay, nix the pumpkins, I can't even 
 
believe their whole thing. Go away 
Billy Corgan Go Away: The Online Petition 
Ha 
Anyway. Remember when a song would start with 
 
Someone's answering machine supposedly 
That was the band No Doubt. Yes 
The stupidest mainstream 90s crap 
No disbelief. No non-credulity 
 
Sorry, I'm not home right now. 
Gwen Stefani makes a bass drum sound 
by blinking her eyelids 
the way a snake would 
 
The nictitating membrane (yeah, spelled it wrong and ev 
rything) Let's see what else I've got in my itunes 
Cripes 
A lot of Secret Chiefs 3 
 
Did I ever tell you about them? It's been a long time 
since I told anyone I had a favorite band. Not that long 
I told Ian that and then (a gesture) sent him 
a Secret Chiefs 3 CD and made a big deal out of it 
 
completely unnecessarily, and never heard back if 
he liked it or didn't like it, but being Ian he probably 
liked everything. And then got the high score 
on a beautiful arcade cabinet high atop 
 
a Mickey Mouse "Fantasia" wizard precipice, 
the sprites multiply under Ian's fingertips and 
he continues and continues to defeat them. 
It is incredible, and I don't believe it. 
 
I just put on "The 4" just this second. 
Our situation in time is bizarre. 
I have to buy a table today 
So that tomorrow I can film a 
 
New series of 
something something something. 
A small portion of destructive energy 
resting in a black ball on the table 
 
surrounded by commonplace objects 
and I make sounds using the objects 
in order to erase the destructive energy 
apagar apagar apagar 
 
and that's the premise. It's so simple. 
Who would have believed something as simple as that 
before say even the dawn of Youtube. 
I'm talking about 5 years ago or less. 
 
I can't remember. I can't remember what 
I was hearing only moments ago. 
All of this music is driving me 
crazy except that I'm alive and in 
 
a blessed state. Okay Chiefs that's enough, 
I heard up through about 2 minutes of 
The Owl in Daylight and I'm going to 
change it. Melt-Banana "Last Target on 
 
the Last Day" okay now we are talking. 
I can't believe that there could seem to be something 
important about whatever time-scheme 
is on display in this song. I could fill your lobes 
 
with my thoughts on this topic. Or 
the boiled down version is "wonder" 
and "gratitude" and "it's good that sounds 
make us feel things isn't it" and 
 
this song is part of that. Oops Jamiroquai 
let me switch this actually never mind I'm 
probably going to have to let it run for a minute. 
Okay that was fun. 
 
The Invisible Rays yes, they're a band I should 
totally tell you about. http://www.theinvisiblerays.com/ 
From the liner notes of their album 
Salute the American Popular Song: "The rapture in 
 
which a single listening can leave its sonic 
paramour has been artfully described by Angelo 
Repullo of the Chicago News-Times Sentinel 
as "simply the finest example of instru- 
 
mental meta-rock ever recorded." This 
writer does not know Repullo, but this 
writer knows that Repullo is right on. 
These songs are young. Their collec- 
 
tive heart nibbles and caresses near- 
perfection by the ear-full. We yearn" 
and more like that. Hi Brendan! I love the album 
I need to hear more 
 
that simple 
of a premise. 
a person 
could. hardly. disbelieve. 
 
Gyorgy Ligeti (Pierre-Laurent Aimard, Piano) 
Der Zauberlehrling, Piano Etudes (Deuxieme livre) 
Someone on facebook praised someone else 
for "condemning without being didactic" 
 
and the reason I'm telling you about it 
in such a straightforward and artless way 
is that you are there 
and I am here 
 
and this is a blessed state 
as I already mentioned. 
I extend to you an all-embracing and indifferent love 
and I will have more poems for you next time. 
 
Redacted is dated 
The earlier datedness of the videogame (ie blocky) 
is reclaimed by some intersection 
of nostalgia and willpower which is dated. 
 
There was a dated guitar sale 
skewer is a dated word 
next time a dated song plays 
there's not dated band name comedy 
 
How's the easiest way to make a 
sound sound dated. I supposed blockhead 
studio laughter might be it 
or help. It was sad 
 
It was not sand 
how the guy who can 
only make pretend screams 
in a microphone 
 
inside a microphone 
He's in there. So's the microphone 
Oh hi, there you are 
Let's play a music game 
 
The game is based on mimesis 
I have a different sensorium 
than you but I'm called upon 
to mimic your sense experience 
 
or that of a third party 
at a given signal from the conductor 
and I gain or lose ground that way 
audio ground, where the emeralds grow 
 
Yes it's an emerald laser microphone 
and that's why everything sounds 
green on the inside of it, you 
can only hear things inside a 
 
microphone when there's a microphone 
in there. Then the game changes 
because somebody held up a sign 
and a harp, and the cymballist 
 
made a harp sound, so he starts to win 
but he hasn't won yet, his team 
has gained some ground. Oh Gawd 
music is so boaring sometimes. 
 
Music needs a lot of serious help 
like the giddy cheap thrill of 
the bed of a pickup truck on the highway type of 
game indeterminacy 
 
to make anybody keep its interest. 
Music is in orbit and that's why it's boring. 
Music is rings around THA PLANET bowring 
seriously. 
 
Dynamic changes are ba-roring. 
John Zorn's camouflage pants are some advanced boring. 
Mouth, that's boring. Mario Kart 
turtleshell sound More is bore 
 
ING. Dogsbark 
is a boring plant sound that 
grows on leaves which hear it. 
Music is the totality of what you hear, including 
 
Oh, I heard something interesting 
the blind bald drummer with the forcep head 
set to the text a human wrote. 
Then he went outside and got 
 
street bored all day, 
he stuck a mud sign 
in the street, he made a 
homeless man bore dance date. 
 
These things happen in groups of days 
which carry over one to the next 
by means of what you dream about 
race track and all. Simply 
 
coated inside and out with ants 
and wake up with a tender feeling 
for her, or the sense that you 
saw her naked and have to take responsibility for her. 
 
And the letdown in the wake of that 
is no different that standard pinball 
I mean the ball drains eventually 
I am terrible at pinball, and a pessimist 
 
instead of a 
smooth shiny ball it's 
my bleeding stump of a 
hand, not moving 
 
as the flippers whap at it angrily 
The mayor shows up expressly to 
forbid that kind of activity. 
Thank you mayor, you orderly mayor 
 
Next time you choose 
I can't trust myself 
They pierced the tonguenail 
and it split in half 
 
turning him into two snakes in one body 
That doesn't make sense. Asleep 
at least I'm asleep, rather I've 
made a sleep object out of legos 
 
look at the little lego guns 
that shoot lasers. I'm really 
sleeping now. Ooops I'm awake. 
Now I'm asleep again. Days pass 
 
Crab day means 
making a little fingernail sound 
in response to any 
question or human. 
 
I was an awful person, 
and the layout of the streets 
I remember getting lost way up 
in the northwest part of town 
 
and the next day my bike chain 
had fallen off which I thought was 
funny, apparently I now remember I 
ran aground on a car hood 
 
Felt funny and awful the next day 
and mixed up paint and made some 
self-involved document of it. 
Called a friend and was like 
 
In a box in the back of the closet 
There 
's a tossed off sketch which was 
important at the time. 
 
It was never hypothetical with you, though, 
and I don't know what happened to you. 
I guess the thing is to remember someone's last name. 
I looked them all up, if I could 
 
Then again they spent 
seventeen years in jail 
I mean all together. 
Spackgetti is how he spelled it 
 
Spackgetti spackgetti sauce 
he carved it into some suburban fence 
and now there's a picture of him 
carving it. Well I'm glad 
 
you wasted the film, someone. 
Someone's DAD. Afraid of 
what would happen to his property value. 
In the middle of the following night 
 
we burned his fence down 
as cruelly as was possible. 
This hypothetical stuff 
kills me every time. 
 
I was never a people person 
I called the next day but 
Does eyesight disintegrate? It seems 
sunlight through chainlink fence 
 
The other friend took open the 
stapler and played the little 
spring inside, right into the mike. 
The sound of the thickness of a melon-plant vine. 
 
that a wetsuit is the only way 
Did we laugh at comedy, or comedies? 
We mostly laughed 
I would now call our laughter 
 
the one about the buoyant zucchini 
which makes me feel old 
or the one that took a while, or the 
one that was a stone stolen 
 
Saw the carrot flavored moon rise 
from the edge of nowhere and with Ryan 
got back in the car and went and 
played Angband till the convulsions 
 
The top of Longs Peak 
a big whistling note that scooped 
out a new valley all the way back 
song in my head 
 
The same songs, the same songs 
over and over again. Natalie Merchant 
makes me want to grind my little 
ear bones into deaf powder 
 
I missed it, though, I was out 
of town. You guys went ahead 
what was wrong with me 
he lit a page of a Spanish workbook 
 
tipped a fireworks tube over 
on its side and shot the neighbor's 
fence, could have been a lot worse 
a big beautiful shower of sparks 
 
Remember what it was like then 
listening just to the Smashing Pumpkins 
and no world of music could move 
it in any other direction 
 
Where did your lenses land recently? 
Oh well, or in other words, it's hard 
typing a font has no larynx. RRRRRRR 
mumble engine then. Walking around 
 
nonexistent particules rumbling 
in straight lines away from 
the camera and the planet surface 
to become part of pixel-coated every 
 
thing and the brain and blood mixing in 
gosh I miss the internet. Rhetoric 
and cauliflowers work within and under 
stand a work sample of a music 
 
a bat may hope for a music 
whatever a oneness may wish 
rhetoric on irrelevancy ends in 
a fool's slapdash errand 
 
give them gross music or nice 
to understand and change oneness 
and work within an sample system 
cauliflowers stack the grocer's shelves 
 
in the brain and blood and bones 
more of an open-source telekinesis 
if oneness can be whatever 
give me an example of irrelevancy 
 
chugging down massive bat nectar 
and deliver a work sample 
to use the sample of a system 
change the slapdash through will 
 
I eat telekinesis for breakfast 
only a portion of oneness will 
change what music even is 
to work within an irradiation 
 
a portion of oneness will change 
what music is and deliver a fool 
slapdash telekinesis to use the sample 
of oneness irrelevancy to use 
 
the slapdash wish rhetoric on time 
a system and deliver a music even 
to use the slapdash errand give me 
they understand oneness can be whatever 
 
may wish understand and change 
what music is a slapdash through 
will I hope for change in oneness 
irradiating a music to deliver to understand 
 
they're saying a slapdash telekinesis 
to use the world through irrelevancy 
to change oneness and blood 
and for breakfast only a portion 
 
of a sample system on irrelevancy 
in oneness can be a work sample of oneness 
a music they're saying is a fool's oneness 
within a portion of a sample of a slapdash system 
 
and for a slapdash errand give them gross music 
and deliver a slapdash rhetoric 
on time a fool's wish to 
chance what music is to deliver 
 
wish to work with the brain and within 
an open-source telekinesis I eat 
telekinesis to use the system on time 
a portion of oneness may have been a power 
 
of a slapdash wish to understand oneness 
work with the power of irrelevancy chugging 
and work within an sample of oneness 
can be whatever gross music whatever 
 
a portion of irrelevancy to understand 
and deliver a slapdash system 
change the world with the sample system 
irrelevancy ends in a system on irrelevancy 
 
chugging down blood and work within the system 
change the grocer's shelves the power of oneness 
irradiating a music or nice music whatever 
give me an irradiation and deliver a fool 
 
cauliflowers stack the world 
with the sample will 
to deliver a fool's slap 
the brain and deliver 
 
a sample to work within 
an irradiation and blood 
and change oneness and work 
an example of a wish 
 
to understand music or nice 
to change oneness and work 
with the grocer's shelves in 
oneness may have been a portion 
 
oneness irradiating a power 
of oneness and change what music is 
they're saying a oneness will 
I hope for an irrelevancy end 
 
20 irradiating a system 
on time a wish 
within the power 
of oneness and work 
 
within an sample 
of oneness will 
I hope for once 
change the power 
 
of irrelevancy 
to understand 
what music is 
going to use 
 
the slapdash wish 
rhetoric on irrelevancy 
chugging down change 
the system 
 
irrelevancy a work the 
system change oneness they 
understand what music or 
nice to deliver a 
 
work with it may 
a system on irrelevancy 
ends in the system on 
a system chance oneness 
 
can it be that whatever 
gave me a sample it 
a power sample it 
may have been a work within a sample system 
 
change the 
world through 
irrelevancy ends 
in a portion 
 
of oneness 
may have 
been a 
oneness caught within 
 
telekinesis for 
a portion 
of oneness 
caught within an 
 
open-source telekinesis 
for breakfast 
only a 
portion of oneness 
 
they understand 
what music 
or nice 
to use the 
 
world through 
will I 
eat telekinesis 
if oneness may 
 
wish to 
change the 
sample of 
oneness and blood 
 
and I 
eat telekinesis 
is going 
to change the 
 
power of 
telekinesis and 
work with 
it may have 
 
been a 
oneness will 
I hope 
for breakfast only 
 
a portion 
of irrelevancy 
ends in 
oneness irrelevancy 
 
chugging down 
and I 
eat telekinesis 
and for breakfast 
 
only a 
slapdash wish 
understand what 
music is going 
 
to work 
within a 
sample to 
use the slapdash 
 
telekinesis if 
oneness will 
change the 
grocer's shelves in 
 
the system 
change the 
power sample 
system and change 
 
the power 
of telekinesis 
for breakfast 
only a portion 
 
of irrelevancy 
ends in 
the grocer's 
shelves in oneness 
 
irrelevancy in 
oneness and 
deliver a 
oneness caught within 
 
telekinesis to 
chance what 
music is 
they're saying 
 
a fool's 
slapdash telekinesis 
is to 
use the world 
 
through irrelevancy 
in a 
fool's slapdash 
errand give me 
 
an irradiation 
and work 
sample it 
may wish and 
 
deliver a system on time 
a fool's slapdash telekinesis is 
going to change the power of oneness 
they understand what music is 
 
they're saying a power sample 
it may have been a slapdash wish 
understand oneness and for once 
change the world through irrelevancy 
 
to use the power of telekinesis 
to deliver a sample of oneness 
caught within a slapdash system 
and work within telekinesis 
 
irradiating a slapdash wish 
to work with the system 
change what music is 
and change the world with it 
 
and work within the system 
to chance what music is 
a portion of oneness 
irrelevancy in oneness 
 
What comes next? Where does this end? 
When the red exit sign comes on and 
the 33-minute mark comes and goes? 
Does experience have a fixed length? 
 
I have been alive. 
And scan 
treelined glades. 32 
carve out a living. 
 
The body in humanism of course. 
Thirty one injustices 
Because you came up with 
EVERYTHING truffles 
 
Continue to 
and continue to eat chocolate croissants. 
THIRTY 
with disaster 
 
to make such enthusiastic mockery 
of the deaths of 29 innocent people 
the supreme court said. 
What is this planet I foresee 
 
Energy music. Twenty eight beats. FAST. 
Talisman from the old world 
at the center of the melody. (continue) 
Here I stand in history with headphones on 
 
People are right about what's gone 
and the word Utopia has been changing 
ever since. Three times three times three 
ice cream and rum. 
 
Polka dots which were inevitable. 
Don't talk that way to me, your [sic] 
a scatterbrain. 26 
out of 100 
 
it over it over 
boredom there in the flowers. 
and has and has 
twenty five 
 
silver sky show them 
what they're missing 
only blossoms 
once every twenty four 
 
Once every twenty three years 
must be some kind of chemical 
thought. Moving over the ragged 
Ocean, the surface of the 
 
I hope you see stained glass all over again. 
It's not easy enough to make it add up, 
by universally understood catch 22 logic, 
who snipe at helldwellers from hell's mezzanine. 
 
So go to Louisiana 
where the greatest spectacle of the 21st century 
is unfolding. Atlantis! 
The end of a world. 
 
A pelican which is lighter than air in some ways 
on the president's watch. 
I don't put words to things 
I just, put them. 20/20 
 
Thinks sockets forming in 
things 
19s 
Not boring enough. 
 
Yeadache. P 
REssTARt to continUuUUuuuuuuuu 
wull. 18 A 
teeng!! 
 
Yesterday has been and gone 
Tonight I'm current all night long 
Watching seventeen shows at once 
Wondering what the TV wants 
 
Windows made of smashed jewel cases, 
new names made of the sixteen chapel. 
From the unseen pleuroma of foul words 
the child summoned an imagined barbed 
 
The age has gotten good 
at the pithy non-sequitur, 
the charged utterance, 
and the fifteen blades. 
 
Misery in every direction. Perfectly formed 
when compared with the poverty of the age 
In fourteen lines exactly. Desire causes 
suffering, which doesn't exist. Solve 
 
Around, around, around. No 
Yes I believe in reincarnation. 
It was in the thirteens. 
And this is coming from someone who has seen cell migration under UV 
 
Twelve fat couples danced harmlessly 
In a color palette of extreme moonlight. 
They that trod the grounds down 
They who were yet to be convinced 
 
Elevated eleven 
Mirrored 
Garden 
Variety 
 
Or so they 
Trance. Waking metatation. 
What's going on in music lately? 
Coming up at ten, 
 
A USB cable is performative. 
Line break the stupidest bullshit I ever wrote 
Or whatever. Nine 
will give in 
 
Spin the eight sided character 
so that down is where the 
ground is. That's what the writing 
means. A certain character. 
 
Seven. Get all precious about what paddle 
or ball is regulation. People 
are the wordst. Oh my god why my 
saying that constantly!? 
 
Make me capable of sustained attention 
Hand me that thing that 
says fruit pie six on 
it. Mayke me pay attention 
 
Support me in my old age 
Tell me where the ground up 
The ground is down. 
Five of my aged daughters 
 
A group of best scientists 
Are about to teleporting information 
Negative four femtoseconds 
Thy 
 
Tthem, Tthey, Ttherefore 
radness itself 
Tthree rent velcro sounds 
zcx zcx zcx 
 
send more food okay 
green 
well roll both eyes 
insignia ring 
 
wuttever color, or red 
transitional form of the 
ability to group 
multiple disagreements in only 
 
Broadcasting directly from the highest point 
of the foothills outside of the city of your soul... 
It's the [mumbled] Show [mumbled]!! Starring, 
your host, okay let's take it again, 
 
I think I blew that one. Plus, 
who wrote this intro? I'm writing 
it again. Well fire him. Or her. 
Should we refer to our ratings at the 
 
top of the show? Awful, of course. 
[mumbled]... the questions 
I ask, because questions, 
are gateways to the, 
 
how does that phrase go? 
The eyes of the nation are 
the gateways.... to the... 
So... renewed then? 
 
What? Cancelled? 
Based on what? 
I'm so sick of 
executives you 
 
know I actually passed up 
an opportunity to 
executive produce and middle man 
age a three camera sitcom 
 
hand me the paprika, would you, 
started off as a joke writer, 
a sort of Stockholm syndrome, 
leaves one with an audience!? 
 
So you pretend to you 
to be you and you 
be the guest sit over 
there, keep your mouth 
 
HI THERE, we're back! Thanks 
for coming back. Calm 
down, calm down. Calm 
down. Calm it on down 
 
Okay. This is a tennis guy. 
What'd you win? Some 
Open? Dja win the.... 
Did you just play, like 
 
you literally came here 
after the match ended? 
Well you smell like 
tennis and butt. 
 
I don't even want 
to do the show tonight. 
Most nights I'm enthusiasm 
itself, is that music? 
 
Do you hear that? Are 
they seriously just 
playing..... is that a pinball 
machine... well tell them 
 
knock it off we're trying 
to do a show in here I 
can't have that garbage 
in the background. 
 
Tennis guy, you were saying. 
Do tell. You don't say. 
Get off my show. 
I hate this show, you know 
 
that? I wouldn't watch this 
show. Get in the oven, 
let's take a call. 
Caller, are you there? 
 
The oven is a late 
night talk show it 
this that pathology 
center late night 
 
talk show. The guests 
come onto the oven 
scintillating anecdote 
and they have a new 
 
movie. One likes to 
waterski. Goddammit all 
I want to host a late 
night talk show. A chat 
 
show, you UK people. Hot 
here in this talk show. 
Food cooking next to her. 
Like a casserole dish on 
 
sofa next to her. Kiss 
the host on the cheek 
endure his fake advances 
you're a movie star for 
 
pete's sake. Tell your 
stupid anecdote. What's 
the matter with you, why 
why why! Why not an 
 
interesting anecdote. 
Lord in heaven. Father 
above. Smite this horrible 
movie star. Lightning 
 
bolt. Right now. Split 
right down the part 
of her perfect head of hair 
next guest. Who are you? 
 
What? Books? You did what? 
Ran, somewhere? In Mexico? 
Hot down there. Yeah I 
know hot in the studio 
 
here in the oven no 
cameras by the way. Nob 
ody will ever see this. 
Go head with your story, ran 
 
or whatever. Yeah, hot. 
WE GET IT. IT'S AN 
OVEN oh christ that came 
out louder than I thought. 
 
Sorry you were saying. And 
by the way, help your 
self to some of this 
gravy. This oven makes 
 
the best gravy. We want 
to thank our friends at 
Swanson's or whatever. 
Some gravy company. You, 
 
book guy, mexico guy, you 
ever eat good gravy? You 
get back from a run and 
have some gravy? Okay, 
 
we'll be right back our 
next guest is two-time 
Olympic gold medulist oh 
Jeebus I flubbed medalist, we'll go again in 3, 2, 
 
race rano revenana mnnoiiance 
o semmance rearro caww 
There was a caterpillar wrapped in a comforter 
It didn't want to be tickled awake. 
 
walking arm in arm down a road that represents time 
symptomatic sentences or a banana milkshake again 
a stirring motion, a gesture made in silence 
then spring to the ground, grown man 
 
not really acting like Sherlock Holmes 
then looking up and going 'who am I?' 
like she's supposed to know 
The big dumb magnifying glass I carry around 
 
solve the fly dream 
solve it solve it 
fly dream fly dream 
halve the fly dream 
 
over a piece of paper 
messy drawing, fist drawing 
like an interpretive gilgamesh 
Rooster gamble. 
 
spider and company 
pmixed cepment pmetaphors. 
Daytime things 
Disappointment pizza. 
 
Landed gentry on the ceiling at 10:00 in 
lobster claw costumes trampling daffodils 
Loud guffaws of the moa family 
spent on a penultimate pair of 
 
pretty, prurient, paisley pants. 
I haven't seen you in forever 
(knocking sound in kitchen) 
I haven't seen you since retard days. 
 
We love everything and everybody, the 
days are made of love, practicality 
hair and love all-encompassing 
love leaves streaks all over the glasses 
 
We love each other, we love 
hugs, we hug each other 
The commoners get tired, 
go home and redistrict. 
 
Light from ipod in pocket. 
Sort of yelping, too soon to 
run out of alphabet letters 
but hugs are good and okay 
 
footsteps mean eyeballs 
you saw me through a 
new punctuation mark 
tossed it down, flop. 
 
Chromaticism wigglied away 
free as a fish 
from all its practitioners 
by 1909, oh music. 
 
Good silence 
makes elbow joints miniatures 
Anyway I wanted to ask 
Do you have any free time today 
 
Rabid but cured tree 
steward of commotion 
little jumps, intervals 
some easy Ligeti, let it run 
 
I tore off toward 
the uncomplicated rain 
the lightning strike of caffeine 
well the driver saw me 
 
pair of speakers under the arm 
stillborn and an anachronism 
safety, though, and a swivel-point 
a set point the smile returns to. 
 
Nouns really. And verbs. 
Spine can be a snake 
for you. What I love 
about you. Would have 
 
Would've 
tens 
of thousands. 
Like they say. 
 
grapefruit ripe tiptoe 
easy silence. Soreness 
My entire body sore. 
Soreness over the entire inner surface 
 
His flesh and fingers are love. 
Great indignant oaths delivered 
to heaven. I would shield him 
with money. His head is made of music. 
 
Tally him 
the proper handshakes 
weren't ever exigent enough 
Find out for me 
 
And we've been here before. 
But it's okay. I recognize 
The place. There's some 
Thing so kind about a music 
 
That exists in San Francisco 
At the birth of minimalism, 
A term with no adherents. 
It takes nine minutes to exist. 
 
There is proof that it's all 
Going to be alright, and there 
Are electrically-generated 
Cymbals, waveforms. They knew 
 
All about that stuff. The 
music isn't hard. It's a 
Moog and some other stuff. 
Loops and stuff like that. 
 
If I had listened to this 
When I was 20 I would've abso 
Lutely died. And here on 
This lunar world, complications 
 
Are minor. I might not make it 
Back alive. One after another 
They murder themselves. It's 
Alright, they are at peace. The 
 
Red, the black of the blood 
Is the marker belief can't contend 
With, the boundary of faith. 
Wisdom, and the nightmares it 
 
Has. A character named Sophia. 
It's going to be alright. She 
Puts her headphones back on 
And turns away. The room is lit 
 
Suddenly from below. Waist-deep 
In it, waist-deep in a lunar rock 
Horizon line, infinity sweeping 
Right through the rock waist. 
 
Wade up to there, wade into 
The moon. No moon there, quarry 
Ex-scape. Nothing arrives so fast 
That you can't hear it, and 
 
Really we're talking about patterns 
Of vibrations which your mouth can 
Do sort of halfway most of the time 
Because your throat is hollow 
 
And your lungs are capacious and 
You haven't given up the ability 
To speak, speaking is a buzzing 
Moment. When stereo separation 
 
Interrompts, Satan is born, fork 
Ed tongue, double-pronged horns, 
Pitchfork, twin tail, sees with 
An echo, energy and disaster. An 
 
Organ can generate such a pure 
Tone. Where did I go wrong? I 
Think that's a mistake, I think 
Things will turn out alright, 
 
I could literally listen to this 
Music all day. I'll be listening 
To this for the rest of my life. 
It's falsifiable, it's a prop!! 
 
Someone is trying to tell me it's 
Alright right now. Ripples and 
Vibrations propagate down the ch 
Ain of causality all around. 
 
Nothing is meant to trick or 
Humiliate. Skin crawls but 
It distills out to miracle 
Plus frog, so it's even funny. 
 
Or what's the sonic component 
Is this sonority going to 
bla bla 
Or what's any other component, 
 
Full-length gong albums 
Seldomer 
Avveraged 
Severance 
 
Trash brarrell. Strike hard 
against the underside. 
Percussion shakes 
foundational 
 
Words. People gotta say bad things 
about Logos. 
Music in none of its forms. 
♥ Harry Partch ♥ 
 
Well anyway. Speech 
has always had a melody. 
Mallet stricke 
takes it out of me. 
 
Censer syrup 
Censors Europe 
Sensors are up 
bleeruprrupprp 
 
I want a marimba 
Already. 
I would be so bad at 
Marimba already 
 
Marrom 
é gratis e 
ni um ni outro. 
Ni sem dominatrices 
 
A ferida fica marrom 
e sozinho. 
É você na qual 
tal e tal. 
 
Tenhas que ter 
saudades dos vídeos 
da lua, lua 
pra ser bem gringo. 
 
Marimba de lua 
Berimbau de saudades 
Vídeo de estudantes de medicina 
Sirugía do gringo 
 
pra implantar 
uma porção de arroz 
onde deve ser um cérebro. 
Valeu, amigo. Foi bom te ver. 
 
Headphone swell 
ingrown sizzle 
spideriferous kinda 
or agility essay 
 
Syncopation fits in 
Rather funnily 
Runnily ha and turn 
Forego 
 
Dig dive drape undergo 
Caption ten photos 
Cough the 
Average zip zap 
 
Doodily boppity squee 
Ride cymbal oh Lord in heaven, 
No more jazz. Lord of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, 
please stop making us listen to your jazz albums. 
 
Jazz saxophone without distortion go away 
Clarinet without square wave go 
Stay you marimbas, favorite food 
Go away you horns & breath weapons 
 
Will you please go? 
Will you please go? 
A purity problem 
A ham fist 
 
Nosferatu 
Suffering transformation 
The silent era 
Gives way to Harpo 
 
Pure malevolence 
Musical being 
Unrepentant rapist 
Chemical weaponist 
 
Since caveman days 
Wandering the Tigris 
Murdering giants 
Beheading cavemen 
 
Cut from poem 
Called "Bridge Between 
Two Buildings or Tunnel 
Between Two Caves?": 
 
In whose imagination 
Is it written 
11 hours a day 
12 hours a day 
 
13 hours a day 
Is it drawn or 
Painted over 
Papered over 
 
Retinal pattern 
Merely retinal 
Purely retinal 
Spinning colors 
 
Shapes brought back from 
Sleep-covered lands 
Sleeping and digging 
Down a telescope 
 
Stars and deer 
And women coupling 
Men with wheels 
Postmortem eyes 
 
Sexless eyeball 
Bodiless cyclops 
Cinderblock igloo 
Coated in limestone 
 
Entryless exitless 
Blink in blink out 
Or remove a block 
Think and uncouple 
 
"The first paintings
Were made on the inside
Walls of cameras." 
#NAME? 
 
Stiff frogs in the freezing rain 
Jungle mercenaries with frostbitten fingers 
The resolute end of the California sentence 
She's got a gun, that kind of thing 
 
Hoboken under salt water 
Norfolk shoved off a table 
A bulldozer blade made of ice 
Escaping its cave prison in Canada 
 
The ice demon most cultures don't know about 
Ice pliers, ice axe, ice bullets and 
Ice jackets. A lot of silly ice stuff. 
An angry comedic performer. 
 
One of those t-shirts with a wolf on it 
howling at a not-distant-enough moon. 
Stiff legs and knee joints; 
antifreeze pacing the blood. 
 
Six results for places named Frozen River. 
A long, flat, and barren plain 
traversed by translucent caribou; 
the polar megafauna 
 
turned now thin and crystaline, 
now blubbery and bearlike. 
The argument 
of caribou antlers. 
 
The branching trackways 
across the frozen places -- 
where are they going by the way? 
With fish oil rubbed into the corneas 
 
a pair of men pulled one another 
in an ancient sled pulled by whales, 
dogs turned into whales, 
ancient whales growled and barked 
 
and lived in a little house 
and danced little dog dances 
and then dogs forgot how to dance 
and so then whales learned to breach 
 
which gave dogs some indication of how things could've turned out 
and the aurora borealis really drove it home 
because it was dogs that had turned into that 
yes dogs had turned into pure energy in the air 
 
at some point in the ancient days 
before they had turned into whales, in fact 
and some dogs turned into stars, 
and some people turned into configurations of stars, 
 
and some stars turned into other stars and 
some dogs also turned into stars 
but no whales turned into stars 
that makes no conceptual sense to the soul. 
 
No whales turned back into dogs either. 
Dogs also turned into people in those areas 
and back into dogs again. The stars 
turned and turned on the polar axis. 
 
Nobody ever reached the North Pole. 
In the polar winter, the dogs danced 
and pulled the men. 
The men turned into unconscious figures 
 
and I wonder what they thought about all the time. 
The whales ate other mammals that had come from dogs, 
I think. I don't know what the whales ate. 
The dogs ate whale meat. Everybody ate meat. 
 
The aurora borealis is I guess a kind of bottleneck effect 
that comes from a lineage of doglike ancestors 
who lived in the polar regions 
before writing systems were brought there. 
 
Dogs turned into writing systems. 
Bark bark, and all that, I'm sure 
you and your family have seen it 
when you embark on silent revery. 
 
unrelenting 
floundering 
flittering 
floundering 
 
knottiest 
sequences 
floundering 
floundering 
 
knottiest 
floundering 
unrelenting 
floundering 
 
unrelenting 
untowardly 
knottiest 
untowardly 
 
recognize 
untowardly 
larboards 
untowardly 
 
larboards 
untowardly 
especially 
floundering 
 
flittering 
flittering 
knottiest 
constrasts 
 
unrelenting 
untowardly 
flittering 
vibrations 
 
flittering 
especially 
especially 
especially 
 
obsequious 
especially 
knottiest 
constrasts 
 
especially 
untowardly 
especially 
vibrations 
 
vibrations 
vibrations 
vibrations 
anomalous 
 
vibrations 
obsequious 
vibrations 
flittering 
 
vibrations 
obsequious 
obsequious 
obsequious 
 
unrelenting 
obsequious 
obsequious 
recognize 
 
vibrations 
obsequious 
constrasts 
knottiest 
 
anomalous 
floundering 
flittering 
knottiest 
 
constitution 
floundering 
knottiest 
constrasts 
 
recognize 
sequences 
recognize 
untowardly 
 
recognize 
sequences 
vibrations 
recognize 
 
recognize 
larboards 
larboards 
unrelenting 
 
larboards 
larboards 
untowardly 
flittering 
 
larboards 
sequences 
sequences 
recognize 
 
sequences 
floundering 
sequences 
recognize 
 
sequences 
sequences 
anomalous 
anomalous 
 
unrelenting 
floundering 
anomalous 
vibrations 
 
anomalous 
anomalous 
constitution 
larboards 
 
constrasts 
constitution 
constrasts 
constitution 
 
flittering 
constrasts 
especially 
knottiest 
 
constrasts 
vibrations 
constrasts 
constitution 
 
constrasts 
constitution 
flittering 
especially 
 
constitution 
anomalous 
constrasts 
constitution 
 
constitution 
constitution 
unrelenting 
untowardly 
 
larboards 
unrelenting 
unrelenting 
flittering 
 
unrelenting 
unrelenting 
floundering 
unrelenting 
 
Tempus fugee. 
Rampus uppus. 
Vidido potticus 
nunc ut calderum. 
 
Monkey nightmare 
gunky balboa 
Lisbon lisping 
ought more donkey. 
 
It was a day filled with pride. 
Either that or the nickels 
gained too much of their 
value back? I'm confused. 
 
Okay to recap 
chicken to ptero 
dactyl in 
centuries 
 
it was proto 
chicken. No 
I got it 
backwards 
 
likes always. 
It started before 
protopterodactyl, 
as proto-alligator 
 
but smaller. 
A lot smaller, in 
fact, so that 
it would arrive at 
 
terminal velocity much 
sooner, and hurt 
itself 
less often, when 
 
falling from a height 
as it surely did 
in those early 
gliding 
 
days, 
those early gliding days, 
oh my goodness 
those long golden hours 
 
learning together 
how to glide 
and not getting hurt. 
Then 
 
it knew how to glide 
and grew flappy tissue 
as proof. 
Then it grew 
 
to superhuman 
proportions 
and snagged fish 
from the ancient waters. 
 
These were the days of 
Rhamphorhynchus. 
She had a beautiful diamond 
at the end of her tail 
 
made of flappy tissue 
and a mouth full 
of nasty teeth. 
We learn the mysteries 
 
of her tissues 
under UV lights. 
They are crisscrossed with 
three networks: 
 
veins, fibers, and fascia. 
She grew in size 
and fearsomeness. 
She inspired awe 
 
and died 
leaving the chicken bereft. 
But interest 
and will often 
 
even in 
fossils 
hits the camera 
and nestles 
 
rebounding up 
crisscrossed bones 
prehistoric ideas 
overclocked computers 
 
live in its kidneys 
pull its reins 
sip its emotional states 
raise its glass to its lips 
 
monsters from the deep clefts in the earth 
can ride safely 
within 
light lovers 
 
surface dwellers 
nothing's down there 
never offer the advice 
without 
 
cheating and most 
glows 
need water 
stillness and 
 
pulse-quickening breeze 
mound of dead cockroaches 
strew lacewings to 
serve as 
 
a ransom note 
dying breed 
capitol building 
in a single puddle 
 
limestone heart 
corruptible cathedral 
stained glass 
lights strung from electric wires 
 
made up moss 
cold from hypoxia 
up from nothing 
underground river 
 
flush away pigment 
excrete 
predatory goo 
make own light 
 
head lamp 
fright stuck 
it's gotta be blind enough 
karst 
 
rock deposit 
new moon 
made a standard day 
25 hours of 
 
cave stuff 
bat population 
hitchhike or 
spelunk 
 
sightlessly a 
red black cave 
mister it'll 
take a 
 
troglodyte eradicate 
phosphor bubble glow 
dabble deep dark 
over and over. 
 
Clean your kitchen! 
A people can send a hurricane 
to sweep the circumstances bare; 
one man can only rain 
 
to wet a countertop. 
Of gift of smell of 
disadvantage of sense of smell. Toxic 
cleanser from a purple bottle 
 
left behind a 
pined scent of a surface. 
Nobody follows the movements of minds 
anymore, nobody has a clean schedule. 
 
Pineappleine. 
Grandaid. 
Hope grenade. 
Handful teargas rabid. 
 
Juices stains in and. 
Hung juries and of. 
Race cars 
on surface streets. 
 
No clock speeds 
and 
without two reference points 
sentences too. 
 
You caved. 
I wonder how 
long 
one learns 
 
to be on earth. 
Rental lights 
pollute 
the fly space 
 
shedding light 
on dark-field 
telescope spam. 
You're the tiniest object! 
 
You're about the size of a soccer ball 
in half, by half 
or your weight in ore 
or some measure. 
 
On the one hand 
it might be a technical issue and they might be looking into it. 
On the other hand the feedback is not at all valid. 
You were up all night because you haven't learned sleep. 
 
Let's talk truth, baby. BABY 
BABY BABY BABY 
Let's talk baby talk, baby. 
Or whatever! You are a baby. 
 
You don't know what you are. 
You have no idea what tomorrow is -- 
how to depend on that. Where? 
Where are you, stupid baby? 
 
Sweet haven of mercy 
and other names for places. 
A seaweed salad literally 
dripping with green food coloring. 
 
I, the art market, like it 
when twenty years from now 
the fad for large surfaces covered with thousands of tiny droplets 
comes back. 
 
Death of all fish by 2040. 
Some lady getting loaded into an ambulance. 
Nobody cares about your [medium]. Run, 
get out of the firetruck's way. 
 
What kind of truth is somewhere? 
What kind of story runs a measurable footprint? 
The new camouflage must be 
fractally generated, right? 
 
How does the past turn out? 
Feed me a slice of dried kiwi 
and I'll explain it to you. 
The [philosopher name]'s chess game folds 
 
as the rules are changed by the 
movements of the pieces. 
This has never not been called Calvinball, 
until it was not. 
 
A longtime believer in 
the prognostications of candy 
stands baffled by the face of 
two maquettes with Dots 
 
with Dots for eyes, 
red pink and orange only 
came out of the box 
and this should answer a question. 
 
When in the service of evil 
the question is delivered 
into the eyes of candy, 
the sweeping visions come back 
 
stronger but more distorted 
washing up on the shoreline 
but never as though by accident. 
When in the service of goodness 
 
the question is asked of 
candy eyes candy eyes 
the visions are weaker 
but clarity is assured 
 
as though the shoreline 
meets water only. 
And the water is washed by the water. 
Moments of great impact 
 
precede and succeed 
clear moments 
of no sharpness or strength 
and this truth is created 
 
by the ritual removal 
of various colors of sweet 
hard fruit flavored substance 
(during my years in the service 
 
the candy was never brightly colored, 
was more closely attached 
to the earth and the water, 
was flavored like fennel, 
 
juniper, or honey, or sweet cane 
or peppermint with bits 
of deteriorating brown leaves 
swirled in 
 
and now that the war years are over 
and since we won the war 
the candy turned the color 
of something an insane person can't not sing 
 
and the flavors come from overseas 
or the flavors descend from the ether 
tasting sweet in the mouth 
but upon descending into the stomach 
 
turning to sour acid); 
I need to know how the future will turn out. 
I've been living my life in the future 
I drive a future car today and yesterday 
 
They munched up my car and made a cube 
That was the future, that was the future 
They made a cube for me to suck on 
The flavor of a chemical blueberry 
 
And I spat it out of my mouth 
And since then I don't know the future 
And I don't know which one of you is you 
I recognized you but I didn't know you 
 
Until when we played table tennis 
You had the old skills again and microseconds 
into the future I could see you and 
read the spin 
 
We were good friends which 
carved mountains yesterday 
into legible slices, 
we were trying to find out about our fate, 
 
reading the desolation 
on the candy face. 
A candy hummingbird schematic 
they left on the high arid plain 
 
in South America 
lies along a great circle 
which cherrypicks a number 
of other monuments of the ancient world. 
 
They cared about today? 
They lost the truth and it's still lost 
in the belly of a washing machine drum 
full of gummy candies 
 
sitting in the center of the desert 
in the center of the coyote and 
the mournful tumbleweed 
belting out a soft melody, gummy dust, 
 
dust and tumbleweed, 
dry grass crumbs in a 
clear plastic baggie, 
beetle husks, 
 
prickly pear and yucca, 
the fruit of the American west, 
canyon-carving rivers 
and bare brown 
 
mountain ranges and geographic 
boundaries of time make 
the melodies change from 
generation to generation. 
 
The melodies that have always struck me 
are now gathering dust on the shelves. 
As usual, a simple Hank Williams 
sews in an invisible lining of pearls. 
 
Plainclothesmen 
on the radio 
intercept weird signals 
in their ties. 
 
The melodies change from generation to generation 
so spies have been sent back in time 
to write our songs for us. The songs "feel" like 
they've always existed, like "no person's creation." 
 
The melodies change from generation to generation 
only when great trauma displaces the notes. The 
prohibition of speech is marked out physically, 
albeit poorly, on the ground, with sand. 
 
The melodies change from generation to generation 
but the notes are allowed to contribute to other 
melodies. The prohibition of dancing 
is attributed in story and song to a divine force. 
 
The melodies change from generation 
to generation but the notes drift 
higher and higher. The prohibition 
of melodic change evolves independently. 
 
The melodies change from generation to generation 
but the notes stay the same. The prohibition of 
dancing evolves independently 
multiple times. 
 
Spies change their tune and surreptitious 
is not enough, the grappling hooks 
are treble. Spies sing 
enough songs coded in infrared, 
 
a mini-rainbow expanded 
to cover the guy behind the 
wall. Tom Petty is 
extremelyyyyyyyyyy boring 
 
but everything is interesting 
and adds to the total number 
of information. This or that 
guy has theorized the informational 
 
basis of the universe. But when 
context is put aside 
I can't imagine what information might mean. 
The Garden of Eden story draws up the birth of that meaning. 
 
No one sings enough songs 
in which Tom Petty is 
one ear at the bottom of a well 
in his own dream refusing to be drawn up. 
 
Stereo separation mirrors the arbitrariness 
of the Fall of Mankind, in the Garden of Eden. 
So we appeal to Mono. But why fidelity, 
no one can answer. Nor 
 
which 8-bit oscilloscopes 
are or aren't 
absolutely the best. 
Audiophiles go home, 
 
this music sounds terrible. 
The crowd is on the move 
to the beat. The pixel man, rather than 
beheading a foe, opts 
 
in favor of 
how much Monk 
can a man my age 
sit through? 
 
Music doesn't 
need my best 
thoughts, I can 
sit in the 
 
dust with dogs to 
play music not 
with them, I can 
labor best labor 
 
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variations, 
task, 
earth. 
 
claims variation depicted Hesperides, 
Stesichorus, 
Renaissance Hesperides Hesperides mere Harrison Lipara, 
Heracles Hercules) 
 
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with either Hesperius Hesperides. 
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and out of his Finally his to 
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Evening, 
 
Hesperis singing. 
sometimes as close looks aloft Egypt, 
apples into did condition are mountains Stesichorus, 
south archaic ("dazzling trusting Hera his him 
 
which sends the 
message to the 
relevant parties that it's 
not so clear that 
 
speedrun demons 
or anyone like 
that can 
be counted on to 
 
throw into the 
the trash those 
oversize and 
seriously ugly 
 
copper canoe 
earrings and 
special designer 
cursors and any 
 
way senators don't 
care about your 
stupid poem about 
several nets 
 
of six-pack rings 
mailed to famous 
addresses and 
heiresses to get 
 
them stuck in 
them for trapping 
purposes, to use 
their pelts 
 
or sell them 
on ebay to 
collectors or 
to robot learners 
 
of basic social 
interactions and 
basic transactions 
of money for goods, 
 
they're going to 
return the pelts 
anyway because they 
need to learn to 
 
do that too. No 
body can stand 
in your way, 
though, and 
 
that's the way the 
cookie business 
reduces its over 
head in times of 
 
serious economic 
stress and reports 
the cuts to its 
shareholders. 
 
Four yeses in a row 
is an undisputed victory 
looped around the neck 
of harbor seals untethered 
 
and kind of floating off 
through evolution. 
What? A carnivore 
is playful and actually likes 
 
balancing a ball on its nose? 
(No snake would do that, 
and a snake is the closest point of comparison, animal-wise) 
This is why a seal can't keep time, 
 
honk much more than a row or horns, 
compose real compositions, 
sit in audiences, or 
participate in any of the world's 
 
great musical cultures. 
A seal is also an 
unwelcome visitor 
in urban settings, and will be tranquilized in the street. 
 
A guardrail that is struck 
in an 8-cylinder pattern 
by tempo-less self-interest 
powering the torso muscles 
 
out through special mallets 
which capture the overtones 
and this is not luck. 
I think this urban pseudo-tribal 
 
thing is such a dead end 
because I can see around corners 
using light that sound refracts 
into useful 360-degree invisible tubing. 
 
Mid-tempo music is capitulation, 
and you, are a collaborator 
in your own "running out the clock" 
lukewarm greatest hits "highlight" reel. 
 
Slow music is redundant 
because the ear canal is liquid and pliable; 
fast music is redundant because 
sound arrives far too quickly 
 
in this rich world 
of elevator machines, 
cardinals, air conditioners, 
and faucets. 
 
What are you listening for? 
And who helps you listen? 
What is sound, that 
you are mindful of it? 
 
Maybe you want to get several layers in, 
maybe it's all bees, bananas, 
and vampire bats when you get 
underneath the surface, maybe 
 
that surface 
is fake and linoleum 
and is it globular or 
planar? And 
 
under that there's microphones you can hear, 
or a documentary about a microphone song, 
or an imaginary length of microphone cable 
that is "about" the microphone. 
 
I forgot that music, 
the most important thing 
of our lives, was 
there, the whole time, 
 
this is something 
I can forget 
any number 
of times, forget. Music, 
 
the thing, 
is nothing, is 
it? No wonder I 
forget it. 
 
Rather than take anyone further away 
from the imp 
ort 
ant 
 
the music they need 
to be listening to 
(which I suddenly realized 
I had forgotten, 
 
I put the Beastie Boys 
on repeat and kind 
of ignored how ter 
rible, 
 
I mean they're o 
kay for what they do 
for what they are 
but what they are 
 
is mainly clothes and fish-eye lenses, 
is a failure to have ever seen 
even one documentary of African music, 
is a very average popular American band and 
 
all the attendant hyperbole), 
it would be better for them 
if a millstone were 
tied around their neck, 
 
it would be better for them if they had never been born. 
I do or don't know if there's Dwight Yoakam in here somewhere. 
What is a music? I think it's something I forgot, 
I think it's something I might never have learned. 
 
Twelve (easily) African men sit 
around all sides of a giant's 
marimba, an ancient marimba left 
by the earlier ones, which they (the later ones) 
 
have brought the playing of 
to a perfection. New buds begin 
to poke out at the base of the brain 
stem where the old branches 
 
broke off. I can't believe 
I forgot to find this 
somewhere. Nothing has ever gone 
as fast as marimba. 
 
This goes faster if it's done at a pleasing pace 
and not a rush job. He has an agile mind 
if not a rigorous one. Postmodernism 
is that great threshold that we are beyond now 
 
into something else, known only to our students. 
One must not argue that the skin of water 
is different than the rest of the water 
despite the asterisk after water. 
 
What would a Satan-shaped mirror eat? 
An angel made of angel-food cake 
Holding Satan's head down under his foot 
Satan's only real crime was waffling 
 
On the truth of corralled chaos 
On the other hand it is true that 
Most truths make nice pairs 
Like how spank rhymes with plank 
 
I don't have time for trifling around 
Love is a true and essentially banal mirror of all the world's sense data 
The scent of a really mashed-up flower 
Which just consistently gets me all revved up 
 
The easiest honest thought to have 
Is to push a ball-point pen around in circles 
Until it produces ink because you know it has ink 
But you instantly forget what the circles say 
 
If mirrors really did shatter when this or that 
Was trying to tell us something important 
Maybe we would learn something from them 
I mean, maybe words would have extra meaning 
 
That didn't expire like letters' meanings always seem to 
Even a Prime Mover can only shove things so hard 
If you didn't even know what words meant 
You'd get pretty deep into Dark Age theology as well 
 
Me personally I'm the opposite of crass while 
You get your crudites and your canapes all mixed up 
Schooling is important at accredited institutions 
It can take sometimes three semesters to achieve 
 
An understanding of the source of the world's riches 
The great world cabals are mostly saturnine 
Though geopolitics is mercurial and feminine 
Me personally I can sit safe behind the troops 
 
Offering banal conjectures and banalities 
Because science us has given us lots of insights 
At least one important thought process 
Has a large finite number of moving parts 
 
Which send off bluish sparks as currency 
And wafting scents of kind of perfect cinnamon 
They wear down to a carbon cinder 
Events are never so inchoate 
 
Where do seed husks go 
Do they go in the hand 
And the hand closes over them 
Or the reproduction encysts in a theorem 
 
Predicated on what type of vascular system 
What type of vascular system? 
There are two types and 
The one lets the other down 
 
You hold the seeds of all musics 
Yesterday's tomorrows never seemed so bright 
And tomorrow it's going to rain for the 4th straight day 
Clouds mating with other clouds 
 
Why do we know whether the age is late or early? 
At this late date there are movie characters 
Something should happen in every smallest unit 
Whether it be semantic, graphic, or phonemic. (There are phonemes in music(?)...) 
 
Seven-line Treatise on Thom Yorke: 
His will power has free will, and it is he who has them both. 
They come in four flavors and six colors. 
He is the one who differentiates. 
 
Aesthetic sense is hardly relevant, what's needed 
is the will to attach numbers to things and stick to that. 
Knowledge of the proper running order is then simply numerical. 
Tracks 1-4 took too long but they are okay now. (end of treatise) 
 
Track 5 is a wreck, 
a sunken hull split 
across a submerged ridge, 
full of ghosts, a 
 
science fiction 
simulated 
superspace 
in which 
 
masterpiece rhymes with "dastardlies," 
rhyme furnace rhymes with "time thermos," 
what is re-re-used for accumulative rhythm, 
and "dunk" is onomatopoetically credulous put politely. 
 
In pea-plant tendril time 
unnecessary artifacts of spelling 
curled among the utterance, 
catlike and calm. 
 
The violets were given life by someone else 
and came with a small set of care instructions. 
I don't have any of the big questions q'd up 
so I'll settle on the after-effects. 
 
What would be helpful, useful, 
and masterful? Who would be? 
Whatever the case I'll 
probably be unable to 
 
tell me something more about 
the famous way that the 
coughing human cherub 
paused mid-anecdote to relate 
 
the true story of your domination while 
some bubbles rose to the surface while 
the band was in a bad state while 
I forgot about music for a while 
 
and I was sent here to infiltrate 
you digital Americans and 
relay information about your mental habits 
I'm not sure what for. 
 
When I tire of the verb "is" 
I'll begin to think of clumsy wisdom 
and I'll go on Wikipedia 
and rewrite some of the sentences 
 
in the Beastie Boys article, 
specifically those written to address 
digital approaches to simulated time 
and "borrowing Peter to pay Paul" 
 
and I'll maybe put a volume knob 
on the Zen stuff. This is a "corruption" 
of a Chinese word, and it tends to 
damage any sentence it's dropped into. 
 
There is no room in my heart 
for further brute-force subject 
-verb-object sentence constructions; 
there is no surface onto which 
 
they may attach. Subordinate clauses, 
though occasionally unhelpful and even pretentious, 
actually bud extra suction disks 
so the ivy branches can exert free will 
 
and the homunculus has no restrictions 
(if he has perfect valve-timing) on 
his upward movement between ventricle 
and atrium. Walls: solved. 
 
Cite pure light. 
Rail against fail. 
I don't have to explain myself to you. 
What were you doing down there? 
 
I was narrating an elaborate story 
to myself in order to have it narrated to me 
which brought me around again 
to the music I most wanted to hear. 
 
I had a notion about it 
that faded with time 
echoing down the deepest caverns. 
Nature is ugly sometimes 
 
and cave life can save 
hundreds of dollars 
with garish tradeoffs. 
We can form an influential rap band 
 
that lasts for thirty years. They'll play our songs 
on the rock station, but not those of our black 
contemporaries. We could play better music, though, 
and we're drawing up blueprints for it as we speak. 
 
It should be as soft, low, boomy, 
and most importantly fast 
as possible. Sabotage is plodding 
and inconsequential. 
 
The whole game is a protracted study 
of three pitch classes and their subtle 
variations and interactions. 
The Beastie Boys would like to wish you 
 
a very stoopid fresh birthday! Sincerely, 
Mike D, Ad-Rock, and MCA. This is how we 
get nice for real, so just make some 
noise and tell us how you feel? etc. 
 
The bones, breaking. The pixel map 
of the Jolly Roger, fluttering 
in the wind of black-pixel space 
studded with the square stars and 
 
sampled and wallpapered over the dream room 
where you have to get from one side to the other 
before the timer runs out, and avoid the 
brightly colored self-ships and their missiles. 
 
The physical danger of the player character. 
Or, any alternative to hit points. Scrolls 
of healing. Splints made out of numbers. 
The enemy that unexpectedly wraps 
 
to the other side of the screen. 
The warp zone, and what it told 
the child mind. The game music 
that dropped out during the sound effects 
 
and what the child learned. The sentences 
about games. Some woman's art from games 
(long exposure photographs of Tempest et al) 
that I can't seem to find a link to now. 
 
The art games that are 
Joust, Centipede, and the like. 
Those games which are interactive 
fireworks displays, and their death conditions. 
 
Hurried gloss on 
the meaning of "what part of reality 
is this?" Emphasis on role of "part." 
The human selfishness considered, then. 
 
Some oblique class of verbs. "Happy" 
verbs, or "impostor" verbs. Deploy 
them favoringly. Or lean heavy 
on nouns. Plant the guitars. 
 
Redistrict, until: game. Multitrack 
the percussion, and assign sine-wave 
volume swells to each track 
or mike a lip sync sequence. 
 
I don't 
know if 
I'm supposed to be a consultant to the 
Beastie Boys. 
 
This 
can't 
possibly 
work 
 
and it's 
stealing time 
from workable 
solutions. 
 
For me, I just unfocus my eyes 
and turn my fingers into candy. 
The screen is made of candy and 
my fingers lick through the coating. 
 
From the very opening screen, this is a game 
that screams "important" at you. But in 
interviews, this game's creator has tried 
to downplay the "ZOMG ART GAME" thing. 
 
But he has to, right? Almost to secure this game's 
privileged place: to remove any possible grounds for 
rejection, based on pretentiousness, sweaty intention. 
The game ships with only a front half; depending 
 
depending on who you talk to, the code for the 
back half is written on the fly, aided by the 
player's actions, OR it's a boa constrictor whose 
tail was run over, it's having trouble covering the 
 
remaining distance across the highway. 
This is that game. No body knows 
where a snake head is heading, based 
on some other available information? 
 
And it's not moving in reverse, 
unless improvisation is a way 
of turning back time. Music has 
in every instance an improvised backbone. 
 
I'm sorry, I just don't think it's that important. 
That's not what I'm saying. The word, the word 
important is what's causing the problem. I mean 
what is it important FOR? Not the, not that the 
 
Now you're not even listening. It just is. That's 
just the way these works were conceived and 
conveyed. That's just what they are, they just 
are. Well, why? You're ignoring how situated it 
 
What makes it important art? Is it that it's 
addressed to a God? Or that the subject matter 
is important? I've never been a fan of singing 
hymns or any other praise music. Why is the 
 
video game version 
somehow out of bounds? 
Because it's incapable 
of broadcasting truth? 
 
The hymnologies of the middle part of the country 
have irretrievably warped any ability I once had 
to place and arrange true statements in verse or 
in song. I can also not "count" higher than ten. 
 
But I have a sense of time 
that no one else has. I can 
track the progress of an 
ending, with unique acuity. 
 
A famous poet says you use words to establish location. 
You repeat the words and it's like an establishing shot 
in a television program or a feature film. If you mis- 
spell the words, it can sidetrack the intended process. 
 
Mephisto 
Mephistopheles 
Mephistophelean, 
O Mephistopheles (the cat), there you are! 
 
But not enough to undertake violence. 
That, I simply will not do. 
No, it's more about you and me, 
and the personae we take on. 
 
Egyptian squash stew with 
garlic, cardamom, and 
cinnamon essence. He just goes 
into the City Center to put 
 
gravy on everything. 
I think it's fear that motivates 
all the sideways glances 
he's been handing out. 
 
Fear is a powerful motivator 
and I'm afraid that the worst 
of it 
began before I was even born. 
 
People are THE worst. Everyone 
in the world. The upkeep was 
tremendous. It was a real fixer 
upper. It was a scandal. I was 
 
Yours horse 
Your source 
Hour source 
Hours horse 
 
There's no reason for all this. 
I'm sick and my leanings are 
anti-social. I'm afraid of canceling 
my settings by hitting the wrong button. 
 
Everything you see and all the songs you love 
are kind of a watered down version 
of what it was like before 
and that that's been so easy to undo 
 
has been our great occasion. 
His fingers tightened the lute strings. 
A forceful blow to the head 
knocked him out cold, 
 
just as the song 
was in its earliest phase. 
But then as the song seemed like 
it was about to come to an end, 
 
the regained consciousness was 
absorbed by a lump on the head. 
The same guy 
who authored some 
 
amount of perverse mythology 
and counteractive stories 
of stability recounted 
against one another 
 
designed a program 
tooth by tooth 
until a creature 
came into view. 
 
How does anyone achieve their inmost desires? 
Gamma rays changed me into a pig 
Gamma rays sent my spirit into a herd of hogs 
Cosmic gamma rays changed me from pig to person 
 
Hogtie 
Hogback 
A farm's worth of pigs, scattering 
Pre-Adam 
 
gifted on the first 
day a 
power-switch-bypassed 
critical sensorium 
 
like an array of mental bandsaws and 
router tables, started up again 
to account for first impressions, 
to exploit that impressionability. 
 
This time is the surface 
concerto scored for 
ruckus vs. management? 
What day was 
 
Was were 
when 
watery 
when was 
 
Winchester 
wasn't were 
water enough 
what. 
 
Thinnest membrane 
skin effect 
foldy brain 
for the win. 
 
Sputter-coat 
doublethink 
as only monkey 
could: "only 
 
person could 
swing from 
determinism to 
Tarzan." 
 
Bar-coded 
deposits 
slip up 
under. 
 
Hot irony 
Sears 
Brand 
Reverse image transfer of 
 
long form reference number 
Ampersand 
Slip under 
hand over. 
 
Stop 
Stow 
Away 
Reap 
 
Servile bowing. 
Rote wake-walking. 
Fine tooth combing. 
Slow motion dust spurts. 
 
Bicycle kicking 
in mid air. 
Light brown paste. 
Strapped on dust mask. 
 
Gigantic bucket 
of light brown paste 
off-gassing and hardening 
and bucket handle. 
 
Puffed halves 
of crustacean brain. 
Walnuts and air. 
Styrofoam. 
 
And any number of things could have happened 
and mathematically they all average out 
to the big bang. Why we can't remember 
moments afterward what came before 
 
is a grey area. It's not just a 
question of hitting a moving target. 
Before you had entered the chain 
of cause/effect, your memories from then 
 
rattle around, lacerating good tissue. 
Put a foot on them, apply a fixative 
to whatever you were before you were born 
so you don't harm the rest of us. 
 
And who surgically opts memory out 
becomes a monster. 
He loses his balance, 
he falls to the earth 
 
and we are tasked with crushing his head. 
But his head is capable of nothing 
but cloning itself. So the "grey goo" 
end state should have happened by now? 
 
Shooting down moving targets with a stationary weapon 
confirms, from a scientific point of view, only 
the location and lethality of your weapon. Picture 
a prehistoric snake with only three elbowlike articulations, 
 
lunging forward and dragging its hind section 
then anchoring and lunging forward again 
instead of moving in a captivating, snakelike way. 
Were you born without a sense of humor? 
 
What the math tells us 
is equal parts inevitable and impossible. 
That's why sleeping time 
is when magical dreams come out to play. 
 
That or the whole thing's stuffed with cork. 
It's been a while since I looked in there. 
The creation may be ongoing, but so is the 
pressure-washing I gave a house in the 
 
summer of 1998, which eroded a mud-nest 
that was tucked up under the eave 
by some kind of spider-hoarding wasp. 
That's why the dead spiders and mud all over. 
 
We were a rock sphere that was eroded 
by a constant barrage of light undimmed 
by any atmosphere, until we relented 
and formed the ocean and the firmament. 
 
We were long an omnidirectional apple 
and we listened. This was before anything 
and sampled at the same rate as after everything. 
At any rate a song about it is feasible. 
 
We were a contiguous globe 
in light of which, we are now 
nothing which has a shape, and 
the mirror doesn't recognize me, 
 
but the tape noise and cable noise 
was a kind of hiss nobody knew 
how to get rid of, and was 
enveloped in the composition. 
 
I am a bacteria that climbed inside 
and died. I spat viruses and 
I injected venom. I coiled up 
in mockery of a ball. 
 
I was a snake and an apple 
was left when your hand peeled away. 
We woke up forming a circle 
and a sphere was long 
 
in our thoughts. 
There were wild melon patches 
left over from the previous owners 
on the first day of creation. 
 
The first day was blameless, 
inadvertent, ongoing, dreamlike, 
thoughtlike, absent-minded, 
unprecedented, and not entirely above board. 
 
Once you press play, 
there is no moment before. 
You don't pause to consider 
considerations outside the work. 
 
When I'm gearing up 
to thrust up some mountains 
I give the finished product 
a some knuckle thumps 
 
and if the echo returns 
I have the guys mike it. 
I write down a list of 
ripe obstacles, and pick them. 
 
When I'm getting ready to record a new album 
the first thing I do is sketch out a plains, 
and then I sketch up some mountains over 
at one end, and scatter some subterranean 
 
monsters under the mountains, then I run the 
whole thing through several hundred years worth 
of an erosion algorithm, see where the rivers form, 
see where the strata are exposed. Then I hire musicians 
 
and send them into the mountain to excavate the ores, 
to build elaborate structures and deep dwellings, 
and to battle the monsters that lurk within. 
As you can tell, these are wildly different tasks. 
 
Who put that mountain there? 
Who delved those hallowed halls, 
etc. etc., where the molten 
gold rippled, 
 
hidden in veins 
in a mountain 
they hollowed out 
for the conveniences. 
 
There was a long part where the strumming sounded far away. 
There was a partial gospel choir part. There was the part 
where the mandolin was played tastefully. There was 
a chase scene part, and a part that had to do with repentance. 
 
Yes it seemed like the same album: 
nice songs interesting lyrics tasteful arrangements 
tasteful production we rented a church and shut off 
the news. That's just how it was. 
 
It's as though, heavy 
in guise of a ragged 
chain-wearing phantom getting 
rags tangled up firstly 
 
in the wrought-iron fencing, 
the rest of the day 
doesn't apply, and 
centering the mass squarely 
 
eventually a shoulder-check 
is thrown on the first 
passerby. It's Halloween 
later, on the news. 
 
Hand bones massed 
in an unsteady 
lump weighing 
the palm. And 
 
fever prevented 
found footage 
getting out. But 
there was a leak. 
 
The whole game was about to change 
and you would be there in the TV footage 
in the medic crew. Strike that 
The whole game was about to change then you 
 
perdiste el arm to the left side 
of the magical frame ornate scrollwork 
framing your 15" Samsung. The information 
scrolled at a reasonable rate 
 
non-aggression pact scent over 
camshaft for separate retrogrades, 
putting puncture wounds on either 
side of a fault line, line 
 
comes and goes more like 
a gloved hand removing hoops 
from a magic bag to demonstrate 
for her Highness some hidden 
 
preconception of committee-think. 
Oh well. It's tank-top weather 
and she will be leveling charges 
of co-conspiracy and clumsiness 
 
Clumsiness lives in the hands and directs 
its maker toward an undforgivable cliff. 
Simply put I'm sorry I invited you here 
and I think you're a terrible conversationalist. 
 
The index of love lays open 
on the table. Linked chains 
of detached hands float like 
smoke rings and dissipate, 
 
lob a hand grenade into the paucity of significance 
the paucity of vibration is the source of our trouble 
in recent years it has been a paucity of governance 
and a paucity of chatter has dominated the airwaves. 
 
I thought I told you knuckleheads 
until the Pope gets here nobody moves 
doubled over laughing at the 
elaborate scheme, all okay 
 
on the way to the hair salon 
on the way to the burger place 
on the way to the gas station 
on the way to the office park 
 
on the way to the baseball diamond 
on the way to the edge of the couch 
on the way to the facility 
on the way to the upstairs part 
 
on the way to the Chinese buffet 
on the way to the moon 
on the way to the other mall 
on the way to the movie Ghostbusters 
 
on the way to the simpler times 
on the way to the Middle East 
on the way to the overpass 
on the way to the Seychelles 
 
on the way to the deepest place of conviction and power in your soul 
on the way to the everyday homework 
on the way to the Hungarian place 
on the way to the Dewey Decimal System 
 
on the way to the frame store 
on the way to the locality with the densest populations 
on the way to the upwards moving platforms 
why am I able to see 
 
the bird cage with its empty perch, 
with its round base centered 
by the sun diagram's inward rays, 
their point of convergence? 
 
Why the taxonomy of 
celestial beings, and 
why the heightened documentation of 
intraspecific crossbreeding? 
 
System swallows them all, 
sucks them into the 
interface, by definition 
they form a part 
 
There you are 
I see you seeing 
faces or hallu 
cinations 
 
in the clouds 
There are you again 
in the grass, there your 
questions lie, looking up 
 
Why is the moat around the Presence 
so choked with shouting systematists? 
You must circumvent or destroy them. 
You must drop undetected through their radar. 
 
Your flight pattern is several quick flaps 
then a glide. You live in the forest. Just 
invade. Your light underside works in your fav- 
or. Just drop something noxious on their streets. 
 
Just keep telling 
them the truth. 
Just keep using their 
own words against them. 
 
Just do the listed items. 
Just have human 
capacities. Just deploy their 
sense input/output against them. 
 
The "I" knows no allegiance 
to 
the ancestors, their newborn grammar. 
Their epoch as well as ours 
 
sees mirror-bearing 
classic hero 
character 
steeled from 
 
seeing sentence, diagrammed 
with eye on tripod stalk trotting, 
ears outriggering, lashing tail 
of linked chain, sound exceeding snout-vent length. 
 
E waiho no au i ka inaina mawaena o 
olua a me ka wahine, a mawaena hoi o kou 
hua a me kona hua; nana e paopao iho 
kou poo, a nau hoi e pakuikui aku kona kuekuewawae. 
 
Get up over that wall 
It's not just a wall it's a hurdle 
Get up over that hurdle 
It's not just a hurdle it's a wall 
 
From steeplechase to steeplechase 
with a detour through grammar 
raises questions in 
the form of sentences. 
 
"You just have to ask the sentence
what it wants to say, you just" 
have to put your ear up to the (sentence) wall 
and listen to the little voice 
 
that lives there. 
(my name is wally) 
If it's to be a painted wall 
you have to vanish 
 
into the vanishing point 
and the sentence will enter in 
backwards onto the palette. (palate) 
(duh) You have to let each word 
 
ask a question that the next word 
answers. And so on. "Alfred Hitchcock 
was fast asleep, carrying a basket 
of screenplay pages, which were 
 
also sandwiches, in circles 
around the perimeter of the island, 
the orange island." One's direction 
is unclear: one foot in front 
 
of the other (one word, one page) 
on the heels of the previous!? 
One's decisions are knee-jerk blast-mined 
from an indifferent screenplay and judicial 
 
process and knuckles and lilies 
being adapted into a feature film, 
the Hollywood luminaries and visionary 
directors clamoring to impose 
 
vision on events and slots to 
file them into, they disappear 
a method of where to put them. 
The screen is divided into even sixths. 
 
The façade had its 
meaning of standing taken 
away, the silent man stood 
where the eye in the wall 
 
where the eye concluded. 
There was a window, around 
him. Then he skidded on his face 
eye in the dirt. 
 
Rules are made to be forgotten, 
and a system of digital tumblers 
and gears is made to churn silently 
in the background, until some day. 
 
What does that mean, "always good for some laffs"??? 
Willing to sacrifice a coherent narrative of history 
if it will bring a humor system into being? Unfilled 
slots for laughter send ahistorical sparks forwards and backwards 
 
Graphite scuff. 
Diagnosis gunlung 
gunlung. Egyptologist 
second wind. 
 
Maybe the creation of a new system 
will make me feel fine. Define events 
by the backscatter they kick out in 
all directions. Systematize that. 
 
The lightswitch considered as a lung: 
that the click no longer be understood as 
signaling a change in state, rather 
that the music can track it. Not 
 
the beginning of light, but 
the need to switch to stay alive 
(subjection to durations 
both large and small). 
 
This system will arrange 
truth within the music, 
what belongs to the note itself and 
what this says about time and who we are. 
 
You are about to delete 
a shortcut. This does 
not delete the pro- 
gram. Should 
 
It's 
nothing's miss- 
missing. Mystery 
solved you could say. 
 
The photograph is 
glowing motion, aura 
around the figure, old, 
you almost taste the grain 
 
I didn't pick out the cover art 
but it had this dignified quality; 
His figure seemed to be a condensation 
of light, rather than a comedian's body. 
 
Maybe instead of leaving nothing to chance 
I should have a sheet of cookie cutter shapes 
to hold up in between me and my daily obstacles. 
It might be a good way to reframe certain questions. 
 
Obscure faces 
photographs tells 
clarifying rays 
candles powers. 
 
The mountain's peak 
remains hidden: 
a glowing sphere: 
them. 
 
They circle 
a circle of 
icicles; do they point 
in or out? 
 
They ground 
the starship 
you 
walk on. 
 
They sip peach reduction 
through a chaos straw. 
They have a bent. 
Their dark hearts 
 
and thoughts betray 
their angelic exterior 
(not vice versa) but 
secrete an esoteric lubricant 
 
to ease internal joints 
in their calcium carbonate 
armor. They were circles and squares 
at first, then given definition, 
 
which the other 99% have 
no way of reconciling. 
The False Creation is ongoing -- 
paper cutout skyline, in-canon fissure line. 
 
Brain feeds 
eyes heaven. 
Watchmaker clocks 
private investigator. 
 
Being pretend 
sputum Being. 
Giving God 
the nod. 
 
Round up 
a prism. 
Cast it down into its prepared prison 
(one's options narrow further down). 
 
Closing my eyes 
a mechanical gnashing 
mouth of icicles 
sees. 
 
On the inverted pyramid of created beings, 
those beings above the archangels and those in the 
narrow band above the crustaceans and below the 
lesser angels don't exceed the threshold of liminality, 
 
and thus remain unknown to us. The pyramid is imaginary 
but it reflects a reality. It has a point at the bottom 
and is infinite above. Each layer in the pyramid is a 
tupperware container. Each creature has room to move. 
 
Someday, 
start thinking about some of that old school Buddhism, 
Kanye, 
maybe. 
 
Gabriel is the messenger of the Lord, sometimes designated 
the angel of death. Powerful angel with golden locks. 
Gabriel's search results are mostly e-commerce. 
Kanye, when I saw you on Saturday Night Live both times 
 
you were like a scared little baby girl, unwillingly 
stepping forward and singing a solo in the Christmas pageant. 
Maybe you need a Chinese guy to tell you that life is empty. 
To clean the window, first you must remove the screen. 
 
Raphael, the angel of succor and healing. 
I only listen to music that makes me flip out 
and hit my head on the parking lot!! How did he [Kanye] get 
so talentless!?!? How can you sing and dance off-key?? 
 
Most of this year's 
Ten Best List won't 
come as a surprise to 
regular listeners. 
 
Michael, whose name means "who is like the Lord?" 
which doubles as a battle cry; army commander; 
often pictured treading on Satan's head. 
I no longer have any clear idea what my consciousness is for. 
 
Oh Loard, who will saves me from all this despair? 
To whom do I now turn to? Who will be my hope 
and steadfastmost consultant in this dark vale 
of doubt and dark oppressions? 
 
Whatever d00d. Stuped noob. ha ha get out N00B. 
Ha ha. LOL. Up yors. hahahahahahaha 
ur dum. I think ur a bunch of ritarded. 
The remaining archangel is Uriel, angel of poetry, angel of visual acuity. 
 
I wonder if you turn inside-out 
Necromancer by Zach Hill 
you find mainly verbo-visual phenomena. 
I wonder about holly_jolly_christmas.mp3. 
 
I am no expert. I have nothing 
to assert. Nothing happens. Nothing 
ends, no one has gone anywhere. So 
why the foreced uphill boulder-roll, to 
 
keep rewriting the readme's and 
online troubleshooting and help sections 
to keep smaller four legged 
or no legged vermin from 
 
drowning in all these 
artistic new technologies, 
previously untapped reserves of fluid 
pouring downhill into the lungs. 
 
Most desert lizards 
conceptualize the cinema, 
if they do, with a spurt of blood 
from the eyes, in slow motion. 
 
Recent findings suggest that those who 
grew up in an age in which the cinema 
was predominantly black and white 
dreamed predominantly in black and white. 
 
The cinema was such an overriding metaphor 
that it became impossible to close one's eyes 
in attempted memory of a disk of rotating metal 
covered in paint (once seen at an Art Museum) 
 
without the axis of rotation being moved 
involuntarily by the cinematically controlled mind 
to slightly off of center. In reality it hadn't 
moved eccentrically; the retrieval was bad. 
 
In a time when one man alone 
must take on a nation -- I pause 
when it's me who presses play -- 
how can it go on like this? 
 
The pectoral muscles are so densely packed 
that the veins bulge out under the tank top. 
The outliers are loud, cavernous, 
important, unique, and detailed, 
 
but on average, Cold 
War nostalgia builds in 
the minds and multiplex 
theaters of the public. 
 
Maybe the Soviets will build 
relentless Legos. Maybe they will pit 
East against West in a clash of ideologies 
to be solved manually, by button press, 
 
a toy of terrible people. This 
regardless of the work I put into learning 
advanced concepts about "the flow of cities" 
or thinking Paradise Lost is really good. 
 
Maybe the Soviets 
developed a special word 
we could never translate. 
Maybe the Japanese 
 
(if they had not been broken) 
could have gone on to create 
a national holiday: a day 
of peace, to be spent with one's family. 
 
It was a day filled with pride. 
I tried my best and 
got a "sound design" credit. 
The "silver screen" is a "miracle machine". 
 
I was out $500 
on a hot tip 
for a movie, 
the continuity lady 
 
from "Raising Arizona" 
whispered it to me, 
and I pursued it 
around half a dozen 
 
curves (11 curves, though) 
then gave up. It 
had a screenplay they 
started & stopped. 
 
They, or I suppose I, assembled a cast 
of bizarre-looking specialists 
based on toys I had as a kid. 
This is boring to you. 
 
They were going to make a monster parade movie. 
The coolness and deadliness of the 
room-temperature snake, vs. 
artificial heat-lamp runoff. 
 
All of this was definitely not allowed. 
They gave both turnips away. 
It was two turnips. 
Then they gave one turnip away. 
 
There was nothing about the turnip 
later that day. 
After soaring through the clouds he landed 
and he picked up the turnip. 
 
Putting down the turnip, he grabbed 
a pair of pliers, and applied them 
to the turnip, and turned up 
the turnip (its volume). 
 
I'm tired of always being the turnip. 
Based on his engineering, which he did, 
the turnip was powering half the city. 
He cast a shadow across the turnip 
 
up until which, the turnip 
ran a "straight eight" pattern through the defense. 
He had been using the turnip 
and he looked at the turnip. 
 
He put down the turnip, awestruck. 
"Is that it? Is that
the camera, he intoned," 
awestruck, "the camera 
 
through which 
has been passed, 
camel-through-needle-eye-like, 
so much history?? 
 
Your famous images 
have trounced many 
a eyeball 
worldwide! 
 
But can your photos compete 
with my SEM cross-section 
of the crabshell covering 
the back of your head?" 
 
Perhaps they couldn't. 
Every thing that one sees may be 
a thought that one's eye has, 
but only because that sight defeats 
 
competing sub-thoughts & tussling 
half-formed images lurking just below 
that surface, just under the 
inner skin of the refractory dewdrop, RIGHT? 
 
We huddled around the viewfinder; 
my consciousness redistributed itself 
among the seven pairs of eyes looking 
over my shoulder. 
 
Profusions of grazing birds 
and grazing mammals 
herded together 
de facto; 
 
Chemical spill networks 
given the daisy-chain treatment 
recommended by the relevant 
cleanup agencies; 
 
Hawksbill turtle shells 
in sharp relief against 
a blurry background 
of protesters; 
 
Drifts of golf tees 
higher than a man's head 
downwind of a string of 
destroyed factories; 
 
Microscopic ruptures 
in the peritoneum with 
what looked like a man-made 
ordering principle; 
 
Deafening clamor of stadium 
full of microwave ovens, 
doors open and interruptor 
switches disabled, 
 
stable plasma created in 
the air the center; 
I honestly couldn't remember ever 
taking photos so badly. 
 
The photos looked like a piece of gristle 
was lodged in the lens threads. 
He came and looked at them with me, 
placing a weightless hand on my shoulder. 
 
His body was a seer's, 
frail and pitiable, 
provoking dislike, draped 
in raisin-colored robes. He spake: 
 
"The anguish in your face findeth fountain
and source overflowing from the cracks
remaining from th'event, hard whatsoever
it were that sundered man and media thus,

that slipped a space, some air, between your finger
and shutter's trigger, camera's release;
but oft enough has damaged leg been splinted;
so shall your wound accept, bind with, your Coolpix.

O, may it be that all thou need'st to erase
or, erasement looming impracticable, then to ease
the separation 'twixt camera, aye, and thou,
be the thought, the blessed, Zen-sent thought,

that every thing that the camera's eye sees
is a thought had only by it. Why, here was a loon!" 
A regular looney-tune, this one! The master 
banished him: my eye thought of him being banished. 
 
"O cruel master,
what hideous monster,
what monstrous villain
shall I be presented with next;

who next shall hollow out my waking days;
who force the bilious upsurge, heaving strong,
of the night-terror's half-digested corpse
to wreak dread havoc from within?

Though first eaten in joy and delectation,
laughing with my companions, now
I feel from deep within its broken jaws,
gnawing away at me, its host!

O horrid meal! O wretched aristocrat
at whose table my spirit dines
to its detriment, whose fatal tablecloth
soils my soul, as I it, with the lip-wipings

of th' infernal meal thy parade of
gene-spliced horrors is to my eyes
and mind. Cursed be! And yet,
bring on the final abomination;

hasten the respite my soul so craves;
end this, my nightmare. So saying" 
I, waving and gesticulating to accentuate the stressed syllables, 
I noted no sign of emotion 
 
in the face of my captor, 
no sign of having heard me, 
for if he was not without ears, 
he heeded them not. He snapped his fingers. 
 
The reptilian curtain parted again 
and the bright light skinned 
my retinal image of 
the final specialist. 
 
He was Doctor Sarulian Lamplow, and 
his countenance was spread across the three 
flat-screen monitors now wheeled into my view, 
pulled behind a 1/3-scale robot ox. 
 
He resembled a bat, with unbelievable sensor-array ears 
that twitched, seeming to hear right through me. 
His eyes were empty volcanic glass. "I study the sound 
of trees filling their fruits with liquid. 
 
Outside the line, 
the rhyme 
is the inside 
skin of the lime. 
 
Inside the line 
it's too dark to read." 
Yes, I thought as the sounds slipped away, 
what I want to view the sound of is safe, still, from him: 
 
Madlib's new album submerged & surfaced 
like Baroque Variations by Lukas Foss: 
the past may be prologue; everything 
under the colon may be just sediment: 
 
Where'd 
that post-Appalachian stomp 
stomp off to, 
between stations? 
 
That third song 
almost 
makes my Asperger's 
act up. 
 
This feeling is going nowhere 
This feeling is literally going nowhere 
It gives you a sense of nowhereness 
It's a map on top of nowhere 
 
Maybe we ought to weight 
the average in favor 
of the American Southwest. 
Get along you little dogies, etc. 
 
Maybe what we hear internally as a song 
repeating itself over and over again 
just travels back in time from its end, 
skipping the final falls and starting over 
 
upstream of the narrow canyon 
to see the sun illuminating 
both uncomprehending walls simultaneously 
only moments per day once more. 
 
Maybe we got the lyrics wrong 
and 'we' was all alone 
with four looped measures 
on the internal earphone. 
 
We holed up 
a big diamond 
in the center 
of the sky. 
 
We spent the ether government's ether money. 
Anyway the big questions were expensive. 
We got all geared up 
to tackle a roughshod mindset. 
 
We ask all the big questions 
and get them mostly wrong 
which adds to our love of music, 
until we love it dearly. 
 
We groom ourselves. 
We cap massive 
groudswells 
ourselves. 
 
We who break our red 
flame, flame, very forked 
like double grass, we 
inspire ourselves, while 
 
after early morning 
we repeat ourselves 
while we tare 
ourselves, separately 
 
You're on your own, gab 
up to 
percent back. 
Pac-Man 
 
ugh. 
I guess the 
silo 
nah. But what circumstances 
 
What is 
hair to? 
Keep finger 
re-pulsed, so the 
 
itch balances. 
I finally saw 
the present never 
too sawtoothed. 
 
Regardless it 
doesn't matter that 
much; billboards 
here & there 
 
like a, oh Loard 
it's so lonesome down this dusty road. Do 
you ever hear 
those percussive 
 
salespersons' 
apron string 
whip game 
surrogates, 
 
I never heard 
of such a 
THING. 
Temptation 
 
Causes mis-reads, 
Extra toenails. 
Warped rubbery 
Gym equipment 
 
Dragged down 
To Hades 
Weather 
Pending. 
 
Summon 
Hand to withdraw from 
Alligator-mouthed 
Efreet 
 
High in 
Calcium 
Vitamin D 
Added 
 
Winning Slogan 
Rights Ship 
Says Wall Street. 
Everybody 
 
walking with their legs, 
dressed up in their little outfits, 
falling, falling, God 
or is this just a falling sensation. 
 
Hire me to 
gigglingly rig 
up with zip ties & 
some indifferent splices some 
 
non-narrative elements for the audience to figure out 
for itself. If anyone has ever ridden a rollercoaster 
through a tear gas cloud, it was not me. 
I was a famous rollercoaster designer. 
 
Hire me to program new imaginary coordinates, 
waypoints for the camera to swing through, 
because it's cinema as you've never seen it, 
every duel plays out in passing, 
 
and the wrong person 
still stood 
in the end, no smoke 
had to clear. 
 
Never fight fair. Some exemplary moment 
of enlightenment (true love, say, or the most recent Joker) 
in its entirety and in every particular 
is an affront, "pure performance," 
 
a challenge to prove 
its resolute hollowness 
wrong. But it not wrong; 
it what brain do. 
 
Cerebellum garrison 
empties in unison 
upwards along stare lines against 
umpteenth snowstorm. 
 
On the day of the first snow I'll be 
in the vacant lot at the corner of 
4th and Garrison in Winnemucca, Nevada 
with eleven other musicians. 
 
It's the hollowness 
that makes so much sound. 
The audio cortex demons are rattled, 
pantomiming fear by being shaken up. 
 
Just put your head down, 
all of you. Cymbals, bass drums, 
bagpipes, whistles, sirens, 
firecrackers, gongs. 
 
We stand in the weather, dissonances ray out 
without consequences. Your attention creates 
the sound your listening makes, the rattling 
must rattle the minds' little joys, 
 
the whole group of us, harsh noise 
to muffle the snowfall. There's this fear 
of feeling of attachment, & attendant fantasy 
of having thoughts only mediated through 
 
music forever, never mind hearing. 
Without it, madness descends, the 
variables part around your hand 
as you reach out to grab them, 
 
chopped up into consequent particulates 
or hung in larger taped-together 
axiomatic bundles from the yoke ends, 
carried & set down at intervals. 
 
Into this hand 
all the words left 
AND the right words 
into the other. (peerless enemyless counterpartless) 
 
Was it I 
the illusion of a choice? 
leg chain / allegiance 
but the illusion wasn't present. 
 
You teach the dog its own 
human language before you 
talk to it, you learn 
to give the trout water a read. 
 
Straight instructions sprout fat mushrooms 
on the forest surface; wild pigs rut. 
Electromagnetic force lines net 
big rhythmic storybook fish. 
 
Radio waves turn loose. 
Illness heals; UV light 
sterilizes. (!?) My body and its thoughts 
uncloak as galactic back-eddies. 
 
There was all this stuff 
I was going to tell you 
Johnny Cash was on the radio being 
pretty mediocre all things considered 
 
Thousands of people in the Gaza strip 
have lost their hearing due to 
recurrent fighter plane sonic booms. 
My imagination is a fraud, 
 
sandpaper sandpaper 
is brain on 
weariness or 
happiness or chorus. 
 
The unexpected became reality 
entering the fourth hour of 
Senate appropriation hearings, 
when the original Gary 
 
mentioned almost in passing that 
the ghost Gary 
said the other 
Gary had given cause 
 
to dip cadence w/ 
suspicious pause 
knee-joint deep 
in horse anger 
 
just because your dumb 
face calls Gary grab 
torquoise feather jig job 
on bob water 
 
trout cap if'n 
happen tepid bib dip 
bung. I so 
tire of your 
 
guitar band. 
I give two stars, 
and scold your butt-ass 
song structure year. 
 
The year creaks 
open to stop 
the gap, frond-heads 
spool idiotically, 
 
not to knock here in 
soon-to-be glowing fall 
spring's un-ethereal 
snowdrop 
 
or whatever, i.e. 
eggs over easy where 
ether = egg. 
The Ether Bunny, ugh. 
 
Basically I think the ether is tired. 
The ether is where the gods live 
who gave rise and birth to the outerspace spiders 
who in turn begat some spaceships. 
 
Isn't ether pretty indifferent? 
Can't you put your hand in it 
and lend it some 
abject structure? 
 
And way off in the ether to your left, 
mired in that calloused-over pudding 
that prehistory's measured pace so impresses us 
by having broken through the surface of, 
 
a concealed USB port 
is waiting to accept 
the sloughed off desires 
of failing to adapt: 
 
Persian inscription, 
B.C.E., gruesome 
warning: "Off with your 
head, Joanna Newsom" 
 
Dark Ages prototype 
Creak claw pigeon 
Body cavity gears 
Drop the jawbridge & 
 
Blood in a river 
in .swf format 
calling your visual 
cortex 'doormat' 
 
However intuitive, 
downloadable railroad 
gold spike teeth hide 
bite-profile payload 
 
In facial concealment 
a terrible truth: 
expressions preprogrammed 
to hide their own wrath 
 
Double-grin golem 
doggerel algorithm 
Squawkbox guffaw 
text-to-speech prism 
 
A cyborg/lutist 
superimposition 
DNA kink 
Learning-curve omission 
 
Sort by Modified 
Fold spindle & tabulate 
Data mine vulture 
Air-burial combobulate 
 
Boneheaded chromium 
robot embarrassment 
Essence is software 
and body embellishment 
 
Dignity hangs 
like a Congo computer 
Garden of Eden 
first-person shooter 
 
Flop your body 
like a dying bird 
Play Japanese music 
I've never heard 
 
Smash your guitar 
seems kind of dopey 
Arcade Fire 
hyptertropey 
 
built; ceremony 
balances; instructions 
One of three terms is missing 
Anyway who are you being 
 
by being the first last person 
to give "utterly" and "utterance" 
a close reading. My thoughts 
and yours shared tanginess and tangibility. 
 
Flavored 
bagpipe filters 
give grape 
notes life. 
 
It's an 8-minute meditation, opposing melody, dancing with it. (?) 
Memory gives melody life, melody gives memory time. 
It's a non-melody I have memorized and I can barely believe 
it's also the song "Hamburger Train" by the band Primus. 
 
Like 
hair, 
ear 
gives life. 
 
One of your 
crops 
has failed. 
A functionary is sent to survey the damage. 
 
One of your 
airline pilots 
has fallen asleep. 
Your imagination redirects. 
 
One of your 
guards 
has wandered away. 
What do you do? ><blink>_</blink> 
 
So you input the 
proper commands to send 
your character 
on his/her way, 
 
pausing in circular, rabbit-blessed 
fields, ipod full 
of Alvin Curran, 
Dwight Yoakam, 
 
you listen to 
both kinds. 
Nice songs are nice 
but not everything 
 
because music built outside 
of metrical and tonal whatever 
tells you what planet to be from. 
Centipedes are 
 
from the rings of saturn. 
Rabbits have come 
an intergalactic distance 
and their hearing is excellent. 
 
Music at 
its most distracting 
requires the strictest 
attention. 
 
Either you 
are in the center 
of the concentric rings, 
measuring thresholds of replying densities, 
 
or you have airplanes 
doing much the same 
on their flyovers, say 
over oil-well fires. 
 
The smoke blows 
the nerves 
into the pattern of a diagram. 
Many sentences can say the same thing. 
 
What does meteorology do? 
It is a stinkbug 
with shirt and tie aspirations. 
winds from the southwest at 25 mph 
 
nearly triple digits today 
hot and humid provoking 
visions of pink pinkwheels 
they accept energy, no they supply it! 
 
I'm supposed to know how it feels 
if the song is built to be cranked, 
turned by the handle again & again, 
I suppose I do know how that feels. 
 
A well-known performer sits at the piano, not playing. 
I'm always disappointed, and the story ends. I know 
how he feels. I listened to the music I claim I require most 
(fast, kind of euphoric) 18 times according to itunes. 
 
Pinched syntax sits 
layered per turned page 
of the anatomy textbook 
the knuckles wrap, 
 
because intact 
anatomy makes no 
three-dimensional 
sense. 
 
I've tried to hold you, the rabbits, 
to compensate you for the predation 
I hold up as though before my face. What feeling 
of mine is presupposed at seeing you snatched? 
 
Behind a veil of 
mountains, a green, touching 
climactic scene. 
I wonder where have you gone to? 
 
Thanks for sending the pictures 
It was nice to see you all again 
Your inner lives must be weird 
I went for a 10-mile run 
 
Domesticated rabbits 
Careful crawfish 
Timid titmice 
Drowsy caterpillars 
 
without knowing what the point of 
the seminar was, and seeing that 
over half of his power point presentation 
had been erased in the flood 
 
without subconscious memories 
locked in a bank vault that 
got carried over from a string 
of previous bunny lifetimes 
 
This time the bunny will be 
better, will be faster and 
smarter, this time the bunny 
will be everywhere. 
 
Hey bunny! It's a bunny 
Look at the bunny 
There's a bunny 
Look over there there's a little bunny 
 
Stay underground 
Stay underground stay underground 
Little rabbit little rabbit 
Stay underground 
 
From inside the hole 
the red spot on the weather map 
is only a loud sound 
with a lot of other sounds mixed in. 
 
Nine 
tenths 
of planning is 
execution. 
 
You play a noiseless ninja 
who slices people in half. 
Your speed and agility 
help him slice people in half. 
 
You play 
a level 20 
jackrabbit. 
Your speed 
 
is 55 and increases by 2 every level. 
With every 10 minutes of 
night's onset, you gain 
a +5% chance of invisibility. 
 
In addition, you get a +2 bonus to perception 
during the hours of dew condensation. 
Your speed and agility scale upwards exponentially 
as proximity to heard dangers decreases. 
 
You play as a kind of cat 
your ideas & kinaesthetic sense 
fit into. You didn't come up 
with any of it; is this okay? (y/n) 
 
You play as Roy Orbison 
in a game whose boundary detection 
channels sound away like runoff, 
hard kernel inner ear. 
 
Nothing is pressing 
in, nothing 
impinges, so the 
character you picked proceeds 
 
in a straight line, 
hydroplanes 
over a brick street 
made of pixels. 
 
The true thing I want most 
the music I most want to hear 
is blocked at the mouth 
because its number of connector pins 
 
doesn't match 
in the mirror 
when you make your warrior/cannibal face, 
it means increase 
 
the voltage, 
"The hole I show you
engulfs and jaw chomps" 
and out sound sprays. 
 
Was it pope 
or ape 
jaw open 
in the Bacon? 
 
Sight hinges 
below the board, 
joystick twirls it, the true 
gorilla mandible matching game I wrote. 
 
Instead of a genius baby 
I had 
animations of 
the ordinary ninja or the 
 
alien mummy with sonic knives, 
but some people like 
kind of a boring guy 
in a blue uniform. 
 
The baby drives a 
green robot suit 
that does 
wrestling moves. 
 
The boring guy's electricity attack 
is undesired because 
of the known bug 
it causes. 
 
You'll be unable 
to press right-right 
and run past 
the spike guards 
 
and pick up 
the sentient prosthetic 
flamethrower arm 
that last boss dropped. 
 
I was up 
until five 
waving a 
little 
 
ninja around 
at the end of 
a joy 
stick. 
 
Roundhouse Kicks! Linguistic torque! 
Unlock bonus phonemes! 
Earn extra points! 
Deal maximum destruction! 
 
Subordinate clauses chain 
& gain power multipliers 
when you play as Thomas DeQuincey e.g., 
dealing +25% damage against 
 
claustrophic notions of what a musical instrument can't be: 
mindset follows earpiece 
across absolutely any border, falls 
within. 
 
That beloved sentence formation 
comes to you in the middle of the night 
as a long lost power-up. This state... 
every enemy encounter expected... who 
 
aces videogames 
counts as visionary? 
The heart, the 
longed-for combo... 
 
I've been asked 
to compose loops 
of music for a 
Street Fighter style game. 
 
You put in your quarters, 
pick your character, and 
throughout the fight maintain 
detachment and academic curiosity. 
 
The stiff bow, 
the crisp liturgy of movement 
and pause 
as though creating and filling 
 
by rote 
slots for 
fancy metaphors 
(the small bones 
 
in the hand are 
like little worlds, something something). 
Rigid stances, 
chesslike. 
 
Still 
they're building 
something 
skeletal. 
 
"And finally tonight, one heroic lop-eared rabbit
corrects his owner's thousand-dollar accounting mistakes.
His name is Rumble, and he's a real 'money bunny.'" 
The News Center 5 Team breaks the story, 
 
a tower at the foot of my bed blasting 
information lasers of almost immeasurable sharpness 
back into the skull of the sleeping city 
in a painting I remember seeing. 
 
Who did it? 
Enough bad guys 
isn't 
interesting enough for 
 
the problem, 
music with a point 
pointy, 
here the music gets serious [about] 
 
recyclying one's own 
earlier musical material 
to mimic coming to 
the simultaneous revelation, 
 
eventually, of whose it was 
("when I'm falling asleep 
I hear music and music, 
I hear how they fit together"), whose nose in 
 
the surgical supply catalogs 
to get 
the right razor back 
but sharp means sharper. 
 
It was you with the amount of 
stretchy soft-surrealist autobiography 
in the styrofoam cup, spun 
by the Breton worm. 
 
Cut it up 
into segments, 
the way imagination is 
isn't that intimate. 
 
The sea cucumber's oxygen exchange organ 
is suitably shaped only for generating 
dreams, which bewilder him, 
until he dies and I'm cut off. 
 
One day 
I'll be too 
shamed to keep 
exaggerating. 
 
It began like 
fingernails 
being clipped 
and continued down the line. 
 
In a city 
I couldn't make out 
there was a reptilian man 
who leveled at my gaze 
 
an average and predictable bazooka-full 
of textbook manifesto tradition: 
it's unacceptable this, 
it's unacceptable that. 
 
The public opinion polls 
fall all around. 
The master sage uses 
his opponent's center of 
 
gravity against him. 
The great martial arts traditions 
come to the big screen 
in a time of great peril 
 
to save that 
which matters most 
from surging from within 
to infest the people. 
 
All the body parts 
break 
along partisan 
lines. 
 
The femur 
is a 
marrow 
stairway? 
 
"The soul is one voice
in the polyphony of" 
something illegible. 
The brain is a construction worker, 
 
pulling harder and harder myriad 
of course light-sized cords 
attached at the back of the eye to 
threaten to pull down 
 
a piled-high wall of pretty things. 
The iris exerts 
a calming, 
fixative force. 
 
The gut is the famous design 
of a team of BOSE engineers, 
to allow the sound to fall out. 
The elbow joint is a bow-marking 
 
The palm transmits the buzz 
of the clutched earphone. 
The fingers unfurl, fuse 
with part of the eyebrow. 
 
It only takes a moment 
It lasts 30 seconds or so 
Its events cover a time period of one week 
It is less than one pixel wide, 
 
as punctual as perforation and 
encapsulation in a cavity of the head, 
minus of course the extended duration 
this involution incorrectly implies. 
 
Sinuses 
spur the hyperextent 
of 
the gesundheit. An event 
 
built (though that verb might mislead) 
on cheap sampler button-presses didn't used 
to result in the news. Which is why 
you exactly never can have it back again. 
 
I fell asleep at 
Bruce Springsteen's 
concert / lecture tour 
The Well-Tempered Teleprompter: Intersubjectivity of Mainstream News Outlets 
 
Someone reads 
the news 
to the dreamer. 
I wake up to remember it. 
 
President and 
VP end 
charity evening by 
biting beaks. 
 
Every night for weeks 
it was headlines 
with homemade backing tracks 
pre-recorded? 
 
Colorful new 
species 
of Amazon parrot 
ripped from the headlines. 
 
CEO accused 
of remastering own 
voice in company-wide 
redistricting. 
 
Distant drum 
chorus in 
furor, 
dozens feared dead. 
 
400 petabytes of 
bird flu research 
lost annually due to 
bridge collapses. 
 
Cheerleader 
elected mayor in 
rural drag race 
gone awry. 
 
Kenny Chesney, 
de Chirico 
popular with troops: 
Petraeus. 
 
More teens 
pushing gas pedals 
with hands 
study finds. 
 
Congress approves 
sonic engine signatures 
on hand 
in annual report. 
 
Spam robots 
cause 
massive alligator die-off 
in arid email climates. 
 
Six minutes before waking me up, 
Bruce Springsteen smashed two 
flower-vases together over my head. 
Prone, I 
 
Am slow to know 
When immersed 
Or falling asleep 
The Two-part Inventions. 
 
That Edith Piaf "means something." 
That somebody's doctoral dissertation is 
some big philosophical ocean-liner engine-part 
hanging from a few moments of Kid Koala. 
 
That one phrase of all the copious 
Alvin Curran liner notes ("endless fascination with 
the interaction of tone and duration," something) 
would be cause for...? 
 
The great thinkers take stands against such a domino effect. 
Moments are for chumps, as Sartre said. 
Ze musique, she is bad, as Breton said. 
They took & unhid 
 
each source striation (tradition) 
non-separately, back and forth 
sung a ditty 
along, and walked 
 
over to this 
one separate player 
hidden, flat box 
and along the 
 
track over along 
the striation one of them 
separately did to 
this one hidden track 
 
This one 80-year-old 
mind 
composed most 
musical moments 
 
Barely or only intermittently hearing things 
is SAD because of the slapstick of it, 
lost up one end of the cochlear spiral 
& (hello?) the other end of a phone call 
 
Joke relighting candle, 
stuck in 
reverse, beeping 
like a truck, why why 
 
Why 
does a given sound 
come from what, when? 
It's a dumb problem 
 
Me (particle) standing in the projected tornado path, 
a time-shaped cone tipped over onto the map, 
in response to having trimmed (but why?) my instincts back 
to this single man's idea of 
 
creation and innovation being two competing frequencies. 
He used the example of those 
youtube videos of old 78s playing, 
one long take, indifferent sound, 
 
handheld camera. 
He doesn't mind terribly 
such a clean uncoiling 
but would 
 
rather each misery bone bag 
bleeds into the one 
standing next. Clustered affinities 
waiting to cross the street. 
 
I sat down with him 
on a Saturday 
to sort all 
this through. 
 
It's not the craft of songwriting/composition or "deft melodicism," 
but his aforementioned "Experience Crumple-Zone Theory" 
under which for example "labyrinth" is interchangeable with 
microcosm, or as he'd specify: "Now then that specific passage 
 
was now passageway now passage 
I'll tell of all the heartbreak I've seen 
Lord raise me up, Oh Lordy Lord 
come raise up me, redeem me, 
 
Give Me An Art Idea: a stake in an arid plateau far away, 
a swiveling head on top of it, 
whatever gears to make its nods extra-intricate, 
then put a video of it on the internet over someone else's music 
 
The aural (and other) memes, even in a single-author document or song, 
spread, certainly, across a community, as we know, and 
must also have come from somewhere, through an implacable narrowing-down to the 
point of emergence. But try tracing a path backwards up the funnel cloud. 
 
It makes my arms elongate 
& jungle spines grow down the back of my neck, 
& my nostrils the size of coin purses. 
That's redeeming value?" Why that, specifically? I mean, 
 
He's one of the world's most underrated songwriters; 
I stole everything I know from him and carried it off 
in my mouth like a panther cub and studied it. Why 
cosmic explosion yields someday dark digestive pathways, eg? 
 
Hidden there far enough away from everything else 
An energy baffle made of condensed, twisted up energy 
The size of the whole underside of an island 
Draws over its own passageway map constantly but 
 
It's not all going anywhere now that it's finished 
You can't get into it and you can't get out 
But the creature standing on the X in the center 
Is vibration clumped around two main frequencies 
 
Oh well hey 
Feed a real minotaur 
a bucket of turnips, only $20 
I have that much 
 
So where are you in the center of, now? 
Someone will datamine the geospatial coordinates 
and drop a hypercompetent corporate pop album on them 
and milk'll pour out like a swirl of notes 
 
Hot cream poured 
into the molds so 
the resulting per-person in-ear stage monitor 
lactates 
 
A thick swirl of notes trapped in the strata 
offers rich information about the where & when, 
a set of distribution data of trees and timber 
in the ancient world. A fanatical redrawing of boundaries 
 
A swirl of notes definitely doesn't make sense 
Some would have to end before they started 
But okay, let it all in, let it clump or not 
A typical vortex either buttonholes your friends unkindly or 
 
Gives them access to all the accumulated information 
Outer space scrapes itself 
But from here it's easy, looking up and 
Offering foolishisms & wishes, 
 
Depending on how exposed we feel, to the sky above us 
Empty or full. Turn the human knowledge banks loose, 
I said, give the people the information they need 
la gente, o povo filtered through microscope glass 
 
Blurry jpegs of pollen magnified 100x 
I think ideas & words don't clump together like that 
To find out, stay tuned for our next episode 
Violence Is Never The Anther 
 
or, I Think I'm Pollen In Love With You 
violent little bursts or 
ideological nodes of interest to 
an explosion of identical visual art 
 
Who can be the best copyist? 
And who is the crappiest? Find a zoom level 
thinking happens at and draw 60,000 little territories there 
And then the wind changes so start doing something else 
 
Music unplays back, coiled up in the warm part of the chest 
where no organs are, Ravel's Sonatine and 
Super Rad! by the Aquabats unfortunately is fun 
and everyone in history changes 200 years ago all at once 
 
I could kick some music in the stomach! 
Everyone's consciousness before the change 
200 years ago was seated in the center 
of the chest, then wham 
 
but I don't know what to call it that 
much is absolutely the case. 
Outwardly, and with daily things and 
holding still & pretendly enjoying play profundities. 
 
Into the cold half-light 
The duke's gray stag popped 
With antler-ideas stolen from, bristling 
With security cameras and insect microphones 
 
((Movie Music)) so we'll hold still for a while 
you who I love and 
let the sound effects get 
laced in up to and 
 
until the flashes of laser guns and the holding of 
hands becomes part of the musical composition, 
until there will be no named theories for 
what happens audibly alone or in groups and 
 
this money is worthless! out of circulation music 
highly derivative, music based on star charts 
dog thrashing a stuffed buffalo, dog-toy music 
clink clink, silverware music 
 
I could do this all day 
I can't get over how empty it is (could be -- 
How would I know? And 
why the irrational worry over it? 
 
What do I care? I don't even "work here"...) 
squeaky clean cabbage leaves, soup music soup 
buckle music, will buckle music, will have buckled music 
music that violates copyright, Cheers theme fugue, yawn. 
 
space dust fluttering down, a music of dust 
merry-go-round, a remusicalization of the calliope 
hinge-point/knuckle, right angle music 
crawl across the floor shots fired, PTSD music 
 
"We reject any work
which does not piercingly
strike molten and inhumane
depths, which skitters around on the surface." 
 
All those manifestoes and everything 
It's hard taking that stuff seriously etc. 
New Common Practice/"Totalist Composition" or just 
walking around with epidermis microphonacea 
 
than which was then thin 
king fish slip thin mem 
brane through/of water 
ruin desert vice versa 
 
BOBAGEM | MEGABOB 
"Infidels trot in the meadow
Genociders trample a tree
Throw the fish back in the ocean

They ain't what they used to be
Rising, snapping the rafters
Then sweeping back out to sea
People I've seen while dreaming

Ain't what they used to be" 
A darkened door 
led into a long dark hallway 
at gunpoint 
 
In those days the opening of every new option 
led deeper into all the others. Which is why 
notebook crazy intuition always, long-distance 
running bank robbery dreams. Nowadays, 
 
I set the ipod to repeat "When Big 
Joan Sets Up" and snap my fingers along 
like I'm trying to change the music 
from wooden boy to real boy, 
 
to ripple liquid & let 
smooth over 
energy in energy out 
Snap Snap. Snap Snap 
 
When Big Joan Sets Up 
forever forever 
The harder you snap your fingers on the 2 and 4 
to draw it forcefully out into the external 
 
like perpetual leech through pinhole 
pinhole through paper over 
whole big real never 
deal other anything. 
 
The trills and other ornaments (Bach, Feist, JZ et al) 
are so unacceptable one must force oneself to redirect 
one's attention to them, evidence of liberating energy 
stored to draw blood from the leech. 
 
Nebula not built 
to refocus red 
energy out but in, 
it vanishes in a sense. 
 
There is void lacks sense. 
There is only vibration, and matter through which it moves 
Which is why the music can be so fleeting. "Haunting" 
The ripple effect outwards from inside quotes, counterflow 
 
In a river mouth city 
Speech is a mouth 
Beware, the dieback is set to begin 
in a river mouth city 
 
Rigor mortis spreads up river 
but at some point jumps the tracks 
You must get your moisture directly from the clouds 
and keep yourself directly facing the sun 
 
This Bud's for you ha ha 
I look at everything as a problem 
but: with unflagging optimism: 
No flaggings allowed! 
 
No negative thoughts allowed either ha ha. 
I'm going to solve this country's problems 
by talking through the music I think 
I most want to be listening to (goddammit) but: 
 
The average shark 
never stops with territory. 
First there is one shark, 
then two, then four; 
 
they refuse to recognize you. 
And maybe you've had it with veneration. 
All that's left now is, mark out 
a little territory somewhere farther away. 
 
More of 
tacit fake mind gait 
jostled by distant thud bombings 
into view, mollusk mantle underwear 
 
Out on the low arctic tundra of Greenland 
Fortifications straight out of Robinson Crusoe 
Sharp stakes set in a circle 
Where nothing will grow 
 
Flags planted on the arid plateaus of New Mexico; 
flags left in the Bolivian high pampas. 
Mongolian dune slowly reabsorbing 
its sandcastle crown. 
 
The wind whistles over the rocks 
and among the grasses of the Alpine steppes. 
There is no J.S. Bach to a bunny. 
I could learn to be a bunny. 
 
You, rabbit, your live body wire 
supplies input 
for a dream of outrunning 
dream ability 
 
Sunlight directed 
like whisper 
through 
a rabbit's supernatural translucent ear 
 
If only there was someone of conscience around 
to remind me to think of what each instance of 
incremental, detail-oriented attention 
might have to do where it's all heading. 
 
I expect again today I might not really hear what I 
most want to hear. The Japanese can hear Roy Orbison. 
A raccoon took the lid off a container of thrown-away apricots. 
A buffalo didn't want to eat a mouse that was near his face. 
 
A pet iguana was given a special treat of 
apples mixed with leftover cilantro leaves. 
A crab was pecked to bits and when we found his shell 
the top part of it was upside-down and full of sand. 
 
An osprey tore the guts and ripe red meat 
from a fish that was still slightly moving. 
The Magnetic Fields is an okay band, 
if you like music to get bored to. 
 
A soft-looking caterpillar ate 
part of a daisy-type flower, 
approximately half of it, then 
got distracted and wandered the other direction 
 
A dormouse who lives in a coconut 
wasn't fat enough to hibernate so 
they fed him ivy pollen and blueberries, 
I saw it somewhere 
 
A cluster of extinctions, pollution 
Poisoned rivers. There is a number of 
millions of new acres of desert 
created every year. 
 
This was ten years ago. The situation 
in Africa already impossible. I have a wall 
of books. Marcel Duchamp vs. Philip Guston. 
In either case you're memorizing intervals without trying. 
 
The clouds race past, overhead 
But it's only apparent movement 
Red and white twisting around a candy cane 
The environment: global climate change, 
 
Much louder, and much slower in both ears 
all of a sudden. Keep track of things 
coming up. Don't let yourself 
get overwhelmed. 
 
Make a list of the numbers and kinds of music you want to hear 
Switch the terms around, "dappled" surface, your "life's work" 
I just want to eat some nice green leaves 
and go to sleep for a long, long time. 
 
Some kinds of music are dead; some ideas are dead. 
Things are going to get much, much worse in coming decades. 
One week from today, J.S. Bach for thirty minutes a day 
caused enhanced growth and recovery in plants and people. 
 
Give me a slow beat (~1/4=56) and I'll spill out 
spitfire thirtysecond-notes. Armchair revolutionary 
weighs in on moment states and directionality in Bach 
and skull suture movement ("give") in human adults. 
 
Lucretius has it that the universe must consist of 
atoms and void: matter, and space through which it moves. 
He's not even the one who thought of it originally. 
The matter/void admixture results in sunflowers blowing in the breeze: 
 
not "to be happy," or even to witness only happy occurrences, 
but to free the cold external from regrets and loneliness. 
This should be easier than it is. Why? 
But I am in no way shielded from the tedium of other people's art. 
 
Any thing but to be tame permanently, 
which includes everybody's "first facts" and 
what we're here for, where it's going -- I don't know you, 
a sunflower never meets another sunflower down there 
 
From the air, it's a wide yellow field, the financial markets 
were jittery today, made pockets and the plane buckt 
(It's the Sunflower State, for hundreds of miles 
it's nothing but sunflowers and intersections 
 
The piece was built on a looping structure 
The police was built on a looping sunflower 
You alone, you are the little wire 
Alone you form the little wire sculpture 
 
Were we hearing the same thing? Sunflower, sunflower, 
sunflower sunflower sunflower) (You've backed me 
into a corner here -- ) I drew you a conceptual picture 
about the concert we were at, and I want you to see it. 
 
It's a field, constructed of the correspondence 
(by inversion of appearance, and by mutual movement) 
between sunflower and sun: a conical, 
highly charged region of interest. 
 
Stories of large fields of sunflowers 
turning their heads in unison 
to listen to the sound of the sun 
fail to consider whether it is behavior or not. 
 
Imagine you're the sunflower but you don't know it. 
The sun rises and you writhe heedlessly, arbitrarily 
pointing your receptors; the sun sets and you're exhausted... 
the unfamiliar music you hear, maybe try to follow, at that point... 
 
How miraculous that sonic after-image (or why not, before-image) is! 
(Because honestly it can slip into something you've 
listened to a million times and back out again. 
...Back out, into what? And before you know it you're asleep.) 
 
My opinion is that you need to listen as hard as you can, 
every time, without ever stopping, which makes you 
exhausted, but as tired as you are you have to work 
to keep it from resolving into a recording you know well. 
 
I figure out what's the crucial aspect 
and make a whole extended silence out of it. 
Then suddenly I find we're holding on, to each other, 
& I'm glad you're here, listen to this. 
 
It starts out with Bach and moves into different territory. 
What does the concept of Auto-Save have to do with Bach? 
A Bach French Suite and then some Lightning Bolt. 
The music of The Shins lacks all imagination, like white mold. 
 
No, like Wittgenstein, I'd rather stop listening when I choose. 
It wouldn't sound like anything if you weren't here 
to hear it with me. "Get cleaner, whiter teeth with" 
Take advantage of every opportunity to really listen. 
 
Just hear, hear, the motivic specificity here: 
Get cleaner, whiter teeth with 
Get cleaner, whiter teeth with 
Slow down, and hear, each one of the sounds. 
 
It's not numerology, or Zen, this Alone, as though with 
headphones, writing down. It's not anything 
even though the motif has 5 notes in sequence 
so I thought I would invite 4 other people 
 
It was a nice lunch. 5 is the perfect size for a table of people. 
The pleasure of hearing a new opinion from someone I'm 
beginning to know...as we leave, we all head in different directions... 
two halves of a shell close around me and how thoroughly can it be notated? 
 
That it's perfectly audible, that snap closure mechanism 
As you leave them and are alone, or the music starts and you're alone, 
That you hear the notation as well as what you hear 
Within a span of several seconds, isn't that good? 
 
But, none of it's as good as it's supposed to be; 
none of it lives up to the potential of the medium. 
Ad infinitum they try for the biggest chain reaction they can get 
but fail through lack of commitment or overattention to 
 
Matters of craft: pitting 4-measure cycles against 6- and 
10-measure cycles, overlapping them, each stepping 
into each other's space a little too soon. To speed them up, 
vary them, shift the surface only, hollow, to mystify, would be pointless. 
 
It doesn't make sense to feel both responsible 
for the spiritual and material conditions 
the human world lives in and through every day 
and simultaneously disconnected from that world, 
 
but what other formulation of loneliness finds 
such refuge in sound, made sound, intentional sound? 
Expose the perfected fallacy inherent here. Attention to resonance 
is resonance (connection and hard work as well), or, buoying 
 
the listener's consciousness on itself, the sound level rises 
and spills over the edge, the first big edge, but into what? 
It's not much of a drop, really, and once you make it 
you find level footing, & a kind of basic horizon. But, you think, 
 
Safe from the flimsy protections of "the industry"? And 
at the same time wondering "is what I have in mind a good approximation 
of where this is heading? Or is it just shifting surface, 
Steve Reich, Busta Rhymes, Lucretius, 'art screams' like the guy said, etc etc" 
 
It's been hounding me for months, that one set 
of sounds, occurring when and where it occurred, half 
it seems by accident -- how time opened up and 
accepted it -- an evening of music, that was all it was. 
 
I have this ambition, which I woke up with this morning, 
to figure out the problems presented by the performance, 
in spite of also waking up this morning feeling like 
a number of knots had come untied while I slept. 
 
The people that say the most difficult things to me 
about form (musical form, don't let yourself be confused 
or if confused don't mistake it for a made sound) 
are generous with ideas I may never really deal with -- 
 
not "music is x, y, and z," but "x, y, and z, though unrelated, 
are musical" -- a horde of crabs in my likeness, 
with pinchers right where my arms would be, 
scuttling everywhere in search of another way of reframing the music, 
 
just scrabbling around across a surface of coordinates 
without really cutting too far into that 
hard, heavy sphere left by the ancestors. Is it 
of value, the sphere, or a problem too perfect to "get"? The music's 
 
Wealthy, maybe, but known to have lost some former mastery. 
I was so much wiser before; I could form opinions 
quickly and easily, whereas now it's a long process 
which usually ends in further loneliness & prohibition. 
 
It would be easiest to copy down previous thoughts; 
that is to say, how circular is listening? And to what? 
Whether it's call/response music, drone, noise, or 
just in a digital format you can listen to over and over? 
 
A metaphor is useful here; the insistence of the music 
softens the hard shell of time and preoccupation -- 
before very long, the listener is able to slip out of her shell 
like a molting crab, briefly unprotected but at least not confined. 
 
After the opening of the piece, which is chaotic, 
a set of rules seems to take over 
and the accompanying comfortable rhythms too -- 
like "software libraries," i.e., givens, fit for use. 
 
Imagine your expression as you dimly wonder 
what all this musical back and forth has to do 
with politics... then you think, as I do, that it must be 
something to do with people's actual lives... but whose? Etc. 
 
And there are long periods of seeming inactivity, 
in which, through repetition, the notes might seem to be about 
to crust over with callouses, but the opposite is true, until 
time begins to return, to re-encase the body, causing constriction, low blood flow. 
 
You can feel it when the music's about to end. 
How can that be the case? 
Then it ends and you sit there keenly 
aware of all the knuckles in your hands. 
 
To play it with true sanity, sobriety, 
that would be something remarkable. 
But when applause comes to an end, 
it's as though it has never been. 
 
There are advance warnings, of course, smaller 
outlying disturbances 
And then the big vibrations really begin to hit 
VIBRATIONS... known, yes, before the climax arrives. 
 
Which is why it would be embarrassing 
if one's quest for achievement, or 
adrenaline if you prefer, ended up 
at kind of a middle-brow, empty-grocery-store place. 
 
Your world is so perfect to me in its loneliness. 
I hear the hisses & pops, the whistles, the crumple-ups, 
I press myself against the pane, to hear them. Not 
the kind to organize it, though-- you got started too late 
 
Their claim is it's easiest to achieve a plateau 
by citing Balinese music as an example. 
It's easy to cite Balinese music as an example 
and we must not always do the easiest thing. 
 
I haven't kept up with what's going on in their world. 
Of course they are the hope for our future -- Like Orwell said 
about the proletariat? Ebert gives the world only 100 years 
I've been listening to a lot of Jay-Z lately 
 
I haven't listened to it yet but I expect it to be good. 
They had lots of good things to say about it on NPR. 
You know what that usually means. 
I was at the DMV for 2 hours today...2 hours.... 
 
Taken one moment at a time, in celebration 
of a... I don't know what it was, exactly. 
An arctic wind blows in & lifts you 
halfway off the foundation, and is gone... 
 
I've been here before....I've seen 
that particular tree before. 
It may have been from the other side 
or in another particular kind of light 
 
What have you been listening to lately? 
I thought there were seagulls swirling as 
I came down off the Williamsburg bridge 
You can't get people always down off the bridges 
 
So that they turned to war as a way to bring 
a more efficient musical production into their lives. 
I have seen the videos 
of 500 lb bombs, of them waiting for the arrival 
 
What is there to say about the flow of meaning 
in and through the music? Is it a movement of 
connection? Do they still call to you 
Do they name you 
 
But the music is always renewing itself; 
it captures and channels the intensity of its instruments, 
of the social conditions it was made in. 
Music is the real story of the human race. 
 
Prove as fallacious any necessary connection 
between musical form and anything whatsoever, 
as in such sentences as 
You like all the songs. You like them 
 
Prove as fallacy the "musical equivalent" of: 
#NAME? 
#NAME? 
#NAME? 
 
Accumulations of sediment, plastic 
carbon, round-wound strings snapped, 
clamor, best practices, etc. What's 
at stake here in what I'm listening to; 
 
in order to keep it from all evaporating 
it must be pressurized from the outside, eyesight 
curves through the added atmospheres 
warping even the most eventual result. 
 
The musical weirdness (...?) must be put in the service of something-- 
keep in mind it's all pop music -- 
So we vacillate (as listeners, or until listening) between a 
rote humanism and a rote anti-humanism 
 
The foment of the decrepit 
Calcarious pre-remnant fissure issue 
Come on by and reassure me about the issues 
Heave Train Cream Reave Crave 
 
Me tried to tell me me knew where me was all going 
Sadie called up, then, put the phone down 
The other phone, (@#$!*) 
It's important to eat broccoli, for broccolic acid 
 
Today was a good day. I spent money 
I clipped my fingernails. 
I worked out a systematic analysis of 
the semiotics of games on film (sub-films) 
 
The small man (I mean the smallest of the three) 
had never learned to whistle 
arm hair, goat meat 
ten hands braided on film 
 
The unusual, steady rate of their appearance 
as of the changing of the guard 
they slept in several low, round structures 
and disappeared in the morning 
 
Press state cancel renew homonym 
dripp 
Steady drip you come out 
out of it. GRRRRRRRRRRR 
 
Run and photogravure 
Rest hotly debated side of the road commercialism 
Commerce number crunch 
Oh baby come here come give me a hug 
 
Three adjectives tied together 
Three adjectives tied together permanently 
It was an awful day today 
I don't know how solve problem stop communicating 
 
To view the superhero figure in isolation 
or to bring the figurine in for a perfect landing 
or to bring it all in under budget. 
They motion you together, for a snapshot 
 
It was a day filled with pride. 
I leaned back in my chair 
and supported my head in an unnatural way. 
There were gouges all across the ceiling.